:: 2005 1 February :: 10.02 am

so apparently yeah i guess ill have to talk to my mom. im doing my brit lit research paper on the beatles and i got a 95% on my romanticism. its been an okay days

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:: 2005 31 January :: 7.01 pm

we have all sorts of funny conversations about my parents and how i was like 14 and my mom called me a little fucker and how funny and like not funny that was. my parents are pretty much the coolest. anyway. im having like a get together at my house for my birthday and I cant decide if I want to invite anyone outside of my family granted that last time i had a get together only like 3 people showed so uh drop a line if you could be there, its feb 13, its not definite just getting like and idea if i want to or not.

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:: 2005 31 January :: 12.15 pm

econ equals boring. i have nothing to do. only 5 minutes left though. it turns out that the only people in my class that I like are seated way across the room from me. and mr busen listens to stupid music. like mellow. gah.

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:: 2005 29 January :: 3.44 pm

so im watching lord of the flies. finishing up some journalism bullshit. thinking about brit lit and econ. bored bored bored. just sneezed. it hurt. gah im tired. i wish i could work again. i hate my house so much. im so sick of everything. pj where are you. well at work of course. good job keep up the good work buddy. i realized that i talk to about no one and have no friends outside of pj. congratulations lizzy, you have become that person. fUCKKKKK

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:: 2005 28 January :: 2.02 pm

gah. ta hour. blah blah blah. im not in a great mood. its friday. im broke. pj has to work. i want to know what his plan is. gosh. i wish he is here. how is it that i have my focus on one thing and only that. what should i write about for leh brit lit. hmm. good question. crap

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:: 2005 24 January :: 12.26 pm

bored, bored, bored. i want to go to school my ass hurts. dad get here so we can get all of this bullshit done with. also i want something to eat. come on come on come on.

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:: 2005 24 January :: 9.06 am

all day yesterday i was going pretty good, now my leg is aching. and telling me to cut it off. i wish i was in school. how pathetic is that. i would like to be anywhere right now that here at home by myself. i might just kill myself if i ever have to see the oc or dawsons creek again. blast no cable. not that there would be anything on if i had cable. blast tv. well that just abotu all the bitchin ive got in my. got to go to the docs again. and then again tomorrow. so much bullshit. gosh. i love you pj

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:: 2005 22 January :: 5.39 pm

back sucks pjs here. blah blah blah. i love him
im talking to my very first best friend ever.
i wish i didnt hurt see you all wednesday

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:: 2005 22 January :: 11.13 am

more vicodin. an MRI monday. Neurosurgeon tuesday. we'll see how many drugs i can take until im addicted. (joke) anyway i guess well see what the good doctor says, but i wont be seeing you guys until wednesday at the earliest. i totally get a handicap sticker and an elevator pass though. except i would rather walk. well I dont need the handicap cuz i cant drive. fuck. i love driving. i want to go to school and work and not lay on the couch all fucking day. pj I love you thank you so much.

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:: 2005 21 January :: 10.11 am

so im at home with pj. because i woke up yesterday with nasty pain in my back and down my leg. emergency room it is. I have been excused from school and work until monday. I have to go to my regular doctor today so I can get an MRI. inevitably they are going to realize that I slipped a disc in my back. Im going to have to have surgery AGAIN. this is exactly the last thing I want. I cant go with Larissa to Ohio now. I probably wont make it to swirl and the softball season is looking pretty damn bleak. I hate my stupid disease. all ruining my senior year and shit. well I think that just might be the vicodin talking who really fucking knows. hopefully (and thats a stretch considering my current situation) I will see you all on Monday.
and thank god for pj cuz i need someone to get my drinks for me. I love you

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:: 2005 18 January :: 3.40 pm

such a sucky mcsuck deal .my schedule sucks and im not happy with myself. I hate YOU CEDAR SPRINGS HIGH SCHOOL GO TO HELL!!!
Fuck i just want to cry.

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:: 2005 17 January :: 4.14 pm

I think it is funny how I can hear a song and every single word in that song relates to the feeling I have at the moment. I just got a new Tim McGraw Cd and as I was listening to it on the way home it hit me. So I got the lyrics.

"You Just Get Better All The Time"

You just get better all the time
Darlin' don't you change a thing
Lately you're the only song I wanna sing
And you're my reason to try
You just get sweeter every day
The little things you do and say
If only you could see you through my eyes
You just get better all the time

Oh, and I get the feelin' we can make it baby
As long as you are by my side
You're the music in my ears
The laughter when the tears
Are fallin' down in my life

And on down through the years
You never tried to change my ways
You never made me feel
I had to say "I'm sorry"

You just get better all the time
Why just today I heard you read my mind
That kinda magic is so hard to find
You just get better all the time

i cant believe how much in love I am. *giggle*

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:: 2005 17 January :: 10.50 am

back at home then. blah to that. finally talked to pj. its odd actually. i really want to see him. thats not odd what I meant was odd was that although I did miss him. I did miss you a lot. I didnt spend the whole weekend crying about it. I didnt think about it that much actually only when I called him, and when he said he couldnt talk cuz he was roaming i was disapointed but at the same time maybe the whole thing was also good for my escape because I feel so much better than I did 3 days ago. so i guess time away was good for me. but now i just want him again to be here with me on my day off but he is getting a new car.and my dad and sister went to edmore while my brother and amanda went to the mall. blah blah blah all alone gonna clean my room. and listen to kelly clarkston. no money no time. i love you pj more than anything else i can think of in my perpetual grogged up state. hope everyone has a great day off.

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:: 2005 15 January :: 7.41 pm

hey so I decided to go to my moms this weekend and its actually been the greatest escape ive had in a long time for once Im not being hammered about how lazy and fat I am, and short of asking my choice of college I havent heard anything about it. no did you get that scholarship filled yet? how are you going to come up with your housing money? stuff like that. its been wonderful. I love my family but sometimes its so incredibely overwhelming. I did lose about 25 dollars though which sucks cuz its all the money I had until I get paid again. then I get paid and have to use it all for insurance Ive had a lack of hours leaving my bank account dry. now every extra penny equals into savings. BLAH. I hope pj is having a great time in kentucky. and I hope you all have a wonderful Martin Luther King Jr. Day. no school equals good school.

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:: 2005 14 January :: 12.16 am

blah blah blah, the school is going to fix my schedule on tuesday. blah. i have an entire weekend to waste. two weeks until ohio. yay! im pretty excited about that

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