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2003 3 December :: 6.10 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: No Doubt the 1992-2003 singles CD
Just a Girl
Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I'm exposed and it's no suprise
don't you think i know exactly where i stand?
This world is forcing me to hold your hand
'cause i'm just a girl, little ol' me
Don't let me out of your sight
i'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights
Oh... i've had it up to here
The moment that i step outside
So many reasons for me to run and hide
I can't do the little things i hold so dear
'Cause its all those little things that i fear
'Cause i'm just a girl, i'd rather not be
'Cause they won't let me drive, late at night
i'm just a girl, guess i'm some kinda freak
'Cause they all sit and stare at me with their eyes
i'm just a girl, take a good look at me
Just your typical prototype
Oh... i've had it up to here
Oh... do i make myself clear?
I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl in the world
That's all that you'll let me be!
I'm just a girl, living in captivity
Your rule of thumb makes me worry some
I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
What i've succumbed to is making me numb
I'm just a girl, my apologies
What i've become is so burdensome
I'm just a girl, lucky me
Twiddle-Dum, there's no comparison
Oh... I've had it up to...
Oh... I've had it up to...
Oh... I've had it up to here
_No Doubt, Just a girl (from the album Tragic Kingdom [1995])
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2003 30 November :: 7.41 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: L is for the way you LOOK at me, O is for the only one i see, V is very very EXTRODINARY ...
people magazine, not just any people magazine but . . . !
I GOT THE PEOPLE MAGAZINE WITH JOHNNY ON IT OH YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo sry just had to tell you and im very happy but it didnt tell me anything i dont already know but its nice to look at the pictures! aw dude im so happy so yeah lol but i have to go o yeah! and due ill tell you about the hotel later it was so fun lol annalisse, love lauren andy lorlor
i love j o h n n y d e p p
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2003 26 November :: 11.47 am
:: Mood: "oh yeah!" _Cat in the Hat
:: Music: dog barking
ostrich day
hey guyserz! yup im so happy now im goin to the beach cuz friday im meetin my cousins from milwalkee theredown seein tina's parents for ostrich day! and then annalisse is sleepin over sturday and suday we're gunna put up happy chrismas decorations, and yeah so im staying at a hotel on the beach um thur., fri, sat, and thats why im writing because i wont be for a while, i havent written since the last entries for a while cuz i been i tad bit tramatized but im bak "OH YEAH!" _c i t h but well happy ostrich day everybody! i luv you
and i love johnny depp ha! OH YEAH!
lorlor aka andy
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2003 19 November :: 5.10 pm
:: Mood: very happy omgomgomg hhhhaaaaapppppppppyyyyyyyy!
:: Music: go go go johnny its ur birday
sexxiest man alive
JOHNNY WON SEXIEST MAN ALIVE! OMG JOHNNY WON SEXIEST MAN ALIVE! AHHHHH IM SO HAPPY FOR HIM! HE SO DESERVES IT AND FINALLY BEING RECOGNIZED! after all this time he so deserves all the attention he gets because hes such a good actor n hes my idol and hes just ahh! well im so happy i cant write so see you later alligator!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol jj
~LoRlOr~ i love johnny depp
johnny depp is so sexxy and smart!
i luv you too
blah
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2003 13 November :: 4.01 pm
:: Mood: confused
WARNING!!!
the next journal entry may alter your beliefs and its very long so if your not going to read the hole thing dont start to. its depressing so if your in a good mood wait til later.
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2003 13 November :: 3.33 pm
i think peopLe are starting to believe i'm some kind of game or something: a joke maybe? i am a real person [belive it or not]. i do have feelings. i do get hurt. at school maybe i seem more happy than i am. because i want people to portray me as a nice, funny, good friend.
Mr. Conley's "I message"~ When you toy with me, i feel alone and hurt and ugly and stupid because i cared about you [belive it or not] and you shot me down.
