I love you not only for who you are, but for who I am when I am with you.

I love you not only for who you are, but for who I am when I am with you.

:: 2004 31 October :: 4.17pm

i need to stop eating candy.

i really need to stop eating candy.

i really really need to go out and excersize.

this fighting really needs to end.
how am i supposed to live in all this choas.

fighting and candy.. gahhhh.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 31 October :: 12.57pm

alright, well thats over with.

this weekend turned out good, suprisingly.

the community halloween party was good, afterwards me, danielle, jamie, and brandi went to my friend saras in greenville (still in costume) and went to applebees.. *it was alot funner then it sounds. then we spent the night at danielles house....

in the morning before we left, we jumped in danielles pond.. lol. we're like...

"we should go swimming"
"yeah"
"are we gonna do it?"
"yeah"

lol... so we did. and it was cold, and spontanious, and lol, i love that girl!

then i came home, had no power which means i couldnt take a shower after i jumped in mucky pond water... thats always nice... lol.

and anyways, to sum it all up, later on me and danielle went to the glerums hay ride, then to that haunted barn on 15 mile...

and im just now realizing that nobody cares what i did this weekend, so i'll just stop there. but it was so much fun!

i feel really stupid about the whole "thing". i guess my eyes are open now.. and im back to the boring erika i was before i met you. i dont need someone to further complicate my life.

or maybe i do.. gahhh.

i wish i could just scream at you and be like what do you want?!

all i want to know is what your intentions are.

oooooook. al;sdkcasdl;kfj

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 29 October :: 10.45am

for halloween im wilma from the flinstones... i tied a dog bone in my hair.. its so fun.

*giggles.

so tonight i think im going to the catacombs in Cas, and then to see that movie the grudge, which im terribly afraid of seeing.. because im not good with that kind of thing.. but its all good. me and Alys and i think brandi and danielle and whoever else is going... it'll be fun. woooo.

so some people are wonderful people.

thank you anonymous, you're a good guy. *hugs you.

last night at the halloween party at youth group (i was wilma) and everyone was asking me where my Fred was. i was like, hmmm... good question.

Happy Halloween loves.

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:: 2004 27 October :: 1.39pm

i hate everything.

i hate living here.
i hate school.
i hate how im letting myself get hurt again.
i hate how depressed i always am.
i hate working.
i hate my grades.
i hate my body.
i hate the shape of my face.
i hate feeling alone.
i hate that you make me feel worse then you do better.
i hate that there arnt enough hours in the day.
i hate that i never do homework.
i hate that i'm lazy.
i hate that im broke all the time.
i hate how i lose everything... ALL the time.
i hate how i have nobody to comfort me.
i hate how all i want is for someone to hold me.
i hate thinking those thoughts.
i hate considering those options.
i hate that im still sick.

ugahs;ldfkjas;dfkasdf

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 25 October :: 8.20pm

jess and katie are comming over tonight so that we can do our history project.

history can die.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 25 October :: 10.47am

i got my check.
bought more minutes.

all i want to do is go tanning. right now. for like 50 minutes. except then i would die.

and if she compares me to her one more time, im going just make sure i fail ALL my classes and then be like YEAH what now.

*jf;alksdjf;alsdkfjafd;lkjasd;f.

wow. thats all i can say... suprising. yes. wow.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 23 October :: 9.23pm

i feel sick to my stomach and i cant breath.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 23 October :: 8.38pm

todays been rough.

last night got as bad as it could get, then it got better. sometimes i loath my mom, but gosh i love that woman.

my eyes are swollen from crying, my nose is raw from sneezing, im tired from working, depressed cuz i have homework waiting for me, and sad cuz i know i wont hear from him tonight.

Ashley! Congratulations doll! *hugs you.

oooook. well im sniffily and tired.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 22 October :: 8.43pm

tonight i was supposed to see him.

nothing ever turns out.

not a single one of my friends would go with me.

whats that i said about a pathetic high schooler... there's a neon sign pointing at me isnt there.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 22 October :: 1.47pm

we talked till 1:30 last night.

his personality is just perfect....

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 21 October :: 1.39pm

im a moron. a pathetic lowly high schooler.... gah.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 20 October :: 5.31pm

CCK haha.. thats great.

crazy clingan clan.

its real..... *shakes head.

this is a DARN good caramel apple....

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 19 October :: 6.21pm

whats your name

milfred gonzalous.

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charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2004 19 October :: 5.45pm

Whenever I see an old lady slip and fall on a wet sidewalk, my first instinct is to laugh. But then I think, what if I was an ant, and she fell on me. Then it wouldn't seem quite so funny.

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