i guess..
i guess i have to just hold in my feelings and tell everyone that im okay.. smile and hope for the best. and take it day by day.. it will be okay they say.. but they dont know how much the stuff inside of me is killing me..ill wish and hope for it to all go away, of course it wont but i can still hope right? thats the best i can do. how come i dont listen to myself when i say-make urself happy 1st insted of everyone else? bc im fuckin stupid.. its all a dream and a wish again.. to be there.. ill imagine it all.. it will be great.. everythings in place u and me standing there.. itll all be so perfect.. as long as i dont wake up.. grr i dont understand... why cant it just work.. why the fuck cant it..
----->fuck it. <-----

umm.
i cant take it anymore every 1 thinks im indestructable the girl who never flinches the grl who always has a smile on her face the grl whos gone through nothing, the girl who has no scars and im tired of it i dont want to live behind a wall of laughter and smiles anymore i want people to understand me i want people to understand how hard it is to be me and to have to deal with all of this shit and still be expected to be happy its not fair why can everyone else just fall apart but i have 2 keep it 2gether?

this week hasnt been the best.. but what can i do.. nothing.. well.. hmm not really much i wana say about it.. but.. ashley left today....this is guna be a really hard 3 weeks.. what can i do? Nothing..idk man.. everythings really messed up right now.. and i dont feel like sayin it. so im out xo

:(
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
and its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
in saying things we never meant to say

And I Take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space in between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I Give you just a little time
I, Wonder if you realize
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper and I'm,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright

I've been drinving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

hmphm


it only hurts when im [breathing]
my [heart]only [breaks] when its beating
my [dreams] only die when im [dreaming]
so I [hold] my breath to [forget..]