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2006 20 October :: 1.09pm
We received our flight itinerary for France.
I am no longer excited. I am just scared and anxious.
We also received our finalized schedules for school. They show when we have breaks and everything.
Here is the flight plan:
Read more..
I'll repost this as it gets closer to January. I will post our breaks and things later.
I'm scared.
I love you all.
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I think im broken
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2006 18 October :: 10.50pm
nothing seems real anymore.
i can't look at somebody without wondering what they're seeing...
or wondering if they're having problems, too.
and i can't look at myself in the mirror without having to stop and realize...
that it's me i'm looking at. and i'm actually living my life.
all of this is actually happening.
it seems so simple, but it's so hard for me to comprehend.
i can't be around someone,
without wondering if people can tell that i'm falling apart.
...am i falling apart? or do i just feel like i should be?
i tried so hard to help. i wanted things to get better.
i was affectionate and kind, and when that didn't work,
i screamed so loud that it hurt.
i said hateful things and harsh words. that needed to be said.
"tough love," i guess you call it.
i don't know what's happening.
i hate how i've lost grip.
i just want my life back.
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2006 17 October :: 11.20pm
I am seriously stressing about France. I just completed my housing form and I sound so boring. I like books. I like to read. I am nice and smart. I like writing and playing video games. I have siblings.
I wouldn't want me to live with me.
Plus Nick me manque. I don't know how I'll be able to survive France if I can't survive a day.
I love my mom and my dad, by the way. I called home really quickly earlier (forgot my phone charger, I'm stupid) to tell my mom that the new Nancy Drew game was out and the first thing she said was "what's wrong." After a brief discussion about how they popped out this game faster than a baby and faster than the last game, she said my dad wanted to talk to me. My dad said that the son of one of his friends died of a drug overdose last night and I shouldn't do drugs. I assured him I wouldn't and he told me the kid was in Kalamazoo even. I thought back to sirens last night then reassured my father once more before asking him if he would be joining me to see Sherman Alexie tomorrow.
SPEAKING OF WHICH, I am going to see Sherman Alexie tomorrow so if you're in town and want to come along, call me.
I am going to go to the doctor and get my woman parts checked out next week or so. I also am going to stop taking the pill once my prescription runs out. I've been moody for the past month or so and I think the meds are behind it.
Also, once my passport arrives, I will be going to Chicago to apply for my French visa. It is going to be a pain in the ass.
I love you all.
P.S. I am visiting Katie. She is awesome and she knows cool people. Some girl from an apartment next door made a boob holder that didn't fit her so she gave it to me. I am wearing it and it is cool beans.
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2006 15 October :: 5.45pm
Yesterday was Nick's birthday and stuff.
He's old now. A whole not-teenage-age of 20.
I think im broken
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2006 13 October :: 5.08pm
Oh, I forgot to mention this.
Sherman Alexie will be speaking on Wednesday at 7 at GRCC. If I am home, I will be going. Hopefully my father will also attend so I don't have to drive.
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2006 13 October :: 4.56pm
I should really just go home.
For the trip to France, a professor always comes along for any amount of time from a few days to a week or so. I know I haven't expressed to any of you just how stressed I was about this particular situation but I feel that now that it has been resolved, I should fill you in.
The two candidates for the journey were the only two French professors. I will not name any names because this is THE INTERNET and my life is on public display. But I really wanted one professor to take us and I really didn't want the other one.
You see, I had heard stories about this other professor. These stories included multiple accounts of this professor leaving people behind and losing both people and luggage.
I wanted the professor who took people around on a bus all over France and bought them tea at cafes in Barcelona.
Well this week we were told that we would find out who was taking us. Today in class, at the very end, almost sheepishly, we found out who it would be. Thank goodness it turned out to be the one everyone wanted. You don't know how relieved everyone was today when it was announced. There were shouts, cheers and applause. I made sure to call my mom.
In other news, today began Fall Break. On Monday or so, I will be going to see Katie. I will return on Wednesday or Thursday and will work on Friday. I have papers to write so it won't be much fun.
I love you all.
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2006 13 October :: 10.44am
Learn THE TRUTH about Dick DeVos:
"We're holding our Spring formal and my date is the Truth. Tonight we're going all the way." But before I begin, I'd like to apologize because I just realized that I am being mean to many republicans out there with this entry and that's just not who I am. I'd also like to apologize to Katie's roommate because I just discovered that she wrote this. I'm sorry.
Read more..
I love you all.
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2006 12 October :: 10.52am
If I'm horrible at anything, it's being perfect.
i'm ready for change. : )
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2006 12 October :: 9.58am
So.
It's snowing and stuff.
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2006 10 October :: 5.31pm
Who is driving?
BEAR IS DRIVING!
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2006 9 October :: 10.17pm
life is confusing.
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2006 6 October :: 11.36pm
Ok Go is a no go because my car is crap. Stupid college education.
Instead, I shall be going to Red Flannel! Yay for small town celebrations.
I love you all.
P.S. I have been so tired lately that I slept through one of my classes today. I went over to Nick's to take a nap and fell asleep from 11 to 1:15 when I had to go to work. And I'm still tired. It's because of this France STRESS and midterm STRESS. I hate being stressed because I get tired and snappy.
P.P.S. I saw Katie today and I am fulfilled as a human being. I have reached enlightenment and it is named Kittie Katie. I missed her oodles.
P.P.P.S. I found a whole bag full of Christian romance novels I haven't read yet. I am going to go read then sleep.
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2006 5 October :: 9.10am
Does anyone have a reliable vehicle we could take to see Ok Go? Nick doesn't think my car's gonna make it and he doesn't trust his either.
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2006 3 October :: 5.39pm
To people who would like to go to the Ok Go concert on Saturday:
I could not find a time for the concert but it is apparently before the football game. (If anyone knows further details, please tell me.)
If you would like to go, respond to this entry and/or call me.
We'll figure out transportation once I know for sure who's coming. I planned on making it a day trip, leaving early on Saturday, picking up Katie at Western and hanging out in Ann Arbor once we got there (because I love Ann Arbor and I want Katie to come).
I love you all.
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2006 28 September :: 10.15am
My French professor joked with us the other day and he was so proud that he had made us all laugh.
A student asked how long our compositions needed to be (the last one was, at maximum, a page). He replied with a straight face saying it needed to be no more than 5 or 6 pages. We all made that stunned "wha?!" noise before laughing as he smiled.
It was hilarious. He's so French it's awesome.
I love college.
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