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2005 15 March :: 8.54pm
:: Music: Oomph!
Andy is so smurfing adorable sometimes.
He just got a Xanga and was asking me all these questions about how to make cool backgrounds and whatnot. I'm not a guru like Rachel, Jackie, Kyle, or everybody else, but I felt loved because he asked me.
Chad might come to Ric's tomorrow. Might. If he's not doing anything with another friend of his, or he really feels like it. He did sound happy when I told him that he could come along if he wanted. Sigh, I love making people feel, or at least sound, happy.
Today was a broody day, sorry if I seemed so out of it. I'll be better tomorrow, I'm sure. I hope.
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2005 15 March :: 8.33pm
I had my Blockbuster interview today. They pushed it back to 5 because the managers had some meeting or somesuch.
It was short. Really short.
I made the worst mistake ever too because I was nervous. I sat down without being asked or told to. Bleh.
I'll know by Monday if I made the first cut.
Thanks for the well-wishes, everybody.
I love you all.
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2005 15 March :: 7.08pm
Not much to say.
Don't really want to be here but I am. Not much to do except wait till school ends and hope I got into GVSU.
New layout, those are always fun.
Turns out work put the wrong social security number down for me, even though the one I wrote (which they thought was seven) really does look like a one. sigh. So I've been paying someone else's taxes, and I need to call/email/get a hold of the IRS to clear things up. Not really something I want to do. Oh well.
It's funny that they call it social security even though it's not every secure, hence the little paragraph above.
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2005 14 March :: 11.40pm
Well, I'm feeling a lot better about this break than I was a few days ago. Friday night I was really torn up about it. But, as Spock teaches... pain is a thing of the mind. The mind can be controlled.
I applied for several summer jobs today, and will canvass the local mall tomorrow. Friday I have two more to handle. This should put me where I want to be goal-wise for apps.
I also have a new gmail account, and I do think I like it.
In RPish news, I'm finally getting around to a sketch of my latest character. (Latest to RP, but she's one of the characters I made over Christmas break, so she's been around a little while.) It's a little more anime-style than most of my other drawings, simply because it's too small to work in the amount of detail I prefer to include. At any rate, when she's finished, I'll let you guys know. It will be on my DeviantART with the others.
I'm proud of my characters. I've neatly avoided the angsty bishounen stereotype as best I can. My characters do not brood or angst if there's any way around it. Usually there is.
I'm trying to cover as many D&D alignments as possible and still roleplay the characters well. It's a little difficult to roleplay a chaotic neutral character, but once you've done lawful evil, chaotic good and true neutral, it's the logical next step.
I'm considering getting involved in at least one board RP this summer. RPGWW (my choice forum of consistent awe-inspiring RP) has pretty high standards, and I'll be interested to see where my characters fit in with the existing population.
Anyway, enough rambling about my characters I suppose. You probably don't want to hear any of the specifics. Just thought it had been a while since I'd rambled for you fine folk.
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2005 14 March :: 9.49pm
I have an interview at Blockbuster tomorrow at 4.
I'm scared to death and really nervous.
It's my first interview ever.
Wish me luck.
I need this job so I can pay for half of my tuition.
And so I can have Nick's cat.
Bleh. I'm scared.
I love you all.
P.S. I laugh.
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2005 12 March :: 1.30pm
:: Mood: calm
I got a part as a fairy
Last night, I went over to Ben's to hang out with him and Nick. Jackie called Nick's cell around 11 and asked if we wanted to rent a movie and watch it at her house. I was a little tired, Ben said he was going to fall asleep but we all went over anyway.
It was snowing a lot. You could not see the road. We got to Jackie's then went out again to Blockbuster and rented Invader Zim.
Nick and Ben fell asleep fast. I was supposed to be home at 1:30 but Jackie's mom called and said it was snowing very heavily outside and you couldn't see the road. She told Jackie that she didn't want anyone driving home and we were all staying over.
I watched Invader Zim until 3ish. Nick was out pretty quickly (he had to work this morning) and Ben fell asleep pretty fast too. I slept on Jackie's pull out couch bed thing in her basement.
Nick woke me up before he left for work.
I woke up and got up at 11. Jackie dropped me off at home a bit after that.
I tried out for the school play (Midsummer Night's Dream) on Thursday. I made callbacks and they said they'd call if I got a part. They called yesterday while I was gone. I apparently got some fairy part. I'm a little disappointed but a lot relieved because I won't have a whole bunch of lines. I'm excited for the fairy costume and fairy makeup. Yay!
I don't see how I got the part of a graceful fairy with my dorky hobo dance and this song Kelly and I made up about a cat:
There was a cat
(There was a cat)
And he died
(And he died)
But he smelled fish
(But he smelled fish)
And he woke up
(And he woke up)
There was a cat
And he died
But he smelled fish
And he woke up!
Nine months for Nick and me today. I was going to try to get people together to go bowling. Nick's wanted to go bowling for a long time.
I love you all.
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2005 11 March :: 10.42pm
I love the panty shot...
