these words at best were worse than teenage poetry.

these words at best were worse than teenage poetry.

:: 2004 18 January :: 8.05pm

i kinda copied kates idea with the quotes thing..i found it interesting..
some random quotes and short conversations that were said throughout the year (some are very recent)

Read more..

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 17 January :: 5.57pm

just so you know..
if you are going to chat with me on msn..heres some hints.

if i am..
away-im really not away..im just talking to a lot of people and i dont want to talk to you. so go away.
busy-i dont like you or i am playing a game and should not be bothered for any reason.
out to lunch-im being a dumbass and saying im out to lunch when im really not..just to make myself laugh.
on the phone- i tricked you. because i have shitty dial-up so i cant be on the phone. ha.
be right back-i am actually not at the computer.
online-i am extremely desperate and i need someone to talk to me.

and i am done.

5 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 13 January :: 3.12pm
:: Music: The Beatles-Let it Be

today sucked. a lot. yeah.

im not gonna update for awhile or be online much anymore...it only causes fights for me..so i guess practicing on guitar and focusing on exams will take up any spare time.

4 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 13 January :: 6.23am

its early. i want this week over. im sick of being dragged into shit. i try to lay low and stay away from people i dont like.

i want to say a few things to chris..
chris im gonna be honest so take it however you wish..i have talked about you behind your back, i recall doing it twice. what i said is you can be cocky at times and you sometimes do stupid shit(but everyone can be stupid). i still do believe that..but i shouldnt have said it behind your back. if i have a problem with you from now on im just gonna say it to your face. however i dont hate you and im not gonna take sides on this fight..for a few reasons..one i dont really even know what it is all about and two im friends with all the people in it. and you have never done anything to me..and you probably havent talked about me behind my back so, im sorry.

yeah. im done.

1 brave fuck | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 12 January :: 7.14pm
:: Music: Coldplay-yellow

hmmm...
right now i dont feel much. its strange. i watch everyone lately..soak it all in. i dont talk much these days. its because i dont have a lot to say.

~~i wish i was with my friends all the time. they make me forget everything. i need that often. just to forget.~~

6 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 11 January :: 5.32pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd-On the Run

it bit me.
well. this weekend was good. i saw my old friend jenni..that i havent seen for three years. it was awesome. got kicked outta spencers...if ya want to know why..just ask. *shakes head*

now im home. looking at the homework i didnt start. i think thats as far as im gonna get. looking.

9 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 9 January :: 4.31pm

i had a weird dream..so im gonna write about it because its one of the few i actually remember..skip over it if you wish.

so i was at school..only our school was like 6 stories high and there wasnt any class rooms. people were just grouped together working on different subjects. i could see down to the first floor. this kid on the first floor all of a sudden was running around on fire. my friends and I laughed. than someone tried to help him and they caught on fire..after about a min they both fell and died, while they were still on fire. than another kid burst into flames and died. we were all still laughing. throughout this whole time bullets were getting shot through the school from outside. there was this sign that blinked saying what floor was gonna be shot at next. i was watching the different floors and said "if it says our floor im going to the second floor" so than it blinked 3rd floor so i ran down to the second floor. than i heard the people scream and the door closed and i was trapped in this little hall. my only way out was if i believed in god. than the door would open.

i woke up.

it was one fucked up dream..i must say.

8 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 9 January :: 4.06pm
:: Music: Anti-Flag-Turncoat

Its fucked up that our society goes "Shes a virgin, and shes 18? what the fuck is wrong with her?" I mean, our society actually holds something against nice girls-michelle

very true.

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 8 January :: 7.01pm

i have noticed my entrys are angry lately..so lets update with something pointless shall we..
so today i get my science paper back. ..and i get 100% even though i wrote ravioli as five of the answers..

..needless to say..ravioli was not the answer to any of the questions.

..and theres my pointless entry, later kids.

10 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 7 January :: 5.02pm
:: Music: System of a Down-Sugar

i have to learn to ignore stupid fucks.

im starting today.

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 6 January :: 7.43pm
:: Music: Glassjaw-Piano

I'll stop being a bitch as soon as you stop being a..
~~dick~~ bastard.

14 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 5 January :: 3.53pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes

two songs by Bright Eyes..read..please..

Bright Eyes - Don't know when.. [Lyrics: Click + to display] +-
Is it true what I heard about the Son of God
Did he come to save, did he come at all
And if I dried his feet
With my dirty hair
Would he make me clean again

They say they don't know when but a day is gonna come
When there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun
It will just go black
It will just go back
To the way it was before

I knew a lovely girl with such pretty pride
And every man wanted her and so did I
And so did I
But she up and died
In a fit of vanity

Now men with purple hearts carry silver guns
And they will kill a man for what his father has done
But what my father did
You know it don't mean shit
I'm not him

So you think I need some discipline well I've had my share
I have been sent to my room, I've been sat in a chair
And I held my tongue
I didn't plug my ears
No I got a good talking to

Now I don�t know why but I still try to smile
When they talk at me like I�m just a child
Well I�m not a child
No I am
Much younger than that

And now I have read some books and I have grown quite brave
If I could just speak up I think I would say
That there is no truth
There is only you
And what you make the truth

