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2003 6 February :: 8.54 pm
WEEEE!!
I went to Mia's house for dinner. Because her mom cooks good. I'm so hyper right now. Not on the outside, but on the inside I'm just bouncing around. On the outside, and physically, I could just drop dead right here, I'm so tired..I think I'll go to bed soon, that sound good to you? Well, it has to, because I'm going to bed anyway! HA!!!
Mindy
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2003 6 February :: 4.42 pm
Ok, the scoop on Charlie. The guy I have a total crush on. He plays french horn in the band at school, but I found out last night that he plays piano too. I'm suspicious that he still has a crush on Izzy, his ex-girlfriend, who as recently been absolutely hounding me about asking him to go see footloose with me. Which I did, and he kinda in a round-about-way said no...at least, enough of a no that I've been depressed all day. He seemed fine this morning though, really...
I personally feel I'm just having a bad week, although I'm glad that I've been a lot more outgoing, it will be useful....sometime. Anyway, I think I'll just explain the wonderful Charlie later. I have to go study for a bio test so I can go over to Mia's house for a while...
Mindy
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2003 6 February :: 9.31 am
Yay I finished my work for today in this class.
Well, almost at least..I just have a few more numbers to figure out, and then I\'ll be good to go! Yay! I dont really have much to say, I just didnt have anything better to do. Oh well. Hm. What do you people think of Charlie? I think he\'s a great guy, funny and serious at the same time, blah blah blah. But I dont really know what you guys think of him. Well? Get to commenting!!
Mindy
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2003 6 February :: 9.13 am
Bleep. I was in SUCH a bad mood this morning because Mom made me late to choir practice AGAIN, and I gave Mr. A this HORRIBLE look, but I didnt realize I had done it until afterwards. He didnt notice though..oh well. Practice still went ok I guess. I'm in a much better mood now.
Yeah, I went to the band hall afterwards, showed the band people I talk to in there our music, whom is mainly Charlie, but also Jake and this girl who was sitting on the floor, wonder what her name was? Oh well, whatever...walked with Charlie to his class, we talked about what he missed at C-groups last night and him seeing a friend of his mom's he hadnt seen in 13 years or something like that. So yeah...It was fun. But anyway, I think I'm done for now. Hopefully the rest of my day will go better than how my morning went.
I look like crap today. I dont care.
Mindy
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2003 5 February :: 9.27 pm
C-groups was lots of fun. I took Jessica with me. Mia couldnt go because she had to do something for geography. I'm on the phone with her now though, so its all good. I just yelled at her because its been FOREVER since she updated her journal. But she's going to come see me at church on Sunday, so its all good. I'm really excited about my solo thinky bob, but all the while I'm getting a bit nervous thinking about singning in front of that huge crowd that is there every week. And the fact that Mia will probably do something stupid is also on my mind, but that's just something to laugh at. Maybe she can sleep over on Saturday, and that way she'll just go with us to church. Maybe Jess will too, if she wants to go with me to church.
Haha I went to the site that Jenn wanted me to. It was www.disturbingauctions.com and it was...interesting? Lol
But yeah, whatever. Just to tell the people who were wondering, Charlie and I are NOT going to go to the play tomorrow, but that's ok. I'm not offended, it takes much more than that to get me all stirred up. So yeah....anyway...oh my! It's almost 10, I should go take a shower and get to bed!!
Mindy
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2003 5 February :: 3.56 pm
But...
I didnt see him after school, although I saw him this morning. We only just barely touched on the subject, me saying I felt like I was back in middle school because Jessica had called him last night...but I didnt get an answer out of him! It made me mad...but oh well, I can still ask tomorrow, right? Or, if I honestly couldnt wait (WHICH I CAN, you unpatient people), I could call him when I got home..but...it can wait, right? Or maybe I'll call and ask if he's gonna go to C-groups? Who knows, but I would just really like to get home at the moment, but my mom seems to have disappeared...hm..oh well, she'll be back. Anyway...
Mindy
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2003 4 February :: 7.15 pm
:: Music: Mariah Carey- Make It Through the Rain(now its Globes and Maps)
Play? Charlie? ME?
Ok, had a looooooong talk with Izzy earlier. She's going out with Brooks (so even if she isnt mad at Charlie anymore, he still cant have her) and SHE thinks I'm perfect for him, and I find it hard to disagree. She says I should ask him if he wants to go to the play on Friday, kinda break the ice. But just as friends, you see. Yeah...its not a bad idea. I mean, I've got a ticket and all that....the hard part would be asking. But how do I go about that? I've no idea, I'm way over my head here, although my recently gained daring at school will probably help in situations like this. But not that much! I'm so out of it recently, but..I dont know. Mom isnt mad, yay. She said it was a good day to get a ride home because she ended up helping Ms. Huddleston and staying WAY late, although she was mad she had to find out from Nikki and not me. Oh well..she wasnt THAT mad, just put on that tone to make sure I remembered next time, which wont be a problem. Izzy just says I should ask him to go to the play with me on Friday, but do you know how much daring that takes? Especially from me, I mean, come on. Its craziness. Well, even if I dont gain the courage to do that, I'm definately asking him if he's going to the Panther Chorale concert on Sunday afternoon. Because that is supposed to be AWESOME, and even if he doesnt go, I'm going. Although it would definately be nice if he was there. But seriously....man, I have so much I want to say, I just dont know how to say it! I like him A LOT, and I know he at least KINDA likes me..but..I mean....!! Its nice that I have Izzy at my back now, and I dont have to worry about her, but I mean, seriously..she cant ask for me, that's FAR too middle school. But I mean, yeah...I dont know what I mean. I dont know anything, cept that viruses arent alive and are actually made mainly of DNA and proteins, although a few have RNA in them....sorry, been studying for a quiz in bio tomorrow.
