Sex!!! Ahahahahaha!
Well this weekand was sooooooo much fun. Friday i worked and came home, No big deal, i talked on the phone till 1am to my new found friend Jermey. Then Saturday i woke up at 8am, Went out to eat with my mom, She bitched about my smoking thing again but no big deal. Then we went and took the dog up to Petco to get him hopefully adopted. Then i went to work, my mom taking my car. About 1pm comes around and i get a call. It was a guy from Petco, he tells me the dog is now adopted and gone! SCORE!!!!! Well i worked till 7:40pm. From 10:30am. That was fun lol. Then i got a ride home, Changed clothes, Got myself ready, Called Tracy, Then picked her up and took her to my managers B-day Party. Oh now that was tons of fun!!! lol. Well after being there for like 45 minutes my friend Becki asked me to take her to Mcdonalds cuz she and her bf were f'ed up so. I took them, By the time i got back, i see Tracy running out and i stop her. She was scared and looked about to cry. Her friend popped 45 Bars. He was laying in her Parking lot dying, So she calls it. I took her to her apt and sat with her for about 30 more minutes, Then i went back to the party. I began drinkin then and i didnt drink that much either. But since i have a low Tolerancy i was messed up after 2 drinks. ((which i need to get my drinks and drink them....The 4 i got left at my manager eriks Place)) Then i began talkin to this dude named Justin. He was cool. I ended up taking him home around 3am. Then we got to the area around 4am. I drove around till about 445am and Then we went to the public pool. We Fucked in the pool, lmao. i have missed out on that kind of fun for so long. It felt so good. Ugh...I finished before him and then i had a really bad feeling so i made him stop, he thought it was because of his tat, or because of daylight, or something else i cant remember but i do remember just feeling really scared out of nowhere. So i forced him to stop, then i grabbed my clothes, had to keep talking to him, kissed him like a million times then got him in the car. We drove to his house and I kissed him a few more time before i left. Then i went home around 8:00am. I got home not too long after. Told my mom i was up all night at my friends house, watchin movies and i needed to sleep, so i went and passed out till 3pm. Then i called Justin back and talked to him the rest of the day. Thats all, Lata!

Blargh School again!
So ya, Im always going to write in the day time here i guess lol. I hope one day i get comments. There aint much to say today, i took three tests, Passed two of Three as all i know of that is, I have one more in 7th period to take. I dont like it at all. Josh, one of my friends, Is annoying the Crap out of me with Being Lazy. He wont do a damn thing in my History class that we have together. Well neways....Gtg, Nuthin to say, Lata!

School...Woot!
So yea....Im updating more now when i dont get shit on this Journal, I dont even think anyone reads this stuff either. But ya, The Louisiana thing has really effected me and my mom. My school is taking in 40 kids from LA and we all are going to try and help them all out. Im hoping to be able to help them too. I am going to go through my stuff tomorrow night and give stuff to my school and my mom and everything. I dont know but i know i love to try to help people out. Neways though. I saw my 6 and 7th grade Theater teacher yesterday, It was awesome! lol I sat and talked to her for like an hour and she found out more on my brain tumor that she could have never known. So that was fun, Then i went home, Took my brother Zach to College and then Got food, Went home and then sat around for like 2 hours. Lastly i picked Zach up from College and then Went home to sleep. Now here i am at school. Lata Yall! I LOVE BRADY W.A.M.H.!!!!

Meh...Update...
I havent written in here in forever. I usually try to update here and there but like yea. Its hard when noone reads this, i guess i could say this is my own personal little journal online. I wrote a new poem today, its about my friend josh and my ex Brady. I think im starting to like him but at the same time though, i love my Brady even if he doesnt wanna be with me right now. Im going to be so sad if i dont get to see him for a long time. But ya, Im tired and im glad i dont work today. Gah, Work seriously sux alot! if you read this and you dont have a job, Be thankful. I cant stand working anymore and i have been here too long at this job. Papa Johns is tearing my energy away. I just cant wait, im not sure if i told anyone but my brother is getting married and im going to miss him so much when he leaves from the wedding. but for the length of time hes here, im not working, Period. I dont care what my manager says either, I need a vacation. Im so tired from this shit.
Neways though, i needed a new paragraph, i dont think i have written a journal this long in Forever. I miss all my friends from Lake although i hate Lake with a passion. Haha. But ya....I gots two more classes left in school, then i take home my buddy Tim and then i go to Seabrook to visit some old teachers of mine. Then lastly im going to go and head home, then im going to put flyers out, then come home. Hopefully by then i will get to nap. Later peeps, ive written too much!

