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2006 27 July :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: Accomplished
:: Music: Kyo, Le Chemin (again, the whole album)
"This is it; The moment you've ALL been waiting for..."
Today, I was getting paranoid about Jessica again. The most irrational thing I could possibly do, especially when I consider how we were talking about how much we liked each other and how uncannily compatible we are not eight hours earlier.
I quickly realized my folly:
I'm not full in. I've picked up the bat, I'm at the plate, the ball has been thrown. A curve ball. If I swing, I might miss. I might hit it. I've no way to tell other than what I know of my own abilities. I've not totally committed yet...I'm still afraid. Hence I get paranoid. I've decided I'm done being afraid. I'm ready to swing. I'll do everything within my power to get that ball out of the park. I'm leaving my old self behind.
Look back through the pages of this journal. The boy you see thoughout most of it is now dead. I've let him die -nay, killed him- because he was not who I was meant to be I am something more...something better. I hope you can see that now.
Ultimately, there are only two things holding my old self in reality. Our memories, which will fade and tarnish, and this journal, which I have the opportunity to destroy.
I'm taking it. I've sent the website a request to have it deleted. I don't need anything on here anymore. I'm letting it all go...
...I'm swinging my bat. For God, for myself, for her.
I don't know how long it will take...but it'll be soon.
Later.
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2006 11 July :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: Solemn
:: Music: Drops of Jupiter, Train
"...And with a note of Finality"
I've said in the past that First Love never dies...
-pulls trigger-
...I lied.
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2006 9 July :: 5.56pm
Four hours and thirty-seven minutes.
Holy-crap.
I used to make fun of people for talking that long...and I just did it. I feel bad though, her mom was angry...She couldn't figure out what we could talk about for that long...and to tell the truth, neither can I.
I test at Sylvan tomorrow morning. I have to get tutored in Algebra II so I can pass the Asset tests and get into a decent math course. I need my AA when I graduate so I can apply for WSU or WWU.
Start work Tuesday morning.
I might have a French dude come live in my house for three weeks. That'd be seriously awesome.
I'm hungry.
I need food.
-Later-
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2006 22 June :: 9.10pm
i don't believe in the word forever
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2006 31 March :: 3.50pm
I was a Ronin...
Now I have a clan.
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2006 28 March :: 8.32pm
The moment of truth...
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2006 28 March :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: Contemplative
Hypothetical situation
So there is a huge party, and everyone you know comes. Even people you don't know come. And the party is for everyone, not just one person, but all of them. Slowly, one by one, the members slip away, off into the distance. You might hear from them again. You might not.
At first you don't even notice they're gone...but after a while you begin to see how thin the crowd looks. And they keep leaving. At first you're offended, but you soon realize that it wasn't just your party, it was everyones. But time wears on, and soon all the masses have left...except three.
That is Woohu.com if you are me. And the only three people who respond to this will be those three...
LONG LIVE THE BUSH CREW!!!
HIPHIP-HUZZAH!
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2006 27 February :: 10.05am
:: Mood: entertained
I am an Ass!!! A witty Ass!!!
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2005 8 November :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: calmer...but still hurt
:: Music: I never told you what I did for a living
Old friends...
So deep and down we go
down
and down we go
and down we go
and down we go
And we fall down right here
i tried
And we'll all disown to the sound of your death
We'll love again, hold hands again
and its better off this way
and never again
and never again
they gave us two shots to the back of the head
and we're all dead now
well never again
and never againt
they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead, now
I tried
one more night
one more night
laugh out cry out laugh out cry out laugh out loud
cause its dry for life
I tried
I tried
I tried
and we'll love again
we'll laugh again
we'll cry again
and we'll dance again
and its better off this way
so much better off this way
and never again
we'll never again
they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead now
fitting...there were days when all of [them] would have come running...and I don't see one of them...not one. Proof, I guess, that there really wasn't a place for me anyway.
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2005 6 November :: 9.56pm
:: Mood: Excited
:: Music: This bizarre piano my dad has playing.
I have a MySpace!
http://www.MySpace.com/prince_of_heaven
Come check it out!
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2005 18 October :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: Thoughtful
:: Music: Here Without You, Three Doors Down
Memoir...
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that i saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And i don't think i can look at this the same
But all these miles that seperate
Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life was overrated
But i hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything i know,and anywhere i go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
I heard this today in biology...Lots of memories...I first heard it on holloween. Oh well, what's dead and gone is dead...but I can't help but feel a part of me died with it. I tried today, with Laura, and there was a spark. That same spark of life...but yet it was so infintismal compared to the blazing fire that engulfed every fiber of my being back then. This whole closure thing may be more difficult than I had originally thought. Well, wish me luck.
Later.
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2005 18 October :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: Loving
:: Music: In Your Honor, Foo Fighters
Can you hear me
Hear me screamin'
Breaking in the muted sky
This thunder heart
Like bombs beating
Echoing a thousand miles
Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor
I would die tonight
Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In your honor
I would die tonight
For you to feel alive
Can you feel me
Feel me breathing
One last breath before I close my eyes
This offering
For receiving
Deliver me into the other side
Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor
I would die tonight
Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In your honor
I would die tonight
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
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2005 18 October :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: Apathetic
:: Music: The Best of You, Foo Fighters
Guardian Demon
A demon watches over you. You may find yourself at
times wishing those you dislike dead.
Sometimes, you may find yourself being jealous.
Anger can often get the best of you. You are a
unique individual. Overall though, you are a
kind person with a big heart. Your demon is
always watching over you. Though a demon may
seem like evil is watching you, it is not true.
Your demon is on neither side; good nor evil.
Your demon is on your side. Your demon is
constantly protecting and guiding you down the
right path for you in life.
Who is your soul guardian?
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Irony is my guardian.
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2005 16 October :: 1.07pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: In your honor, Foo Fighters
"Waky, waky, waffles and baky!"
I love my sister.
Later.
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2005 16 October :: 1.07am
:: Mood: Apathetic (always am afterwards)
:: Music: Bach. a concerito.
The last fifteen minutes.
Your a vampire congrats! YOu live for the darkness
because you can't go in the light.you live of
blood but you don't kill when feeding(only if
your evil you will)Being immortal is a a very
lonely road,but somehow you deal.YOur rich and
money is not an object since if you wanted to
you could rob a bank!(that would be so cool!)
Your saying:Bite me and I'll bite back.
What creature of darkness or you?(COOL PICS)CHANGED
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The irony of this result in reference to the last fifteen minutes of my life is so great it almost stings as bad as my freshly-inflicted wound...beautiful. I am now officially gushing blood. It'll clot though. God, I'm sore...and tired. Okay. I'm off to clean (sword, wound, etc.) and then to bed.
Later.
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