My heart in a headlock.

:: 2008 25 July :: 7.49pm

scratch that
i'm working 11-hour days monday-friday

i work 9 hours on saturday

i work 6 hours on sunday

i hate temporary jobs because they always have insane deadlines and long hours. no more temp jobs!

:: 2008 15 July :: 9.05pm

so, i guess we're all really busy adults.

how depressing.

i miss you guys.

i'm working 10 hr days.

help!

2 shot darlings | bang bang

:: 2008 8 July :: 11.08am

Being back in university is nice, but I don't remember everyone around you being so stupid...

1 shot darling | bang bang

:: 2008 9 June :: 10.24pm
:: Music: Sarah Blasko - Queen of Apology

If you close your eyes and tilt your head all the way back and your neck is at a right angle to your shoulders, you'll be able to fill your head with dreams, like dipping a bottle into a stream. You'll find the dream world full of colours and shapes if you do this twice a week.

Or at least, that's the theory.

:: 2008 29 May :: 11.19pm

venus was a fly trap
the man you loved devoured
i used to dream about your sister
standing in the shower
but i was never cool
you thought i was a cowboy
i wonder where my gun is
can you spare a bullet, senorita?

i will always be the worst

generation X-wing
that's got to be the death star
i used to dream about the future
i used to dream about a lot of things
but i was never cool
so you can call me loser
yeah, you can call me
anything you want to, senorita

i will always be the worst

help me up with
a pair of wings
a little rope
all those things
she always said i'd find the cure for cancer
i read my horoscope but i just can't pull it off alone

:: 2008 28 May :: 12.04pm

i can tell you how this ends
i think the high price of gas is GREAT!

people are supposedly driving less and less, which means a decrease in pollution, noise, congestion, and isolation behind metal and plastic encasing.

a latency effect is an increase in social contact and interaction. perhaps more human touch. more exercise. more cooperation.

of course, it could also bring about a lot of crime. a lot of anxiety, depression, frustration.

this is a really interesting situation and time to be alive. it's exciting. things are happening. let's see what the fuck we can come up with to destroy or save ourselves.

1 shot darling | bang bang

:: 2008 20 May :: 2.44pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: Radiohead - Jigsaw Fallin Into Place

I went to AUK this morning and took a placement exam. Then I registered for three summer courses. One of them I don't really want to take, but I registered for it in case the class I DO want to take won't accept. I am currently trying to kiss enough ass to overload into it.

I like the idea of going back to school. I've missed being a student while I was gone and I'm really looking forward to having something productive and stimulating to do. Besides, this'll force me to practice my graphic design stuff so I can have a bigger better portfolio for it at the end of these next two years.

I'm also thinking I'm gonna minor in English Lit. It'll give me an edge so that when I apply to agencies, I can apply as not only an Art Director, but an Art Director/Copywriter, a position coveted by many and desperately sought out. Or so I'm told.

I saw a third of my high school just walking around campus. Some of them said hi when they recognized who I was, others walked by me like they'd never seen me before, probably because they didn't recognize me at all. It's kind of depressing that it's the same faces again, but on the other hand, at least I know what I'm up against. Whenever they ask me where the hell I've been I just say I took a year and a half off and did some travelling. It seems to pass as a plausible explanation, and it's close enough to the truth that I don't have to watch out for my eye-twitch - or the contemptuous smile that comes with it.

:: 2008 17 May :: 4.52am
:: Music: Sade - Is It a Crime

Surely you want it back.

I've been out of Kuwait for a little over a month. My room feels dusty and unchanged. I wonder if this is what it was like while I was gone.

I think I might never know, and I'm not sure which I'd prefer.

:: 2008 7 May :: 5.38pm

"You have a serious problem of distorting reality. You could sleep with the entire planet and still feel rejected."

:: 2008 5 May :: 1.12pm

flux by bloc party
if your right hand is causing you pain
cut it off
cut it off
if your colors have started to run
let them all run, run away from you

there is lightning in this room
above our heads
waiting to strike
i'm a thinker
not a talker
put your faith
your faith in god

we were hoping for some romance
all we found was more despair
we must talk about our problems
we are in a state of flux

i'd kill for an adventure
just you and i
in the curzon bar
dancing until we knew
so all that we've learned disappears

:: 2008 1 May :: 6.30am
:: Music: Edith Piaf - Le Vieux Piano

Catch me, because this has been a long way down.

:: 2008 21 April :: 11.20pm

i'm just an excuse-making machine

3 shot darlings | bang bang

:: 2008 21 April :: 2.16am

Und so weiter...

I think this is what it must feel like to fall into time with no regard for anything except for when it's going to end.

P.S. This is not an unhappy post.

:: 2008 15 March :: 10.16pm

jay: what were you doing?
me: nothing
watching tv
greys anatomy came on
jay: oh yuck
you like it bubi?
me: no
i dont get it
jay: hahaha
girly girls love it
i dont know either
me: everyone sleeps with everyone else
and then meredith gets pissed off at someone
jay: hahahha
me: and then the angry little black woman is mean to someone
and soemone learns a valuable lesson
jay: its like a german orgy in the garden, with everyone blindfolded, and one girl married to all the guys
me: LMAO
oh my God
i think that'll go in my blog