haha
Sometimes.. you heart cant afford to be..
...just friends...

*~ god made me small so i could fit perfectly in ur arms!~*

something happens when you look at me I forget to speak.
Sumthing happens wen u kiss my mouth my knees get so weak.
Culd it be true this is wut God has meant 4 me cause baby
I can't believe that something like you could happen to me


i`ve heard that speEch a miLLion times before
`y0u kan d0 better - y0u deserve m0re`
i got myseLf sick over it cuz i kn0 that its tru
but i dont want better >> i juss want you [<3]




looking back on the first day i met you
aLL i kan remember is being. . .
- b r e a t h l e s s -


take every chance you get
cuz some things reaLLi do onLi happen
* (( Once )) <33

its impossible to find a guy that'll never hurt you
so go for the ones who make the pain [worth it aLL]


its not about the ones who act tru to your face
its about the ones who remain tru behind your back
[ tru few . . .*iLu ]


«i WaNnA b ThE 0nE hEs AlWaYs HuGgiN N' KiSsiN
aNd WhEn i AiNt Ar0uNd, ThE 0nE hE's MiSsin *«

just smile its better then explaining wats wrong

its funny wen yu think yu actually meant something
to someone and then they turn around n prove yu
..wrong..

i dOnt walk arOund trying tO be what im nOt
i dOnt waste my time trying tO get what i gOt
i wOrk at pleasing me...nOt satisfying yOu
thats why i dO exactly what i wanna dO

lala
Hey hey there! gosh, my boobs hurt so fuckin much being on this damn birth control and my pd blows me.. hard. I swear..guh.

Anyways.. Ashleys comin over tonight
..i think..
i hope.
tomorrows my brothers birthday.. and angels.
then on sundays its Erikas. How neat
I really love that girl.. hmm..
Im so afraid daves guna stop tlakin to me.. ya know why? bc hes another Jeremy to me.. I swear to fuckin god, that fuckin kid messed up my life so fuckin bad. I wish that i never met him sumtimes.. only sumtimes tho. bc i still love him.. sadly..just shoot me okay? fuck me

poo..
Hey, well I feel like poo! Last night Josh and I broke up.. Offically.. ugh, that was soo hard. By the end he tells me he will 'prolli not' want to ever talk to me or see me again? how the hell? i have no idea.And me and Dave sorta went at it last night.. Guh.. I dont know man.. Im afraid that since me and Josh are done Daves not guna wana hang out with me anymroe.. i hate my life right now! Oh and I started my pd today.. so im cranky

Life.. in general!
hey guys! well if u read ashs journal it explains our weekend! but thats beside the point.. I brokeup with Josh last night.. :-\ but I feell sooooo friggin bad but as i tell like EVERYONE! i need to make myself happy before pleasing everyone else, and i realized that with Josh I wasnt happy. hes really quiet and truthfully not my type, not me..Anyways.. Im not really sure where thatwas leading, but on to my next thing..Ashley!
Ahhh where to begin! I met her last year and we ewre reallly close last year then like we go into a fight so we pretty much stopped talkin, and Ive helped her thru so many things and shes helped me thru more then life lol and i love her so freakin much. god i really do. im so glad that shes not moving, i dont know what i would do without her, we've gotten really close again nd im so happy with that bc shes so awesome! and now i can so tell that shes guna be with me alot and I hope that we will become as close as we were bc i miss that. she was the one i could ALWAYS no matter what!! run to and talk to and she wouldnt judge me on any of it and she knows she can do that with me.. i knew i could go cryin to her even tho i didnt talk to her in a few mths, and she knew she could do it to. I now realize that u dont realize what u lost, and I lost her at a point, and most ppl dont get it back, i did, and im so happy I love her so much and she deserves everything in the world!! Ash, I love you!