So I will just sing my songs and I'll pass a hat
Then I'll leave your town and I'll never look back
No I don't look back
Because the road is clear
Layed out ahead of me

I'll get home and meet my friends at our favorite bar
We'll get some lighter heads for our heavy hearts
And we will share a drink
Yeah we'll share our fears
And they will know how I love them
They will know how I love
They will know how I love them
I am nothing without their love

Now I don't know when but a day is gonna come
When there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun
It will all go black
It will all go back
To the way it is supposed to be

Is it true what they say about the Son of God
Did he die for us, did he die at all
And if I sold my soul
For a bag of gold
To you which one of us would be the foolish one
Which one if us would be the fool
Which one if us would be the fool
Which one if us would be the fool

Could you please start explaining
You know I need some understanding
I could do with some exaplaining
You know I want to understand

Bright Eyes - Lover I don't have to Love [Lyrics: Click + to display] +-
I picked you out
Of a crowd and talked to you.
Said I liked your shoes,
You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?"

So it's up the stairs,
And out of view. No prying eyes.
I poured some wine.
I asked your name;
You asked the time.

Now it's two o'clock.
The club is closed,
We are up the block.
Your hands are on me,
Pressing hard against your jeans,
Your tongue in my mouth,
Trying to keep the words from coming out,
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before.

I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet him here,
But I'm not sure.
I've got the money
If you've got the time.
He said, "It feels good."
I said "I'll give it a try."

Then my mind went dark,
We both forgot where your car was parked.
Let's just take the train.
I'll meet up with the band in the morning

Bad actors, with bad habits...
Some sad singers, they just play tragic.
And the phone is ringing,
And the van is leaving
Let's just keep touching,
Let's just keep...keep singing

I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.

But you, but you...

You write such pretty words,
But life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt.
And to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do.
Then hurt me,
Then hurt me,
Then hurt me...

well. i would much rather be back to my dull life. atleaste there wasnt any homework. school sucks.

1 brave fuck | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 4 January :: 5.41pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes-Make War

i have a goal in life now:
to find every Bright Eyes cd and buy it.

yeah.

17 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 4 January :: 12.03pm

so i left this piece of chocolate on top of my mint gum last night. i took a bite of the chocolate and it tasted like mint...isnt that crazy..maybe not.

also.

wheres all the snow that was promised to get school cancelled? fucking weather fucks.

8 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 4 January :: 9.20am
:: Music: Coheed & Cambria-Blood Red Summer

too early for an entry.
i am so sick of people complaining about not having a boyfriend/girlfriend. if you are so fucking dependent on someone else to make you happy you are pitiful.

so if you are going to complain to me about being alone. dont.

or

if you are going to complain to me about who you are dating. dont.

have i mentioned to fuck off?
yeah. rant is finished. *smiles*

8 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 3 January :: 4.06pm
:: Music: A Static Lullaby-Lip Gloss and Letdown

i got my hair cut. too short. i dont like it much. *shrugs* its just hair, it'll grow back.

I've swallowed nails so i can never say your name..now words are heard through my eyes-A Static Lullaby/Love to Hate, Hate to Me

4 brave fucks | as if your opinion matters

fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 1 January :: 9.37pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle-Pet

im bored. and yeah.
d o y o u
HAVE A BAD HABIT? swearing, not applying myself, saying girls are hot, drawing bunnies, pie.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: im scared to drive. sad huh?

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: i dont watch tv much. i guess that 70s show
CONDITIONER: *points*
BOOK: The Perks of being a Wallflower
MAGAZINE: AP
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: your mom. oh and bunnies.

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: a few times.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: mmmaybe
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes, many.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: yup
USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: oh yes.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: i dont think so, how could you fall asleep in the shower? *wonders* thatd be awfully interesting.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: no. they cry. i watch..try not to laugh.

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: no
GIRLFRIEND: hell yes!
CHILDREN: of course!
CURRENT CRUSH: psshh..like i would tell you.
BEEN IN LOVE?: maybe.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: sure
BEEN HURT?: when i cut off my hand. it hurt a little, not too bad.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: umm.. you.
GONE OUT WITH SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: i wish
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: pink floyd
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: green
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: music
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: dead sexy men, who let me touch them.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: The Vines
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: i would list people. but, i dont want to offend others.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: your mom.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
THING YOU PURCHASED: cd
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: i dont recall.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: lotr ; rotk

at the end of this survey all i was thinking was..why were the questions in caps.

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 1 January :: 2.25am
:: Music: Pink Floyd-Time

new years was alright. consisted of playing halo. me losing. watching the fucking ball drop. playing halo. me losing.

now im home. yup. happy fucking new year.

(there goes my new years resolution...it was cutting down on swearing..)
*shrugs*

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 30 December :: 4.38pm
:: Music: The Used

hey anonymous fuck..my name is spelled 'stacy' not 'stacey'
all anonymous comments will be deleted. if you don't have enough guts to leave your name you are not worth my time.

yeah. thats all.

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 27 December :: 7.21pm
:: Music: Blink 182

"can i touch it??"
i refuse to grow up. im gonna be immature until im 40.

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