Love ya'll, Jessi!

i dont know...new update.
ok so i decided to update. Whats new? Not much really, im still workin at least 35 hrs a week. Trying to Hook my Asst. Manager up with my Friend Sarah! Whom i love! hehehe she is wonderful! Have some ex wanting me back, i say hell no, i dont like him like that no more. Then i been sittin around home, Bored, then going out and driving somewhere just to be away from home. I cant do that too often though because my mom would then know. Then...Well nuthin really, hangin with Kasey sometimes and Saw Tracy today, I missed her bunches. Shes totally with the wrong guy but she loves him and i hate to see her hurt, i dont know how to get her away from him. Specially when i dont tell my friends what to do. See ya guys lata!

i cant say it...it hurts too much.
i feel like i could break something right now, everyone knows my feelings but they wont change, no matter what i do. I wrote him an E-mail today and i hope he gets it and understands it...Other then that i have been sittin at home all day. Cleaned up some, Did a load of Laundry and watched some movies on my HBO. They both made me sad, Oh ya and im going to try to quit smokin everyone! Yay for Jessi!!! Im about to basically board myself up in my room, i dont want anything to do with anyone...i hate everyone! im sorri but im gone for awhile at my house, if anyone wants to come by and say hi, go ahead, ill say hi, let you in and talk but im not going anywhere cept work or if my mom wants me to go with her somewhere, then i might go...well this shit is long enough, just like the last two, see ya...

Fuck boys!
ok im loosing myself and i need an Fing cigerette. I wanna smoke myself to death although i know that aint happenin. I open at work today and i work 40 hours this week, am i ready for it? Hell no im not, i leave in about 2 and a half hours. i have some laundry to do and i am going to at least start to clean the bathrooms. But neways why i wanna die is because i finally told myself its over and i stopped talking to Brady, or at least im going to try, i took his number out of my phone and i took all the pictures of him from my room in my dresser so i dont have to see him everyday cuz it reminds me of how much of a mistake i made. Fuck it, Other then that, Since i bet Brady will read this then i guess you can know Brady my Tumor is the same size as last year, dont know what it means and i dont have a docs appointment till the end of June, Ok? I dont care if i go back to the Hospital, i wont call noone, Cept Dani, she will be the only person that i know would be there in the Hospital with me. Well besides my mom. Hahaha....Then lets see here, Ian wont talk to me and when he does he acts like im nuthin like im shit, dont know what i did wrong, i really started to like him....i suppose that he and every other guy i know that i know likes me or something of the sort, he wants me for mostly Sex and i aint given in so he is pissed, i dunno, but i do want my damned Hat back. Thats all i should really say, my weekand Sucked, all except for chillin with Carrie the Chillin with Tracy and then even Last night chillin with Dani and Jess.....oh and i bought a water gun on Saturday at work from this semi cute 18 yr old. peace.

FUCKING SHIT! I hate my mom and Brother!
Ugh! Fuck this shit! i want to move away all over again! i want to get this fucking Car but now my mom dont want me to be the driver and out of Nowhere my brother wants to Drive, I dont fucking Get it AND NOONE SAYS ANYTHING to me untill we are about to Seriously save up! GOD DAMN IT!!! I want this Fucking Car for me! I dont want to Taken places! I want all of the car so i can go where i need or Want to go! GAH!!!! This pisses me off....My mom and brother Disguss this BEHIND MY FUCKING BACK......Bye yall

Chris....kool Guy!
ok yall, Jason especially you, Here you go with your truth, No i didnt hang with Kasey but i know you hate that i chill with Guys. I didnt do nuthin cept listen to his Ex smack him around and then Talk with his Roommates....Then him and i watched a Movie,"In Good Company" It was awesome, We both just watched the movie and nuthin else. After the movie was over we talked about his crazy exs and his love and my love and my exs....Then family and friends....Nuthin too special, Hes a super sweet guy and yes i met him off the internet but i did know him already, I met him though his Girl Friend a long time ago....We just had never met in person. I made plans with him tonight to just hang out. I wasnt trying to get anything out of it either, Neither was he either....It was fun and you should know by now i would rather chill with a guy to just sit and talk then any girl in the world....Unless i was with the Girl, Then i would rather be with her....I talked about Brady to him and it hurt even talkin a word about him. I sucked it up and spoke all my feelings out all over again about Brady. I love that boy so much and i want him back.....Well yall im hittin the hay...I gotta find a ride to Creek in the Morning or else i miss Lakes Graduation....Peace out!

