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2003 29 September :: 3.21 pm
hye everyone im, here.
with megan grant.
reporting live from...
dumdumdeedum
MY house
haha isnt that fun.
I met marty after school
good times good times.
that is all for me
Justin im so happy things worked did you read that letter.
let me know if I am a fruitcake or what.
anyway.
I think im gonna go eat something.
that is the 411 from megan and Liz
news channel 330 Prairie run
okay bye now
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2003 28 September :: 8.00 pm
heartbreaker, im addicted to you
since the day i met you and after all weve been through
im adict im addicted to
Im so bored I just want to like throw up
metaphorically speaking.
things suck
i havent heard from justin
things are weird.
or maybe im just freaking out .
not quite sure at this point
he just signed in to messenger.
i dont really know anymore what it is i want
i mean i know what i want
but things have to be mutual you know.
it really sucks.
I wish I could find someone who I could care about that cared about me.
thats all I really care about.
i cant seemto have that though
I would give up everything just for that
whatever.
I heard about someone who likes me but one of my good friends likes him so I can't even go there.
im so unhappy.
i wish I didnt wish for things that seem so impossible
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2003 27 September :: 10.16 pm
so yeah
i really fucked things up this time
or maybe im jumping to conclusions. whatever
i was just talk to justin and he just like up and left
didnt say goodbye or anything.
now i really feel shitty.
i should confront him about it not post about
it but im a puss that way
i gotta go
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2003 27 September :: 10.52 am
well,
i am officially giving up.
on justin
just friends it is.
ok that is the end of that.
on a lighter note
im babysitting.
i need the gas money.
i have a whopping 3 dollars to last me all week for gas and 3 nights worth of dinner.
yeah i had to take the babysitting.
although i didnt want to
HEY we finally got cable internet at my house and that is awesome.
no more 15 minutes. im happy.
can you tell.
amanda wasnt mad at me
and if she was she isnt anymore because she loved the cd i got her.
i love this liz phair song.
i listen to it over and over.
and i love stacys mom.
shes got it going on
but yeah.
i have art projects to finish
sketches of scary stories.
i am a shitty artist.
i want to skateboard.
i have in like 3 days.
im gonna do that today.
after i go home.
and im gonna go to the library.
i have big plans.
the red flannel pageant
yup big plans.
"why cant i breath whenever i think about you, why cant i speak whenever i talk about you"
break into song sometimes.
so yeah.
im such a puss.
joslyn your right you know.
i should talk to his face but it would be weird i think.
anyway 381 everyone
that is 3 words 8 letters and 1 meaning
I love you
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2003 24 September :: 7.11 pm
as i was just telling jay.
i sometimes wonder about my intelligence levels.
about posting things then regretting it.
for example my last post.
i got no reply
i havent spoken to the person since.
im freaking out.
i am all listening to lizphair and just freaking
no one knows about me
i dont either.
its all crazy and such.
hey no more bus.
i drive to school tomorrow
im physed
so much hehe
if im in a horrid mood i can think of my car and be happy
also when i am in the worst mood i can talk to someone and be giddy like a 5yrold with cotton candy.
its the greatest feeling ever and i wish he returned it.
my number is 696-3859
im so anxious
i always jump the gun
but i have been thinking about these things for a couple of months now and they seemed right yesterday. now im not so sure.
life is about seizing what you want i think
insecurity is a factor of that. i can be forceful and insecure but not at the same time. i can grasp then i am insecure afterwords.
i wish i could have what it is I want
i only want one thing
it dosent involve sex or drugs so you guys stop umpin to conclusions. k bye then
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2003 23 September :: 6.55 pm
updating
listening to lit
good shit
so i finally made up my mind
as to what it is I want.
im completely over mitch that was an infatuation thing.
i really like someone else
ive liked him before
i thought i stopped liking him or whatever then it was like
we are great friends.
and i want more
crazy
jos is like well liz you should tell him but what if he dosent feel the same way.
and im all it will be weird if he dosent.
so im doing it this way.
you know who are.
so yeah im leaving this one up to you
i just got done talking to you on the internet messenger.
whatever.
i dont want to cause problems cuz you seem to be not doing so great.
but if you feel the same way or whatever.
let me know
if not lets keep this friend thing going .
yeah
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2003 21 September :: 2.00 pm
so yeah i accidently hit the update key already.
