FEEL x THE x POiSON x DOWN x YOUR x THROAT


 

home | profile | guestbook


beauty was in my hand but now its gone and all is lost

recent entries | past entries


ladybug04

:: 2007 5 January :: 2.40pm

So.. Alyssa and I decided that we are going to get our ear peirced together, on the top cartilage area. I think we are going to do it this weekend. I think it's going to be fun, but i'm scared that it will hurt. I'm a big sissy about things poking.. no stabbing through skin. haha.

thats my update.. have a good weekend everyone

4 comments | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2007 1 January :: 9.00pm

So.. stayed up till 7 am this morning, and slept till noon. It was nice. Came home and had to clean clean clean though. I found this keychain and on the front it says: Samantha: "she who listens" and on the back it says:

"the world has great need for her
turns her problems into oppertunities
has keen vision in matters of the heart
once committed, she follows through
inspires others to achieve
not swayed by adversity
one who is immune to pessimism
likes being in exotic places"

I thought it was very interesting.
I've never really been any where exotic.. but it sounds fun.

SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 30 December :: 8.22pm

I absolutely hate my feet...

however, I must say that I spent quite a bit of time doing my toenails today, and they look very sexy. Now I smile everytime I look at my feet.

Dorky huh?

1 comment | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 28 December :: 11.19pm

I really miss her. I'd give anything if I could just call her and talk to her one more time. To just hear that corny, but contagious laugh of hers.


Last night I had a crazy dream

A wish was granted just for me

It could be for anything

I didn't ask for money

Or a mansion in Malibu

I simply wished, for one more day with you


One more day

One more time

One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied

But then again

I know what it would do

Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you


First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl

Then I'd unplug the telephone

And keep the TV off

I'd hold you every second

Say a million I love you's

That's what I'd do, with one more day with you


Leave me wishing still, for one more day

Leave me wishing still, for one more day




I thought I was tired, but you know you can't sleep when you can't get your mind to shut the hell up. Memories keep passing through my mind. My mother was such a beautiful person. Gosh I'm going to miss her.

Looks like i wont be sleeping much tonight.

SAY WHAT???


loserxdork

:: 2006 5 December :: 11.42pm
:: Mood: frustrated

Sooooooo I've sent countless emails to many people for babysitting positions and I'm just waiting on getting replies, I've looked into live in positions as well so that way I could move out of the house, and that would be nice. I'm not getting my hopes up though. All I really need to make is like $250 a week and I should be ok. I put an ad up on craigslist too and hopefully that brings a few responses. I made a channukah list which consists of:

1.a pair of uggs
2.the rent soundtrack
3.panic! at the disco CD (which my moms ex boyfriend broke)
4.the movie patch adams
5.the movie jack
6.the movie click
7.giftcards to stores
8.a juicy tracksuit, or just the hoodies

and I haven't really though of much else yet.

So, I'm waiting on my capital one card to see if I get accepted and I applied for a bloomingdales card so I can get 10% off when I shop. I feel bad cause I told my sisters that I would get them uggs for channukah and if I don't get a job before then I definitely wont be able to afford them but whatever, it isn't my fault, my dad had to fire me righ before the holidays.

You wanna hear something really fucked up? The day my dad fired me, like, before we got to work, he let me buy him breakfast. HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT? Whatever.

My mom wants me to see a psychiatrist and I should go but I don't know, I guess I will, whatever.

That is all for now, kinda tired so I'm gonna get off the computer soon.

SAY WHAT???


loserxdork

:: 2006 16 November :: 3.38pm
:: Mood: calm

It's my birthday.
Happy 18th birthday to me!!

6 comments | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 5 August :: 11.28am

Never give up. Poptarts and Pepsi aren't worth it.
My six hour test is over and I'm now officially a 1st degree black belt.

It was absolutely not easy physical training this morning for 5 hours, but it was fun.

