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2004 22 January :: 6.58 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: gc- young and hopeless
the past few days...
hey hey! long time no write! ive been tryin but it wouldnt let me! i shwear! lol okay well lets start!
Im not with *J* anymore.. i broke that off on..tuesday? yeah i think so.. but later that night Josh asked me out!! yay!!!! ugh this kid is sooo friggin awesome! i <3 him alot! I think Im guna go see him on either Friday night or Saturday, im not sure yet, either way im guna see him! im so friggin happy about that bc Joey stole him from me on Monday night.. OH!!! i went and saw peter pan that night! i fuckin love that movie, wow it was GREAT!! ::I do!!! believe in faries!!!:: that kid is so freakin cute!, he reminds me of my friend peter! (heh what a name!lmao) and also on monday, was HANNAHS BDAY! yay for hannah!! woop woop! ANYWAYS! uh... back on to tuesday, i hung out with krystal that day which was fun even tho we bullshitted around, but i miss her alot so all the time i spend with her i have to soak up bc shes either with dave or working, and now shes starting school..grrr what is a girl to do? anyway.. um..oh! that day i also went and saw joey, god i miss bein so close to that kid.. hes so awesome.. i wish he would let me get closer to him.. doubtful :'(
OKay! now yesterday, it wasnt a bad day but not like a great day either.. just.. a day! lol anyways. well that is until my mom came home.. and we got into this huge fight and she told me she hated me and i said i was leaving.. and i walked out... god that one sucked.. i was really freaked out.. i went to brandons house.. but he wasnt home, then i went to coreys house, poor cor, i havent seen him in like 6 mths then all of a sudden i show up on his doorstep crying.. to bad it wasnt raining, would have been a better entrance lol, anyway, so i came in and i talked to him for a lil while, and i called *J* and told him what was going on then i called my baby! and i told him and i told him that if he didnt wanahear or deal with that then he should just break up with me then.. but he didnt.. he said hes guna stay and help me and that hes a good listener :o) he makes me so happy, hes like all i can think about in school, i like cant concentrate.. idk if thats good or bad.. blah! u tell me! but yeah! i *heart* him alot..
Oh! the reason my mood is 'amused'! okay, today my friend Caitlin tells me that sumone and sumone else were talkin about me and *J* and how we broke up.. and the 1st sumone(we'll call her 1) ..so one goes to 2, ' oh so that means hes free? and 2 responds, yeah i think so.. omfg, if 1 goes for *J* sumones guna DIE! and i can gunratee u that! anyways, thats my update! thanks ! lol later ! love ya ash!
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2004 19 January :: 9.46 am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: wonderful~everclear
sry babe!
hey mowry! sry bout that, i do talk to u, my mistake! plz dont run away! i need you!
im done.. i cant call him anymore... i dont think..
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2004 18 January :: 5.51 pm
:: Mood: depressed
hey guys.. im depressed about the whole situtaion again.. what am i doing ya know? why am i with him.. why am i here? i mean.. ugh.. why am i the way i am? ugh fck i hate myself sumtimes. i hate being so depressed all the time.. i hate not being able to call him whenever i want. I FCKIN hate it and i cant stop cryin over it andi dont know what im doing anymore. everytime, i think im over him he shows up again and ..makes me fall back in love with him.. how come he can do that? and like no one seems to wana listen except ashley.. shes the only one.. and shes havin her own problems. so i dont wana bring her down with me..guh.. my life sucks.. and he promises me all these things. and i cant get mad at him, and i dont even know why..... he can like always make things better.. ugh fck man.... what do i do? he knows the right things to say, and do and everything.. ugh, i can barley see the screen ima go..
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2004 18 January :: 5.24 pm
:: Mood: quiz time
:: Music: crossroads-bonethugsnharmony
la
You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you.
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Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's beauty and just the life that no-one else sees. Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't mean you're not friendly!
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Your a Candle. Candles are somwhere around the lines of tortured artists. Your are unique, but usually upset about things. You might not have any friends, and you burn alone. Depression can overwhelm you tend to thinks life can sucks. It can, but try to break free from the pianful side of life. You are an intelligent person and should show what your capabilities are.
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2004 18 January :: 11.41 am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: young and hopeless
ow!!
hey guys, my back hurts so damn bed from my friggin bed, guh! anyways.. i talked to jeremy a lil last night..not very happy with him, just comments that are said drive me crazy.. blah~ went to church this morning.. i talked to josh!! hahah!!!1 im so happy that kids fckin awesome! i like him again, of course, and he might go to the fair with me tomorrow!!! yaya!!!!!!! woop woop! and he said hes guna tell david he claimed me! heh!
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