I'm up before noon for once.

"kimi to futaride aruita ano goro no michi wa nakute
sore demo zutto aruita itsuka kimi to aeru no kana

nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyaka ni yuki ga furu todokanai to hodottemo
kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana o ima...

kyonen saigo no yuki no hi kataku kawashita yakusoku
omoidaseba toke dashi tenohira kara koborete

nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyaka ni yuki ga furu todokanai to hodottemo
kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana o ima...

madohen ni hitori kiride tada yuki o mitsumeteru kimi o omoidashi nagara
garasu koshi ni kimi o ukabe saigo no kuchizuke shite...

ne...waratte yo mou nakanaide
koko kara zutto anata o mite iru wa."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"The road we walked back then is gone
but I still walk along it anyway.

The snow quietly falls on the gentle slope,
now I put your favorite flower in your room
even though I know it will never reach you.

when I remembered our unyielding promise
from last year's last day of snow, it began to melt,
and spill from my hands.

The snow quietly falls on the gentle slope,
now I put your favorite flower in your room
even though I know it will never reach you.

As I remember you watching the snow from the window all alone,
I recall you through the window and give you one last kiss...

please, smile, stop your crying now...
I'm always watching you from here."
-"Ain't Afraid to Die" by Dir en Grey

Boku wa... kimi no... vanilla
Okee then. As you can see my journal has a new look all thanks to the great and powerful JDawgII! I bow to you, oh sir person!
Well today mom woke us up to the lovely sound of the housecleaners yakking away in Spanish. We went down and ate breakfast and got into our swimsuits and headed off to the Morgan Hill swim center! Man do their male lifeguards have nice bodies! O_O
I swum a few laps, which felt good. The pool there is really clean and nice yush yush.
One of those water arobics classes started about an hour or so after we arrived. Those are fun to watch. We had lunch there. It was good, but it took forever for them to make.
At one point there was this really good-looking guy who walked over to the pool. He was tall and his hair was spikey in a strange but interesting way, and he was wearing sunglasses and a white tank top. His pants were really cool. I wanted them. They were navy blue but a light kind of board-short material and they were baggy and had some big pockets on them. He had really nice arms. Well all-around he was very well-built. I found myself wondering what he did to get himself like that. It didn't look like he was the kind of built you would see in a gym or anything.
I didn't have to wait long to find out, because soon off went his shirt and pants and he got in zee pool. He was wearing a Speedo, which was kind of a turn-off lol, but that was when I realized he was a swimmer. He started doing laps back and forth - slowly, but his movements were so smooth. Soon another guy who I guess was his friend went in the lane next to him and started doing the same. He wasn't wearing a speedo though. He was wearing those really tight short things. Yush they were very good and both very nicely built indeed.

A while afterward we went back home and Denise and Mom went to my grandma's house mostly because she had an orthodontist appointment down by there later on. I stayed and talked online, which was when Jimmy showed me how to put a background image and stuff because he's a genius (btw, don't let that comment go to your head =P ^__^).

Mom came back and we were off to voice lessons! It's only been my third lesson, so I'm still kinda jittery before I go every time. i'm afraid I'll do badly or something. i don't have a very high confidence level, as those of you who know me have probably figured out.
But Gary's really cool. He's my voice teacher for those a little slower ^^. When we were warming up by the piano he made me try for a high E note and I got it. He said he doesn't have anybody else who can do that XD I was so proud of myself.
Then I got up in front of the microphone with the headset on and worked on "My Last Breath" by Evanescence. After doing it a few times my voice felt shot. Ugh. But he said that I had improved a lot. The first few times he would play back different parts where he wanted me to do something, like push my voice so I can hit the note better or stronger, and I'd try it and I'd actually get it the first time, so that made me feel really good. He said he liked how the song was coming along and he was going to burn it onto a CD I could take home to see how I was doing.
When I went back into the office thing of his he said
"yeah so keep working on that song. you'll be singing it in about a month."
I looked at him, "you mean singing it singing it?"
"At the Taste of Morgan Hill" he said.
O_O oh God. I have to sing in public. To these people who live in my city which means I will be seeing them on the street, to people who I used to go to school with, performing this difficult pain-in-the-butt song. I am nervous just at the idea of it. I should be happy and stuff, and I am, because he doesn't make people perform unless he thinks they're doing well, but I am just so weirded-out at the idea. UG i say!
Oh well. Show some support fellas. No, that does not mean come. In fact, that means stay as far away as you can. Move temporarily to India or something, but make me feel better.

