Living in a world where one's dreams are left to rust ...

Living in a world where one's dreams are left to rust ...

:: 2004 2 March :: 4.19pm

DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 2 March :: 4.19pm

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 2 March :: 4.19pm

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 2 March :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: weirded out
:: Music: 99X

wow fcat has made me so tired! n i have to take it again tomorrow and then im going to vox from 7-9 n i hope it wakes me up ... everyone is so great there dude lol well anyway i have to find the stupid drivers lisence places number and i gotta write out a list of things im currently deprived of in my household! i need
FOOD *thats always number one*

MP3 player *so i can take all of annas songs and bring them to school so im not falling asleep in class lol*

A SWEATER *because i dunno i want another one i guess*

and i know you guys dont give a rats ass what i need but im bored so bare with me! lol today i went online and talked to trese in drafting man i hate that class
n im so sick of mr gatch hes such a stoner
i gotta go do that crap

FAT-ANDY
I LOVE JOHNNY DEPP

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 1 March :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: 99x

scared of something i dont know : afraid to feel whats unstable

man i am so confused ... i just want nothing to make sense so it all makes sense to me

it seems like everything just doesnt fit aywhere in my life

all i want is to be happy with what i have

but its not acceptable

i have to move out of here

i have to never get married and never have kids

i just want it to be acceptable to everyone and its just like wow! you dont want to go to college! geeze omg! and then the parents ... "wth lauren of course your going to college"

WELL OH OK i didnt know i didnt have a choice

oh well im about to say fuck it all

F:A:T >ANDY<

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snowflakea4

:: 2004 29 February :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: really sad
:: Music: just one last dance- sarah connor

lets put it this way... if you like some guy and love another just get yourself out of it while you still can... or if you recently think your over someone and starting to like someone else dont say anything until your ABSOLUTLY sure that it will be ok... yeah well the weekend was great! but i guess it was a fake kind of great which isnt that good i guess.. idk but sunday was probably the worst day but good at the same time idk how much sence that makes but like i slept over kellys last night and we went out to eat and came home my dad was there and he took us to a picnic and i got eyeliner all over my face and it looked like i got in a fight thats what my dad thought but no i didnt... and well today was full of bad news and i wish i didnt know at all but whatever it dosnt matter anymore... its kinda amazing how much people dont care except for a few people

<3 meana kelly lauren sara steven nikki lina stephanie derek <3
thanks so much you guys it means so much to me you all have no idea

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 27 February :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: 99x

sometimes it just kinda feels like you can have something until you want it ... then it goes away ... man i like this kid, and i know it wont work out ... it just pisses me off add everything up and it seems impossible ... hes so awsome man but thats ok ill hold on plus he's taken and that sucks more than anything but good for him...
on another note! cant wait until i move to california i know it will be great i know im going nothing can stop me ... and well ive got to go my dad will be home soon ... joy
~andy

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 27 February :: 12.11pm
:: Mood: cold

well i m in school right now and its freezing in this stupid computer room! gr well im gunna go because im so bored ... lol josh just feel off his chair hahahahaha lol sorry that was mean ttyl ~andy

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 25 February :: 4.28pm
:: Mood: bored with the same nothing
:: Music: the used _the taste of ink

This song i can relate to more than i think anyone will know how my life is getting boring and tired waiting to escape to cali taking the one who cares about me with me its so deep i love it

Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this

And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there to so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
And we'll drink and dance the night away

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

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snowflakea4

:: 2004 24 February :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

today hmm school was fun. it went by.. im confused about boys but who isnt. lina said she thinks nathan likes me bc he flirts with me alot and that i should go out w/ him.. but i told her that even if i did like him and if i was ever willing to go out with him that would be so wrong of me bc she likes him and she kept saying 'i have a bf' over and over and im like you still like him and its still wrong! but going on.. i came home with stephanie bc we were kinda hanging out and than i went home and meana asked me to go for a walk so we did and we didnt really talk about anything specific we just danced around and sung and stuff and we were outside for like 2 hours. i came home cleaned my room and did HW bc i realized im slipping in school! thats BAD so thanks to cynthia who like yelled at me for slipping i am catching up!! and i took a shower and braided my whooole head.. ok anyway onward how i feel now crushed.. not neccisarily crushed just confused but upset lets see... i like marcus alooooot im not using the L-O-V-E word bc i swore to myself.. never again!!! NEVER ok ne way... but i am trying to get over him so trying is good.. right? YES LISA IT IS there i shall credit myself happy people i am crediting myself be proud and clap for me! yay!! ok well.. sara drew the funniest picture she spent like a whole 30 mins on them lol they are good too but i had to edit it! with white out!!! lol meana is my wife! so you know i am married and me n her almost divorced bc she called me a chicken than a psyco bc she is like why did the chickn cross the road and i happened to be crossing the street so i started to yell at her lol meana it worked on old people only! lolol sara austin is a meanie head but lets not get into that lol love ya!! than i took a walk at like 930 something... just to think abd it was quite lovely outside tonight... ok im done
x0Xo

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 24 February :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: yellow card _empty appartment

anyother day but today
i think i know why they call it a crush

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 24 February :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: contemplative

always every time

<>always every time
<>never not a time
<>it's all so blurry i can barely see
<>i cant trust myself
<>if you dont trust me
<>i dont know what to think
<>or where to start
<>maybe at the bottom
<>of my bottomless heart
<>take me away
<>away from this hurt and this pain
<>never come back
<>live together forever
<>in a house with no ceiling
<>in a city ... that never wakes
<>a world without all this pain
<>a time when theres much more to gain
<>in true hope that ill find you
<>true love that wont blind you
<>this poem sucks but i was so bored i had nothing to do and i cant believe im still trying to rhyme ... lol later~andy

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 24 February :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: contemplative

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SnOwFlAkEa4

:: 2004 23 February :: 8.27pm
:: Mood: i wnet from happy and hopeful to depressed
:: Music: angel of mine

well i been out all weekend and i finally got a tan with jenna well not tan but i got some color so i guess its good... and well im sad bc im sick of people that i know and care about being hurt or even dying... yeah over the weekend danny and conners mom died... i love you 2 dearly and im here for you.. and ima miss her too alot! me n my mom had a talk about life and death... i held back my tears bc i had to be strong for my mom.. she cried but i tried to be wierd so shed laugh even though i was almost crying... when she left i did cry...for about 2 hours i found out things about my life i didnt know nor did i want to know. anyway today at school i was depressed. i mean really and alot of ppl noticed and its not for one reason its for alot of reasons. no im not telling i didnt tell anyone no onee knows why and im ot letting it out and i dont care if its good or bad.. after school me n my mom bonded alot today i told her alot of stuff.. like life and school and boys hehe and she told me stories it was actually fun talking to her! also yaminah and sara has been good friends to me.. they talked to me and i let alot out to them and they helped me be hyper! lol ily guys! but ne way im going to go eat pizza
p.s the song i have on.. listen to the words that kinda contibutes to my depression

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 23 February :: 5.56pm
:: Music: taking back sunday

Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means

And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
from friends who never loved you
nearly half as much as me

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable...ohoh

Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
If we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means

You never knew
well i never told you...
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse...
(that's right he said, that's right he said it)
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
(that's right he said)
that you always had it way too easy

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve

Best friend thinks I pulled the trigger!!!
Best friend thinks you get what you deserve!!!

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