I love you not only for who you are, but for who I am when I am with you.

:: 2006 7 April :: 11.07am

i just cleaned my little sisters room for 2 hours.... now im cleaning my room.

*thumb down

:: 2006 7 April :: 5.21am

i went up to my grandma's yesterday.. she lives about 40 minutes away in whitecloud in the middle of the woods. and i was about to leave, it was around 10:00.... and she looked out the window and there was a BLACK BEAR!!!! OMG! it was HUGE and it was like 10 feet away from the window standing on its back legs reaching up at the bird feeder! it was SO cool! they get bear every year so they werent suprised or anything, but i was like HOLLLLYYYY... lol. when we would go to TN thats one of the things we'd look forward to, was seeing black bear.. and here i am in MICHIGAN, 40 minutes away from my house and theres a full grown black bear 5 feet away from my car! it was crazy! its a good thing she looked out the window before i walked outside... i probably would have had a heart attack. i couldnt believe i was looking at a BEAR! so yeah... that was my excitement yesterday..

:: 2006 3 April :: 11.29am
:: Music: Trisha Yearwood: Angels in Waiting

spring break.... boring.. relaxing.. but boring. i asked keegan to get some days off.. but noo.. im alone all week during the day. both my best friends are gone.. so im stuck babysitting.

good news though.. my moms giving me her gand am! woooooo. im so excited. i have to finish paying it off.. but theres only 2 grand left on it. this is my graduation and birthday present. finally i'll have a NICE dependable car. i've ALWAYS loved her car... i really wanted it when i was queen cuz it was red.. lol, but nows good too! as soon as everythings set.. which i think is gonna be tomorrow... i need to start looking for another job. i REALLY wanna work at logans. not just because keegan works there, but because you make more money working there than most other resturants. keegans friend tommy works at Branns and said on a BUSY saturday night he walks out with 130.. but at logans on a busy saturday night servers walk out with around 190. hmmm... pretty big difference there.

i cleaned today... that was my excitement.

OH, my moms getting an Aztec. it's blue and BEAUTIFUL. i dont really like aztecs, but the color seriously makes it like the coolest vehicle ever. its so pretty.

one of the BEST love songs of all time is "hold on to me" by john micheal montgomery. download it. it reminds me SO much of me and keegan. we dont have a song yet though. odd... 17 months and we still dont have one. thats ok, it'll come to us. THATS right... 17 months and breaking up has never even been an option. i think when a relationship turns to an "on and off again" relationship.. its time to end it. because obviously neither person are happy anymore. personal opinion. whatever though... im just so happy. :)

could it be? are there still a few GOOD clingans? i must say... i thought hell must have froze over yesterday. chris is gone, and the rest of his family is FINALLY starting come around and respect my mom. throughout the divorce and even towards the end of their marriage.. the hardest part for me was seeing how my mom was being treated. she's the strongest woman i know. i cant imagine being one of those kids who "hates" their mom. she's the one thing that holds me together.

:: 2006 2 April :: 9.54am

pretty much even tv isnt safe anymore. stupid whore. uhh.

but anyways... yesterday keegan popped his shoulder out of joint again at practice. he picked me up from work and told me and i was like "yeah ok, i know what today is... hahaha" and he's like no really i did... and once again i was like "OK keegan"... but he actually did. poor thing. he brought me home this morning before he went to work, so now he has to carry plates all around and make it even more sore. *sad face* *kisses it to make it ALL better*

after tonight i dont work again until the 12th. woot woot. that'll be nice. washing dishes tonight however WONT be nice. at least i have a respectable job though... not dissing on anyone who works at a fast food restaraunt.. im just glad i can say i work at Metron where i record food acceptance and aid in properly nutritioning diabetics than i flip burgers and drench french fries in grease. its all good... i still hate my job though.

tonights a new desperate housewives AND Flavor of love.. which keegan and i got strangely addicted to because it's so stupid.

friday night keegan took me to disney on ice. it was really cool. we went last year too. we have so much fun at things like that. its wonderful. then we went to coldstone.. because that's simply the perfect end to a perfect date. OH and the BEST ice cream you can get there is (strawberry cheesecake ice cream with strawberries, rasberries, bananas, and pie crust) mmm.

lets see what else... i guess thats it. have a good spring break.

