SUPRISE!
i want more suprise in my life.
i miss being suprised...
especially at christmas time, christmas used to be so much fun for me.
i loved the suprise, and the magic.
i never knew what santa would get me, or what he'd write to me in his note.
now it's all gone, i make a list of what i want and my parents get it for me.
yeah, it's wrapped up in pretty paper, but there's no suprise, no magic in that.
this year im not asking for much, maybe that'll put some suprise into it.
but i doubt it.
::sigh::
holidays aren't fun anymore.
now it's just going over to my aunt's to be with a bunch of old people.
mum says we have to, cause they wont be around much longer, but we've been doing it for the past 7 years and they dont seem to be going anywhere.
:-(
i want some rain!

"can you show me how to treat someone i dont recall ever learning how, cause i keep fucking up.."
ahh, such a good song.
anyways, i saw Running Boy today.
first time ive seen him in about a week and a half.
haven't been quick enough since brie started riding the bus, but today she didn't.
it was nice.
i tried to keep enough distance, so he wouldn't run, and it seemed to work.
:-)
yeah.
anyways, today wasn't bad.
rather boring, but not too bad.
except that i forgot my awesome entry for my BoO and that was angerfying.
i got 1/4 of the way done and then totally forgot it all.
whatever.
well, i think that's about it.
later.
-holly-

i swear to god it's true, im coming home to you
well, last night wasn't that bad.
justin and i didn't get to do anything, but the movie didn't turn out too bad.
j-lo was easy on the eyes...though all the talk in the car was about richard gere.
my mom's like "oh i just about melted when he came up the escalator with that rose, didn't you holly?"
i giggled, and was like "no..he's too old for me. maybe if it was johnny depp......."
hehe.
though i had someone else, and much less famous, in mind as i said it.
;-)
yeah.
when we got home it was about 9:30.
i tried calling heather, but the line was busy.
so i changed into my pjs and went downstairs to see what dad was doing.
(crazy, huh?)
he was channel surfing, and we watched a little bit of the Iowa/Purdue game..it was pretty good.
im guessing Iowa won..twas 20/14 with 6 mins when we switched channels.
yeah.
dad went upstairs about 10, and i watched Whose Line until 11 and then Driven w/ Tyra Banks until 12.
very fun.
i was going to watch the next show on VH1, but i was sooo tired by then, i couldn't.
::sigh::
oh well.
today im hanging out here until about 2 and then going to heather's.
yay!
:-)
i got on to type up my christmas list, but then i got distracted with checking everyone's updates and such.
::sigh::
i'll get to it eventually.
well, not much else to say.
<33
-holly-

im back for good!
yeah, so im going back.
i miss woohu lots.
:-)
nobody's here anymore, but whatever.
tonight is going to be sucky i think.
mum and dad want to go to the des moines cazador, and then see Shall We Dance at Sierra 3.
DAMMIT!
i'd rather do something with justin, but he hasn't called, and im too lazy to call him.
:-(
so i guess i'll end up going to see the movie with Them and not doing anything with justin this weekend.
ick.
tomorrow im going to heathers, i believe.
that'll be fun...
yeah.
nothing else to say.
love to you all!!
-holly-

wow
yeah, so i haven't updated in a long time.
hmm.
not much has happened.
school is boring as hell, and my life is okay.
im getting happier.
ive stopped cutting, and starving myself.
:-)
nothing else to say.
<33
-holly-

nobody really knows who i am.
what's the point exactly?
i think i'll just stop using my blogs.
no one needs me.
farwell

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wow..
haven't updated in 14 days.
which is oddly enough, how old i will be in 6 days.
and in 6 days justin gets back.
and when justin gets back i turn 14.
:-)
sorry, randomness.
i've been talking to david a lot recently.
we've become really good friends.
yeah.
i was at the university of iowa..two weeks ago.
that was fun.
i made like, one, really good friend, and two others....
yes.
nick and laila and maria.
such times.
:-D
anyhoo, im going to go now.
later.
-holly-