6 comments | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 3 August :: 8.44pm

My black belt test is in 2 days. I'm so excited. The physical training part starts at 5 a.m. at my senseis house (he lives on a lake) and then we have to go back to the dojo about 9-930 ish for the rest. (this is the part that people can come and watch)

This time Saturday night, I'll be a black belt.

SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 26 July :: 11.38am

Wow, time is going by pretty fast. My blackbelt test is less than 2 weeks a way. I'm very nervous.

4 comments | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 8 July :: 11.19pm

5 weeks from today is my black belt test.


That's right.... only 5 more weeks until i'm a first degree black belt.


I saw Pirates of the Caribbean 2 today. It was pretty good. Orlando Bloom sure is a nice sight.

3 comments | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 21 June :: 10.57pm

Where are you?
Well.. nothing is new. I've been running a lot lately and spending more time in karate for blackbelt training. I can't wait until my test.
I hope everyone's summer is going really good.

11 days until my bday.




I'll never have what I really really want.

SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 17 June :: 11.36pm

Just got back from camping like an hour ago. Yesterday was Alyssa's 18th birthday.


Happy 18th Birthday Phil!



and in only 15 days it's my birthday. (but I'll only be 17)

4 comments | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 8 June :: 1.27pm

I have been doing lots of PT this past week. Black belt training started last Saturday. I have a demo tomorrow in Rockford at 6:30. I do have a new partner this year though, he's 12 years old and bigger and taller than me, and he's not as good as my last partner, but he's learning. (wow that's a runon sentence) but oh well, that's my update.


24 days until i'm 17!

1 comment | SAY WHAT???


ladybug04

:: 2006 13 May :: 11.08pm

This is Disturbing
A German Man is sentenced to death for being a cannibal.. read on:

FRANKFURT, Germany - A man who admitted killing and eating an acquaintance he met on the Internet was convicted of murder and sentenced to life in prison Tuesday, following his retrial in a case that engrossed and appalled Germany.

Armin Meiwes, a 44-year-old computer technician, also was convicted of disturbing the peace of the dead. His lawyers had argued that the Frankfurt state court should instead convict him of the lesser offense of “killing on demand,” on the grounds that he was only following his victim’s wishes.

The retrial of Meiwes opened in January. It was held after a federal appeals court overturned his initial manslaughter conviction to allow prosecutors to seek a tougher sentence.

At the retrial, Meiwes renewed a detailed confession, telling the court his version of the grisly details of the March 2001 killing of Bernd Juergen Brandes at Meiwes’ home in the central town of Rotenburg.

Meiwes said Brandes — who had traveled from Berlin after answering his Internet posting under the pseudonym “Franky” seeking a young man for “slaughter and consumption” — wanted to be stabbed to death after drinking a bottle of cold medicine to lose consciousness. He testified that Brandes, 43, had wanted to “be eaten alive.”

“Otherwise, I would never have done it,” Meiwes, who captured the killing on video, told the court during the trial.

‘I didn’t want to kill him’
Meiwes also maintained that Brandes had urged him to carry out further killings after his death.

Still, the defendant claimed he had hesitated before going through with the act.

“I wanted to eat him — I didn’t want to kill him,” he told the court.

Police tracked down and arrested Meiwes in December 2002 after a student in Austria alerted them to a message Meiwes had posted on the Internet seeking a man willing to be killed and eaten.

In early 2004, a court in the city of Kassel convicted Meiwes of manslaughter and sentenced him to 8 years in prison, but prosecutors appealed the verdict.

Federal judges overturned the original ruling last year and ordered a retrial, arguing the lower court, in rejecting murder charges, failed to give sufficient consideration to the sexual motive behind the killing.

2 comments | SAY WHAT???


lookatmemynameisdustin

:: 2006 16 February :: 7.58pm

hey kids

im just letting everybody know my new phone #

here it comes........................

450-8929

thats it for now,

LOVE,
dustin

1 comment | SAY WHAT???

Woohu.com | Random Journal