whatever.
i am mutual with mitch it is almost as though takling to him for a couple of hours was a closure.
i dont feel anything anymore.
its like im free.
but now you guys know how i jump so fast i like someone else.
it is a classic case of he is friends with my friends and the more i get to know him the more i like him.
but as so many cases before if i made a move he would probably want to just be friends.
and i think we will probably be good friends if that is all it ever is.
like the justin thing.
i liked him then he had a girlfriend and we are really good friends now
I love you justin you are the greatest.
so moral i really wish that i could go out with this guy but i will be happy even if we are just friends.
but i think that is all i work at 3 to 10 some people should come visit me or something.
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2003 14 September :: 2.40 pm
well homecoming was homecoming.
It wasnt horrid but not great either.
i was a third wheel all night to katie and chris but I like them so it was cool i took pictures
and whatnot.
my mom took a lot of nice pics on her digital of me and justin and amanda and megan and jessica stewart and josh jones. you
but anyway.
outside of last night.
I have this friend you know who you are.
your really started to worry me. one night like that is okay. anyone has the right to it.
but i dont know about everyone else but I could see it last night. you said you hid it well, maybe from everyone else but not from me. I can see these things. I grew up with them.
I know about hiding.
i just want to let you know. that I care so much about you. Over the last couple of months I have gotten to know I have come to consider you one of my good friends. I hope you feel the same about me. and i want to let you know that i am always here.
dont be offended but i see how she treats you and i think you deserve better.
ayone who can make you feel like you do, well i wont finish that.
i think thats all i wanted to say.
I dont know.
but yeah. always here.
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2003 10 September :: 7.30 pm
HEY EVERYBODY should i go to homecoming let me know.
I cant decide I have a dress adn all the material things just need to decide so i can get a ticket.
okay im out
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2003 7 September :: 3.02 pm
wo im updating.
its sunday afternoon i feel so lazy.
i havent showered yet
im listening to buddy holly and also the one by foo fighters.
my 2 favorite songs
but whatever
i have to go to work in 1 hour and 3 minutes
i went shopping for homecoming dresses yesterday.
im too fat to find one so im not going also i dont have a date(too fat for that too)
so whatever.
anyuway should shower and get ready for work yeah.
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2003 3 September :: 8.33 pm
so here we go
i am so dumb
yeah we all knew
i want to go to homecoming but not without a date so if someone has one for me let me know before friday or on friday so i can get a dress if not........
well screw it
nothing ele is new except i have like 5 pages of history notes to do plus the ones for josie and me.
i really slacked on them though.
i did a page front and back i just wrote the key words so i can remember the rest.
you know
plus ive got those 2 pages of english i still need to do.
I think im going to say screw it.
what do good grades matter.
nothing is worth it if you have to work for it right?
so that is all for me only i really would like a date seeings how im all lonely and shit.
i should be a lesbian.
then i would have an excuse to be a loser like i am .
alrighty then.
KFC sucks we need to think of something Justin.
they would never suspect us.
on that note.
here is a quote from yours truly....
"Conformity sucks. At least that's what the popular kids are saying"
-Liz Artecki
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2003 25 August :: 7.13 pm
but whatever.
whats done is quite done and there is no changing anything now.
My brother says woohu is for gay people.
and people with no lives(thats me)
Anyway.
I guess I will see you all tomorrow or whatever
fuck it
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2003 20 August :: 10.46 am
It is insane how accurate this quizzy things are.
I am at my grandparents house.
we are going to go to birch run then to the lake.
we were at the lake yesterday.
my cousin michelle is here too.
she is german.
her brother stayed at my house with justin
whatever
so i like shopping.
everyone is ready to go except my grandpa.
hes kinda slow.
i learned how to drvie the boat yesterday and i drove while everyone was tubing since my crippled back does not allow me to tube or ski anymore. shame
but that is all for me i come home tomorrow and then i go to work
school next week thats not exciting
but whatever.
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2003 20 August :: 10.46 am
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2003 18 August :: 7.01 pm
yeah so im all looking back on my journal
i have no friends
i have josie, jejuan, and now casey
only one of them has a journal.
besides that no one cares
its a great feeling.
so maybe im just going to stop posting .
i look forward to replys that never happen so yeah
spare the agony
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