its a knee slapper of a night...
play was awesome.. i wana be shelby.. god.. i wish.. melinda did such a good job..

Erick went ..

Justin was there... interesting to say the least..

well 1st off.. me nd ash wake up, bc david is calling us.. to tell us hes coming over.. to drop off my sweater.. we both arent awake enough for this but i say okay.

he gets here, and its all akward. not for me.. ya know.. then my mom comes out and says that we are going shoppin, i tell her i need to pick up my pills, she says okay.. we get dressed and leave.. we went to payless and i got these fuckin p.i.m.p.a.s.s. sandals that.. are velvety.. so baller*anyways then we go to Pph.. i thought okay ya know ill only be in here for a sec. we were there for an hour, and the guy to took me in was hitting on me! how fuckin gross.. ick. anyways, so then my mom is @ target and cant come rite that second. so me and ashley sit there for another 20 mins and get honked @ by everyone imaginable.. how gross, to say the least. anyway and then we go and eat nd came home, i took a shower, shaved, blowdryed my hair, got dressed and left. we get there and we go and watch the ply, god it was awesome. i love theater.. more then life itself i believe. newhoo- and erick takes us home, justin wanted to come over, thats not happening.. oh well. ash just put curlers in my hair, im lookin Cool!! hell yeah. well tonight is a barrel of fun waitin to happen. babysitting. my brother.. cheys @ a friends. therefore, friends are likely to 'showup' as i tell my mom. ha. anyways, i guess we'll see what happens. anyways, ima go, xoxo later guys

hanging out with an old friend..
hey there guys. im so tired. ill explain lata in this.. okay well back to like wed.. i went to church with Erika and met Justin. hm.. good night :o) neways, i talked to him later that night.. i dont remember thrusday, or friday cept when i saw Jeremy-i hate him- and i called Justin in lunch bc they were leaving when Erika got home. Little did I know that was the last time i was guna talk to him.. ash came back ealrier then expected on sunday so we went nd saw her, erika had told me that Justin was staying.. later @ ashs house, Erick came over and me nd him went to Alexs house and hung out with her. then I came home, i went to sleep. the next morning Erika tells me Justins not comin back..... okay- my boyfriend isnt comin back.. how lovley. ((im pissed)) and then monday doesnt really get any better.. Eric thinks things of me that arent true-again.. so i fixed that.. so i get home, and i go to sleep bc im not in a good mood. I wake up cryin, my dream was about Justin leaving.. go figure. i get online and im ranting and raving and i tlaked to a few ppl to try and calm me down. then Erick and i are guna go to Erikas house, and Eric!!!! IMs me! im like nooooooooooo , that would normally be sweet, but earlier in the day i like forfeited against wanting ppl and tryin to pursue them, therefore, guys i like/ed talkin to me arent good- i like Eric. go fuckin figure right? anyways, he Ims me, so i talk to him until im ready to leave, and i go and come abck and eat and bs around and try to fall asleep.. around.. 1130? then around i guess 12/1230, LEE!! calls me- i havent talked to him in a week. i swear its all a conspiracy and they all hate me. But i missed talkin to Lee. and Erics awesome. but im guna get hurt. im hurt from Justin? How i have no idea.guuhhhh idk what to do, im tired-oh! so alex comes in a wakes me up-she got her licsence. how cute! i love her. Im pretty happy cept for the fact im tired, and Lee isnt Imin me back, Erics not on, and I miss Justin.. lifes a bitch then i die.

i'll live..promise...

fuck me man
why is life so fuckin depressing?


...Behind every just kiddingthere is a .. truth...

mor
mor, i love you so much..

...Their in heaven becoming best friends.. watching over us...

Jeremy..
i was walking across the street with david. minding my own business. david wanted to go to toojays. i look up. there he is driving his red ranger.. with a white shirt and hat. i start crying .. and shaking.. i dont want him back.. i promise. i cant walk. david is freaking out. idk what to do. ive been depressed alll fuckin day. why? I have no idea why. im ..confused.. blah.

Just because i dont want him back.. doesnt mean i dont miss.....him more then.. anything...