:: 2003 7 January :: 5.00 pm
:: Mood: drained

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Ow. Today hurt. Not physically, but you get the idea. Wow. Ok anyway. I didnt turn in my stuff for swimming today, I decided to wait until Liz could come with me, which is tomorrow..I really didnt want to go in there by myself, he's much too intimidating..and I have something in my eye, and it wont come out! Owwie!

Today wasnt so bad...I guess. P.E. will be a breeze, which is fine with me...and I havent been to my other new class yet. Yes, I do feel bad for quitting swim team, but not TOO bad. I just feel I could be doing more productive things with my time. I mean, I OBVIOUSLY have no future in swimming, so I'd rather spend time doing stuff I might actually have a future in...I'm not an athletic kind of person, I prefer sitting on my butt to riding my bike. Which is why I cant wait to drive so I dont have to use that stupid bike at all...my brother uses it more than me anyway. At least, I cant wait til Mia can drive, then I wont have to use it as much either. We were thinking about going to Jamba Juice yesterday, but it was a little cold...perhaps tomorrow might be better, its actually supposed to get up into the 70's. But yeah, I dont really have anything else to say...I'm so tired, I just want to go home....

Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2003 6 January :: 4.05 pm

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Hi. I'm bored. So here I am. I got mad at my family last night. It sucked. Too lazy to give all the details. Maria and I plan to do something over here. Sometime..whenever she finishes taking down Christmas decorations.

Dad is thinking about getting a new job...he's actually been thinking about it for a while now. His boss doesnt respect him or something like that...yeah. But I dunno, whatever...

I dont want to go back to school tomorrow. It was too nice just...staying home...I dont want to go back to Mrs. Parham. Her class is such a drag, I just...dread it. I want to get out of it, but...yeah.

AJ has friends over. Stupid people..they're so loud.

The cable in here on the TV isnt working..stupid cable.

Hm. Greg is home..guess that means Mom is home too...oh well.

I'm in a very complainy kind of mood today. Did you notice?

Mom isnt home. Hm. Wonder how Greg got here then. Although he brought a friend with him. So that's 3 extra annoying boys in the house. Ok, Mom just called. So guess she is coming home...at least she's on her way. Maybe she can stop the madness in this house....ok done. Bye.

Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2003 4 January :: 5.20 pm

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Yay..one is the same as Jason, the other shows..a slight difference. He and I really are a lot alike, but I STILL think I'm more like Mia. Well, if you've read Mia's journal entry, you've seen how she and Ian have hit a tough spot. I'll have to get a hold of her and ask her about it. (If you werent smart enough to connect the dots before, in my last entry, I was talking about Mia and Ian.)

But yeah. Check...2 things of my To Do list. I cleaned my room and straightened my hair..although I didnt do too good of a job, and its a little dirty, so I'm gonna go wash it later.

Wow ya know what? I didnt get up until like..12:20 today. Then I didnt get out of bed until 1:30 or so...I was just feeling sooo tired this morning. But I'm gonna make myself go to bed semi-early this morning, because I would LIKE to go to the 9 o'clock service at church tomorrow, to see the Youth choir sing..omg, last time I saw them sing, I just...sat there in awe..I could close my mouth, I just sat there and stared..because I didnt know that a YOUTH choir could be THAT good. I mean, they dont practice everyday or anything. Its just wow. See, I feel like..at school, I'm just...I dont know, I'm wasting my talent in that pathetic excuse for a choir. But Mr. Detrick, the director at CHHS, is the Youth Music Minister at my church, and so naturally, we have like..one of the best youth church choirs around. But yeah, enough of that...I'm done now, I've said enough. Bye!

~Mindy

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:: 2003 3 January :: 6.39 pm

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Hm. Same as Jason. He does tend to say we are a lot alike...although I personally see more of a resemblance mind-wise between Mia and myself...

My friend seems upset over her boyfriend. She feels like he is crowding her, and from what she has told me, it sounds like he is...My friend is just not ready for a really serious relationship, she wants to be able to play around, ya know? Now, I'm all for a serious relationship, and I'm happily in one...which is great and peachy for me. But she's not ready, and she's thinking that if he doesnt back off soon...they're going to be done. And I just really dont want to see that happen, they were supposed to turn out like Jason and I!! It was supposed to be great!!! But now I see that she isnt really....I'm not going to say ready, because she could handle it, its just that she's not....hmm...its not the right time for a commitment. She just wants to have fun, ya know?

But yeah, enough about my friend. Hmm..I spent the night at Mia's last night, did I tell you that? That was fun. We listened to music, came up with potentials as banquet dates and b-day party people, played monopoly until we got bored, then talked for 2 hours about everything....it was great. But yeah...I'm done. I've said enough, even if it wasnt mainly about me.

~Mindy


To do list:
1) Pick up the clothes off my floor. And change my sheets.
2) Straighten my hair..its getting poofy.
3) Ask Mom about POSSIBLY going to CHHS next year (maybe she'll let me if I promise to be anti-school spirit).
4) Get to know James and Reuben a little better...they are(for the moment) my possible dates to banquet.
5)Somehow bring up the subject of having a few friends over for a birthday thing...maybe(I'm not much of a party thrower).
6) Somehow bring up the subject of driving to Austin in May.....gotta be there for him......

