:: 2004 15 February :: 12.24 pm
:: Mood: lonely

hey
well last night was just a normal v-day for me.... i did nothing. had no one to share the love w/. but i did babysit shealyn. so i guess you could say she was my little sweetheart. i love that girl she is the CUTEST!!! thing in the whole world. i feel bad for kari.... the sang is very true. i'm convinced. once you go black younever go back. *shakes head* what a shame. but oh well.
i'm still sutupid. thats all i can say. i'm not gonna let it get me down, but deep down i know i am.
well thats all. family is doing well other then david bugs the absolute shit out of me. i'm out
linds

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:: 2004 12 February :: 11.03 pm
:: Mood: sad

hey
nate got i a fight yesterday.... woohu. i soppose. fighting is gay.... very gay. now he's suspended and all that great stuff.
i'm stupid.... very very stupid. its not the situation thats stupid. its me. all me. its all my fault. i try not to do this, but it just happens. why. why is all i want to know. i proly will never figure it out. oh well... i've tried.
going to bed night
linds

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:: 2004 9 February :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: content

everything
well this weekend was up and down. not exactly sure how to title it. Fri. i went to the corner bar then to the game then to jess's house. i had a great time and it was a blast! i loved it soo much! Then Sat. came and i had to wake up early to go set up for swirl. but jess's dad made these waffels.... omg best things ever! hehe. then we set up and my dad picked me up and i cam home and changed. Then we went to Whitehall for Solo and Ensamble. I thought i did pretty well at that. I was pretty proud of mysef, but i didn't stay and see waht was my score cause i was going to swirl w/ justin and i ddin't want to hold him up anymore. so me and my daddy rush home and i call huds. and he's like i'm grounded... blah blah blah. so yeah i wasn't really mad. but then everything effected that whcih really made me mad.I ended up going w/ Shannon, Devon, Kevin, and Jon. it was fun. swirl wasn't that great. it was ok. i had some laughs which was pretty funny. collin cracks me up soo much! that kid is god... crazy and for ever funny! I was gonna go hang out w/ them afterwards but iw asn't feeling too good. then i tought bout going to corey's but i was like ahh no. i'm tired. so i come home and i just get online and i find out i got a one!! i got a one at S and E!!!! i was sooo exctied and i'm going to state and its great!!! EEHHH!!! hehe so yeah i was excietd and sun. wasn't too eventful but what can you do. so that was my weekend.
Today was an ok day. Justinand i didn't really talk too much. but oh well i guess. He had her come up to me and bah no words. ididn't appreate it at all!! oh well...ehh
I'm trying to find that guy... the guy who will love me no matter how stupid and blonde i get! I'm going to quit looking and wait for him to find me. Thats my conclusion bout guys. theres nothing more i can do or say. no one has really sparked my attention. I know i'm not gonna find my true love in high school. but i don't want to go out w/ someone just to go out w/ someone. thats stupid and gay. why..... eeh. Then theres him agian and nonono i can't i CAN NOT!!!! NONONONONO. yeah thats the end of that one.. there will be more
linds

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:: 2004 7 February :: 4.56 pm
:: Mood: no words

grrr its all i can say. asroibap[bviojapdfoibjpsiogjadpfoibdafoijdboijdfoijgoijFUCK!!apoidugpoaijb;aokjfbasjg
thats all for now... there will be a pretty large entry later.
linds

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:: 2004 4 February :: 1.02 pm
:: Mood: sick

hey
i stayed home sick today. its no fun. i really thought i could go to school today. i woke up in the middle of the night and yeah ... it was gross. so yeah i'm stuck home. it i'm bored and i want to just go to school and talk to all my friends!
well if anyone wants to call me... i'll be home.. oh wait i won't be til like 2-4 butyeah anytime after that just give me a jingle cause i'm bored!!!
linds

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:: 2004 3 February :: 6.18 pm
:: Mood: sick

blah
hey
i still don't feel good!! i didn't go to volleyball today cause i just wasn't in the mood!! i didn't feel good and i didn't want to go again and have another break down!! i feel so stupid when i cry infront of people. i hate it!! i want to get all better. swirl is this sat. S and E is this sat. and oh the volleyball team is going to the corner bar this fri. i want to sooooooo bad feel better. i want to get back to normal and be my same old goofy self... i just hope it happens by fri.
oh boy i wish i was just feeling better :(
linds

