im listening to splash waterfalls by ludacris and SHIT this song gets me fucking horny...heh.

well, the days have been alright. i have a pack of cigarettes and only smoked one when i was stressed and aggravated and yeahhh so thats good. cigarettes are not a daily thing for me anymore, there more like a stress reliever, just like alcohol was to me.

today:friday, i dont know whats going on today hopefully something but its ok if nothing happens, lol. sherri is coming over today and we might go to the witches brew with her and her friend crystal and her friend. well see what happens tonight and if anything else is going on. OH WELL.

saturday sherri,amy,and brian are going to be here and were going to drink and shit and amy and brian are going to smoke. thats really it. this vacation is over and i honestly cannot believe it. it didn't really go fast but still i can't believe that its already over, shit.

iheartodandrichie<3`

last night was fun. we went to drop my sisters off at my dads girlfriends house and then we went to wantagh to pick sherri up. after that amy,sherri,and i went to the witches brew and had some espresso and DAMN that shit was good and it made me pee so fuckin badly, haha. we hung around there and called some people to see who we could hang out with. we wanted to hang out with roberto but he was tired and he had to go to work at 3 so he said no.

i saw yoni and he was staring at me and kept talking to his friend about me and it was getting me really mad and everything. i wanted to fuckin punch him in the face.

so we get in the car with my mom and we drive to the wantagh bowling alley and we were waiting till 9:30 for allison,dave,and sam to come and it was like only 8:30 so we walked to wendys and then hung around in there and then went back to the bowling alley then met up with the people and they played a game and then we went back to allisons house. OK? yea.

i<3richieandod

well, i have nothing to write here besides the fact that i changed the look of my journal around :) i got a new background,cursor, and perdy colors and all that shizzle. well, i hope that you like it so leave comments about the sexy changes to my sexy journal.

i.wuv.richie.and.od.<3`

which groupmember are you?

well, last night i went to sportime in bethpage to this wrestling thing with amy, my mom,my sisters,her friend,and the kid he mentors. it was pretty fun. one wrestler before he went on came into the audience stood on the bleacher right next to me and was spitting beer all over the place. UGH i got it on my jacket and all in my hair. ew i reeked of budweiser and my hair got fucked up. blah oh well. today i dont know exactly what im doing but all i know is that tonight sherri is coming over and hopefully we're going to go to the witches brew and yeah. february 20th i want to go to the glen cove bowling alley and hopefully i will be able to.

i.heart.richie.and.od.<3`

well, im in school and bored as fuck. my first period teacher isn't here and only me and one other person was in my 2nd period class so were not doing anything. well, hopefully today goes pretty quick. its the last day of school before vacation!

iheartrichieandod<3`

|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie

|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination

|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against

|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost

|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies

|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done

|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH


|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!

|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk

|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally

|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)

|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.

|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie

|Me|
Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...

|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche

valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/

well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..

school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.

iheartrichieandod<3

well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.

one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...

im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh

iheartrichie<3

school today was...
fine.

ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.

bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled

when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.

iheartrichie<3

holy shit i feel sick :-/
omgggg i feel fucking sick as hell and i cant go to school otherwise i will SERIOUSLY die. omg i will kill myself i feel so sick. shit, i hope they don't kick me out for 30 days while im on this education probation :-/ ahh fuck it they wont, all the teachers are like in love with me - haha. :)

sooo yesterday was not a bad day.

busride to bocessat by myself because nikki wasn't on the bus.
busride to pacesat next to matt and listened to the 'fuck me,make love to me' song by uhh ludacris? haha its soo funny!!!
1st period-BBAdid some excel shit, and just chilled around on the computers ...
2nd period-SSdid some worksheet with ciara and the other new girl and then did another 3 worksheets on my own
3rd period-healthwowww fun ass class, haha theres about 17 kids in this class and its like a regular class and mr. reiss is the teacher and so far its a fun class considering i've already finished taking high school health..HMMMMMMMM.
4th period-englishworked on questions after reading a 3 page version of julius caesar yesterday in class, i sat next to eric and he's really really nice.
5th period-mathwent to mrs. neumans and worked on assignment 3 of which i did wrong, SHIT.
6th period-lunchate a bagel with paul and then nikki,kerry,and eric came in and ate. i always just sit around with connie or sit in the 'health,intro to occ,art room' because thats our 'cafeteria' lol. i don't want to go outside because i know i will smoke a cigarette and i really dont want to but oh well if it happens it happens..right?
7th periodearth science, my teacher, scott, is really nice and we worked on a lab
8th period-intro to occmy teacher (jonny b) is nice but old and annoying. we worked on some sheet and i met denise who is from glen cove and is supposedly really good friends with colin- oh gd...
9th period-economicsi talked to denise alittle more and she's really nice the we did some worksheet and then mr. reiss came in and we talked about how denise was from amsterdam and she smoked a lot of pot there..haha funny ass shit.
busride to bocessat with matt again and jamie wanted to fight im not sure who?
busride to erockhe got on the bus and my heart like fuckin melted<3

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PACE!!!
well, yesterday i started pace. it's pretty cool. we get like no homework and we do no work in class either- haha. when i walked into the school the smell of pot just fucking enveloped me, haha it was soo fuckin funny. i met a bunch of nice people-nikki,cammy, eddie,alex,nikki,amy,matt,kendall,cjizzle(haha),scott and just a bunch of other people
oh yeah and then theres ciara and andrew. school is fun, its like one big happy family and the school is tiny as hell. blah i could see myself having a lot of fun in this school.

2.2.o4- sammsta's 16th birthday!!!

ah so last night sucked because i didn't get drunk...HAHA. im such a loser. well, im on the phone with corey and then at like a quarter after eight were bringing my sisters back home. after we do that my mom is taking me to kohls and were gonna get a shirt for me to wear tomorrow at my first day at pace. rawr im soo nervous :X ahhh. yeahhhhhhh.

ok so last night amy came over and she had bought handcuffs from CVS and jokingly she handcuffed herself to the chair and got herself stuck so we called my moms boyfriend and he came over to help us get her out. sooo after that brian and nick came over and just hung around and shit and then they wanted weed so they called someone and they brought it. 5 minutes after the car left greg calls me and told me that he was in that car and he was in front of my house and i asked him why he didn't just tell me to come outside. oh well. yesterday was my last day of being grounded so im really excited that next week i get to go out, YAYYYYY!

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

iheartodandrichie<3

haha<3
haha last night is why i love samm,jenn,and scutch. last night casey dropped off some of that infamous drink for us and we drank and lala and got drunk and stuff. haha then while were sitting on the computer samm's cell phone rings and guess who it was? JEN DEGRASSI! lmfao, the fat bitch actually had the nerve to call jennCO ugly. omggg bitch. haha so we were piss drunk and barely had a clue what she was saying so YEAH! lol. well, today i have no clue what im doing. richie came and picked sammster,jco,and scutchy at around 3:15am well, its all good.

tonight i have to go to my sisters 50 dance or something, its gonna suck big fat monkey balls. IF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHING AFTER CALL MY CELL PLEASE!!!!

i.heart.od.and.richie.<3

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *