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2004 29 July :: 4.08 pm
:: Music: smashing pumpkins - mayonnaise
jess's gone. i'm such a dork, i was the first one to start crying. i'll miss her. i wonder if i'll ever see her again...
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2004 29 July :: 2.38 pm
:: Music: smashing pumpkins - whir
Andy has cold feet. Literally.
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2004 28 July :: 8.43 pm
:: Music: apocalyptica - mastar of puppits!
it needs work...
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2004 27 July :: 2.05 pm
lunch with mary.
the end.
no more.
i hate france.
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2004 26 July :: 6.56 pm
ways of the world
i think i can safely say: there are good guys and there are bad guys. i'm not talking about books or movies either. i think this is the real world. there are good guys. they're more common than one would expect. there's a lot of them in my life. barney, fara7, andy, laurence, ozy... good guys. the bad guys are a different story.
it's not that someone is instantly evil just because they're a bad guy. bad guys, people like me, just have a difference in the most basic of tendencies. i'm willing to look someone down and be brutal with them if i don't like them. a good guy would just plaster a phony grin on his/her face and deal with it. the most basic of differences.
it's about the will to hurt someone. some people would never hurt anyone at any cost. some people are willing to make sacrifices for selfish gains. maybe that's the most fundamental difference between good guys and bad guys. but it's still not all of it.
sometimes, the ones with the bad tendencies, the selfish people, sometimes they don't carry them out. sometimes they've hurt a lot of people without a second thought. sometimes they've made the sacrifices, willingly, completely aware of waht they're doing. i think that's what makes them the bad guys, what seals the deal, what makes it final. once you've made the sacrifice, you can't go abck to being a "good guy". you're bad for life.
sure, bad guys may want to make ammends. sure, bad guys may feel remorse and guilt. sure, bad guys may want to go back with all their cold little hearts and bad little souls. but it's too late. bad for life.
bad guys and good guys can mix. they can be friends, good friends, especially the "reformed" bad guys, the ones that wanna be good again. but they're fundamentaly different, and one day that ugly past is gonna catch up and they'll lose their heads and the big bad end is gonna show its head. and things are gonna fall apart. that's why good guys and bad guys will always stay different. that's why they shouldn't get involved. that's why i sholdn't get involved.
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2004 26 July :: 5.40 pm
:: Music: frasier
fingerboard!
ozy gave me a fingerboard! then we had a poking war and a tickle war and a thumb war. fara7 kept making inappropriate comments. her favourite, i think, was "get a room!" *shakes head* i had fun, and it wasn't that kinda fun either, we were just having childish and immature fun.
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2004 26 July :: 10.27 am
:: Music: milkshake
AC kuwaitified it with some help from me
my mashya brings all the boys to fanar
they're like
it's better than yours
ayshay!
it's better than yours
i could neech you
but i have to charge
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2004 25 July :: 6.26 pm
:: Music: interpol - PDA
props to laurence for making the pimpsista black n white
SPNirvana67: do i get props?
laurence is sex: sure?
SPNirvana67: "thanks to laurence for being a hot rockstar. oh, and for making my avatar."
laurence is sex: "fee wa7ed isma laurence.... 5oosh rayal!"
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2004 25 July :: 5.08 pm
:: Mood: stand up and respect the original kookee
:: Music: interpol - obstacle 1
pow wow, pow wow, pow wow...
to my sister, and my best friend, and a big part of my world.
fara7 a7mad bshara, this is for you!
for all the times we spent crying our eyes out over d*cks, for all the hours, well, not wasted, just badly spent, driving around the country in search of someone who wasn't even worth it in the end. all those lonely ramadan nights. all those laughs over everybody! i still have trouble comprehending how YOU broke up with karal for me! how many times did i talk to zach as you? and how many days did i spend at your house up on your bed? probably more days than i spent on my own bed at home. good times, every last minute of it. this is for you, because i know you have to go, and it's for the best. i'm just gonna miss you so damn much. and i'll see you again soon! you'll see, you'll have the time of your life. think of me in new york, babe!
i lurve you, kookee, my sexy bolivian friend.
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2004 24 July :: 6.11 pm
:: Music: franz ferdinand - van tango
mhmm
i am pimpsista jasmine
there's a little boner in all of us (and AC's n mine are exactly the same!)
everyone wants the pimpsista jasmine love
i eat a lot (AC discovered this tonight)
"we're the same."
"but we're different."
"but deep down, we're the same."
"deep down."
"deep deep deep down."
"and it's small."
"it's really deep down and it's small."
"like a goldfish boner."
"yes. deep deep down my small goldfish boner is just like yours."
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2004 23 July :: 2.44 pm
:: Music: apocalyptica - coma
if i were a month i would be: january. cold.
if i were a day of the week i would be: thursday. weekend! party! whoooo!
if i were a time of day i would be: sunrise. there's a reason my parents named me that.
if i were a planet i would be: uranus. strange with an ugly name.
if i were a sea animal i would be: committing suicide. ew.
if i were a direction i would be: north. straightforward, i am.
if i were a piece of furniture i would be: a beanie chair! wheee!
if i were a sin i would be: gluttony. that's the one where you eat too much right?
if i were a historical figure i would be: joan of arc. crazy, but passionate.
if i were a liquid i would be: blood. thick, bold and beautiful
if i were a tree i would be: redwood
if i were a flower i would be: black rose. with thorns. the most beautifu flowers in the world.
if i were a kind of weather i would be: rainy. pouring rain. showers. the kind that makes you want to throw your arms out to the side and scream at the sky. with thunder and lightning and everything.
if i were a musical instrument i would be: an electric violin. small, light, but "ranchy" *giggle*
if i were an animal i would be: black street cat.
if i were a color i would be: awrinj!
if i were a vegetable i would be: nasty
if i were a sound i would be: a giggle
if i were an element i would be: fire
if i were a car i would be: a chevy SSR
if i were a song i would be: deftones - knife party. beautiful, sexy, sick, only...
if i were a movie i would be directed by: tim burton
if i were a book i would be written & illustrated by: robert munsch
if i were a food i would be: something spicy. for flavour.
if i were a place i would be: new york city
if i were a taste i would be: bittersweet
if i were a scent i would be: fruits and berries
if i were a word i would be: hoo-hah
if i were an object i would be: a door?
if i were a body part i would be: eyes
if i were a facial expression i would be: blank
if i were a cartoon character i would be: ariel from the little mermaid! beautiful red head
if i were a shape i would be a: sphere. 3 dimentional and infinite
it's a sign concubine! come home to me!
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2004 22 July :: 7.01 pm
:: Music: apocalyptica (cult on repeat)
wheeeee!
i got a skirt! and a new shirt! and apocalyptica - cult. and and and....
FRIJOLE! my guitar! yay!
also, i made a promise for andy. no hoo-hah starting july 28th 2004 until senior graduation. almost a year.
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2004 20 July :: 7.57 pm
:: Music: apocalyptica - romance
| Section the First: Randomness is fun! | | Screw nicknames, what do you wish your name was?: | ToTo! come on, that's a kickass name! | | Masturbation - thumbs up or thumbs down?: | *shakes head* | | Say a swear: | kiss.... *kuwaiti glare* | | Would you rather be a child, the age you are now, or older?: | slightly, but not much older, old enough to leave home | | If you were 12 feet tall, what would you be made of?: | TWO ToTos | | If tomorrow were surely your last day here, who would you call?: | ummmm.... matt bellamy? | | What would you say to that person?: | i (heart) him? | | What the heck are you waiting for?: | for him to fall madly in love with me already. | | Section the Second: Favorites | | Exotic Food: | chinese. mmmmm... | | Piercing (not necessarily one that you have): | tongue without a doubt | | Bodypart: | ass! *sings* oh i'm an ass man! | | Day of the Year: | last day of school, whenever that might be | | Holiday: | eh.... | | Section Thrice: Your thoughts on... | | maroon 5: | who? | | MTV: | satan spawn! | | the news: | laughable | | George Dubya Bush: | *keeps quiet* | | Catholicism: | same as my thoughts on any other religion, it's a religion | | Literacy in the United States: | um.... it has no impact on my life whatsoever? | | College: | woo woo! here i come! not so fast | | the State of Maine: | it's.... big? | | Have you ever been to... | | New York City?: | when i was 4 | | another country? which one?: | oh a lot, i'm kuwaiti... | | Australia?: | no | | the Grand Canyon?: | no | | California?: | no | | Florida?: | no | | Lincoln, NH?: | no | | Complete the sentence... | | I love: | confetti | | I hate: | creepy crawly things | | I wish: | the world was flat | | I am disturbed by: | britney spears | | I am excited by: | cars! vroom vroom... | | I am happy because: | i have no immediate reason to be sad | | I am sad because: | something that sucks happened? | | I am looking forward to: | leaving kuwait | | I regret: | a total of almost 5 years of my life | | I wonder about: | sexuality in society and its relevance to the origin of symetry and the divine proportion | | Go on and give me a quote.: | Revolution is bloody, revolution is hostile, revolution knows no compromise, revolution overturns and destroys everything that gets in its way. -Malcolm X |
When you're Dyslexic I am... brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 19 July :: 6.45 pm
:: Music: REM - at my most beautiful
catching up in a nutshell
yesterday
andy and jess came over around 3 to swim. we went downstairs and swam and got pruny. they taught me marco polo! then we played with the little indian children from the 4th floor! fun fun fun. we also played that colour thing. yeah. then barney joined us! and we ate my food for a change. after that got done, we went upstairs and showered, 2 per bathroom. then my mommy got home and freaked out in kuwaiti, much to jess' amusement. andy and barney sang in the shower, much to my brother's amusement. my mother did my hair, did andy's hair, and we went off to buffalo's. for that evening, check out andy's pictures.
today
woke up late. around 4. mary sent me a message. so i told her to pick me up. i got dressed in record time and we went over to her place. i broke her mom's treadmill. good times.
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2004 16 July :: 4.33 pm
I'm in love with the thought
(and the swimming notion)
that you'll be drowning in the land of romance;
without my love, I might add.
May I get married,
and may their lives be Mary.
"Oh look it stopped snowing."
*the last line is from Interpol - Roland
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