Anyway, I am back on my butt here at home debating with Camille and Chris over what movie we should see. Chris just left though. Hey... I FOUND NEMO!

An insane Jrock story... by yu-chan
Your screen name
You happen to meet	Gackt
at a	watch shop
on	December 12, 2049
when you	scared away some little kids with a No mask
and you say,	"I'm a lonely girl..." *singsong voice*
he says,	"Nanda? Doshite? I am confused..."
the two of you	walk away from each other.
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An insane Jrock story... part 2! by yu-chan
Your name (and)
the name of the jrocker you got in part 1
went to	a miniature golf place
and	the two of you contemplated human existance.
After that, you two	ate a nice dinner.
and	he accidentally gets snow in his pants.
He brought you back to your	house
and	you eat a pig-- you're starving.
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Oh yeah! Piggy!

I am the infamous butabara incident!
Which Gackt TV appearance are you?

quiz by acesquad.com

Big Fat survey stolen from the Jimmsteroonie
Your full name:: Jessica Doris Kelly
Age:: 14
Height:: 5'5 1/2
Natural hair colour:: brown
Eye colour:: brown
Number of siblings:: 1 - younger sister
Glasses/contacts?:: nope
Piercings:: one in each ear. I hope to get a second peircing in my ears before school starts.
Tattoos:: nope
Braces?:: had them Now I wear a retainer

FAVOURITE
Colour:: Black
Band:: Dir en Grey, Miyavi, Disturbed, Enya
Song:: don’t know
Stuffed animal:: my Teddy and Cola, my big polar bear. I used to have a wolf-dog one, but I dunno what happened to him.
Video game:: kingdom Hearts
TV show:: Fruits Basket?
Movie:: um um Pirates of the Caribbean, the Lotr series, Miyazaki’s stuff (spirited Away and Princess Mononoke in particular), the Secret Garden.. and probably some others I can’t remember.
Book:: Blood and Chocolate by Annette Curtis Klaus
Food:: Alfredo chicken/pasta
Game on a cell phone:: Falling Numbers
CD cover:: um... Enya’s “A Day Without Rain” album, and Dir en Grey’s Single “Jessica” just because it’s named after me ^^.
Flower:: rose
Scent:: Pikaki flower? Gardenia? Rose? thos kinds I guess
Animal:: Wolf
Comic book:: Gravitation, Demon Diary, Fruits Basket, Paradise Kiss
Cereal:: Rice Crispies with sugar on top.
Website:: poop
Cartoon:: Fruits Basket, Family Guy, Wolf’s Rain, Inu-Yasha... ummm yup?

DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: I teach myself some songs on the piano.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: no.
Like to sing?:: yush. I luff to sing.
Have a job?:: nuh uh
Have a cell phone?:: yup
Like to play sports?:: depends on what sport it is
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: no
Have a crush on someone?:: not really anyone possible to get at the moment ^^
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: Nope.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: nope. I think we have 4.
Have any special talents/skills?:: people say I’m a good writer.
Excercise daily?:: not DAILY but every few days I actually attempt exercise ^^ Oh wait and I go on dog walks sometimes too, so I guess that could be considered exercise.
Like school?:: don’t know if I will yet, but I think I will.

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: don’t think so
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: yush. Unless you mean the very very tips. that hurts.
Speak any other languages?:: know a bit of Japanese, but not enough to construct whole sentences and paragraphs or anything, same goes for spanish. I can constrict sentences for that. Some German vocabulary, but very little.
Go a day without food?:: Probably, though once the day was over I’d raid teh fridge like to other.
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: If I try really hard.
Read music, not just tabs?:: if I take the time to write it out yes.
Roll your tongue?:: Yeah.
Eat a whole pizza?:: nope

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Not really
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yep probably
Gotten lost in your city?:: no
Seen a shooting star?:: yes. Many a-shooting star. My neck hurts.
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: nope
Had a serious surgery?:: well, by appendix ruptured and they had to rush me in to get it taken out, but truthfully I don’t know if that’s “serious”. I heard you can die if the appendix ruptures and it isn’t taken out right away, but I don’t think I was close to it.
Stolen something important to someone else?:: No.
Solved a rubiks cube?:: nope
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: yep i think so
Cried over a girl?:: I got in a lot of arguments and fights with my “friend” in second and third grade, so I guess you could consider it that.
Cried over a boy?:: Yes.
Kissed a random stranger?:: No.
Hugged a random stranger?:: Well someone I didn’t really know, but It wasn’t someone off the street or anything.
Been in a fist fight?:: nope
Been arrested?:: Oh yeah. I get arrested all the time. They know me at the police station.
Done drugs?:: not zee bad ones
Had alcohol?:: tried it. AND THE WINE AT MASS! THAT COUNTS!
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::I’ve done that and had juice come out of my nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: I don’t think ALL of the buttons, but quite a few i think. I want to do that in the empire state building sometime MUAHAH.
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: no
Swore at your parents?:: not so they could hear me.
Been to warped tour?:: Nope
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: I don’t think so. Not on purpose at least. I’ve kicked a ball or something and hit them there, and while swimming I got pulled under water and was reaching out with my hands and opened my eyes to find I was inches away from a friend’s crotch. Yeah luckily I didn’t touch or hit him there or anything lol. He didn’t notice it.
Been in love?:: nope
Been close to love?:: don’t know.
Been to a casino?:: Yup.
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: my parents have
Broken a bone?:: Nope
Gotten stitches?:: no
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: don’t think so
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: No
Made homemade muffins?:: probably when I was little with my mom.
Bitten someone?:: yup
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: both
More than 5 times?:: yup. Disney world I think 6 times and Disneyland 8 or something. I don’t know I have to ask my dad.
Been to niagra falls?:: Nope.
Burped in someones face?:: yush
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Yes.

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: when I got up at noon.
Went to the bathroom:: when I woke up? I don’t remember.
Saw a movie in theaters:: Spiderman 2? I think that was it. Don’t remember when we saw it though.
Read a book:: last week or something you’re talking about reading a whole one.
Had a snow day:: never
Had a party:: last month? I can’t remember.
Had a slumber party:: sometime in July
Tripped in front of someone:: I don’t remember these things
Went to the grocery store:: don’t know. I don’t usually go with my mom if I can avoid it.
Got sick:: Long time ago.
Cursed:: about an hour and a half ago

PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: Fruit
Black/white:: black
Lights on/lights off:: off
TV/movie:: movie
Car/truck:: Car
Body spray/lotion:: Body spray
Cash/check:: Cash.
Pillows/blankets:: pillows
Headache/stomach ache:: neither
Paint/charcoal:: Paint.
Chinese food/mexican food:: Chinese food. Mexican is good too.
Summer/winter:: autumn
Snow/rain:: rain rain rain
Fog/misty:: Fog.
Rock/rap:: Rock! RAP SUCKS!
Meat/vegetarian:: Meat.
Boy/girl:: as to what I prefer? Umm.. well I am a girl, but I like guys.. ?
Chocolate/vanilla:: Chocolate.
Sprinkles/icing:: Icing
Cake/pie:: Pie.
French toast/french fries:: French fries. Oh the unhealthiness.
Strawberries/blueberries:: Strawberries I guess
Ocean/swimming pool:: Depends on where the ocean is and where the pool is and the temperature.
Hugs/kisses:: hugs
Cookies/muffins:: COOKIES!
p33n/bewbz:: poop
Wallet/pocket:: Wallet.
Window/door:: Window
Emo/goth:: goth, but either is fine
Pink/purple:: purple. Pink is evil.
Cat/dog:: DAWGEY!
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: short-sleeved I guess, but sometimes I wear a long=sleeved under a short sleeved.
Pants/shorts:: PANTS I SAY! SHORTS ARE SATAN!
Winter break/spring break:: Winter break
Spring/autumn:: autumn
Clouds/clear sky:: clouds. No clouds is creepy all-together, and if it’s overcast, it’s even better than “partially cloudy”
Moon/mars:: Moon

FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: OH let’s see, let me count... HAHA I’m not going to count.
Do you have a best friend?:: Yush. more than one.
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: Yup - a guy friend of course.
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: more girl friends
Have you ever lost a friend?:: Sure, I mean people change and you’re going to grow apart.
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: Yes.
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: um.. “I am a super super genius! Don’t you agree?!” “..... umm... *reassuringly* WE LOVE YOU!”. That’s not really an inside joke, but oh well I say. I have a lot of others that I don’t think I’’ll put here.
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: Yup. In the second grade. I can’t do big arguments now. At least not very easily.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: don’t know.
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: Told me they admired me.
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: Yush I do
What friend have you known the longest?:: Bryce
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: Oh yeah. Not going to say anything.
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: well at school. I guess it depends on which friends you’re talking about.
Do any of your friends drive?:: some are learning I think.
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: friend who was also family.
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: Not. saying. anything.
What do you think your friends think of you?:: Um.. I hope they think I’m a pretty entertaining person. A lot think I have something wrong in my head at times. I try to be a nice person, am I a nice person?

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: you asked that already. No
If you have, with who?:: poop
Are you single?:: Yes
Are you in a relationship?:: -_- isn’t this similar to the last question?
If so, for how long?:: sporks are cool
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: sure. But if that other person kicks the bucket before you meet them, you’re out of luck haha.
What was your first kiss like?:: It was like poop.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: -6756
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: No it’s a load of Crap. lol jk foolio. Love ish not poop nor shit nor crap.
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: sitting... next to one... WOAH! jk I dunno.
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: One that considered me his girlfriend but I didn’t consider him my bf, one online one that lasted pretty long, and yeah.
Have you ever been dumped?:: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?:: Not openly saying “I’M DUMPING YOU” or any of those obvious things.
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: Sat on him! lol Actually I probably have sat on a guy before when I was little or something. When I was little... Oh wait nevermind I know what the answer to that is. OH GOD MAKE IT GO AWAY!

WORD ASSOCIATION

Slippers:: Fuzz
Hat:: baseball cap
Hard:: floor
Free:: flying
Space:: a big black thing and shtarsh
Taste:: A tongue.
Good charlotte:: funny hair
Red:: blood
Deep:: Ocean
Heart:: Love
Cord:: bungee cord
Cheese:: sharp cheddar or swiss
Rain:: the most beautiful thing in the world
Work:: plain office building
Pedal:: pedal on a bicycle
Head:: ...a head.
Bed:: shleep
Fluff:: cotton balls
Hardcore:: Metal
Race:: track runners
Knife:: Cool looking dagger like Crocodile Dundee’s lol.
Jump:: off a cliff
I.... am:: Edward, Hear me SQUAWK!
want:: a hug
need:: food eventually
crave:: music
love:: music
hate:: rap
did:: something
feel:: warm
miss:: Nick and Grandpa
am annoyed by:: democrats
would rather:: it be raining
am tired of:: thinking of school
will always:: bite my nails.

SILLY STUFF

What is your favourite genre of music?:: rock/hard rock/metal/Celtic
What time is it now?::4:54 PM
What day is it?:: Monday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: Some day.
How much money do you have right now?:: $180 something I think
Are you hungry?:: Not really.
Whatcha doin?:: sitting
Do you like parades?:: They're okay
Do you like the moon?:: I luff it.
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: make LJ icons and signature banners.
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: yes. Fork is better.
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: It’d be cool to be a pyrokinetic. Controlling fire wooo!
Have you ever had a picnic?::yeah
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::no
What about sock em boppers?:: Nope
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: no

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: yeah when I want to be I guess.
pretty?:: Not really
sarcastic?:: Yes.
lazy?:: yup
hyper?:: every once in a while
friendly?:: I hope I am.
evil?:: Sometimes.
smart?:: Pretty smart
strong?:: physically or mentally?
talented?:: Depends
dorky?:: yup

ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:: Antonia. lol jk
skip:: Julie
dance:: Jessica Lenker
lonely:: Wobbly Headed Bob
pen:: Krusty-kun
flower:: Grace
window:: Marilyn?
psycho:: Misao-chan
brain freeze:: Louise. Why? That’s just how my mind works.
orange:: Jyovanne (sp)
sassy:: Rachel
jelly:: Kelly M.

FOR OR AGAINST
suicide::Against. It’s for people who are weak.
love:: for
drunk drivers:: against.
airplanes:: for
war:: For!
canada:: I guess for.
united states:: for
rock music:: for
gay marriage:: I think they should make a different word for it if they want to get married, otherwise it’s fine with me.
school:: for
surveys:: depends
parents:: for
cars:: for
killing:: Some people.
britney spears:: Against
pants:: FOR! People running around pant-less?! *shudders* Reminds me of that time in San Francisco...

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: nope
Play strip poker?:: maybe if I was drunk
Run away?:: from who?
Curse at a teacher?:: maybe
Not take a shower for a week?:: That’s... gross.. but if I was threatened I would do it.
Ask someone out?:: depends
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: No. I’d try not to.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: Sure!
Go scuba diving?:: sure
Write a book?:: Yup
Become a rockstar?:: sure
Have casual sex?:: I don’t think so...

LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: feh I dunno
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?: I dunno
What kind of computer do you have?:: iMac and I love it so everybody else can shutup.
What grade are you in?:: I'm going into 9th.
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: I threw M&Ms at Camille and Chris and Ashleigh and Julie at the movies, which created a war of M&ms.
Or just make out?:: i guess
How many posters do you have in your room?:: Full sized? 9 I think... no 11. Yeah 11. Then I have a crapload of other stuff pinned up on my wall.
How many cds do you have?:: don’t know
What time is it now?:: 5:09 PM

I suppose first I shall begin with the visit to Bryce's.

I've been friends with Bryce ever since I was a baby - my mom and his mom were roomates for a while and have been friends ever since Mom came to California from the east coast. A few years back, Kim (Bryce's mother) rented a room out to Steve, who, as it turns out, was gay. However over time I guess he became "bi" because he is kind of "together" with Kim at the moment, even though his old boyfriend for a while seemed very disappointed. I've meet that guy before. his name was Lenny and he was really funny, but that's beside the point. So yeah now Bryce, Kim, and Steve are all living together in their house. Bryce's real dad is from England, but he hardly ever gets to see him.

Anyway, they have a dog named Heidi who just had puppies. All but one died. Her name ish Daisy-Belle, but they just call her daisy for short. She ish a Scotty dog and she's so cute!

Thursday? Or was it Wednesday we went to see them. Bryce had died his hair darker for the summer. I wouldn't say it looked great on him, I think his eyebrows were too light. We ate lunch with them, and Denise, Bryce, and I started talking about stuff. He was the one who had got me started on System of a Down and all that metal stuff, so we talked about some of that - mostly System. Once we get over that awkward silence in the beginning of visits we can talk pretty freely about stuff. He's the kind of guy that's asked you if you have a boyfriend and gotten your cell phone number, but you can't really tell if he means anything by it.

The puppy kept bouncing around and a few times Bryce practically sat on her. In an attempt to get my soda away from her so she wouldn't knock it over I ended up knocking it over instead, because I'm so graceful.

Denise, Bryce, and I went for a walk around their block, which was nice. We started talking about times when we were little and would go on camping trips. I felt like I was such a horrible child. Oh dear I don't even want to remember some of those times. I spent the whole time hoping he wouldn't bring up something I would regret him ever bringing up. Luckily he didn't, though I bet he does remember some things.

Embarrassing...

Anyway, after the walk I asked if we could go see Heidi, their other dog, who was in a back room office thing. Bryce said sure so he started to go in the house and then Kim asked "are you going to his room?" God I hate it when people ask questions like that. Bryce said, "No!"
lol.
Kim just laughed and said "oh okay because you don't want to go in his room - it's a mess." At that point I remembered that Kim was the kind of laid back person that could care less if we went in his room "alone and unchaperoned" - I just automatically took it as if she was insinuating something. Actually I think I was worried more about what my mom thought when Kim asked the question. She's always worried about that kind of stuff. Last time we were over at his house Denise and I were both in Bryce's room, and he had these rubber gloves kind of hanging on this shelf-black-metal-cart-thing where he had his TV and video game stuff. When mom came in she asked "So... what are all these gloves for?" he didn't notice anything in her voice, but I did. It bothers me when you know your mom is assuming something dirty and then she asks about it. In the end he showed her how he cuts off the fingers of them and is able to make a shooting thingy using a soda bottle cap, a rubber band, and the finger of the glove. He could shoot beads and stuff pretty far with them. Twas cool.