But seriously, how can I just ASK him if he wants to go? I was really tempted to call him last night and ask him if he was busy, see if he wanted to go to the pool and swim a few laps (he's an excellent swimmer, made state last year in the summer. he doesnt do swimming in the school year, too busy with band playing french horn, I found out earlier today), because I was in the mood to swim anyway, but I ended up just getting home, taking a shower, and sitting on my bum, shaking my head at my shyness. I feel so stupid worrying that he's just going to totally reject me, which I know he wouldnt do...I hope? But whatever, enough of going on and on and on and on and on (yes, a whole 5 "on"'s, you know that's what I've been doing). I'll just grit my teeth and ask him tomorrow. Like Jason told me, if I dont ask, I'll never have an answer. So that's that. And maybe I'll ask him if he plans to go to C-groups tomorrow night too...that would be another chance to hang out, in a fun and churchish atmosphere. So yeah...he seems most at ease at church, so maybe that would be a good idea? I dont know, whatever. You guys make sure to leave your comments.
Mindy
Arent you proud of me? I wrote a super long entry! Yay! I havent done that in a while, and you know it, dont even TRY to deny it!! I guess I just had a WHOLE lot to say for once..
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2003 4 February :: 4.05 pm
Well...
I got a ride home from him, but I didnt exactly have Mom's consent. Of course, she knew about it...at least I hope she heard me say it... but she didnt exactly say yes. Oh well. I left a message on her phone for her, just incase she went looking for me and all that crazy junk. Charlie was all worried she would be mad at him, but I told him that if anyone was going to be the focus of her anger, it would be me, and it probably wont be too bad because nothing happened, blah blah blah...But still. I even got to hug him today, when I was pleading with him to give me a ride home. So yeah...anyway....!! I'm done. Bye!
Mindy
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2003 4 February :: 8.36 am
Sorry about that, but yeah, he was just walking next to me, and it took me a while to figure out that it was him, but when I did, I was just like "OH!! Hey!" and I felt a little stupid because it took me so long to realize it was him, but oh well. I'm just glad that for once HE was the one trying to find ME. Ok, maybe he wasnt trying to, but still, he found me and didnt just keep walking, he actually came up and said hi. He said that Izzy called him last night, but only to get an answer to the Geometry homework, so that was ok...!!!!!!! Yay!!!
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2003 4 February :: 8.31 am
!! I went down to the band hall this morning and he WASNT THERE! So I was heading off toward Recordkeeping, and as I was going up the little ramp close to the door into the courtyard, I turn my head a little, and he's walking next to me!
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2003 3 February :: 5.44 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!! Izzy is mad at Charlie!! He and I agree that he is like.."banned" from her because she doesnt even talk to him anymore. I was SO gonna get a ride home from him today and not have to wait for mom, but she said no. She says its because I'd try to get a ride home with a boy, and yes, I suppose I would as I want to get a ride home with Charlie. When I went and talked to him about it, he goes "Aw, does that mean I cant give you rides home anymore?" And I just laughed and said "Not unless she's not here, which is like...never" So yeah...EEE!!!!
I'm glad Izzy is mad at him. Tomorrow I'll ask why, but for now, I'm just glad about it!!! YAY!!!
Mindy
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2003 2 February :: 8.33 pm
:: Music: My show!! (American Dreams)
!!!!!!!!!
EEEEE!!!! I got to talk to Charlie. And he was my partner in "Wink 'em" and he complimented my singing AND I got that solo AND I got to hold his hand. I mean, yes, it was during prayer and I was also holding Lauren's hand, but STILL!! I love a man's hands. They're big and warm....so basically I got to touch my favorite part of him. (MEANING HIS HAND TIM!!!) Yay! But yeah, either he's toying with my heart, or he likes me too because he's always glancing at me and things like that. Like, this morning during communion, I was kneeling at the choir altar, which faces the rest of the choir, and I would glance up at him and he's just kind of gazing at me...kinda the way I did when he was at the altar and I was in my seat. Heehee! But ooooomg, see, the test is if he wears his name tag tomorrow. We spelled our names backwards (we meaning half of the youth group), and I'm wearing mine on my pants tomorrow, so if he wears his, that means he probably like me. Yay! He gave me a ride home today, or rather, his mom did. But yeah...ANYWAY, I'm done. We take a TAKS benchmark tomorrow morning, I'm not really looking forward to it....oh well. Bye!
Mindy
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2003 31 January :: 6.10 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Josh Groban- To where you are
Bear
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2003 31 January :: 3.49 pm
I hate how my life works. Most people just have lives that go the same speed all the time, its not great, but its not horrible, they just trudge on through it. But not mine. For me, I have this good luck thing that like...my life improves over a few weeks time which is great and I love it. And then, when I start getting used to it and all, it just collapses and I have this huge event or something that just drops all that was going good in my life. If you looked at a chart that showed my luck, it would increase for a while and then suddenly just drop at some point. It really really sucks. Oh well....whatever. I'm done now, I just had to express that. I hope Mom and I get to go home soon, I just want to get away from here.
Mindy
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2003 31 January :: 3.44 pm
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Charlie doesnt like me. Do you know how I know that? Because he likes Izzy, they were going out a few weeks ago, but she broke up with him because he was too attached and all that, and now I THINK she just wants to be friends, but one thing is for sure..
I've no chance against Izzy, please. She's smarter AND prettier than I am. You cant compete with that! Yes, I might be more loving and blah blah blah and a quiz calls me the perfect girlfriend, but seriously, a guy isnt going to realize that until he gets to know me and to be honest, Charlie and I dont know much about eachother at all, beyond names, religion, and passions (choir/band). Its so retarded. Why do I even try?
Mindy
I'm just glad its Friday, I need a break.
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