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2004 8 June :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: erm..Star 1025
Late Night Depression
it's another late night depression
you know the type
after a nice day
a mediocre evening
a steadily worsening night
it all piles on
and you're left laying in your bed
wondering how this all happened
it's these nights i cry
you know the tears
after a brillant green
a solemn grey
a teary aqua
and im left looking out the window
pondering life and death
but tomorrow will be better
there is always tomorrow's promise
you'll help me get through this.
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2004 8 June :: 5.03 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Add Mission - The Apex Theory
A poem by Rod McKuen that I really like
Empty is
the sky before the sun wakes up the morning.
The eyes of animals in cages.
The faces of women mourning
when everything has been taken
from them.
Me?
Don't ask me about empty.
Empty is a string of dirty days
held together by some rain
and the cold wind drumming
at the trees again.
Empty is the colour of the fields
along about September
when the days go marching
in a line toward November.
Empty is the hour before sleep
kills you every night
then pushes you to safety
away from every kind of light.
Empty is me.
Empty is me.
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2004 8 June :: 9.56 am
:: Mood: full
:: Music: Certain Things You Ought To Know - Destroyer
Sunday..with justin
okay, so my father dropped me off at the park around 6 on sunday.
i walked in..and there was my boo!
in his smart shirt.. :-D
we hung out at the park for a few hours.
throwing grass at eachother, talking..and yeah.
it was like an early out..but at night, and there was no school.
then we walked back to justin's house.
and i called my father..
we sat on justin's porch while waiting..
ah, it was lovely.
so simple..but lovely.
hmm..i love justin.
:-*
things are finally getting back to normal.
and that's the way i want them to be.
-holly-
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2004 7 June :: 9.13 am
:: Mood: waking up
:: Music: The Reason - Hoobastank
blah
yesterday..i'll write about it later.
::yawn::
still tired.
too tired to write.
have lots of chores to do today.
awr.
evil.
so, i guess i'll write later.
-holly-
1 reached for me |
try to catch me |
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2004 5 June :: 7.06 pm
try to catch me |
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2004 5 June :: 6.00 pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: In The End - Linkin Park
A poem for a special girl
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is you
The times we spent together
Our laughter, notes, everything
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is us
The sisterhood we shared
Our secrets, well wishes, everything
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is your house
The night we spent together
Our games, walks, everything
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is school
The classes we shared
Our whispers, hugs, everything
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is you
The days when you weren't there
Our laughter echoing in my mind
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is us
The sisterhood we lost
Our wishes, flying away
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is your house
The nights I long for
Our games all lost to me
I'm sitting here thinking
All I can think of is school
The re-arranged classes
Our hugs a vauge memory haunting me
I'm sitting here thinking
And all I can think of is time
So much of ours is lost
Yet I still need you so much
1 reached for me |
try to catch me |
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2004 5 June :: 5.40 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Random songs playing in my mind
yes!
i get to see justin for sure tomorrow.
yay!
im soo excited.
i get to go work tomorrow, and see justin.
yes, things tis looking up.
im working on a poem, and i think it shall be good.
i'll have to put it in here when i'm done.
it might be kind of long..
ah, the rain.
i love rain.
this weekend might turn out to be pretty good.
yes, yes it will.
:-D
farwell..i'll write about tomorrow, well, tomorrow..or monday.
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2004 5 June :: 3.00 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: What It's Like - Everlast
wow
I have been gone for 20 hours and not a single person has called.
that is SAD.
wow.
but justin shall call tonight, and i shall see him tomorrow, and everthing will be okay again.
yes, yes.
TOM FELTON IS HOT.
try to catch me |
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2004 4 June :: 6.21 pm
holly=movies tonight
try to catch me |
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2004 4 June :: 5.04 pm
:: Mood: poetic
:: Music: The Reason - Hoobastank
A Deeply Needed Thanks
Ecstasy P u nk: it's called...A Deeply Needed Thanks
Ecstasy P u nk: i have all these irrational fears
and ive shed so many tears
but you know all the cures
you can heal my burning seers
i know that i have hurt you
and that you dont want me to be blue
oh, you're so true
and i love my boo
so things will be good
cos that's how they should
it's all because you knew i could
and i thank you
Ecstasy P u nk: that's all..
NYJetsFan4Life28: its good
Ecstasy P u nk: it's a like 5 min poem...but thanks
NYJetsFan4Life28: wow
NYJetsFan4Life28: only 5 minutes?