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2005 11 March :: 10.06pm
The time before I have to go up to my parents' house is always the hardest. All I can think about is how tired I am of being lonely and separated from everything I care about. I hate that I have no choice. I have to go because I need a place to stay this summer.
But I hate it. This is the time before I've resigned myself to it, when I feel most separated from Brian... like a child locked out.
I'll sleep in our bed alone tonight. Then I won't see him tomorrow. Or the day after. I won't be able to call him either, since I don't have a calling card. I technically can't use IM.
I'm tired of being alone. I don't want it anymore. I know once I get up there I'll realize how stupid this all is, how little it all matters. Once I get home I won't be capable of hating anything.
Suffice it to say, I miss Brian and it's only been a few hours. I've gone longer without seeing him when I'm working. But at least then I knew I could go back to my room with him and that everything would be okay as long as he was there to make me happy. Now... I can't see the reason why. I'm leaving him for a week and I don't feel like I have a good reason to be so unhappy again. I don't want to go back.
Could you on this fair mountain leave to feed,
And batten on this moor?
I hate it. I hate being there, and I hate the person I have to be just so that I can stay here. I hate myself when I'm there, and there's nothing anyone can do about it. It doesn't do me any good to care.
For the next week, consider me as good as dead.
Have a lovely spring break everyone. I'll see you next Sunday. I'm leaving someone else in my place until then. She can deal with all this foolishness.
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2005 9 March :: 3.43pm
Ugh, I have three different papers to work on for Senior Comp. That's why I didn't go to anime club today.
Next week is MEAP week. I get to sleep in!!! And there's no zero hour!!!
We watched the Simpson's version of Hamlet in Shakespeare today. I love it ^_^
King Lear is very depressing.
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2005 8 March :: 7.03pm
:: Music: Heroin, she said-Wolfsheim
I thought that my feet had grown because while standing on the kitchen floor and looking down, I saw that my foot went over the square it was standing in (my feet can fit into the square tile thingys on my kitchen floor). Then I looked behind me and realized that it was just my pants being all baggy and trailing behind me and covering up a bit of the square.
Sob cry.
I'd hoped that my feet had finally grown. But alas, they didn't.
Mum set off the smoke detector while making dinner tonight because there was some grease on the bottom of the oven. So I got to stand on a chair, waving a cookie sheet at the detector, informing it very unpleasantly that I'd smash it into tiny bits if I lost my hearing due to its loud noise.
Blah.
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2005 8 March :: 5.06pm
And now, more pictures from the "My Cat is Shaved" saga...
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2005 8 March :: 1.38pm
I might foam at the mouth, but just present me with some little toy, give me a cup of tea with sugar in it, and I shouldn't be at all surprised if I calmed down completely, even be deeply touched, though afterwards I should most certainly snarl at myself and be overcome with shame and suffer from insomnia for months. That's the sort of man I am.
You see, people who know how to avenge themselves and, generally, how to stand up for themselves--how do they, do you think, do it? They are, let us assume, so seized by the feeling of revenge that while that feeling lasts there is nothing but that feeling left in them. Such a man goes straight to his goal, like a mad bull, with lowerd horns, and only a stone wall perhaps will stop him. (Incidentally, before such a stone wall such people, that is to say, plain men and men of action, as a rule capitulate at once. To them a stone wall is not a challenge as it is, for instance, to us thinking men who, because we are thinking men, do nothing; it is not an excuse for turning aside, an excuse in which one of our sort does not believe himself, but of which he is always very glad. No, they capitulate in all sincerity. A stone wall exerts a sort of calming influence on them, a sort of final and morally decisive influence, and perhaps even a mystic one. . . . But of the stone wall later.) Well, that sort of plain man I consider to be the real, normal man, such as his tender mother nature herself wanted to see him when she so lovingly brought him forth upon the earth. I envy such a man with all the forces of my embittered heart. He is stupid--I am not disputing that. But perhaps the normal man should be stupid. How are you to know?
-Dostoevsky "Notes From The Underground"
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2005 7 March :: 6.33pm
I love my mommy and her Lexapro
I'm not one to take drugs and I tell myself that no matter how I feel, there's no way I'm going to pop a Motrin for a gosh darn headache.
My momma. My mom has this thing (I have it too but I'm brushing it off as teenage jazz until I'm 22) where she gets depressed two weeks or so right around when she gets her period. But my momma had this miraculous thing called surgery and she don't get no Fred no more. She is now in that state that all women dream about: menopause.
But she still gets depressed. I know I've talked about this before. It's not like slit-my-wrists angst depression. She just doesn't want to go anywhere and doesn't want to do anything.
This is the momma I grew up with. I got used to that momma.
But now! My momma is on these pill things called anti-depressants. They make my momma not sad! My momma wants to do things! I love this momma!
So drugs are good. Especially when they make your mother even cooler than she was. Which, frankly, is darn near impossible since my mom was pretty awesome to begin with.
I heart anti-depressants.
I love you all.
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