i feel jacked up. if only you knew. the pain on my soul. well, heathers note cheered me up. and then again it sorta got to me too about something, but its ok. :) <3 heather shes awsome. I put her pic in my wallet, i'm gonna show it to my class. ra HA. i might be going insane. that's one thing i hate about looking out for everyone all the time. I often don't look out for myself. I remember when i was little, and i went to the ice cream store to meet batman. Anyways, they were giving out some free ice cream samples, and i tried one that was the best thing i had ever had. From then on I had that ice cream every chance i had, but after a few months they stopped making it. So eventually i stopped trying to get it from the store, and i found a new favorite ice cream. But still today, every ice cream store i walk into, there's always a part of me wishing i could have that ice cream once again, although a new flavor holds my intrest now. But i wonder what would have happened if they never would have stopped making that ice cream. hmm.... somthing to think about, leave a comment if you want.well i gtg, later kids. <3

stufff
bubbles reflect light, images. images to be interpreted how you may percieve it, which is your right. just consider that "bubble" might be shielding the truth from you. the beauty of it is making other people think you are oblivious, when really they are themself. theres things we have yet to talk about because the chance has been taken from us. for now. damn heather i wanna say something to your mom but its too soon now. ok well i gtg, spider man is calling. my new email is s0cialdelusion@hotmail.com , any email needs to be sent to that, not any of my AOL s/n's. <3 bye

its like the crushing blow to your ideal "perfect moment". its the forsaken message telling you the end has come. its the unseen voice destroying that moment of perfection in your life. the climax reverting to descendance. the epitomy of agony in your life. the downfall has overshadowed the climax you had once held. is it really worth the wounds etched into your soul? was your glimpse at perfection worth the depressed stupor you have now lived through day in and day out. wounds mended to, not erased or forgotten, but will be built over in their place an everlasting memorial of the one thing you cant have. an impenetrable prison.

life.
What an intruiging word. Life. Never ceasing to betrothe me. Humanity. Never failing to disgust me. I was told a eyewitness account today by a boy and what happened to him and his family. He is a Palestinian Christian living in a town occupied by Israeli soldiers. He told of how the soldiers forced themselves into his 4th month pregnant sister's apartment. and raped her. and raped her again. and when she said no more, they beat her stomach and killed her fetus. and raped her again. and when her husband tried to get them to stop, they shot him in the neck. 3 times. killing him in cold blood. and then they went to the boy's apartment. the soldiers said he should feel lucky that his mom is too ugly to be raped. then his family was forced to hand over all their money and gold so the soldiers would leave. leaving behind them was a family torn apart. for life. and this is just one of many stories. but we never any hear of this. out government is currently supporting Israel, calling all of this "a war on terror". its more like a war OF terror. there is so much more to be had in life. so many beautiful experiences this people could have had. so many dreams to live out. dreams shattered in an instant at the hands of humanity. the hitler's, mussolini's, stalin's, bin laden's, and huessein's of this world have committed far worse acts than these. and it's all for nothing. this is no life to live. humanity is the only species that thrives on killing each other. more investment is put into military expenditures then anything else. humanity is a plague. i may share physical traits with humans. but if this is humanity being shown here.....dont call me human.

do you ever wonder what meddles in their minds? hypocracy. they say one thing and do another. sickening me. but i wont be sickened anymore. not by you. because bonds do break, stone can turn to dust. as it has. Au revoir. Je n'aime pas elle.

Our ignorance is bliss. Enjoy it while its here. I know i will. <3 nite

Relationships
No more games. None. Be open with me. I'm trying to climb over this mountain, but I need your help. YOUR help. <3

Change
This world needs to change. All of it. A blanket had been unfurled over you eyes. They blind you to the system, blind you from the unequality that exists. How Is there equality in a world that is ruled by a few hundred people? How do we have the power to rule over others lives? To sentence them to death? To imprison them? To tax them? To take away their freedoms? It's simple: we don't, never have, never will. No matter how much you may detest someone or something, you have no right to take it away unless it is of your own. NO RIGHT. How society judges is something that throws me into a rage as well. Society judges me on such dimunitive levels such as grades and money. My level of intelligence is based on letters. Whats wrong with that picture? I see everything wrong. Someone give ideas about change in society. Please.

In comp. class
Hi kids. Aggh some girl really angered me a few mins ago in between classes. no names, but I want to hit someone ahhhhhh asfffndfh!!! Ugggh some people just need to be shot, no questions asked. Hmm well i'm having a good chat with pat so im out. <3 peace.

Apathy is rare in her

She is serene yet enraged

Holding on tight

Letting go, losing strength

Exhausted from all that's around

Yet she always has a smile

well i'm just skippin at jasons. I got bored. Someone figure this out. . We are going to do somethin cool. <3 bye

Her heart burns bright

Emotions kept locked inside

As she awakens, her eyes open like doors

Through that door she comes out

Her essance is releasing

Emotions glowing brighter each day

Reaching out is her hand. I think i might take it

if you get what this is, let me know.<3 sean

bORED AS FUCK
Im just in class again. Patrick is sleeping so i got nothin to do. Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick. Someone. Suck my dick.This is worthless i'll write somethin worthwhile at home. <3 bye

Haha i enjoyed reading Heather's jorual. It made me smile in this boring ass class. *yawn* Well i'm hoping everythings gonna work out, cause things are getting clearer. Im suck of fuckin negativity and people focusing on it. You can't dwell on the bad that "could" or "may" happen, you just gotta hope for the best, and whatever happens is for the best. You can't lose that hope of happiness. Keep on smiling. <3 you all. -Swan

me=fuckin lucky
Last night. I. Shit. Myself. After i left tom's at 2:20 i was drivin to ashley's when i saw a cop drive by. So when i got to ashleys, she told me some guy called the cops so i had to go home. So while im driving home a cop with no lights comes outta nowhere, yells at me to pull over, and checks me out and shit. Then he starts laughing and said it was all a fuck up and i could go freely with no consequences or anything. I could have fuckin died i got so scared. Then i went numb. The craziest thing is, i still dont care. And im for sure gonna do it again, just not for a fucking while. Im sorry for not gettin to hang with you ash. fuckin coppers. But i got to chill out with tom for a bit so it was cool. I dont see anything wrong with driving around tho. I am a ver cabable driver, we arent doing anything "bad", so societys laws can fuck themself in the ass. Anyways; im still dumbfounded by women. Agh. someone put me outta my misery. Someone.