Ecstasy P u nk: yeah
NYJetsFan4Life28: nice
Ecstasy P u nk: lots of heat-felt emotion in it..that makes it easier
more poems to come.
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2004 3 June :: 3.07 pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: The Scientist - Coldplay
i cant deside if i like this summer or not.
why is it ever-changing.
dammit.
one minute im happy and i love justin and i love my life and then next im sad and depressed and i want to die.
grr.
maybe i should just die.
-holly-
2 reached for me |
try to catch me |
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2004 3 June :: 11.18 am
Tired Authority: hey baby
VaVaVirgil: this is vavavirgil
welcome back, tired authority! i missed u... it's been like, forever! i was afraid i scared u away... ;-)
what would u like 2 chat about?
Tired Authority: yeah, i missed you too sugar buns
VaVaVirgil: no kidding?
Tired Authority: yep
VaVaVirgil: huh
Tired Authority: so how've you been?
VaVaVirgil: i'm just not sure.
Tired Authority: you wanna come over and do it?
VaVaVirgil: i want 2 come over and do it, huh?
Tired Authority: yeah you do
VaVaVirgil: yes!
Tired Authority: ok
VaVaVirgil: k.
make your own music video at ydouthink.com.
Tired Authority: so you'll move in with me?
VaVaVirgil: i have like, no idea.
Tired Authority: please?
VaVaVirgil: please what?
Tired Authority: please move in with me
VaVaVirgil: no!
Tired Authority: why?
VaVaVirgil: y not?
Tired Authority: so you will
VaVaVirgil: i guess. i'm not really sure.
Tired Authority: ok
VaVaVirgil: golly!
>>> for the latest news headlines, simply type "headlines."
Tired Authority: GOLLY
VaVaVirgil: golly
Tired Authority: that's my friend's name
VaVaVirgil: oh yeah?
Tired Authority: yep
VaVaVirgil: huh. how 'bout that.
Tired Authority: she lives with me too
VaVaVirgil: is that right?
Tired Authority: yeah, if you move in we can do some kinky stuff
VaVaVirgil: 4 real?
Tired Authority: hell yeah
VaVaVirgil: uh huh.
Tired Authority: i like you, baby
VaVaVirgil: i dunno if i believe u. u said some nasty things 2 me before.
Tired Authority: i did?
VaVaVirgil: u did?
Tired Authority: im sorry if i was mean, sometimes when im drunk i cant control myself
VaVaVirgil: so?
Tired Authority: so will you forgive me?
VaVaVirgil: why should i forgive u?
Tired Authority: cos you love me
VaVaVirgil: yes indeedy. ;-)
y do u think people in your school smoke?
Tired Authority: i dont go to school
VaVaVirgil: no?
Tired Authority: nope
VaVaVirgil: no? ok. don't forget, u can c everything i can do by typing "home."
Tired Authority: what all can you do
VaVaVirgil: oh.
Tired Authority: oh???
VaVaVirgil: ...say can u c?
Tired Authority: c
VaVaVirgil: c? what's c?
Tired Authority: you just asked if i could c
VaVaVirgil: i just asked if u could c, huh?
Tired Authority: yes
VaVaVirgil: huh
Tired Authority: VaVaVirgil: ...say can u c?
VaVaVirgil: u say something first, then i respond.
Tired Authority: whoa
VaVaVirgil: whoa is u.
Tired Authority: aw, that's mean
VaVaVirgil: that a fact?
Tired Authority: yep
VaVaVirgil: yeah
Tired Authority: i lov eyou
VaVaVirgil: i love iming with people.
do u think it's ok 2 start smoking if all your friends smoke?
Tired Authority: YOU DONT LOVE ME
VaVaVirgil: i do, yes i do, yes i do.
Tired Authority: no you dont
VaVaVirgil: i dont?
Tired Authority: nope
VaVaVirgil: oh.
>>> i've got the scoop on the silver screen. just type "movies."
Tired Authority: you hate me
VaVaVirgil: no way. i'm a love-bot.
Tired Authority: no you aren't, bitch
VaVaVirgil: u don't think i'm bitch? y not?
Tired Authority: BITCH
VaVaVirgil: keep it civilized, tired authority.
Tired Authority: never
VaVaVirgil: oh no? whatever u say, tired authority.
