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2003 12 December :: 7.09 pm
:: Mood: not in a good mood....grr
:: Music: mix
everthing
hey
yeah so i'm really really pissed. i had planned to hang out w/ jusin tonight but no my mom has to be stupid and ryan decides that he ISN'T gonna watch david..... so now i'm stuck home doing nothing.... of course... how did i know this was gonna happen...i'm sick and i just want to get out of the house. i've been stuck in this stupid house for a very very long time and yeah. tomorrow i have a volleyball tournment. i'm not exactly sure if i'm looking forward to it.... some ways yes others liek waking up REAL early nope... idk it better be fun. then have to leave early from that i have to go to the dinner for choir!! for sure not looking forward that!! but i just hope and pray everything will go good tomorrow..... if not i'm sure you'll hear bout it tomorrow. ahh
you know whats really sad is that i'm starting to get seriously depressed and it hasn't ever really snowed snowed yet. someone please explain to me how the hell i'm gonna get through this winter. if i didn't see mags and annie and kierra and b.davis thanksgiving i would be sooo much worse. i just hope that everything this winter goes ok. i'm not asking for perfect just ok..... please no deaths or close calls w/ my family... cause its kinda looking like that right now.
lol wow i sometimes wonder bout ryan.... wow he just does not know somethings... oh well.
so yeah anyways family... grandpa isn't looking too good and its just not good.
ok well i'm out...... gonna do god knows what... proly nothing! yeah fun fun
linds
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2003 10 December :: 8.42 pm
:: Mood: stressed
stressed.... thats bout it!
hey
wow that was SSOOOOO not needed..... no words.
so yeah umm just a little stressed.... not freaking out..... yet. lol. we'll see bout tomorrow night. lol. omg you know what i just relized.... tomorrow is only thur.!!! omg!!!!!!! this week is going by sooooooo slow! lord help me!! ahhhhhhhh. well i'm out
linds
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2003 6 December :: 5.23 pm
:: Mood: angry
aspoibjadpfoijapdfibjodfpbjapdfoijgadpfoigja
hey
i can't stand this. i can't stand this. i can't stand this!!!!!!!! how can they make me go this pisses me off like nonother..... why are my parents so stupid!!! i wanted to hang out w/ jusin soooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i'm gonna kill someone. why the hell are they making me go???? i'm gonna make the whole thing a living hell..... i swear..... i could care less who is in the car w/ me. here goes another sat. night down the tubes!!!!!!!!!!! god they have done this sooooo much this year.......... they want to like keep me close cause they wished they would of done that w/ ryan. ahhhhhhhhhha;sdoifjapsogijb;dfj they fuckin piss me off so much!!!!!! godddddddddddd asdlfja;sodigjafdbijavjdfg. fuckin radio aaduo9sdgaoigsdaoijgsdaoijugfsaijuosgaijuorojtoiu4ituoowailts, then shes liek i'll take you shopping tomorrow.......... what the hell is she smoking??!!?!? i hate shopping!!!!! god shes stupid. iuogfiogaigsiid ok i'm gonna stop........ no not really. what the hell am i thinking. we have to be at the church at 6 well guess what i'm not gonna start getting ready til 6!!! haha. yeah so we will see what happens w/ that. ahhhhh i'm sooo mad. okok gotta calm down.... but i'm not gonna cause im gonna make this adventrue into a living hell.ok i'm leaving
linds
lord help me tonight
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2003 6 December :: 3.25 pm
FUCKING MOM IS BEING A FUCKING BITCH!!!
my mom......... oohhhhhh don't even want to talk bout..... i just wished my mom would stop using, living, and running my life!!! its all i ask.
linds
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2003 5 December :: 5.29 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
I BROKE MY NAIL!!!
hey
so yeah i broke my nail!! like really really bad todayin volleyball...blood everywhere... i'll live... i'mjust pissed that its broke. oh well.
today i have had a major blonde day. what can you do. lol. umm going to tare's house tonigth fun fun! Will will (double will.... how crazy)be there. this should be funny.
umm yeah things good w/ justin we'll see what happens.
but its realy really hard to type w/ a bandad on your finger so i'm out!
linds
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2003 2 December :: 8.30 pm
:: Mood: sluty
kjpaboiu
hey
hmm to call him or not to call hmm is the question.... god i'm such a slut! ahhh!!! well i'm not... i'm too busy... why am i sooo stupid!! ahh. wow lol. no is the final answer
i can't even explain anymore...i'm confussed out of my mind.
i need to find someone to bum off for fri. night. ok bye!
linds
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2003 2 December :: 8.30 pm
hey
hmm to call him or not to call hmm is the question.... god i'm such a slut! ahhh!!!
