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2003 7 November :: 7.43pm
hmm....i'm asking her as soon as we finish this part of our conversation....i can't...i can't ask her....this is so much more important...
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2003 6 November :: 10.28am
NOOOO!!!! I JUST WROTE A HUGE ENTRY AND THE COMPUTER DELETED IT!!! stupid thing *kicks it*. yeah, XP has alot of glitches...well, i need to take a shower....fair well chidlets....
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2003 6 November :: 1.44am
:: Mood: tired/ happy
:: Music: unplugged NIrivana album in the background.
i'm so hopelessly in , love...
i'm happy, but worried...i worry that she hates me for some reason.....what am i thinking? she loves me...maybe i'll go find a flower, yeah, a flower, in the middle of fucking winter, right...yeah, whatever...love you tori, g'night. i love all of you....OH!!! TORI!!! YOUR MOM IS THE ONE I FOUND! SHE'S A MOM THAT DOESN'T THINK I'M CUTE!!!i don't think...lol. g'night.
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2003 6 November :: 1.09am
:: Music: the man who sold the world, Nirvana, here without you, three doors down.
life is so great....such a blessing...
no. no you weren't. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!!! I BLEW UP RIGHT THERE AND NOW SHE'S PISSED AT ME!!!fuck.....what am i to do? god damnit! god motherfucking damnit!! maybe i am just another sequel.........i'm reminded of a quote"i sold my fate to the devil so i could be with her for eternity only to realize just how angelic she really is"-irina's second boyfriend, mark. i don't love her, i'm long since over that. it was the sixth grade for god's sakes, but it still, for some reason hurts...well, g'night loves. tomorrow i feel will go better...sleep well my love, and sweet dreams, and i'm sorry, oh so sorry....i'll try never to do it again....never again, the words that almost killed a very dear friend of mine.........though they were ment with a different meaning, they still make me cringe. hmm.....i want to be all snuggled up with tori right now, why? because i was so weak i couldn't hold myself for just a few more minutes, and then i would have been offline and blown up in a safe enviorment..."what fi you really do do something bad?"...or how about this? "-talks to self- what am i supposed to do? nothing-"i can't finish typing it...>i think she ment it<...i thought she stabbed you? she did. you don't exist. ha! she killed you at mandy's house!!! and she killed you on holloween and just today, she stabbed you withthe spoon of temptation (does that mean it was sexy?) well, good times, good times, well, if she does go prep, i'll just stay away for a while, until she comes back from realizing that's not her...it's what she wants, i can sence it, and maybe she does belong there, in which case, i think i can stand to be out of place for a while...for eternity...but her arms are right....but tori's arms are not the arms of some stupid popular preppy chic that pisses me off more than most things...i've been in them before... what you can't see is the name i typed inside these thingys "<" ">"...so yeah, happy loving times...oh yeah, today they played that song, here without you by three doors down, and i went back to friday and relived it,a nd when the song was done i lost my connection with the past, and i fell flat on my face...it was funny as hell...it seems strange the radio plays the perfect song for the perfect time at morgans house on fridays...white flag that friday at morgans house, and here without you at morgans house again on that friday...so yeah. *studders like porky pig* that's all folks!!!
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2003 6 November :: 12.22am
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: today, smashing pumpkins
life is better
sorry about that, i'm all better now, it happens randomly..............i think machelle will fix it for me. (she's my councilor) i think i can trust her....i hope. don't worry, i won't say anything about anything i know you don't want her to hear. so yeah.....*skitters off to talk on AIM*....today is the greates day i've ever known, can't live for tomorrow, tomorrows much to long *sings rest of song*...
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2003 4 November :: 3.23pm
:: Mood: infuriated/violent
THAT LITTLE BASTARD, IF I HAD A GUN, I WOULD A' SHOT HIS BALLS OFF!!! no, but i'm serious, he acted like we were making out or something...really....putting an arm around her is very innocent and he's all fucking crazy about it....well he wasn't, but he doesn't have a legitimate reason...i mean, they have two things they say...well....three.....but the first is that it gets in the way of learning (we were in the bus line), the second is it makes people "undcomfortable", the third is that when girls feel violated or uncomfortable in a position with a boy of high status they tend not to say anything and i told tori if i moved too fast just to say something. and besides, she's pretty good about that kind of stuff, i mean, she speaks up when something i do pisses her off. so yeah, holding hands and putting ones arm around her is really quite innocent, and in a society where alot of the time a first date for someone is a first time "in bed" as well, no one is getting uncomfortable with that. and besides...IT'S OUR FUCKING RELATIONSHIP!!! IF IT FUCKING PISSES YOU OFF THAT I'M HUGGING HER, YOU CAN LOOK AWAY!!! IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUISNESS, EVEN IF YOU FALL WITNESS TO IT, IT'S STILL OUR RELATIONSHIP!!! so, anyone else wanna tear me away from tori...go ahead, make my day.
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2003 3 November :: 9.37pm
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same thing as tori...
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2003 3 November :: 2.15am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Tears in heaven (my dad taught me that today)
humanity slipping away...
i would have kissed her... " i waited all day to talk to you, i'm not going to bed now"...-smiles- she is so awesome...i love her so much........god, i never thought i would be capable of this. g'night all of you. Keep your lights on.
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2003 3 November :: 1.38am
Name: Paul D. Mahugh II
You will conquer: the United States of America (and make if illegal for Jay Leno and Conan Obrien to make fun of you).
Your title will be: Overlord
You will succeed by: Cloning an army of mad cows.
Your Enforcers will be: Street Judges (from Judge Dread).
Your first act as ruler: Contract Vampirism (undead live forever).
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2003 2 November :: 2.08pm
we are no longer individuals. there is some mental or spiritual connection that is there. some unseen bond. she's like my daemon. she's me, i'm her. no longer is anything i do for me and only me. it's for her too. it affects her in some way or form. it all makes so much sence some how.
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2003 2 November :: 1.53pm
:: Mood: tired
CALL!!!
tori, i'll give you till noon. if you wake up before then, call me.
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2003 2 November :: 11.49am
I'm such a moron.i walked into the bethroom this morninng and when i saw the snow out the window i yelled,"hey tori, look, it's snowing!" i wonder if anybody heard me...how am i going to phrase this without my parents freaking out? no idea...i want to take tori ou and abouttoday, but my mom is a little freaky about that after my sister....
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2003 2 November :: 2.27am
it is for us. anything we do should be for the benefit of US. i live for you, and you live the same way for me, so doesn't that create equilibrium?(i love that word).
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2003 2 November :: 1.42am
I hate this place...I said that at the sixth grade gaduation...
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2003 1 November :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: romantic, or i would be, if i were capable of it..
:: Music: Tears in heaven
Tears in heaven
she still hasn't called...oh i know she's doing somehting important, but even when riding and watching the sunset i couldn't keep my thoughts off of her. i think one day i'll take her out there... yeah, not to ride or anything, but to watch the sunset or something. to talk. i just need ot be alone with her for a small period of time. there's so much i want to say. but i can't say it on the internet. to open. i can't say it to the phone. i don't know why, it just doesn't feel right... i wish she were here... i wanted her to see that sunset, from that valley, deep inside the country. i want to be able to paint it absolute perfection. i want to be able to summon the world to a small box and hand it to her..."my world on a chain for you, my love"...
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