rather i cared about you as a friend or not, it makes no difference. im not going to kill myself so chill. life is so screwed up and when you tell people that they just nod in agreement. but you dont think they understand even if they probably do. some people's life is so perfect [no names] and she has never felt unloved, or that she wanted to kill herself. i think its ironic because it does seem i have it better than her and i do not [obviously]. life can just seem to DUMP EVERYTHING on you sometimes and im just waiting for the straw that breaks the camels back. even the littlest thing upset me lately and i get very hurt. every word that is negative in any way about me i hate it it kills me to hear it. i don't know why im so down lately. i guess i just feel like god [if there is a god] cant hear me or doesnt care. if there wa a god, why did he let chelsea kill herself?! WAS HE TOO BUSY HELPING SOMEONE WIN THE LOTTERY!?!?!?!? uuuuuuuuudhhhh! why does he let children die of malnutrition everyday starving? its hard because i did believe in god and i want to so bad. but sometimes i don't think his head is screwed on just right. because anything i believe in goes away! why would god do that if god is so great why doesnt he help us?!?! i hurt so bad and to think theres some who hurt worse! and then some who don't hurt at all and still complain taking EVERYTHING for granted! the hole bible must be lies! the hole damn thing and now i have NOTHING to belive in. everyone needs faith to pull them trough and mine is GONE! im lugging along on empty ladies n gents and im still going no matter how it hurts. because somehow i keep thinking things will look up. we'll move back to wisconsin and our hole family will reunite and... and thats it life is perfect again. and i get out of this state of denial. to me faith is such a pretty, flowing, calming, hopeful word. but i can't use it. i can only hear it in my favoprite song and man he sings it so good! my heart is beating really fast right now because i have never told anyone how i feel about this. is there heaven and hell? i don't think anyone really knows anything i just think somehow all of the facts in the hole world about any subject at all were made up and weaved into this web of lies and "well i think this is right it sounds right to me" i wanna know the truth sso i have something to lean on, something to wish and hope on. i cant pray anymore it feels wrong! i cant say "thanks god you really helped me through this one" even though i TRULEY want to so bad because im not sure who im talking to. am i talking to this man who cant help anyone really in need. or am i just talking to myself. having faith in something thats not there. i have so much more to say but im about to cry and i cant write anymore my back hurts from sulking in this chair and i need sleep. sorry guys ttyl
lorlor ~i do love johnny depp~
laugh all you want i know you think its funny dont you?
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2003 10 November :: 6.02 pm

Which Piercing are you?
omg guys annalisse took this test and she was a nipple piercing! lol it was so funny shes like aw man how come i got the NIPPLE! i want the navel! it was soooo funny!
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2003 10 November :: 5.59 pm

What Do You Wear to Bed?
Brought to you by Faytrial
this ,makes me look boring man! lol jj
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2003 10 November :: 5.55 pm
 You wonderful, wonderful, magnificent person. Many people will hear of your sad departure and attend your beautiful and grand funeral. It will be a huge event for everyone. No one would ever forget you because of your kind, caring, and loving ways toward people and probably many other living things. Don't get rid of this awesome characteristic of yours. It will most likely pay off for you. It will make a difference for many, especially you.
What Type of Funeral Will You Have? Will You Be Missed Once You're Gone? brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 10 November :: 5.51 pm
 Your men are the relaxed type! You just love to see your man laid-back after a nice lay! *Contented sigh*
The 'Sex Me' Quiz! Your most attractive sexy man! brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 10 November :: 5.47 pm
 Duh. You are "But WHY's the rum gone?!" You're not the smartest one in the bunch, but you're sweetly appealing and you don't let disappointment get to you. Everybody identifies with you, because let's face it, why IS the rum gone?
Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you? brought to you by Quizilla
but no honestly, we dont have ANY rum in this hole household! WHY NOT?!?!?!?!
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2003 10 November :: 5.44 pm
 kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but quite daring. you move for the kill confidently knowing the other person wants the same thing.
What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 10 November :: 5.40 pm
 You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla
oh yeah KISS ME! mUUUAAHHH
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2003 10 November :: 5.37 pm
 What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla
woo hoo!
P Sherman 42 walaby Way
Sydney
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2003 6 November :: 5.00 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Tampa Bay's REAL Classic RoCk station!
im in a good mood. . .for once.
i am on a cloud, and it shows me the world inch by inch, everyday. yeah, it might take a while, but im not going anywhere.
Here: something to ponder about:
Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
{1} SKY DIVE!
{2} Live by the minute
{3} Gamble over 1,000 dollars
{4} Meet Johnny Depp
{5} Have a civil conversation with Johnny Depp
{6} Go through a hippi stage
{7} ACT!
{8} Seek peace at the peek of a fight
{9} Not talk for a hole day!
{10} Meet a famous person, not know he's famous, and have them wonder why you aren't screaming.
{11} Be famous and have someone meet me (not knowing I'm famous) and me wonder why they're not screaming
{12} Meet Mr. McDonald
{13} Go skinny dipping in alaska
{14} Ride on a dog sled
{15} Hood Slide!
{16} Trash a hotel room with
{17} Have a pen pal in the millitary
{18} Care for someone so much and KNOW they care about you just as much
{19} Swim in a plastic pool of honey
{20} Gamble a 1,000 dollars and win
{21} Host a show of some sort
{22} Be known by many
{23} Be close but SO UNTOUCHABLE
{24} Belive im pretty
{25} Belive in miracles
{26} Like someone i actually have a chance with
{27} add to this list and maybe make changes
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