It's a long way down from the place where we started from.

:: 2005 10 May :: 11.32pm

from "The Hours"
Clarissa Vaughn: Alright Richard, do me one, simple favor: Come. Come sit...

Richard Brown: I don't think I can make it to the party, Clarissa.

Clarissa Vaughn: Uh... You don't have to go to the party, you don't have to go to the ceremony, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. You can do as you like.

Richard Brown: But I still have to face the hours, don't I? I mean, the hours after the party, and the hours after that...

Clarissa Vaughn: You do have good days still... You know you do.

Richard Brown: Not really... I mean, it's kind of you to say so, but it's not really true.

:: 2005 9 May :: 1.41pm

don't move
stay right where you are
talking can only give you away
so nothing to say

the voices say hello
imprisoned, they're invisible
we look a lot alike
we look a lot alike

this is boring
all we talk about is you
come on, give me a reason
a boy and his machine gun

when you're finished struggling
are you free tonight?
did they stick you in here
cause you weren't working right?

don't move
stay just like you are
you look sane, motionless like that
so very flat
it's amazing what velocity can do
when human beings are in season
a boy and his machine gun
if you're quiet, we might see some!

when you're finished struggling
are you free tonight?
did they stick you in here
cause you weren't working right?

there's a tv in every room
and it's free, even pay-per-view
which you'll need if no one's gonna visit you, animal
animal

i know who you're waiting for
no one's coming, though
no one's coming, though

so, fuck you and your principles
and fuck whatever made me
perhaps you think i'm evil
what does it matter if we're crazy?

2 Lies | Fact and fiction work as a team.

:: 2005 6 May :: 1.38pm

home....for ilke 3 weeks
well now that im home i wont be online much....gotta love dial up and the computer thats so old it cant even support the cable internet system....i think im gonna buy my mom a new computer for christmas with some of the money i make at camp this summer

so camp this summer....i'll be at stony lake lutheran camp all summer...really..so if you want to send me stuff, like letters and presents i will be there from may 27-aug somewhere around the 16 of august. the address there is as follows

stony lake camp
c/o nicole mccarthy
7898 West Stony Lake Road
New Era, MI 49446

and sometime before i leave...i will be having a birthday party....i havent missed one yet, why start now?? no presents will be necessary,but if you feel compelled, i wont reject them ;-) just come hang out, when its all figured out i will post the info and probably call
people just in case.

im getting my wisdom teeth out monday :-(

:: 2005 3 May :: 1.04am

are you going to do something that matters?

ever?

:: 2005 29 April :: 1.01am

rape

8 Lies | Fact and fiction work as a team.

:: 2005 29 April :: 1.09am

his hands
for your diamonds

1 Lie | Fact and fiction work as a team.

:: 2005 27 April :: 3.45pm

sad day
so there was a cat outside my class and it was like meowing but like really airy like, and so i went to pet it and saw that its nose was covered by like crap, i dont know what it was, but it was dryed and stuck on there, so i was trying to wipe it off but it wouldnt let me, it would only let me pet it and it followed me around if i stopped. so i called information to get the number for animal control but there isnt one around here aparently, and so we called campus safety and they gave me the number for the vet, but they wont take it because its stray. the poor guy was all skin and bones and he had pickers all over him. then it climbed into my friend amy's car, so we took it to the police station to have them get it out, but then it jumped out and they woudlnt help it, they were ass holes. i was like wtf its a little kitten and youre a human, help it out, it obviously cant help itself.

i just dont understand how people can not help a little animal, the poor thing is probably going to die from suffication and they fucking didnt even care.

:: 2005 27 April :: 12.52am

don't fool yourself.

:: 2005 22 April :: 7.12pm

Lax team party tonight...jungle juice AND a keg....im sure there will be lots of pictures...and phone calls so have your cells on bitches!

