I love you not only for who you are, but for who I am when I am with you.

I love you not only for who you are, but for who I am when I am with you.

:: 2004 23 August :: 7.58pm

lets recap my day shall we?

my mom backed up into my car when she was leaving for work.

the school gave me the wrong form for my work permit.. which caused for lots of running around between metron and the school.

senate meeting..... ehhh.

went to alpine with ryan to get me some chucks.... but shoe carnival AND meijers didnt have my size in black. just because im a girl it doesnt mean i ONLY want pink or orange... stupid stupid stereotypes.

so we drove all the way to woodland, missed the exit, came back around, GOT there.. bought my shoes and jeans.....

put my car in park in the middle of the intersection on the belt line.. DONT ask. *laughs.

got on the wrong expressway.

got backed up in 5:00 traffic on my way through alpine.

almost smashed into the back of a van.

my power steering went out.

GAH... what a day.

but HEY.. at least i got my shoes.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 21 August :: 10.00am

ASHLEY:

I FOUND IT!!!! mwah ha ha ha ha...

i sooooooo just won.

*giggles.

and NOW im going to email you proof of me winning!

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 20 August :: 6.17pm

i've decided that i dont like anyone on woohu.. because nobody ever comments unless im depressed or angry. and that annoys me...

wait wait.....

i hate myself. i hate my life. blah, the world is awful. im going to kill myself.

THERE now you can comment!

it doesnt matter when im happy or when things are finally going good, it doesnt matter when i get a new job or become a better christian. no no no no.. but when i want to kill something or am at the point of breaking everyone acts like they care.

conclusion: this just proves that all anyone cares about is drama... which for some reason makes me want to kill each and every one of you. *smiles

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 20 August :: 8.56am

stupid woohu. i just had an entire entry typed out, then accidently pushed escape, which apparantly erases everything.

I HATE WOOHU.

anyways.. to sum up my entry, because now im just annoyed....

yesterday.

put in 2 week notice at arbys.
got the job at metron making 8.72 an hour.... mwah ha ha ha.
worked on schmorgasboard.
ran into stacy, lisa, kate, and kelly. well not literally ran over, i COULD have though, seems how they were running across the road when we saw them.

thats about it. stupid woohu.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 18 August :: 11.34pm

ps. i love you brandi.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 18 August :: 11.16pm

im caked in flour, i got in a fight with my mom, i ticked kyle off, i ticked carolyn off, im about to quit my stupid job, i ran a stop sign... yeah.., and i feel like crying.

why cant she just be the mom? why cant she EVER just help me out... just once, not often, but ONCE would be nice.

you stress me out. thats all i can say... you just stress me out, and i hate that you still have that power over me.

schmorgasboard.... what the heck, honestly.

h is gonna kill me.

i am YET to find a good speech topic.

on the bright side.... i went to birch run today and got some awesome clothes. and i got tyson a fairy necklace, which is just wonderful.. and nobody else understands why its wonderful.. it just is.

youth group was fun tonight, i love youth group.

we had a flour war with this other youth group at our church. it was exactly what it sounds like, a flour war. and thats why im caked with flour.

i need to talk to ryan. *cries. but its to late. *cries again. i should just wake you up.... mwah ha ha ha ha.

(*whispers* neeerrrk) *hugs you* *purrrrrrrrr* *laughs all evil like again* *annoys you with my excessive use of the astrics*

anyways... i am WELL due for a shower... this is discusting..... is that how you spell that??... i just dont know.... this is gross... there we go.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 17 August :: 1.47am

dont want no pop.

no pop.

dont want no tea.

no tea.

just want some milk.

moo moo moo moo.

wisconsin milk.

moo moo moo moo.

ahahahahahaha.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 17 August :: 1.32am

ashley and i are having a comment war....

mwah ha ha.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 16 August :: 11.16pm

so last night i was up till 3 in the morning talking to ryan and tyson... i love those guys. they really are 2 of my absolute best friends. *hugs them..... but because of THEM.. ahem.. yes you..... i woke up late this morning.... so here is my day... (im kidding loves, it was my fault.... *giggles)

i wake up at 11:40.
im supposed to be to work at 11:30.
i call phyllis, tell her im running late.. she says ok.
my mom calls before i leave, tells me metron wants an interview.
i call metron, set up an interview for tomorrow.
i finally get to the end of the driveway and the explorer stalls, and just stops.
it starts.
i make it to arbys.
phyllis gives me the day off.. which scared me.
i pick up my pictures.
i go to turn out of great day and almost pull out RIGHT in front of somebody.. which i later find out is ryan and his grandparents, which just a little too ironic.... lol... thats just great.. now his grandparents think im a moron.. lol.
i go to beckys.
i call my mom.
we argue.
i call me uncle david, and he tells me my head gasket on my car needs to be replaced.. GREEAAAAT.
i call metron.
go in for an interview.
stalk someone at a certain place with a certain friend... lol.
go home.
go to cindys.
come home.
go to boot camp.
miss alaska.
come home.

bahhhh. why god, why must you test me when im so fragile. im working at it, its going nowhere, why cant i just give up. its like talking to a brick wall...... god please give me strength with this.

i praise god for the friends he's given me. i really do..... esp the ones from youth group, i've bonded with all of them, and they're such amazing people.

i have to work tomorrow, and i need to do my devotions tonight, because i feel extremely burdened.... and i hate that feeling.

i wish ryan was online..... darn you not being online or on my phone till the wee hours of the morning...!

*runs you over with my explorer..... and then giggles.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 16 August :: 3.48pm

hectic crazy day. CRAZY day.

i'll update about it later...

you'll never understand how much you hurt me will you. how can you even stand yourself.

ash.... im not gonna be home tonight till around 10, but i'll try and get online.. otherwise we'll for sure have to talk tomorrow! I miss you!!! lol, we havent even hung out yet. *tears.

*screams........

i got my pictures back today, i had to pay for them.. not suprising.. but they turned out really good.

ok, off to cindys....

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 15 August :: 1.20am

i could get angry after finding out that our whole relationship was based on lies, but instead im going to pray for you. you really dissapoint me sometimes, but i hope that one day you dont wake up and realize you've dissapointed yourself.

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brokenmentality

:: 2004 14 August :: 5.32pm

yesterday

work
car breaks down
greenville

blehhh... everything sucked.. except greenville, i got a whole bunch of clothes from pennys.. well.. a whole bunch meaning 2 cords and 4 sweaters... and then i went to get chucks.. but they didnt have them in my size.. which reminded me that the day sucked.. but then we went to applebees.. we being me, becky, and brandi.... and everything was fine. we ate lots of food, laughed alot..... it was just fun.

today sucked, i had to work.... thats never fun.. EVER. especially today. blahhhh.

i now realize that i had no point to this entry except that i had fun shopping last night.

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