So yush we played with Heidi and sat in the backyard for the rest of the time until it was time to leave.

Now for the camping trip.
Well, on Friday we went up to Lake Tahoe to go camping. Our campsite was by Emerald Bay, but it was actually a 4.6 miles hike if you wanted to get there, and it was a ten minute drive just to get to the actual lake. Saturday morning we wanted to go to the lake for a swim. However, the dog wasn't allowed to go on the beach, so we took him back to the campsite and put him in his bed in the tent, because if we left him outside he'd go crazy with all the chipmunks and squirrels. So in the tent he went, and we made him as comfortable as possible and opened the windows to let air in if it got hot and everything. It wasn't like we wanted to leave him there, but we kind of had to.

So we went out to the lake and went swimming and all that - it was really nice. That lake is so pretty - for a few hours. Then we went back. While walking up to the campsite the squirrels made that creepy laughing noise. They had made it when they chased eachother up a tree and left Scooter down below barking at them, and were doing it now, and I couldn't help but wonder why they were laughing at me. The first thing I went to check on was Scooter. But he wasn't in the tent. He was nowhere in the tent, his whole crate was gone. My first impression was that someone had stolen him, but we went down to a ranger thing and called the Visitor's Station. Someone seemed to know of a dog there, so we drove over. This lady came out and told us that Scooter was in the kennel across the street. He had been taken away because we had left him unattented. "Yes the tent was very hot and the dog was under stress and..." blah blah. When I put him in the tent, it wasn't hot at all, when we came back it wasn't hot at all, and he has terrier in him, he's been barking at the squirrels the whole time. So the barking she heard was most-likely him barking at the birds and squirrels in the tree because he could see them from the open window of the tent. What pissed me off more was that this guy went into our tent and took our dog without leaving a note or anything. Not to mention that comment about "the dog was under stress". That comment got my dad mad, but he didn't blow up at the lady or anything. he just brought it up afterwards and said it was like calling us bad parents, which is true. The thing that also bothers me is that you can't do anything as a family without leaving the dog unattended, and they don't have a place where we can drop him off at a kennel or anything (they said the one that they had taken him to was not for use). We're getting a citation for leaving the dog unattended now. It's dumb and it pisses me off.

They kidnapped my dawgey.

I've figured it out. I am allergic to the sun. That's right. every once in a while, when I spend too much time out in the sun, I get the rash on my hands and arms and it's gross and itchy and I don't like it. I went to the beach this week (I am returning tomorrow) and the sand there is many a shade sarker than moi. This sand isn't exactly Hawaiian-white sand, but it isn't very dark either. It was weird... comparing myself to sand. Yush paleness I am, and I am NOT ASHAMED OF IT! Well.. except when Mom makes me wear shorts. I hate my legs, and if I can get out of it, I will not wear shorts anywhere in public. Just a great random fact for you.

My grandpa came out from Rhode Island this week. Yup. He's leaving tomorrow morning though. It was fun while it lasted. We went to the Boardwalk today and went on some rides and shtuff. Twas fun fun.

I need new eyeliner.

Lupin III is on and it's really annoying me. I don't like that anime. Part of it is because of the animation.

I hate this chair. I've had to use a different computer for a while, because mine is in the room my grandpa is using, and the chair I am sitting in is so uncomfortable - it makes my tushie hurt.
Haha... tushie... what a weird word lol. Fork is a weird word as well.

Camille seems to see things. She says that the huge grin smiley on AIM is missing teeth every time I send it to her. *nodnod*.

"Oh you can tell by the way I use my walk I'm a woman's man, no time to talk. Well blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah being kicked around blah blah blah blah. Well that's alright, that's okay,you may look the other way. We can try to understand, the New York times blah blah blah blah. Whether you're a brother or whether you're a mother, we're staying alive, staying alive. Blah blah blah blah breakin and everybody's shakin', we;re staying alive, stayin' alive..."

Oh yeah. Shake it to the groove baby. I know you can't get enough of that.

Weiner dogs are cute.

