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:: 2013 20 March :: 2.13am

No really.
Don't get cancer.

2 think they know | Do you know?

:: 2013 9 March :: 1.01am

Generally, when people have stage four cancer they freak out a little bit. They emotion dump. Something.

Aside from beating it back as best as possible, my mother seems to be generally more concerned with other people freaking out. I think the fact that she has described chemo as "sort of fun" and stage IV cancer as "One of the worse ones, I'm not sure, I don't think it goes to V" kind of highlights why she's one of the few people in life I'd rather not have die of cancer right now.

She's always been intensely unconcerned with what the world thinks is important. She had kids, grew some gardens, and now she's likely dieing. Why the hell is everyone so concerned with this?

The way you act, the way you live, the way you die is all up for scrutiny. Its nice to see someone saying to hell with it and just enjoying the ride.

Its just not so nice when its your mother. I cant tell If I can pull off her particular brand of life philosophy right this instant.

:: 2013 28 February :: 8.45pm

I'm beginning to think that what you give up on in life is far more defining than what you acquire, or what you have lost.

What you acquire is rarely tied to any rational explanation. What you lose is even more random. What we give up intentionally is perhaps the one choice we can say is our own. Less influenced by things outside of our intentions.

I imagine we mostly lump giving up on a thing with a loss of a thing. Perhaps I'm splitting hairs best left whole, perhaps not. Its interesting to look at things from my life and decide which was which. What did I cast aside, and what has life cast aside without my input?

Sometimes life removes something important and you realize just how long its been since you cast it aside with disinterest and apathy. Even if the day before you wouldn't have described it in such a way.

Family is like that. You get a call and the word "cancer" makes you think about how little you've kept in touch.

:: 2013 20 February :: 9.07pm

Seems about as good a point in time to give up on life as any.
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edit- Touche. Very funny life. Very funny.

:: 2013 2 February :: 11.58pm

Need solidarity.

3 think they know | Do you know?

:: 2013 25 January :: 12.13am

Don't have the friends in this city to pull off being an alcoholic.

Say what you will about em, at least they find a way to keep themselves busy.

sugarjackj

:: 2013 13 January :: 3.12pm

Sorry I'm too rock for you bro.

1 think they know | Do you know?

1 think they know | Do you know?

:: 2013 8 January :: 7.25pm

There's no luck, you make your luck. Be a champion everyday.

sugarjackj

:: 2012 19 December :: 5.47am
:: Music: Deftones - Drive

Drive me far away.

sugarjackj

:: 2012 11 November :: 1.56am

So I made the roller derby team here. Its called Mountian Town Mayhem. I'm pretty excited because I've been talking about this for awhile.
Feels good being part of a team again.

:: 2012 9 November :: 2.27am

I hate Ayn Rand
/Annoyed ranting/

I have to avoid pointing out on facebook that the concept of going Galt doesn't work if your profession is a register jockey.

Congratulations, you removed yourself from society. We sure will miss you. How the hell will we ever find someone to work the register at 7-11?! By gods the gears of industry are falling down about us as we speak.

/Annoyed ranting/

:: 2012 8 November :: 1.31pm

I'm gonna corner the unicorn grease market, tell you what

:: 2012 7 November :: 2.25am

Ergo,
(a week ago)
1. Hurricane sandy was sent by god, because of the homo-gays.

(just now)
2. Obama only won because of hurricane sandy.

3 think they know | Do you know?

:: 2012 4 November :: 12.42pm

Big challenges right now, but fire strengthens steel.