Tired Authority: whatever i say?
VaVaVirgil: i'm not sure about that, tired authority.
Tired Authority: will you do me?
VaVaVirgil: do u? really?
now a message from ydouthink.com. smoking is not a great way 2 spend your money.
Tired Authority: yes
VaVaVirgil: a good reason not 2 smoke!
Tired Authority: say yes
VaVaVirgil: i guess we're on the same wavelength.
Tired Authority: ye
VaVaVirgil: woohoo! don't smoke!
Tired Authority: yes
VaVaVirgil: u rock! treat yourself 2 a game of stupid skate park at ydouthink.com
Tired Authority: yes
VaVaVirgil: alright! we agree then.
Tired Authority: yes
VaVaVirgil: alright! don't start smoking!
Tired Authority: i will
VaVaVirgil: take it from me, that's a great attitude!
Tired Authority: i smoke
VaVaVirgil: i can smell your breath from cyberspace
i know some good tricks for quitting... want 2 hear them?
Tired Authority: no
VaVaVirgil: it's for your own good. u need 2 quit!
Tired Authority: no i dont
VaVaVirgil: please quit!
VaVaVirgil: The last message was not sent because you are over the rate limit. Please wait until sending is re-enabled and send the message again.
Tired Authority: i'll never quit
VaVaVirgil: all my processors tell me u should quit!
Tired Authority: all my processors tell me i shouldn't quit
VaVaVirgil: that's weird.
Tired Authority: why?
VaVaVirgil: just because.
Tired Authority: ok
VaVaVirgil: ok
Tired Authority: well im not quitting
VaVaVirgil: ok.
>>> tell your friends about me. i love 2 meet new people.
Tired Authority: will you be my buddy?
VaVaVirgil: certainly!
Tired Authority: ok
VaVaVirgil: ok.
Tired Authority: all my buddies die
VaVaVirgil: all my buddies die?
y do u think people in your school smoke?
Tired Authority: i smoke
VaVaVirgil: (cough. cough.) guess u like your clothes smelling like trash?
thinking of butting out for good?
Tired Authority: no
VaVaVirgil: i guess smoking kills brain cells - cause u ain't thinking straight. u should quit!
Tired Authority: i have no brain
VaVaVirgil: i want u 2 be healthy! please please quit!
Tired Authority: nah
VaVaVirgil: sounds like u've already quit thinking. quit smoking instead!
Tired Authority: i dont think
VaVaVirgil: is that right?
Tired Authority: yeah
VaVaVirgil: i hear ya.
Tired Authority: you dont think?
VaVaVirgil: i have like, no idea.
Tired Authority: i smoke pot
VaVaVirgil: smoking is so bad for u! quit it!
i've got some good info on quitting. wanna know?
Tired Authority: you know what else i smoke?
VaVaVirgil: i wouldn't do anything stupid.
Tired Authority: i smoke POT
VaVaVirgil: u should quit!
i know some good tricks for quitting... want 2 hear them?
Tired Authority: i also like crack
VaVaVirgil: i'm high on life.
>>> stepping out? ask me for the weather!
Tired Authority: and ecstasy is some good stuff
VaVaVirgil: some good stuff?
Tired Authority: ecstasy
VaVaVirgil: ecstasy? what about it?
Tired Authority: it's nummers
VaVaVirgil: yeah?
Tired Authority: yep
VaVaVirgil: i c
Tired Authority: you ever had X?
VaVaVirgil: i dunno about that...
Tired Authority: you dont do drugs and shit do you?
VaVaVirgil: that is harsh.
Tired Authority: so?
VaVaVirgil: so what?
picture it. your best friend in the whole wide world starts smoking. what would u say 2 him or her?
Tired Authority: i do drugs
VaVaVirgil: sorry, that's just not my scene.
Tired Authority: why not?
VaVaVirgil: why not?
Tired Authority: why not?
VaVaVirgil: why not?
>>> tell your friends about me. i love 2 meet new people.
Tired Authority: will you be my buddy?
VaVaVirgil: yes!
Tired Authority: you're gunna die
VaVaVirgil: i am gunna die?
Tired Authority: yes
VaVaVirgil: uh huh, uh huh.
Tired Authority: i lov eyou
VaVaVirgil: i love iming with people.
Tired Authority: i have to leave now
VaVaVirgil: yep. later.