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:: 2004 1 February :: 5.05 pm
:: Mood: bored

PAST
How many people have you dated?:	idk...
How many of those were serious?:	umm like 1
When was your last serious relationship?:	last year
Who was your first true love?:	havn't really been in love yet
Was your first kiss with them?:	-
When was your first kiss?:	awhile ago
Do you give or recieve?:	recieve
NOW
Are you with someone?:	nope
If so, how long?:	-
If no, why not?:	cause i don't want a b/f right now
If no, do you have a crush?:	no not really
Who was the last person you kissed?:	.... the black guy hehe
The last person you hooked up with?:	well i wouldn't consider marcus a hook up so it would have to be isaac... hmm i'm a slut!
Are you in love?:	no
THE FUTURE
Do you want to get married?:	yeah
When do you want to?:	when ever i find that special someone
Do you want to have kids?:	yeah
If so, what would you name them?:	Levi and Jean, Peter and Pipper, Bobby and Joe. hehe
Where do you want to get married?:	on the beach
Who would you want to spend the rest of your life with?:	someone who has money duh!! nono someone that i really love
THIS OR THAT
Kiss or hug?:	hug
Screw or make love?:	make love... screw is such a nasty word
Dumper or dumpee?:	dumper
Walk in the rain or walk on the beach?:	walk on the beach for sure!!!
Be wild or be boring?:	WILD
Hook up or be with one?:	tough question... be w/ one

PAST, NOW, FUTURE, THIS & THAT. brought to you by BZOINK!

sorry got bored... but i'm done there will proly be more later.

linds

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:: 2004 31 January :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: bored

hey
sat. night and i'm home cause i'm sick.... :( which sucks but oh well! rather have it this weekend then next! so i'm gonna vent cause i'm bored and i gotta vent. sorry to all you have to read it but umm well no on is home for me to vent to! lol
so yeah swirl is coming up and i'm kinda excited... no really excited!! i got a really cute dress :) hehe we have finally figured out what we are doing and stuff we are going to tare's so it should be fun! One problem. he wants to go out... and i honstly don't! like i know i've said this bout everyone but omg i really don't want a boyfriend!!! i really don't. and not too many people understand that. excipicaly the guys. i'm sorry i really am but i don't want to!! i don't want to put you through hell because of me! so yeah things should hopefuly be good i hope so.
oh i meet amber (andy's g/f) she seems cool. i'm really happy for andy. i hope it lasts along time.
i'm starting to get depressed and it sucks. i could feel it coming on thur. night and yesterday it happend. it just popped out and i'm sorry. theres gonna be more where that came from. but proly w/ tears next time. so if i'm really touchy in the next few weeks. i'm sorry don't please don't take it personal. i just miss summer and i'm just bored w/ everyhting. and i'm really really sorry but omg its gonna happen. we can only pray that it won't be as bad as it was last year. god i'm stupid.... why does this happen everyyear? i'm just a retard thats all. and thats another reason i don't want a b/f. thats sooo much extra stress that i don't need! its just yeah i'm stupid.
wanna know somthing great!?!? me and nate are like soo much better now. like its great absoulutly great. we talked for like an hour thur. night and omg ... prasie the lord to that. lol. so many questions answered and we just talked bout everything... like nothing happend and it was great. and i really loved it! god.... i just pray i don't fall for him agian cause thats not good. can't do that agian for like the 50th time. lol. so yeah i like this whole friends thing and i'm really really excited cause we are better and friends..... and yeah he is awesome to talk to. like i can talk to a lot of other people boutmy problems but the peopel that i have really only cried to is proly jess, shannon, henry, and him. those are like the 4 people that i actruly love talking to and the people that i feel most comfortable w/. idk... i'm really glad that i can actruly say that bout him agian.
volleyball was fun today. we got 2nd lost to first. but oh well! we had fun. i played pretty well. i felt like shit in the mornng and basically the whole day but i felt so bad bout yesterday that i didn't want to show it cause i felt bad and i didn'twant people to talk like idk.... spend more time on me. yeah patty fell pretty funny. i was hoping it would knock some sence into her... but of course it didn't! oh i'm just j/k... but yeah shes still the spacy patty.. lol i loveyou! lol.
oh you know who really really REALLY bugs me.... well i'm not gonna name names but yeah "she" lol. why does she think shes the shit.. shes not!! i hate to say this but she reminds me of my mom. lol. isn't that terrible? yeah like omg she has to do everything and she'll do anything to make it look like she did it. she can be such a suck up that it bugs me!!!!!!!!!! ehh!!!! honestly one of these times i'm gonna just spaz out at her.... surprised i didn't do that yesterday lol. but yeah omg i could name like 500 (i'mreally not excarating!) times shes done things that hve bugged me.... but i won't. not only would that take a lot of typing time but that might just be too mean and i'll just get worked up and ahhhhh she bugs the hell out of me!!!!!! why why does she have to be such a suck up? why does she have to think she's the best? she bugs me. its like she is competing w/ everyone. trying to act bestfriends. oooh ok i'mjsut gonna stop. can't go on this subject that much longer.
i want to find somthign to do tomorrow for the big game!! lol idk i'll proly just be in the mood to just lay at home. but i don't want to caue then i'll eat and then i won't be able to fit in my cute dress!!! then i'll be screwed and very and really sad. so if your doing somthig give me a call 4854! we can hang. lol. hehe so yeah give me a halla or a jingle what ever floats your boat!!
so yeah thats all i think i'm gonna say for now. not as long as i was thinking.but i wonder how many times i said really. i say that a lot hmm. i'm out
<3 linds

