Megan's Journal

:: 2004 3 February :: 6.26pm

hey jake.....thanks....

:: 2004 2 February :: 9.33pm

sugarmouse0587: i just don't like it

Tabletop53: who would?

sugarmouse0587: sadists

Tabletop53: no, masochists

sugarmouse0587: oh yeah

sugarmouse0587: but a sadist would enjoy my pain

Tabletop53: it hurts?

:: 2004 2 February :: 9.20pm

my heart just wasn't into it.

like always.

:: 2004 2 February :: 9.23pm

I think I'm depressed.

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:: 2004 2 February :: 8.01pm

I had an awesome weekend

:: 2004 2 February :: 7.29pm

well i havent been on because of bein grounded latley *sighs* i hate it its like anything i do i am in trouble...oh well i guess that life...anyways i am still alive...more laters g2g

:: 2004 1 February :: 11.50pm
:: Music: Insomniac with Dave Attell

Where is my sand, Mr SandMan?
I'm tired all day long. And now i have a ton of energy...I'm totally an insomniac. i'm watching insomniac as we speak. or...as i type. because by the time someone reads this...it will probably be tomorrow. since tomorrow begins in 12 minutes. it will be today for you. but today for me...is yesterday for you. its weird how i'm always a day behind...

*Flips the sandman off.......twice*

WHERE'S MY FUCKIN SAND, BIATCH???!!!!!

so much energy. 6 hours until i have to wake up. FUCK SLEEPING!!!

why can't we plug ourselves in to a little machine and it regenerates our bodies. that would be so freakin sweet.

Mr. Sandman give me a dream....
or is it fetch me a dream?
i don't fuckin if its a nightmare...just put me to sleep, make me tired!!!

but i guess thats what those little blue pills are for i found in the bathroom under the sink in a plastic bag, rolled up in an old newspaper...

i think i'll go take them

:: 2004 30 January :: 10.24pm

AUTO SHOW AUTO SHOW AUTO SHOW!

2004!!!!!

the car of the future....TODAY!

____________________________________

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:: 2004 30 January :: 5.36pm

I am going to a party, no on call me cuz I won't be home!!!!

:: 2004 29 January :: 9.31pm
:: Mood: stirred
:: Music: the verve pipe

and there i am in the guilty shirt not expecting and am at a loss for words. i think it's better that way though. i would have said the wrong thing. again.

tuesday seems too insignificant.

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:: 2004 29 January :: 7.07pm
:: Music: billy joel-lullabye

this is the day you say?

i don't remember any tuesdays.
but it's probably true.

:: 2004 28 January :: 2.56pm

I am confused enough and people are makin it harder for me!

:: 2004 28 January :: 12.07pm

this is certainly a happy time.

:: 2004 27 January :: 10.15pm
:: Music: Nirvana

The Way to Go

Nevermind, the way you feel changes tomorrow
Nevermind, the things you say mean nothing now

And all I say has not effect
The way you still just aren�t impressed
And all I do to make you feel
All I feel to make you breathe
And all I do to let you know
Nevermind just let me leave

Nevermind, the way you always change your act
Nevermind, things that fall within your path

And all I say has not effect
The way you still just aren�t impressed
And all I do to make you feel
All I feel to make you breathe
And all I do to let you know
Nevermind just let me leave

Nevermind, the wounds that never heal
Nevermind, the way you never feel

And all I say has not effect
The way you still just aren�t impressed
And all I do to make you feel
All I feel to make you breathe
And all I do to let you know
Nevermind just let me leave

Nevermind, things change as they heal with you
Nevermind, I thought I�d found a way to deal with you

Nevermind, I guess I�ll leave
Nevermind, just let me leave
Nevermind, I still can�t breathe

:: 2004 27 January :: 8.30pm

I spilled pop on my computer...and now the T sticks. It sucks.

Fuck you Mr. T Key.

:: 2004 27 January :: 6.33pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Eamon (Don't want you back)

Confused
As I sit here and think about what has been going on in my life, I fiqured out that I don't deserve this life. Everyone said that since I have been with Kyle I have been happy and I am always like that. But since I have broken up with Chris, I see that I am depressed and I don't know what to do. I wish this would all go away and I would have my old life back. People that are here for me kinda notice because they put up with my shit all the time. I feel as I lost some friends and I hope that isn't true. Some of these people helped me:

Heather- You and I have been through alot, I miss hanging out with you and I miss you all together! I hope you don't hate me!

Katie- Your like my bestest friend and I thank you for that, I am glad you are here for when I cry I can cry on ur sholder!

Michelle-Things have been crazy and you and I are gonna have good times, we will remember them and look back and laugh!

Val- Thanks, should I say anymore?!

Anyone else who has been here to talk to me or help me tell me and I will put you in my next entry!!! Thanks guys! I love ya all!!!

Janice

:: 2004 27 January :: 2.35pm

I am so confused

:: 2004 26 January :: 7.15pm

You often wonder...why god does the things he does. I Wonder a lot of times...what he has in store for me.....for my life.....and i fear many things....but at the same time....i am just letting god guide me....i couldnt do it anymore....so i asked him to lead me into a spectacular life.....make me better....just get me outta this whole that I myself have dug....because i cant climb out alone....i need him to help me. I know that in some parts of my life there is gonna be this huge bump in my road...but then there is god...with his hands and arms ready to help me....lift my spirits...my life. but for now...i dont know what he is doing.....is he with someone else..? because i feel unhelped.....but i will never forget when he did help when my dad was in the accident...but i hope that i will soon know he is with me....so for now i am off in my own world....

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:: 2004 25 January :: 8.54pm
:: Music: sore

my favorite candy is and always will be pb max. even though i am a chocolate hater.

:: 2004 25 January :: 7.47pm

sighs......

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:: 2004 25 January :: 5.30pm
:: Music: Brand New

Its Hackin Time!!
Got a good hackin in today.

It was great. Shoveled the driveway and Chris came over, just to the two of us played. The rest of the usual gang were either being wimpy-winy-pussy-ass-bitches...Or they weren't home. Or both.

Watched some videos of the Worldwide Footbag Championships, they're awesome. They rarely drop it, and when they do its back up so fast you can't even tell. But they only do 3 or 4 moves. All that I can't do, but still, get some range in the moves people...come on. They're feet move so fast...you can't even really tell what they're doing, but, its awesome I'd imagine.

Ron--

:: 2004 25 January :: 4.57pm

and *the Famous Stacy* has done it again....decorating my journal...i recommend her ppl!*

:: 2004 25 January :: 12.32pm

well Friday didnt turn out the way i planned it ...i didnt see Trevor or Jecika....and that was a lil sad....but then Daneille Pinney came over and we had a blast hangin out..woowoo! then saturday was Atutumns bday and that was great too ! lol well anyways ill talk to you all laters! byes

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:: 2004 24 January :: 9.14pm
:: Music: excited

I smell like band camp. it's not that bad bathroom smell though.

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:: 2004 24 January :: 11.26am

When I grow up, I'm going to win the Footbag Worldwide Championship.

It's gonna kick so much ass. Almost literally.