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2004 25 April :: 2.46pm
ouch
20 of the little bastards jumped me and frog to night we have left them in a worse state than we are but ow both me and frog are in agony. my nose iant stopped bleeding for ova 2 hours now and we are gonna move house again 2morra. dunno where to yet but we are sick of the town center sick of all the shit we are getting, rachels birthday party tonight so gonna stay at the acklam and sleep in steves room as we dont want to go home just to get more agro.
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2004 24 April :: 10.11am
Last night.
Fucking Brilliant. got completely assholed and at the beginning of the night said i was gonna get my leg ova....I did. Lass called jody who is adament she is a lesbian....well was adamant until last night now she is confused. Haha. Sally didnt turn up but i think its for the best if we dont see eachother at all anymore as it can only lead to more hurt.
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2004 23 April :: 7.22am
revelations
strange.....i have figured out that sally never did love me, she may have loved me as a friend and a bed but she didnt love me with her heart and spirit, if she did then she would be able to support me through my mind at the moment either that or she is alot weaker than i thought. either way tis shit.
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2004 21 April :: 2.47pm
:: Mood: upset
dumped
sally just dumped me....said she cant jhandle my mind, i understand that as i cant handle iut either but i needed her help to sort it as i am too weak to do it on my own i love her and want to be with her but its quite clear now that i cant gonna go home soon and get hammered on me own.... not a good idea but at least the knives aint sharp enough
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2004 19 April :: 9.36am
MIKE!!
good night on friday, aprt from me suffering from mild concussion as i was jumped out the front of the new house, had an arguement with sally on saturday night as im still trying to get my head on straight but this whole mike thing isnt helping and i got very pissed off when i found out she has been telling him my business especially when it has got fuck all to do with the little shit. I dont mind her still talking to him and what not but it stresses me out and sends me partanoid and shit when her text messages from him are telling me that she has been lying to me about what time he has been going round hers and she was over 2 hours late for phoning me when he was round hers last. I dont really want him going round there at the moment as im still trying to get my head round a few things but ive tried explaining to her that it willl take me a while to do it but i dont think she understands what i am doing to my own mind trying to get this stuff sorted. Argh my fucking head
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2004 16 April :: 5.20am
standard stuff lately frog is having mood swings because of his meds, i just been readin books quite alot and staying in. The house warming party is tonight and expecting about 30 - 40 people to show up should be an interesting night, not going to the arena however but frog is
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2004 13 April :: 6.37am
Moved into the new house last night Yay. Frog is moving in sometime this afternoon but not sure when yet. Sally is coming down in about an hour YAY. Our dad wants me to take care of harry for him not so yay as im probably gonna end up doing it myself as i need the money at the moment sally just this second phoned me her mam is gonna finish her coffee then she is getting a lift straight down well gonna go do stuff now
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2004 7 April :: 5.09am
up early this morning going to the housing office to get new benefit forms as me n frog made several mistakes so im going to re-write them then got to take them to trevors house so he can give them to the landlord then got to get ready for the funeral. tried not to think about the funeral to much but now its here so all i can do is keep me head up. going to see sally tonight if our dad gives me some money which he said he wouuld but if he aint then she is gonna come and see me. Figured something out a couple of days ago, thanks to the shit childhood with our mam doing a runner and our dad being a violent alcoholic i have been left with an insecurity complex wich leads to me fucking any relationships im in as i end up getting paranoid and jealous when there is no need to be. well better get going to housing office.
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2004 6 April :: 8.14am
:: Music: kid playing games
stress
got stressed out yesterday cos of all the shit going on at the moment but enjoyed seeing sally, glenn's funeral 2morra gonna see sally afterwards tho, txt our dad about the money he said he was gonna bring down for me but didn't get a reply, so either denise read it and didnt tell him about it or he is ignoring me, what a great father he is. went to see the house today gonna move in wednesday next week but it is only 2 bedrooms sso we are gonna get another room built downstairs or not have ailsa move in with us dunno wich yet hopefully she wont be moving in as she is stressing me out even more and she was being a right bitch yesterday and i cant be arsed with it
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2004 5 April :: 8.18am
shitness of doom improving
been really shit lately, my uncle died on wednesday night which made me n our dad cry lots, stepmam n stepsister attacked me on thursday ova some fucking cans of all things the stupid bastards. our dad said i had to move out so staying with paula for now, my uncles fuhneral on wednesday but i aint got no shoes, sallys coming down with in the next hour, yay aint seen her in ova a week n been missing her loads, going to see a house tonight n should be moving into it next tuesday, very hungry as our dad said he would come down and give me some money for food but he hasnt, dont know if im getting a lift to the funeral or not as our dads mempry is shit n he probs wont remember that he said he would give me a lift, if he dont then i got a lovely long walk to the church. well gonna waste time on internet now until sally gets here probs play games or sommat. bye 4 now
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2004 30 March :: 7.22am
i have been a right cunt lately n i only realised why when gareth pointed out that he used to be on the same pain killers as the ones ive been taking and they where giving him mood swings and ive been a twat towards most people even when it hasnty called for it.
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2004 27 March :: 7.41am
sat at lucy's house with sally and frog, had a great night last night but for some reason i kept having mood swings. one minute i was happy then the next i would be really pissed off and i dont know why. had to appologise to martin for threatening to kick him in the teeth. sally and i are wonderful most of the time but on occasion she can be very harsh. staying at hers tonight, looking forward to that cos we aint spent a whole night with just the two of us in quite a while. well gotta go ppl here n stuff.
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2004 25 March :: 10.05am
same old shit, gareth complaining about me not having a job, sally n me are getting alot better now and she has agreed to move in with me when she starts uni
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2004 23 March :: 8.42pm
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thinkin about sally lots happy to be back with her but worried as the distance between us at the moment is causing a few problems but as soon as i move back to boro they should be solved, know derffinately that i am in love now thinking this is the first time i actually have loved someone. it is alot different nnow from in the past when i hjave thoght i was in love so im guessing that must have just been lust not love, gotta go gareth needs the comp back. loosing my patience with him
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2004 17 March :: 10.37am
at sally's house. YAY. its nice to be back with her stressed out at our dads but thats to be expected got a job thats gonna pay £300 a week. Kick ass
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