the phone rings. on the other side a voice. not sweet. not somber. a cold voice. a voice telling you of betrayal. a voice telling you all you have worked for has been thrown back at you. a voice basically telling you you're a piece of shit. which is what i feel like. for anyone who may give a shit about my piece of shit self, my dad just called and told my i have to go to court tuesday cause im being charged with domestic battery over some delusion my mom says happened and it never did. its funny how her b/f can hit me and get off the hook, but i can fucked in the ass for some fabricated lie that i never committed. fuck this world. seems those who i love always seem to hurt me. it's hard to accept love when the only love you've known hurts. so bad. thats why im so scared. save me.

haha wouldnt you know it: i upset you again. if i upset you everyday, tell me so i can feel even shittier. i guess i'll go pee on myself, i feel pretty worthless about it.gdghhhgfsx

oh man. thank god you called.

im at sara\'s. these girls are pretty cool, this trips been kinda lame but i\'ve got time to escape and think alot. I miss heather and all my friends, i hope everythings the same when i come back. it better be. well im going out. <3 nite

Thrice concert today. :). I leave tomorrow. I'm supposedly going to come back and say "Heather who?" haha i'm only gone til next wedensday partna. I just hope my plane doesnt crash. Fuck i want a parachute. I'm not indifferent towards death anymore. I cant die..not yet. Too many things left unfelt, unsaid, undone. But i gtg and try to get a haircut. <3 sean


"You have to have rain to have a rainbow" - It's called a RAINbow, not a THUNDERbow, ashley, so your wrong.

dashdashd booreed

i'm a foundation. what type of make up are you?
quiz made by muna.

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hi horny heater. this whole weekend has taught me some things just arent worth my time. alot of bad shit has happened. but who cares, friday was awsome and so was the rest of this weekend. only thing leaving me sad is i miss my best friend. I don't see how other people have come between us. But whatever happens, happens i suppose, its not for me to decide what someone else wants or feels. ha the teacher just posted our grades: i got a 13% and pat has a 15% in this class. school is just a tool for my amusement now. wee. well im out. <3 bye.
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"Nothing is ever lost. Just some things cant be found."- me

in class and i feel like my penis is going to explode if he doesnt let me go to the bathroom
hmmm. im supposed to be doing work. im gonna go hang with pat, i just copied his disk so im all set. I finished writing your note heather. wow. parents anger me very much. my mom is being nicer, i think i get my AOL back thursday. I feel bad that your all grounded and shit heather, where as pretty much nothing happened to me. That's why you gotta start owning your parents at an early age :). I feel really bad about everything, especially this fucking ice cream shit that is gay as a catholic priest. ragh. check you email heather, im gonna go. <3 bye