you're taken me over, and I like that
Update! Update! Update!

1. me and Dan are now dating, and have been for a month and like a week now. THUMBS UP! he's my favorite.

2. Im really enjoying highschool right now. I've made some really awesome friends and it's just a breath of fresh air for me.

3. My dad has to go back to Iraq, and we might be moving into Richmond Place sometime after Christmas, but Dan, Caroline, Jenn, and a bunch of other kids live there.

4. Homecoming is this weekend, but im not going. Me and Dan are going to go do something aaturday, hopefully to see The Grudge.

5. I have missed Woohu.

6. End.

are you aware, of how much you complicate me?
so, im taking Bec's advice and writing in hear again, I mean I paid the 2 dollars - might as well use this up, heh. Not much has been going on right now, me and Dan..heh..we are getting pretty close, more like a friends with benefits deal going on there which is nice, heh. Im officially starting my 3 day weekend, woot. Im so glad, I need a break from school. It literally hurts to get out of bed every morning. The day goes by really quickly, or at least I think so - but being in that environment and being away from a bed and a tv for 7 hours is a little harsh. WAY harsh. This weekend I think im going to see Napoleon Dynamite, fun stuff. Yeah so im out like a trout...or bean sprout.

<3 Me

Call me a safe bet, Im betting im not.
Wow, it's been forever and a day since I have actually put forth the effort to update this journal. I want to post some pictures, but sadly I do not know how. If you do, then I would be much obliged for your help. Open House is today. Im so not excited it can't even be described. School sucks. It's plain as day. It sucks!

Sum 41 gets me so fucking pumped up...ahh i just want to throw myself against a wall, haha. I had so much fucking fun at C*aroline's but im not going to tell you what we did cause its my business - not yours!

Camfire Mafia: Bec, Taylor, Luke, Me, Roberta...and anyone who has a putrid hatw for you know who!
dude, yesterday was madness. it was great. okay so i got online and Lukes profile said "Katie Harness is a liar" and i im'ed him and i was like "I LOVE YOUR PROFILE! AMEN AMEN!" and he sent to her cause i told him he could. and then all this crap happened with her and him. and she kept im'ing me asking me what she did to me. if she has to ask me what she did then obviously she isnt that smart. i guess she just doesnt know how much she put me through this year. but if she thinks im just going to tell her what all she did and let her apologize then she has another thing coming cause she needs to figure this one out on her own. then Becca called me and we talked for the longest time about stuff and shes so awesome! glad i found her! then katie called me and i hung up on her cause im not putting up with her deal. then me and Bec started the WAHK club also referred to as The Camfire Mafia. i cant tell what it is but if your interested ask either Bec, Myself, Taylor Craft, or Luke Russet. Im gonna get berta to join when i next talk to her and maybe Bec can get Caroline to join! it will be awesome! but yeah and my uncle and aunt came over yesterday and we had fun eating and chating. I cant wait till July me, my cousin, aunt, and uncle aregoing to Orlando for like 8 days and we're going to all these awesome theme parks! which means i have to lose weight and save money...ahh. i better get started! well im out...later on

Like a river flows to the sea, so it goes some things are meant to be
Gosh, Im such a softie! Okay well as most of you know me and Dan Hayes aren't really friends anymore, but today all I could think about was how much I missed hanging out with him. He cracks me up. I admit it, I think he's hysterical. And I guess it just took this "blow out" we had to realize that he was a cool ass guy. But what made me think about this was when we were in the same group for this math thing, and the fact that I couldn't talk to him made me sad. When we were friends we would just crack on eachother but it was all fun and stupid. And then I guess one day we just got on eachothers nerves. And I regret it. Cause it's like all my other friends hang out with him, but I feel like I have to keep my distance. It really sucks. I hate getting in fights with people. Yeah...I miss hanging out with him alot. Talking about all the old All That episodes and such. Those were happy times. And I can fully understand where he is coming from with his views on life, and even though I disagree sometimes I shouldn't have been such a hanus bitch about it. And i regret it alot. I don't think anyone really cares about this, but I've just always been that kid that gets into a big fight and i'm the one that calls and apologizes. I've always been like that, ever since I was little. But anyways...Im out. Later guys.

Only Jesus understands me...
Uhg. It is not right for me to be crying like I have been. Well I guess it all started with my dad saying something to me over the phone and me replying "I don't know" in, I guess, a monotone voice, then him saying "Put your mother on the phone I dont even want to fucking talk to you!!!!!!!". Ok, First of all...I HATE when my parents cuss at me...and here I go crying once again...anyways. Then my mom tells me to go to bed at like 5:30 and that she was making me an appointment to see a shrink. What in the fuck? I didnt even do anything...and all of a sudden im a depressed kid???? well this isnt the first time this has happened, if you were wondering. But i sat in my room and cried uncontrolably for like half an hour then my mom came and, and was all aplogizing. Then she told me to talk to her, so I let it out. And when she cut me off i was like "Let me talk! because obviously you and dad do not understand me because you never listen to me!" so she let me have a word. And im really glad I have such a great mom, but honestly it really hurts me to know they think im some freak. And knowing that the thought of me needing a shrink went through her mind for some time, is sickening. And I honestly wish Dad would just dissapear into thin air. He is the reason i am the way i am!!! its his fucking genes. And obviously he is TOO fucking blind to see it. All he cares and thinks about is himself and how "perfect" he thinks he is! Its disgusting. I really hate him. Its like im fighting the world...them against Me. What is so wrong with me...please someone tell me the truth. I always just thought teenagers were supposed to be like this. And i thought that my parents would be proud of who I am. But all my dad can seem to do is judge me and down me, and im fed up with it. And its not like i can do anything...And all i can do is cry...cry...cry. And crying is a great way to deal with things, but not as much as i am. I've been crying since 5:30. And i cant stop. Even though me and my mom are good. Its just....uhg i cant explain. Im feeling so bad and sick and messed up. I feel like a fucked up screwed up kid. And i hate it!! this isnt me!! I Love my life. I love my friends. But i honestly dont understand why when i get home my attitude plunges. I love my mom to pieces, but my sister and dad are 2 different stories. anyways...im gonna go cry some more since i cant seem to stop....Bye.

Happy Easter Kids!!
WOW! JUST....WOW. My Easter has been so kick ass! It's been the best ever. Church rocked hard. I sat by Amelia and Luke and I had the perfect view of *Mumbles name so you can't really hear it* haha! Then Katie came and sat by us! We were laughing the whole time. The new Pastor is awesome, But he has like a patch on the top of his head of grey hair. It's so random, it's just this grey patch...weird. Anyways, We were writing notes and I told Luke I was going to kill him. Isn't that sweet? Haha. Then after church Mom, Ashley, and Myself went to eat at Olive Garden. For Some reason I could not eat much. But no worries...I brought the food home, Lol. When we got home I mowed the lawn. It was freaking hotter then the sun outside!! Now me and mom are about to go to JF Gregory to take a long walk. Try to lose some weigh before Summer rolls around. I cant believe we only have practically 6 weeks left! It is madness I say! But i'm so stoked up! Wow...okay so i'm done!
HAPPY EASTER Y'ALL!

*-* Lizz *-*