( i miss brandi and stacy... fricken COME HOME! )

charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2006 16 March :: 10.16pm

humm... i think i prefer shallow post to well thought out and articulate ones. Reality is much too revealing.

:: 2006 16 March :: 12.12pm

nevermind... im not going.

you are UNbelievable.

:: 2006 16 March :: 8.56am

aww.. we went to the circus last night. it was really cool. i havent been to the circus since i was like 7, and every time it comes to town we always miss it. :) smiles..... what a wonderful night.

tonight's a rampage game. to bad im going by myself.... ahh well.

:: 2006 15 March :: 9.21am

im going on a date tonight, where... im not sure. its a suprise. i was just told to get dressed up and to be ready by six. i love how that "feeling" never dies with us. how happy i am when i see you, how proud i am to call you mine, how you simply make me smile even when you're not around. we're going on 16 months now. and im just as giddy and excited to spend time with you as i was when we first started dating. and im not going to be all cheezy and melodramatic and say that you complete me, because you dont. and nobody should feel that way about somebody else. but we complement eachother so perfectly.

:: 2006 12 March :: 10.08am

today will be wonderful. i dont have to work, keegan doesnt have to work. its just an "us" day. i got to see him for like 3 hours last night after he got out of work before he had to go home.... and 2 1/2 of those hours we were sleeping. lol.

i started my brit lit paper last night. anybody else reading this will feel my pain. im doing mine on jack the ripper.... i almost had a break down last night about how there's no way im going to get it done in time. i mean... this week i have to write a 6-8 page research paper, a 5 minute speech, arrange everything for the talent show, work, i wont beable to get anything done on my paper on saturday because we're going to Ann Arbor for a BBoy battle. (hopefully i can use the schools camera) stupid mysterious murderer stressin me all out.

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:: 2006 7 March :: 12.15pm

stacy: bdlaaaaa

hahahaha.....

:: 2006 3 March :: 9.02am

soo.. there's some seroius talk about us moving to Tennesse sometime this summer. that would be the most wonderful thing.

i was talking to Keegan about it last night, and im not worried about leaving him, because more than likely, he'd come with us. i just hate michigan, and i hate cedar springs. i know that sounds bad because i was the red flannel queen, and i guess hate is to strong a word. cedar springs is my home, and no matter where i go, where i end up... it will always BE my home. and regardless of what anyone says, we will never FULLY get away, because this town harbors all of our childhood memories. we are who we are because we've lived in Cedar Springs, and i'm not ashamed to say i'm from a small town, because there is a "Cedar Springs" all over the U.S... what i hate is the routine of living in the same place all my life. what i hate is living in a town that is so closed minded and traditional. and what i hate is living in a town who's known for dollar stores and pizza places.

Tennesse on the other hand, is absolutely breathtaking. i've known that i wanted to live there since the 5th grade when we went on vaccation to the Smokies. i'm not a big city girl. i dont want to live in an expensive appartment for the rest of my life! i want (corny) a big back yard and a little yappy dog that barks at squirls bigger than it! i want a window FOR ONCE with a view. and i want and desperatly miss that feeling of connection with a power so much greater than myself when i look at the mountains. thats what i want. there's nothing here for me. after school... there's NOTHING here. i would have a hard time leaving my friends... but i'd deal.

the one person i could NEVER leave though, is keegan. at least not right now. not when he's my best friend and a big part of my life and quite possibly future. thats why if we leave, he'll leave. we're not about to give up on something so beautiful.

so.. perhaps this a goodbye to miserable winters and tanning salons?! i guess we'll see.......

:: 2006 1 March :: 9.02am

me and keegan got a hampster sunday.

his name is Sushi and just might be the cutest thing i've ever seen. (exageration... but awwww, hes the cutest)

we had our leadership convention monday, and last friday i had to send out the award of excellence. im so relieved to have two major things lifted off my shoulders. i was majorly stressin. but its all good now.

now if only yearbook would go smoothly.