Oh yeah.. my grandma had a stroke a couple days back. It's her third, but this time she can't move her left leg at all. My dad woke me up one morning and said Mema was in the hospital and that he had to go. We didn't know it was a stroke at the time. Dad just said she was in the hospital and he didn't know why yet.
But truthfully, it made me realize how weak the last incident had left me. I mean the last time I had lost someone. I have been fearing lately that my grandma might pass away, but when dad told me she was in the hospital it was really scarier then I had thought. I didn't want to feel that kind of pain anymore. I had really been hurt and I hadn't even realized it.
It looks like she's going to be okay. She's going into rehab. I just hope she'll be able to walk again.

Poetry and shtuff
Well, I was hardly ever using my journal at grestestjournal.com, so I have decided to use it to post my poetry. I just put one in this morning, so if anyone is interested, here is the address:

http://www.greatestjournal.com/~Bloodofthenight

Hopefully that will get you there. If you do decide to check it out, please comment. Thankies! Tootle pip I say!

~Jess

J-rackers
Well, the Jimmster wanted me to show him a Gackt picture, so I shall post it here. While I'm at it I figured I'd post Miyavi's picture and the vocalist from Dir en Grey, Kyo's picture. So you get three j-rockers in one entry! I cropped them and tried to shrink the ones that needed shrinking. Hope this doesn't take too long to load. I know there are a few who probably are sick of me talking about all these Japanese bands and all, but if I can't talk to you, who am I to talk to. I don't have Misao-chan to obsess to 24/7 you know! *ahem* anyway, for those who are interested here you go.



Here is the almighty Gackt-san!



and Miya-chan. He has a beeeautiful voice indeedio. Well, so do Gackt and Kyo, but I particularly like Miya's.



last but certainly not least, Kyo-san! The lead vocalist of DeG. This is a picture of him where he actually looks relatively pretty. Most of the time he tries to look scary. So yeah.

There you have it.