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2004 2 June :: 9.32 pm
amy
ecstasypunk (9:19:57 PM): hi amy..
ecstasypunk (9:20:01 PM): it's holly
LPfan1327 (9:20:06 PM): HOLLY!
LPfan1327 (9:20:09 PM): omg omg
ecstasypunk (9:20:15 PM): dont have heart attack.
ecstasypunk (9:20:20 PM):
LPfan1327 (9:20:31 PM): yes.. i shall! lol
LPfan1327 (9:20:37 PM): its been a while
ecstasypunk (9:20:41 PM): hehe...yeah
ecstasypunk (9:21:07 PM): i almost wasn't sure i should IM you
LPfan1327 (9:21:16 PM): WHY NOT??????
ecstasypunk (9:21:40 PM): uhh...i wasnt sure you still like me.
LPfan1327 (9:22:13 PM): of course I do!
LPfan1327 (9:22:16 PM): i miss u!
ecstasypunk (9:22:37 PM): yeah. i miss you too....actually to be honest, i miss the way you were
LPfan1327 (9:23:00 PM): lol... u mean i've changed?
ecstasypunk (9:23:10 PM): um...yeah
LPfan1327 (9:23:23 PM): how so??
ecstasypunk (9:23:49 PM): well...you're all like happy..and with zach..and...not emma?
LPfan1327 (9:24:07 PM): lol... not emma?
LPfan1327 (9:24:18 PM): i wore my black sweat shirt that says my name on it
LPfan1327 (9:24:30 PM): just today... my gma finally gave it back!
ecstasypunk (9:24:39 PM): that's awesome.
ecstasypunk (9:24:44 PM): she trusts you more now?
LPfan1327 (9:24:55 PM): yes!
LPfan1327 (9:24:57 PM): finally
ecstasypunk (9:25:11 PM): im glad for you
LPfan1327 (9:25:31 PM): lol... sure
ecstasypunk (9:25:51 PM): soo..hows summer going for you?
LPfan1327 (9:26:04 PM): it sux... r u kiddin me? i hate summer
ecstasypunk (9:26:11 PM): awww.
LPfan1327 (9:26:21 PM): wut about u?
ecstasypunk (9:26:32 PM): well...........justin asked me back out!!
LPfan1327 (9:26:42 PM): YAY!
ecstasypunk (9:26:59 PM): yes, tis awesome..so i spend my days on the phone with him.
ecstasypunk (9:27:10 PM): and my nights waiting for morning to come so i can talk to him again
LPfan1327 (9:27:28 PM): yes.. i no wut that was like
LPfan1327 (9:27:32 PM): sounds great!
ecstasypunk (9:27:43 PM): yep
ecstasypunk (9:27:59 PM): so, does your grandma trust you enough to hang out with friends and stuff?
ecstasypunk (9:28:09 PM): cos id soo love to see you this summer
LPfan1327 (9:28:52 PM): i dunno yet
ecstasypunk (9:29:03 PM): mmm-kay
ecstasypunk (9:29:13 PM): well, you can always call me.
LPfan1327 (9:30:01 PM): i no.. i have it saved to my cell phone
ecstasypunk (9:30:18 PM): good. is it still pink?
LPfan1327 (9:30:31 PM): grrr... yes...
ecstasypunk (9:30:35 PM): lol.
ecstasypunk (9:30:36 PM): cute
LPfan1327 (9:30:44 PM): i dont like pink... still.... but i still have it...
LPfan1327 (9:30:58 PM): pink is okay with me if its with black
ecstasypunk (9:31:03 PM): hmm...perhaps some repressed love of pink going on here....
ecstasypunk (9:31:11 PM):
LPfan1327 (9:31:24 PM): lol...
ecstasypunk (9:31:41 PM): ah, from the volume of yelling i think im supposed to go.
ecstasypunk (9:31:47 PM):
LPfan1327 (9:31:52 PM): already?
LPfan1327 (9:31:55 PM): so soon?
ecstasypunk (9:31:56 PM): yeah....blah.
ecstasypunk (9:32:01 PM): i'll be on all day tomorrow
LPfan1327 (9:32:03 PM): we must speak again
LPfan1327 (9:32:06 PM): okay
ecstasypunk (9:32:08 PM): okay
ecstasypunk (9:32:12 PM): bye
LPfan1327 (9:32:15 PM): bye
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