a random survey

[x] The Basics [x]
Name :::	Holly
Middle name :::	Rose
Last name :::	Wheeler
Age :::	13
Birthday:::	July 30
Location :::	Ankeny, IA....for now
Height :::	5'4" if i stand up straight
Eye color :::	mood changing...grey right now
Hair color :::	auburnish
Siblings? :::	no
[x] Favorites [x]
food :::	eh...ice
movie :::	the aristocats
group/ band :::	awr..dashboard confessional, or smile empty soul
Tv show :::	whose line is it anyway?
animal :::	kitty cats
color :::	grey
place to be :::	with justin
store :::	kohls..rue 21
shoe brand :) :::	chuck taylors
word :::	grey
phrase :::	hope dangles on a string like slow-spinning redemption
Famous guy :::	johnny depp
Famous girl :::	ah..idk
boy name :::	corbin
girl name :::	ana
pet name :::	STRYDER!
car/ truck :::	honda's CRV
music :::	rocK
candy :::	dammit..chocolate? idk.i love candy
gum :::	orbit cinnamint or w/e
number:::	13 or 27
lyric :::	nowhere kids by smile empty soul
website :::	blah...woohu, or hotmail
drink :::	welch's strawberry soda
alcoholic drink :::	i dont like alcohol..but virgin margaritas are good
scent :::	my conditioner...or justin
season :::	fall
[x] Music [x] Pick a song title for the artist
Something Corporate :::	umm..idk any something corporate songs
Yellowcard :::	ocean avenue
Green Day :::	minority..or warning
J-lo :::	ew..i hate jlo
Bowling for Soup :::	is it girl all the bad guys want?
Missy Elliott :::	dont listen to missy elliott
Chingy :::	eww rap
Outkast :::	roses?
John Mayer :::	my body is a wonderland....lol
Britney Spears :::	everytime
Christina A. :::	genie in a bottle
Thursday :::	dunno
Aerosmith :::	dont wanna miss a thing
Bob Marley :::	dunno
Taking Back Sunday :::	idk them
Sean Paul :::	ewwwwwwwww
Ludacris :::	dunno any songs
The Beach Boys :::	surfin usa
Led Zepplin :::	stairway to heavan
Santana :::	that santana song w/ michelle branch
Kelly Osbourne :::	eck. dont like her
Ozzy :::	::sceams::
[x] Have your ever [x]
Met anyone famous :::	i guess
If so who? :::	uhh...the guy from harrison lamb? he's not famous around here
Kissed someone of the same sex? :::	uh..no
Dated someone of the same sex? :::	i wish
Sang in the shower :::	hell yeah
Talked to a complete stranger :::	yeah
Prank called someone :::	yep
Snuck out :::	yeah
Lied to your Parents :::	yes
Done drugs [ if so what one(s)] :::	no
Drank Alcohol :::	not really
Snuck into the movies :::	no
Gotten kicked out of the movies :::	almost
Stole something *tisk*tisk* :::	just something from a friend
Beat someone up :::	no
Watched Porn :::	i was like 10 and i didn't know what it was i went to like www.excited.com
Ran Away :::	yeah
Gotten Arrested :::	no
Been on TV :::	yesh
Been in the Newspaper :::	for honor roll
Shot a gun :::	no
Graffiti'd something :::	not w/ spray paint, but i've written w/ pen on stuff
Made out in the rain :::	eh..sadly no
Had sex or done sexual things in a public place :::	nope
Snuck people over your house :::	no
Stage dived :::	nope
Been in a mosh pit :::	heh...at the highschool...is that really a mosh pit though?
Eaten something non edible :::	yeah
Been in the hospital :::	to visit ppl
Been in the mental hospital :::	no...need to go to one though
Hit your parents :::	probably
Written a song :::	yeah
Stalked someone :::	:-D
Gone cow tipping :::	no
Made your own porno ( you freak ) :::	hmm...good idea
Skinny Dipped :::	no
[x] Random [x]
Do you have any fetishes :::	eyes
Fears :::	spiders
Who rocks your socks? :::	DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL
What makes your all warm and fuzzy inside :::	love?
What turns you on :::	hehe....
What are you (bi, straight, lesbian, gay ..etc..) :::	bi
Craziest thing you've done sober :::	uhh..do i have to say?
Craziest thing you've done drunk :::	nothin
Craziest thing you've done high :::	nothin
Do you sniff your fingers after you wipe your ass? :::	no
[x] The alphabet [x] Put the first word that comes to mind for each letter:	okay
A:::	alright
B:::	begin
C:::	current
D:::	dashboard confessional
E:::	ever
F:::	fun
G:::	gone
H:::	high
I:::	i
J:::	jeff
K:::	okay
L:::	let go
M:::	me
N:::	no
O:::	okay
P:::	people (suck)
Q:::	queer
R:::	run
S:::	scream
T:::	talk
U:::	understand
V:::	veer
W:::	whatever
X:::	X rated
Y:::	yellowcard
Z:::	zebra

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i have no idea what to say.
i am..lost.
i dont know what to do anymore.
i want to be better.
i want a happy ending.
a life that is worthy of ending in rolling credits.
i dont know.
i want to cry.
i want to scream.
I WANT A HUG.

i should have hugged justin last night.
i should've said i loved him.
there's nothing going on in my head.

am i dying?

wow
work today was good.
there was this councelor, rob, he's 17..but he's really nice.
he like asked me out, but i told him i had a bf and we just desided we'd be friends.
:-)
it's cool.
he's really nice.
he says i seem way older than 13.
which is odd.
but it's cool.
yes.
rob was with austin today though, but we still managed to talk and just hang out whenever he wasn't busy chasing austin.
hehe.
yeah.
work today was awesome.
im thinking of going on thursday just to have another day like today.
bloody hell it was fun.
but if camille and sam want to do an over night tomorrow and then go to summerfest that's totally cool.
i told rob i'd try to go to work on thursday.
:-)
he's so much fun.
but yeah.
JUSTIN IS BACK!
yay.
it makes me happy.
im so bored.
mum and i watched a movie tonight.
it was weird.
i wrote some poetry.
i'll post it in my Xanga tomorrow.
a day home alone will be really nice.
well, im going now..ive got other blogs to udate and stuff to think about.
later.
-holly-