shtuff
Today we went to a party up in the hills of Gilroy. A woman my mom works with threw it to celebrate completing their new house. They had been living in a trailer for five years and had been having it built.
Their house was a light yellow color with a nice porch in front and a white door where a nice fancy glass window peered out from the middle. To the left was a spacious dog pen where two little terriers were hopping around along with a black dog that looked like a fatter duplicate of Shiva, Marilyn's dog. The husband of the woman who owned the house opened the door, and we stepped on to white tile. In the center of the room was actually a pond that was six feet deep. A small wooden bridge led over a narrow part of the pond. If you were standing on the bridge to your left was a waterfall that filled the pond. It then led in to the kitchen, where a black granite-topped island sat in the center and was surrounded by the rest of the counter. I think they had the most cabinets I had seen in a kitchen in my life, but it looked really nice, especially considering it was brand new.
Altogether the house sat on 85 acres of land. They owned fifteen horses, many of them Clydesdales (the huge horses with the fuzzy feet) and a few miniatures (they were horses, but their heads went up to your waste). They also owned a small population of chickens and three cats, along with another rat terrier mutt that wandered around the property instead of being with the three others in the pen.
The lady showed us the horses. They were all pretty huge, save the mini's, and most of them were really sweet. They got one of them from Disneyland and apparently another one of their horses had been in a movie series, though I'm not sure which one. Beautiful they were indeed, yup yup. There was this one named Molly who was part Clydesdale and part I forget. She'd follow you around so you would pet her. The really big ones, like the stallion they called Petey, were kind of intimidating. These things' hooves are about the size of your head, and you can imagine how tall they get; well he was one of the biggest ones, and he was nice and gentle, as all of them were, but we feared for our toes. He was pretty though. The fur around his hooves was white and his body was chesnut. His mane was a long black color, and he had dark eyes. Yush.
The biggest horse though was an odd looking one. His name was Roofy or something, but the called him Woof or Goofy Woofy because he looked different. Not in a bad way. I thought it was kind of cool. He was "nineteen hands tall" and his body was speckled brown and white. One of his eyes were a shocking blue and the other was brown, which I thought was pretty cool. He was a mellow one for a guy so big (tee hee "mellow"). Anyway, enough about the horses.
The woman's son, who is thirteen, rode down on his Quad, one of those four-wheeled dirt bike things. 'Twas cool indeedio! We hung out with him for the rest of the time. He was probably around 5'2" or 5'3" with tannish skin and blonde-brown hair and blue green eyes, though the whites of his eyes seemed a little pink, as if he might have been allergic to something. He has full lips for a boy, and it seemed that his voice hadn't really changed yet. A bit of a pervert and pretty sociable, he was a pretty good guy I guess, though I think Denise got irritated when he cussed (she is overly sensitive to cussing). The rat terrier mutt - I think his name was Oz ot Aus or something - was running up and down one of the hills, and David would throw stones down there for him to chase after, sometimes narrowly missing the dog. Unfortunately one time he rolled a stone down the hill and the dumb dog got in front of it to meet it and was smacked in the face with it. David went down to check on him and confirmed that the dog's nose was bleeding. He carried him back up the hill and told us to keep him there while he went and got a rag. The poor dog's mouth had blood in it, you could see it on his toungue, and you could see the spot just below the nose where he had gotten hit. I felt so bad for him. David came out and cleaned up the dog's face and the inside of its mouth with a dry rag, and even after that, if a stone was thrown, the dog was still rearing to play.
We went in the garage, which was large enough to be a very small house, and sat on a giant green stagecoach they kept in there. We sat there for a while and all three of us talked about anything we really wanted to, switching from subject to subject at random.
A little while afterward we headed down to one of the ponds they had on their property. The horses were walking around there. A little earlier some of them had been in the water swimming and eating the grass that grew underwater, so some of their hooves had mud on them. As we walked, David kept picking up old horse crap and throwing it by Denise to freak her out. I imagine he didn't do it to me because I didn't really have any reaction to it. We walked on past the ponds and up a hill to where he had a little platform built on the tree, rope swing, pulley, and all. We swung on the rope swing, if we could grab it from David, and played with the pulley a bit. We tried to hoist Denise up on the pulley, which nearly killed my hand. Needless to say, it didn't work.
At that time I really hated wearing flip flops. They had no traction, and with all the brush lying around, there were bound to be ticks. When we tried to go back down the hill I felt like I was going to slip and fall flat on my butt. I felt like a helpless little prissy girl, and it took me forever to get down.
We went into the house and had dinner, which was barbequed chicken and ribs, salmon, salad, some of my mom's cheese potatoes stuff, and corn on the cob. It was all really good.
I went in the pen and played with the dogs a lot. One of the terriers with a red collar was named Stuart, and he would jump up on you and lick you. The female, Shivers, reminded me of a fox. Pretty doggy indeed. She was also pretty playful. Ironically, the Shiva look-alike was named Scooter (the name of my dog) and he was the lazy one. He didn't jump around, but preferred to just walked up to you and lean his head against your thigh and be competetive for attention.
Stuart was also overly curious. You know, the kind of dogs that go sniffing where they probably shouldn't. One time when I was in the pen playing with the dogs, David was sitting on the Igloo doggy house right across from me talking and Denise was somewhere to the right of me. The dog was sniffing somewhere at the front of my shirt, and I was busy trying to listen to whatever David was saying instead of giving all of my attention to the dog. By that time was when I felt the dogs wet nose on my skin. I looked down to discover the dog had gotten two of the buttons to my shirt undone. They just happened to be the second closest button to the top and the one below that, which of course was right where my bra was -_-. David noticed and laughed at the dog and pulled him away saying "What are you doing Stewy? What are you doing you dumb dog?". So I had to turn away to rebutton my shirt. It was really embarrassing.
A little later, we asked our mom if we could ride on the Quad. She said yes and Denise went first. She had to wear a red helmet that fit tightly on her head - a motorcycle helmet, basically. I waited for about fifteen minutes and watched them when they were inside. Then they came back and he asked if I wanted to ride. I said yeah so I put the helmet on and clumsily got behind him. I held on to the back of the Quad and he took off down the hill. I was afraid I was going to fall off at some points. He went to this narrow pathway of trampled brush and drove down that. There was a metal thingy in the middle that he expertly swerved to avoid, and I was scared I might cut my toes on it as we went past. When we got to the end of the pathway he turned around and went really fast back that way. It was really fun, but I still felt kind of unstable, and I was afraid I might suddenly feel like I was falling backwards and grab on to him, which would have been very awkward. He told me he was going a little bit faster for me than he did with my sister. Now that I think about it, that could be considered a complement or and insult. Either it means he thinks I can take it if we go faster, or he cares less if I fall off and die. Oh well ^_^. Twas cool indeed.