1 Indeed | Is it love?

:: 2002 31 December :: 6.59 pm
:: Mood: distressed

Love.
When people talk about love, they dont talk about the obsessive part of it. The part that makes you mad at their parents, when they drag them somewhere, or (in my case) at football, which will drag Jason away from me probably more easily than his family. Or how mad you can get at your own family, tearing you away. I dont know how many times I have screamed at my mom and brothers because they were trying to keep me away from him.

And then there is that responsibility you feel towards them. Like, I feel responsible for keeping Jason happy, for taking care of him (at least in a sense) and being there for him. When I talked to Jason about his graduation, and when he told me he would rather have his cousin there than me, I practically started crying. I couldnt speak to him, I was so hurt. I just sat there, staring...because he was trying to deny me my responsibilities. He finally changed what he said, saying he didnt mean it. I know it isnt likely I'll make it down to Austin to see him graduate, but he could at LEAST give me the chance to do so.

I mean...Mia will be driving soon. What am I saying, Mia's parents would never let her drive down to Austin only a WEEK after getting her license. Hey, Mia, I thought your parents were supposed to trust you a bit more after your quince, not tighten the leash?

But really. Dont take it wrong, I love having these responsibilities, and I certainly would rather be mad at my family over something like him rather than something...really bad. So yeah...Love is grand...its just....I dunno. It can be very, very frustrating at times. Well, that's all I really had to say. I just had to let out how I was feeling right now.

~Mindy

P.S. Sorry it took me so long to update.

1 Indeed | Is it love?

:: 2002 28 December :: 11.20 am

We're going home pretty soon. Dad is in a hurry to get home, but Mom isnt moving so fast. Who knows what will become of it. Lol

But yeah, I'll say more when I get home and have internet access through CABLE.
~Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2002 27 December :: 10.03 am

Hmm...
I'm thinking about donating that $5 to this site, like he wants us to. I mean, its only $5 and I have THAT much to spare. Who knows though. It would just be nice, but whatever. Mel got a hamster yesterday, it is soooo cute. Its white with a grey stripe on its back and grey ears. But yeah, I dont really have much to say, just thought I'd let you people know I'm alive!
~Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2002 25 December :: 9.13 pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: First Harry Potter movie

Is it love?

:: 2002 24 December :: 11.31 pm
:: Mood: tired

Christmas at the Helmers'
Ok, I'm at my Gramma's house now. It was fun, we got here around 3 and kinda hung out here for like...45 minutes. In which I re-straightened my hair. Yeah, then we went to church and had all that fun stuff. So we got back home and just kinda hung out and snacked on whatever until like...8:30. And then we went and opened presents. I got some lifesavers, $10, and 2 picture frames. And then the last things were 3 rolled up presents from Gramma, each for a branch of the family (my mom and dad, Uncle Ken and Aunt Cathy, Aunt Barb) and they were rolled up brochures for CRUISES to the CARIBBEAN. Is that just the coolest thing or WHAT?! Gramma says she will pay for the trip, but we have to choose a date, and anything else we have to pay for ourselves. Which isnt much, just the usual tours of ruins and things we buy at each stop. And it probably wont be until the summer, but doesnt that just sound so COOL?! It was funny, you could tell my mom was happy because her voice was squeaking a lot. Lol. It sounds like a lot of fun, I cant wait. I think we're wanting to go around...June 10th? Something like that. I noticed that I look really really good with my hair straight, and the highlights and all. Its pretty cool. Oh yeah, ha ha, did I tell you Mom gave my highlights yesterday morning, and I got a hair straightener for Christmas? Oh well, if I did, I just gave you a convenient reminder. Rocky chases Gramma's cat, Checkers, whenever she comes out from hiding under the bed. It was funny, Uncle Ken stuck his foot out to try and stop Rocky from chasing Checkers, and he got clobbered and fell down. It was sooo great. Everyone in my family(that is, parents and brothers and me) got THE (Mom always yells at me because I forget the "the") Ohio State University jackets. My parents love them most, but that's because they both attended OSU. But yeah. Whatever. So tonight was a great night. And I love my new skirt and dress, although all I really want to do at the moment is just...change and go lay down. So I'll probably do that. I miss all you peoples!!
~Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2002 24 December :: 8.13 am

Vacation.
I'm going on vacation later today. Mom just got up, so I'll probably have to go get ready for something sooner or later. I'll be keeping this updated during my trip for certain people who would probably go crazy if they didnt know what I had been doing the whole time. I wish it would snow. There was a chance of it last night, but of course, it didnt come. Oh well, I'll survive. At least I've seen snow a couple times in my life. Every winter in New Jersey, and every winter down here, now that we've moved back, except this one. And a few times when we lived in Plano, but not as many. So yeah, I've had my share of snow, and I know a few people who havent. And that must suck. I love snow. Its just that small little innocent thing that makes Christmas...kind of complete. But yeah, I think I'm done now. I'll talk later, when I'm at Gramma's house.
~Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2002 20 December :: 7.01 pm

Hm.
I feel like such a loser tonight. I'm the only one in my family who has been home since they got home from work/school. Its so pathetic. I'll call Mia in a minute as a last attempt to have a life. I mean, even my brother is at the movies with a few friends. And I really need to get out and buy a few Christmas presents. I hope she didnt have to babysit her little devils tonight. Ok, tell you later if I was successful or not. Bye!!