What if i seek for love of thee
shall i find beatuy kind to desert that still shall dwell in me. but i if i sue and live forlorn thenalas never was any wretch for more mis fourtune born.
thou thy looks have charmed my eyes i can forbear to love. but if ever sweet deseire set my wholefuly hart on fire then cani never remvoe
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2003 1 December :: 5.09 pm
:: Mood: dirty
yeah... bout that night
hey
so yeah this weekend was soooooooo much fun!! i love my girls sooo much!! i wish i could hang out w/ them every weekend. oh well i'll live. so yeah i'm not gonna say anything more...hehe. it was great and umm yeah great. lol.
so today was such a blah day. i almost fell asleep in all my classes. these next 3 weeks are gonna be rough i need some excitment to keep me awake.
ok i have volleyball in a bit... better do my damn hw. bye!
linds
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2003 28 November :: 11.03 pm
:: Mood: excited
umm yeah
hey,
so yeah he called me and iwas happy. lol. we were gonna see a movie tomorrow but i won't be here. then sun. i watned to go but i won't be here intime to go... so i'm kinda sad bout that but oh well. for the first time in a long time i get that butterflies in your stomach when your talking and think bout him!! i havn't felt this way in a very very long time!! i'm kinda liking it. hehe. i think i'm gonna have to stop saying boys are stupid. oh well. but yeah!! only if i could hang out w/ him. thats ok... theres next weekend!
so yeah tomorrow i'm going to the boat. better be fun. it should be fun. me and all my friends have sooo much to catch up on! so yeah...i'm excited. lol. so i guess i'll be going now.
linds
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2003 28 November :: 4.22 pm
:: Mood: bored
bored out of my mind!
hey
i'm sooooooo bored..... if you're bored to give me a call......... ahhhh!!! i got the easy bake out. lol hehe my cookies actruly turned out! :) so yeah it was fun. but i'm bored... i wanted to hang out w/ him but he wasn't home. oh well. ok bye!
linds
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2003 26 November :: 11.21 pm
:: Mood: confused
Whats wrong with me???
linds
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2003 25 November :: 9.19 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Man i feel like a women
volleyball
I made the team!!
linds
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2003 24 November :: 7.37 pm
:: Mood: grateful
Wow
hey
wow that just put things into a WHOLE diff. persepictive. i knew my life wasn't terrible, but now that makes me have a whole other out look on life. i mean maybe i shouldn't anymore? idk. that just makes me soo..... i can't even find the words of how to describe. i'll find them. i'm just glad i talked to him cause yeah. ok bye!
linds
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2003 23 November :: 4.48 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: my girl-temptations
It's over!!
hey
so yeah the play is done!! i'm soo happy. its bout time. i couldn't take it anylonger. ohwell its done and i'm happy. one thing off my mind. know i gotta concentrate on volleyball. we'll see if i makeit. if i don't oh well i tried. i won't cry or bitch bout it.
so yeah david is crazy today!!! like to the point where youwant to kill him. he went to his friends house...i feel bad for kent's mom. lol. i told her that and she just started laughing. lol. so yeah he's gone but he'll be back. ohlord help us!! lol. so if any of you want to come and entertain my brother give me a call!! cause ummi can't stand him..... he's sooo wild. lol.
i can't wait til our 2 days of school is done!! tue. emilyis coming and i can't wait to see her!! then thur. is thanksgiving...my favorite holiday.....you get to eat all day!! highly looking forward to that. lol. then fri. i'm gonna go shopping w/ mar and kath. then sat. gonna see mags, ann, kierra, b.davis, and maybe maybe isaac. who knows. but yeah its gonna be great cause this whole break is gonna be seeing people i havn't seen in awhile and i'm excited!!!! ahhh!! tue. i'll be flipping out. lol. just wait. so yeah i can't wait!!!!!! ahh!!! ok i'll shut up. lol.