:: 2005 22 April :: 7.01pm

i want to
i want to be someone else
or i'll explode
floating upon the surface
for the birds

you want me?
fucking well, come and find me
i'll be waiting
with a gun and a pack of sandwiches
and nothing

you want me?
well, come on and break the door down
you want me?
fucking come on and break the door down
i'm ready

:: 2005 22 April :: 5.30pm

4 Lies | Fact and fiction work as a team.

:: 2005 18 April :: 8.10pm

hey someone give me a new icon to use

:: 2005 17 April :: 10.44pm

dont expect to talk to me this week
this week is going to be hell. i have a debate paper due for psychology on friday which i havent really started yet, and two reflection papers....for the same damn class!! are you kidding me, what an asshole prof.
tomorrow i have to go in the pool for "water rescue" for first aid...i hate pools, actually i hate bathing suits, its not that im self conscious, i just dont like them.
tuesday and thursday will be spent in the library all day working on the debate paper. and i also have my project for motor development due next week. that shoudl be fun! or none at all. the only good part was taking video/pictures of the kids at church today, they are so cute and since they all know me they were like "take a picture of me!" and being cute kids. oh man, funny story, so this one kid, tommy who is like 4 full out tackles his cousin jack who is 6, and jacks dad sees the whole thing take place and his response when tommy and jack look up is "nice take down tommy!" and they continued running around and being cute.

the highlight of my week will be saturday...the lacrosse team party....hopefully i will make it back to my room this year (i stayed in sandi's room last year bc it was closer), and hopefully we wont have to walk past any cops...bc last year when we did our idea to make the cop think we were fine was to walk in a single file line as quietly as possible. i also hope to not hit my head on any ceilings, not get stuck in any bathrooms, go here for a synapsis of last years lacrosse party http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=469092

:: 2005 14 April :: 2.12pm

craziest night in lbn in a while
so deanna and kyleigh, two of my lacrosse friends tell me to come over to wesley and were gonna go to kaitlyns for "fun" so im like "uh ok" bc it was like 1030 and i didnt really feel like moving. so i get to wesley and when they let me in they are in all black with eye black under their eyes, and im like "aw shit this is gonna be fun" so i go to deannas room and they have like 3 huge rolls (from the common bathroom) of t.p.

first attack: we go to kaitlyn, sarah, lauren, and 3 other people i dont know's house and t.p. the crap out of it. it was sooo good, there will be pictures to come when they get developed or posted in the shared folder. kaitlyn pulls up in the driveway as we are in the back yard, but we have hoods up tied tight so they didnt know who it was. they yell something and honk the horn and we run behind their house between the garage and the thick as hell bushes back into wesley.

so were in deannas room and kaitlyn IM's her and blames her for doing it, which deanna smoothly denys and has a good cover up story. kaitlyn tells deanna to come look at it, so she does and then since their house is next to the mens christian house and i knw all of those boys, i walk around the corner and say "dude what happened, i was just leaving the mens house and i saw all the shit flying around in your front yard and heard you in the back so i came back" so they believe it. then lauren and erin (who i didnt know till just then) come over to wesley with us to look for people who match the discription of what kaitlyn said. we "look" for like an hour. then they went back.

attack two: we go back, and tp their garage/breezeway kind of thing (its all connected). and campus safety comes walking up the driveway so again we run like hell through the bushes and back into wesley.

attack three: we go to get deannas backpack which she left, and it is gone so we go to look around the front of the house and lauren is on the porch, so deanna yells "shit, run" and so we do, and lauren chases us. shes fricken fast as hell, she was catching up, but we escaped. me and kyleigh made it back into wesley and deanna hid by the church. so we go to get deanna and go back into wesley again.

survey the scene: me and deanna went back out and we go to cross the street infront of wesley and we look up towards their house and they are running at us. so we book it across the field by the church and dive under a truck and hide there for like 15 minutes. when we get out and stand up to make sure no one is around we hear from behind us "hey lacrosse girls" so we think its someone from their house and take off running through the quad towards twin (where i live). turns out that was campus safety and we successfully escaped from them. :-/ so we get through the quad and see the girls in a car, so we turn around and run the other way towards the i-house parking lot, we get in there and hide under another truck. they come into the parking lot and drive around it for a whle and leave. then some dude starts walking at the car we were under so we take off towards twin again. this time we made it to twin. and i borrowed a friends car and took deanna back to wesley. i get back to my room and deanna IM's me (its now like 230-3ish) and she tells me that they know it was her and she denys it but offers to go clean it up with them, so i tell her im going too and go pick her up and we go clean and confess. there will also be pictures of this coming too when they get posted in the lax folder. so wait for those bc they are funny.

that was my night, and while i was cleaning i lost my id so i had to go get a new one today :-( thats $25 i didnt need to spend.