Words - so innocent and powerless as they are, as standing in a dictionary, how potent for good and evil they become in the hands of one who knows how to combine them
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we still have the kitten.. no one wants her and its sad. i called the vet to see if there was anything i could give here to make her sniffles go away cause i cant afford to take her in and he said to just take her to the shelter, which i said no cause they will put her to sleep!!!NO not letting that happen. so i called my pal cassie for advice and she said her vet told her to give her puppy childrens benadryl to help with its allergies so i went and got childrens tylenol for colds and give her a small small amount and tadaa sniffles going away and shes up and playing again and well being a normal kitten. so pretty much fuck you mr vet man. tj said i can keep her unti i find her a home... so andyone know some one i will be in MI for red flannel and i wiill deliver! i just want to find her a good home...
So, I finally went and saw a specialist (gastrointerologist). I couldn't play last week in band because I was so nauseated and I finally got fed up with everything, so I went and saw a regular doctor at university health services and they referred me to a specialist in town.
I went on Monday and saw her: I'm having an GI ultra sound today at three thirty to rule out any possibilities of enlarged things (like my gull bladder) and I'm having a scope a week from Friday. The scope is where they shove a camera down my throat to look at my stomach and esophagus; I will be asleep when they do it.
For now I'm on Protonix in the morning to help to try to heal any errosion I've had, and Zantac at night to reduce the acid in my stomach.
The specialist said it's probably not an ulcer, but that the medication I was on (over the past year) probably relaxed the sphincter between my esophagus and my stomach allowing acid to come up in my throat. She said there's a strong likelihood that I will have acid reflux disease for the rest of my life if the sphincter doesn't heal.
I can't eat:
gum
tomato based foods
spicy foods
large meals
food high in fat
fried food
alcohol
coffee
caffeine
carbonated beverages
So, there it is. I'll get poked and prodded a bit more in the next few weeks: my follow up appointment is on October third.
so i have decided i totally hate my job at ponderosa, and i need to find a new one. I feel bad, but i have to think of my happiness and working at a resturant just isnt cutting it anymore. It just too unorginezed and stressfull. its sad but i would really enjoy a desk job a simple 9-5. sounds crazy but my sched. is so different that a regular day to day would be a great change of pace.
the kitten is getting better i got her some vitamins and i think she is kicken this cold!! still havent found her a home but it is a work in progress...
THANK YOU MICHELLE I GOT YOUR CARD TODAY AND I TRULY APPRECITATE YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM... YOUR A WONDERFUL FRIEND AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU AT RED FLANNEL.
the kitten is doing much better, after a bath and some food she is up and playing, still congested though... and tj is even letting her roam the house!!! lol my two other cats hate her but im taking her to the shelter tomorrow if i cant find someone to take her so its ok...
So i am taking out the trach at work and this cute little kitten stunmbles out covered in motor oil, dirty, and sick as hell so naturally i took it home. it is currently in my bathroom, sick and i dont know what to do with it cause i cant keep it and i cant afford to take it to a vet and i dont want it to go to the shelter cause he's in bad shape and all they will do is put him to sleep.... god i hate that i am sooooo compasionate at least when it comes to animals and i just dont want to let the little guy go knowing what will happen to it....
in other news my parents came over today, i made cornish hens, green bean casserole and mashed potatoes and it was all soo delicious... mmmmmm. game day so far has been good the colts won and that makes me happy, and the patriots won so tj is happy..
today has been a day of ickyness.... im just sooo confused.
maybe i just need to pay more attention, dig myself out of this hole i have created. i know nothing of what is going on in this world because mine has been so crazy and i just feel shitty about it... i guess i'll just have to catch up.
to the great debate.. to make or not to make that truly is the great question!!!!
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2008 10 September :: 12.13am
:: Mood: bored to tears
:: Music: The Raconteurs - Consoler of the Lonely
If you're looking for an accomplice...
The other day I was sitting there thinking about how it's almost January again, and how it'll be almost a year since I've come back home. January 4th, 2008, the day I left my heart behind in Manila. I was remembering how I was sitting there at the edge of the bed at the Traveller's Inn, all dressed and packed, and wondering what the hell I was doing, going back home. I remember Jay telling me do the right thing.
So now I'm back in school, and so's Jay. And he's got a great job at a great agency, earning a darling penny for his efforts. What's more, in January he's due for a raise. His family lives in peace. His brother's wife is pregnant again, and things seem to be going well.
I make do with where I am, too. I choose my fights, get my way most of the time, and have a lot of free time. I get to play video games, read books and make charmingly disturbing art. When I talk to my friends at AUD, and these are people I haven't seen in almost 2 years mind, they seem dull and lifeless now. They seem to be standing in the same places I left them standing when I left AUD back then, and I feel like I'm looking at them from way down the line.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, when I came back almost a year ago, I was expecting things to be different, but that all things considered, this isn't so bad either. I guess what I'm trying to say is I have my goals, and I have my life experiences, and I have tons of memories from my big crusade. I guess what I'm trying to say is, if it's almost January, then I have about a year to go before I can graduate and go back to where I left my heart.
I'm throwing myself into a busy week again; classes, work, the fraternity.
I made first chair in University Band for the first time in a year and I get many solos, one of which is a montage of Raisins and Almonds-a song which I played many a time in my youth practicing.
My health is improving. My aciphex trial is almost done, and I'm better, but not totally healed. Going to Wheatland screwed me up a bit: it's always two steps forward, one step back. I think once I'm done I'm going to go on Prilosec for a while to help it heal all the way.
Wheatland pictures to be on facebook soon (whenever Jessie gets them up).
What gives the Supreme Court to hear cases from the individual states?
Today we take for granted the appeal process in our legal system. Although the Supreme Court hears only 3% of its cases appealed from state courts it is still understood in our legal fabric that the Supreme Court is the highest court in the land. Unlike today, at the founding of our federal system the Supreme Court did not automatically have the authority to hear appeals from state courts.
Chicago was fun... dan was funny in his whites. overall it was an ok trip. i just now vow that i will never take derwood and tj on a road trip by myself ever again!!!!!!