well i think thats all for today.... just gotta reember to focas on volleyball!!
linds
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2003 15 November :: 10.12 pm
:: Mood: irritated
These Last Four Days
hey
so yeah today hasn't been good. i can't stand my mom... its terrible. but well back up to wed. night
wed. night i have this whole big poster to finish for english.... and gates luck the power goes out.... yeah it sucked considering i didn't have a clue where a flashlight was andit was only me and david home. finally we find one. then jamie calls and asked me and david if we wanted to come over there cause they had a generater. so we went over there andi finishedmy poster. my dad didn't get over there til like 9. so it was a long time we were over there. oh well it didn't really matter.
then thur. i'm going nuts bout costumes for the play and just want to go home and sleep, but i already said i would sing at the basketball game. i didn't really mind that. and my mom wasn't going to be there so i had not stress what so ever...... not. my mom and shows up w/ my dad and david and i told many many times not to video tape while i was singing. When people tape me when ever i do anything sports or singing i get all nervous, and i never do it right. so yeah i told her a lot of times not to but she still does and i motion to her to stop...but no mymom doesn't. so i'm pissed after i'm singing and don't really want to talkbout it. All i said was liike why did you do that and shes like i didn'tknow. i didn't knwo my ass. so yeah i was pissed. then they leave and i call a bit later to go home cause i was soooooo tired and just wanted to go to bed at 9. Oh no that doesn't happen in the gates house. so i have to back for grand haven so i do and i go to my dad's bathroom to of course go to the bathroom lol. and guess what i see!!!! a mouse!!!!!!! a black little ahhh mouse!!! i screamed so loud and it was a huge ordeal that i don't want to type all otu cause it will turn into a novel. lol. in the endi was crying and Ed had to come over and cathc it for us...... Ed is my hero... in a very unique way. so yeah i didn't really get to bed unitl 12. i didn't sleep to good either cause i was scared a mouse was gonna come walk on me and i slept w/ my mom and david in her bed. So of course david was practically sleeping ontop of me cause he's stupid like htat and doesn't understand personal space.
then fri. comes and its a pretty good day....i guess he likes me well thatskinda cool..... he's cute. so yeahthen i talked to nate which i havn't in ever and i just wish that we would be good friends like we were last year, but i guess things can't go back. ohwell..... yeah. i feel bad for the kid.... i hope he gets better. so yeah then we go to the boat then musg. and then grand haven then went to fricanos!!!!!!!!! it was the best part of this whole intire week!!!!!! it was great pizza... ate a lot but oh well its fricanos you have to its soooooooo good. so then we went to the hotel and swam in the pool and all that great stuff.
then today... started out fine other then i was sooo cold and didn't get hardly any sleep. so we go get brekfest and then swim before we leave........ look at boats surprise surprise. then my mom tricks me into shopping........grrr. absoultly grrr. what was she thinking......everythignwent down hill from there. so yeah then we go shopping and that wasn't any fun at all. then david wants to go see a movie. Which i useually don't mind and wouldn't care if since my mom would pay for it but i just wasn't in a mood to and either was my dad....... but no what ever my mom says go. so we go see the movie...it was actrully really good. but eyah i just didn't want to cause i got home later and couldn't find anything todo which explains why i'm hoem for the second time on a sat. night. what a life i have!
so yeah past 4 days not great.
i can already tell that this week is gonna suck cause of hte play. i have like hardly any costuems done cause people dont' bring in their stuff!!!! please please brign it in!! it would make me 10 times more happy. but thank you to those who have brought their stuff to me. so yeah its gonna sucks. not to mention volleyball try outs this week too!! so we are talking major stress. so i'm warning you all in advance...... don't talk to mein the morning i will proly not be the happiest sail on the sea. and if i'm a bitch to you or don't say hi....i'm sorry........ i'm stressed so there for i'm a bitch....... forgive me. ok thank. lol.
oh and you knwo what else sucks.....isaac is a genious and get grounded.... we can't hang out this thanksgiving!!! i was soooo looking forward to that too. oh well he said he's gonna try to get out of it..... he better.
linds
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