Is it love?

:: 2002 18 December :: 4.43 pm
:: Mood: amused

Gold, Common Sense, and Fur.
My husband and I had been happily (most of the time) married for five years but hadn't been blessed with a baby. I decided to do some serious praying promised God that if he would give us a child, I would be a perfect mother, love it with all my heart and raise it with his word as my guide. God answered my prayers and blessed us with a son. The next year God blessed us with another son. The following year, he blessed us with yet another son. The year after that we were blessed with a daughter. My husband thought we'd been blessed right into poverty. We now had four children, and the oldest was only four years old. I learned never to ask God for anything unless I meant it. As a minister once told me, "If you pray for rain, make sure you carry an umbrella."
I began reading a few verses of the Bible to the children each day as they lay in their cribs. I was off to a good start. God had entrusted me with four children and I didn't want to disappoint Him.

I tried to be patient the day the children smashed two dozen eggs on the kitchen floor searching for baby chicks. I tried to be understanding when they started a hotel for homeless frogs in the spare bedroom, although it took me nearly two hours to catch all twenty-three frogs. When my daughter poured ketchup all over herself and rolled up in a blanket to see how it felt to be a hot dog, I tried to see the humor rather than the mess.

In spite of changing over twenty-five thousand diapers, never eating a hot meal and never sleeping for more than thirty minutes at a time, I still thank God daily for my children.

While I couldn't keep my promise to be a perfect mother - I didn't even come close - I did keep my promise to raise them in the Word of God. I knew I was missing the mark just a little when I told my daughter we were going to church to worship God, and she wanted to bring a bar of soap along to "wash up" Jesus, too. Something was lost in the translation when I explained that God gave us everlasting life, and my son thought it was generous of God to give us his "last wife."

My proudest moment came during the children's Christmas pageant. My daughter was playing Mary, two of my sons were shepherds and my youngest son was a wise man. This was their moment to shine. My five-year-old shepherd had practiced his line, "We found the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes." But he was nervous and said, "The baby was wrapped in wrinkled clothes." My four-year-old "Mary" said, "That's not clothes, silly. That's dirty, rotten clothes."

A wrestling match broke out between Mary and the shepherd and was stopped by an angel, who bent her halo and lost her left wing. I slouched a little lower in my seat when Mary dropped the doll representing Baby Jesus, and it bounced down the aisle crying, "Mama-mama." Mary grabbed the doll, wrapped it back up and held it tightly as the wise men arrived.

My other son stepped forward wearing a bathrobe and a paper crown, knelt at the manger and announced, "We are the three wise men, and we are bringing gifts of gold, common sense and fur."

The congregation dissolved into laughter, and the pageant got a standing ovation. "I've never enjoyed a Christmas program as much as this one," Father Brian laughed, wiping tears from his eyes. "For the rest of my life, I'll never hear the Christmas story without thinking of gold, common sense and fur."
"My children are my pride and my joy and my greatest blessing," I said as I dug through my purse for an aspirin.

Isnt that just the cutest story? No, I didnt write it, so dont even ask. I was bored enough that I could have written a story if I wanted to, though. Every single class today was a study hall, with the exception of the classes I took exams in. Both exams were SO EASY! I dont know why Mom makes me study at all. I mean, I guess I needed to study for English, and Geography, but the others, from what people have taken, sound so easy, I think I'll spend tonight relaxing. And I just sneezed, for the 1000th time today. Although I didnt write a book, I certainly got up for tissues often enough. And made pretty name signs for people, even if I did have only 2 colors (yellow and brown). That was fun. And I dont know what else. My cough is getting a little better. I could NOT stop jumping around in Algebra today, and because of it I was dragging my feet to my exams. I messed up the scantron a TON of times in English, I bet those will get counted wrong. Oh well. I got a 94 on my geography exam, hip hip hooray. But yeah, anyway. I'd like to go home, but Mommy disappeared. I think she's showing Mrs. Huddleston how to use the scantron machine. I feel so bad for Mrs. Huddleston, this is her first year with anything like this junk, and she's just so lost. Its kinda funny, but I hope I'm never THAT clueless about things. Tomorrow should be easy, the only official kind of exam I'm going to have is Spanish. Oh woohoo, like that will be hard. Not. But yeah, Mom is back so its not time to bug her so we can go home! Hope you enjoyed my long story. Bye bye!
~Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2002 18 December :: 9.34 am

Woohoo, updating my journal inbetween classes, how fun. But now Mom is back, so I have to go. Yay. Not. Biology sucks.
~Mindy

Is it love?

:: 2002 16 December :: 7.53 pm
:: Music: Newsboys- Spirit Thing (Newsboys is NOT all I listen to anymore)

Is it love?

:: 2002 16 December :: 6.51 pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Newsboys- Joy

Is it love?