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:: 2004 30 January :: 10.29 pm
:: Mood: bitchy

bitch!!
i'm a big bitch.... and i'm sorry. i'm really honestlysorry to everyone that i freaked out at today. i wasn't my self and i'm sorry. everything and everyone was getting to be for the stupidest reasons. i'm really sorry. i'm starting toget deppresed agian.... i can feel it. i felt it yesterday to. just today it just popped out. and i'm so sorry. really sorry... god i can't start crying now!
linds

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:: 2004 28 January :: 4.46 pm
:: Mood: tired

Snow day!!
hey
yup... another snow day! how many is this? my good lord. i'm kinda liking this break in the middle of the week. lol. so yeah i went to Pando today w/ mar and matt. it was omg really funny. it was great to hang out w/ them agian. it was just nuts! but great great fun.
Talked to Jake last night. everything is look...sorta ok. some things i'm not liking but i got time to change them. i got a lot of planning to do. oh well this summer will me soooo much fun..... commador, sailing teacher, and hanging out w/ all my friends!! i can't wait its gonna be great. so now i gotta write a little article to put in the mainsheet.oh well not too diffcult. it's gonna be great fun!!! hehe i'm excited. i want the school year to get done really really quick!
well i'm out ttyl bye!
<3 linds

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:: 2004 24 January :: 10.18 pm
:: Mood: excited

YEAH!!
hey
i got the job!!! i'm gonna teach sailing this summer this is great!!!! haha!! i'm excited
well going to bed night
linds

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:: 2004 22 January :: 12.09 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Scar Tissue

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:: 2004 18 January :: 8.43 pm
:: Mood: scared

hmmm
i'm soo scared for her... but it was about time it happend.
Lord bless her
I love ya!

linds

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:: 2004 16 January :: 2.23 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: mix

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:: 2004 11 January :: 9.23 am
:: Mood: calm

stuff
hey
all my fished died when we had that snow day... that really sucked. oh well. i was talking to nate on the phone while 2 of them died he proly thinks i'im more of a crazy nut then he already does. oh well what can you do! lol.
Wen to the game and dance fri. night. sang at the game. it was a ok... me singing. the dance was fun, but i proly shouldn't of stayed that long. lol.
we had volleyball yesterday and it was fun. other then we had to wake up at 6 30 in the mornign. i only got 5 hours of sleep. god i'm stupid. ooh and at the tournment yesterday Roses cousin was there and omg he was soooo hott!!! he looked like an old Cam Shaffer. i'm excited if thats what he's gonna look like. lol.... he's hot right now and if he stays hott... praise the lord! lol. So yeah the guy was extremly hot! lol.
Went to katies last night... it was fun hey katie whats up dogg! lol hehe
well gotta go to church
linds

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