school
hey, im in school right now and it sux ass, i hate school and ya. im sitting by this dude i know, hes alright but yeah. im tired of work and i wanna live with my boy friend Brady. i wish someone would help me with it, i dont plan on being too drastic but i really want out. i started a diet today too. im sick of being a fat person. its crap though cuz my stomach is KILLING me. im going to start drinking lots o water but i dunno how long that will last. oh well, its the water diet, maybe it will work, maybe it wont. who cares though. neways, Class is over in about 7 minutes and i CAN NOT STAND my next class. its a god damn Freshman class, Algebra 1. well i guess imma go, so i dont get in trouble in this class for doing stupid stuff. peace.

blah, blah blah blah, blah
hey you people,

god im so bored and i wanna go do stuff already. my Best friend is Getting worse, she is throwing up Blood and That Scares me sooooooo much. wish i could make her stop, she scares me and i want her to quit but she knows she can not. i told her if she cant quit on her own then she needs to seek help cuz i dont want her to die. brb. ok im back, my brother was being retarded. neways though, my new best friend Helen is awesome, i love her to death. shes the second closest best friend i got right now. Well aint much else to say, guess imma hit the road, peace.

i dunno......again.
hey guys,

wow, imma bout to head to work here soon and i dont wanna. thats kool though cuz its money. i think i was suppose to be there now but i could be wrong. i dont wanna head over there till 6 though so ya. well im bored, tired, sad, happy, and thirsty so ya. oh well, i think imma go to work, get some of my sticks and then go home at like 9 or 10, unless Jason decides to actually come to my work and pick me up. well peace, gtg.

i dunno
blah,

work sux, uhm......imma bout to go to sleep and yeah. i decided to write in here again, my friend Crystal pissed me off and she was pissed or still is pissed off at me, i got two projects in school and i havent been able to call my love in like.....a week, i am sad about that. i wanna talk to him but i have no money to call him up at all. *sighs* oh well i guess. my best friend Carrie finally chose a guy, she chose Jo, hes kool in all but my other friend Helen has liked him since she met him, he liked her back for like half a day but he was so obsessed with Carrie that he didnt even think of Helens feelings when he decided to go out with carrie. that shit pisses me off. other then that im happy i passed all but one class!! its great!!!! i was happy most of today but work came in and i was tired, i still am actually and imma bout to go to sleep so peace out yall.

yeah.....o.o
YES!!!!

im happy!!! i got to see my Love!!! woohoo!!! he is AWESOME!!!! i talked to him today already too for 20 minutes. my mom was awesome with it all on visiting him but yeah. hehehehehehehehehe......im too happy to get angry right now. oh man.....i needa girl still....my friend Tommy is talkin bout orgys and shit with me and him and some other girl im guessing. i told him i would go to his house but i had no ride, although i prolly wouldnt go to his house neways, im not screwing over my bf again. FUCK THAT SHIT! i love Brady with all my heart and there aint no way i will cheat on that wonderful boi again. he dont deserve me because of how badly i treated him before. i will never again treat him that way either. i only gotta wait 6 more months. I will then be living with him and his mommy. Which might i add, his mom ROCKS!!!!! i dunno bout his dad but i LOOOOVVVEEEE his mom. well yeah....haha......neways......thats all i gotta say, for now. I LOVE YOU BRADY!!!

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its time for my road trip and i get to go see my love!!!! woo hoo!!!! i wish i could see him now though, oh well. im on the phone with my Best Friend Carrie. sorri this one is short, i gotta go pack. peace!

guys....boys....men....love....and Hate.
today well....i dunno, today was fun. i get to prolly go see Brady, the love of my life. i also have been having Second thoughts about my choice with the man. i love brady to death but i also love Brian. i dont talk to him near as much but he told me last night he was still in love with me. i started up on the journal for no reason what so ever but i did. i felt like typing again and im always bored on here so ya. i started writing again, i wrote a story, im not quite done with it but i am 8 pages into it so it will be good. Christmas was small this year and i knew it would be but thats okay cuz its not the meaning of christmas at all. The meaning of Christmas is spending the time together with your family. i was only sad today because i didnt get to see my baby like i wanted to. Music is good sometimes to me, but right now im sad cuz all im thinking about is Brady, my man, i miss him and i wish i could talk to him but i know i cant so im listening to love and heart break songs and its making me sad. wow i just did a run on Sentence. lol well yeah, i think thats all i gotta say, cept that im going to Virginia for Christas break and i got a job at Papa Johns. Brooke and i are still friends but she has kinda parted from me, but its also gotten me closer to Carrie, she is VERY VERY IMPORTANT to me...she got me 52 bracelets and a necklace with my J initial on it. as well as a bear. On the other Hand though, Brooke got me....Nuthing and i got them both presents. so ya...i dunno. im Talkin to this guy right now, another Brian ((i know 3 Brians.....that Arnt my brother)) hes from Iowa but hes in Germany for the Military. He likes me, hes cute in all but since i am taken i cant ever think about stuff with him, plus the fact that i am Brady's Fiancee. We actually got in a fight for like 30 seconds but its not often we do. well imma go and chat with Brian, the dude from Germany. Peace. Hit me Back too peeps!

stupid mom....bitch...
hey guys,

man my mom had to go off last night on me, telling me basically that she thinks im fat. she's going to make me go work out with her only because she thinks i cant loose weight on my own. other then that though.....i cried about it later on cuz its not right if your mom thinks yoru fat, i went to the movies last night too, with my friend Amber and it was fun ^.^" we saw the Lizzie Migiure ((i cant spell it i know)) movie. it was ok but then i got home and eat some ice cream :-D.....i miss brady, i havent talked to him in a week almost...i hate being without him and i know he feels the same for me. well gtg, see yas

i wish i was someone else....or best of all, in the same city as Brady....
hey all,

im tired as crap and my nose ish runnin, other then that, i miss my man and i wish i could be where he is now, or at least in the place where hes movin. i miss him so much its crazy how much i miss him. sometimes i think God is doing this to me to Torcher me, like he wants to see me in pain, cuz of all the bad stuff i done before this....well its gonna be short today, aint got much to say, life in Texas is pretty boring, i got to talk to Carrie though, we talked for 103 minutes. long time for most of my phone calls. i usually run out of things to say! lol well see yas!

owwie...i miss my brady!
hey guys,

man, my ankle still hurts, juss not as bad. im chattin right now but ive been waiting for Brooke to get home so she can call my man for mes. if she doesnt, i guess thats alright, i just hope she can. other then that, im bored and Mick is suppose to be comin over sometime soon, hes a friend i guess you could say, Brooke hates him but thats only cuz he was being himself and she didnt like that him. its all good though, man....today i cleaned the bathroom and i got to talk to Carrie, i missed her SOOOO much. well neways, not much problems right now, see yas!

ankle hurts....
hey peeps,

im on the phone with Brooke right now and shes talkin bout some stuff about her boyfriend. she found out how far her man was from her but man....i miss my man, Brady is such a great guy, he is on his way i think and hope right now, back home. i told him i would call him but i dont have any money and i dont have my calling card anymore. i love and miss him sooooo very much. i wanna get a job already but the people at Wendys havent called me back yet. im really hopin they do. well neways, my ankle hurts really bad because i fell on it last night, its been hurtin ever since. well gtg, sorri i didnt write in here sooner, see yas