School and Friends, Need i say more?
Well today hasnt been too interesting but last night i got off of work, Went with Jason to Carrie and Colbys. Then at 9:45 we left and went to the AMC 30 to see Star Wars...It was Crowded as fuck and Jason was drinkin....He still likes me....I dont want him to cuz that means i have to force myself to stop calling and stop chillin with him. Hes my friend and thats what i want to think of him as. Nuthin more or less. But i mean he was rubbing up my leg for Crists sake last night! Hello! I am not a dog....I dont need a petting...But neways, The movie played till about 2:30am, I got home around 3:10am...And i passed out around 3:45am....Then i got up at 6am....Like always....Went to School like always, and then delt with my friends and thats never hard! lol....My friends love me just as much! or at least i hope so....Well guess i should jet! Peace out!!!! :-)

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Brady....Need i say more?
hey guys, its kinda late, i got school in the morning but im extremely sad, im talking to Brady right now online, Yes hes online and well i cant help but love the man for everything he is and i think he is understanding me a little more everyday....i believe he still loves me just as much and i believe he wants just as much to have me back as i want him but the Difference of the Matter is that he is Scared of me taking the Same route....hes scared of being hurt by the Distance Between us and worst of all, He doesnt want to be hurt again and i guess i chose all of that on my own when i was living with Carrie and Colby, i blame them for some of my problems....But i shouldnt, They just helped me to see i needed my mom more then ever....I love her too....But Lord, I want Brady as mine....I know that im suppose to want him happy but i think he can still be happy with me. I dont have anyone and i havent had anyone in a long time. I just want Brady, I could care less about anyone else....I guess its a Curse i have to deal with, Well im going back to talking to Brady, Peace out...

School...Grades...Work!
omg! I hate this crap! and yes this is my first time to write in this journal in like forever in a day! doubt anyone will read it but if you want my Updates Often then go to www.xanga.com/LilRedHead1669 . So yea neways though, this past year was interesting, Moved out, Moved back in, Lost all my money, Dropped out, Came back to school, and now here i am, i just got my scores back from my State wide testing shit and i failed Math, Im extremely Pissed off too!!! GRRRRR I failed it by 10 points!!! That means 2 questions! It was 2038 and i needed 2048!!!!! FUCKING GAY!!!!!! well not gay but RETARDED!!! lol then lets see, People hate me for no reason, I want Brady for me and i never want to have anyone else, I met this dude named Trey who is like the Biggest freakin A-hole of all, I am just so Frustrated! Lol....I hate being like this, It makes me wonder too....Wonder if Brad still writes on this Thing, Same with Justin and Mike...Peace out yall! COMMENT ME BITCHS!!

blah, im tired, bored and i wanna go do something, i went out last night with Jason and he took me to the movies, nuthing happened, i dont like him, dont think ill let myself like him again. neways though, i get to go to the Linkin park Concert soon! yay! but i am using him.....so i can go, i just really love them, i love concerts too. well not much to say, so peace.

Oooo......
hey

im bored and i just got back from work, im talkin here with my friend, shes an awesome kid, dunno why i never talked to her before this cuz lol ive known her since elementary school. she is deaf so at first i was afraid we wouldnt be able to you know, talk. i started talkin to her though about my friend, who liked her. haha. 4 days till Chris's B-day!! woohoo!!! and if you guys dont know yet, Chris is one of my like 5 or 6 best friends. so neways...im sooo borededededed!!! My brother Zach is gone for the weekand without the computer!!! MWUHAHAHAHAHA!! neways again though, i need some cafinee ((i cant Spell for shit!!! damn it!!! lol)) well gonna get goin! peace!