The story of one person trying to live everyday for today.

The story of one person trying to live everyday for today.

:: 2005 22 November :: 4.38pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Green day - nice guys finish last

people are really fucked you know that?
welp today was an interesting day

not only is school gay off the rocks.. but we had a bomb threat again! yes SECOND DAY IN A ROW WE HAD ONE! you would think they principles and the administration and the teachers or whoever would think 'hey we should hold off school' or hey 'lets do more action in this instead of letting these kids freeze their asses off' yeah we stood outside for like a fucking hour just cause some loser doesn't have anything better to do than call and say "your all gonna die theres a bomb.." and blah blah blah.. its funny in a way but when u make me stand outside in the cold for a fucking hour of course i'll be ticked wouldn't you? its like puemonia (sp?) weather out there!!! ugh. soooo.. I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY AND SAY " A BOMB? THERES A BOMB IN THE SCHOOL? HAH LET IT BURN bomb bomb bomb bomb" all loud 'n' shit and also i said hey is ur parents a terroist cause ur da bomb to some cute kid [lol] and i guess i was heard by a teacher so i got reported AND i told them i thought it was dumb for me gettin in trouble because its my opinon hahahaha. so my mom isn't lettin me do anything today because i made a big deal bout shit and got ISS and Detention [what else is new? lol] AND i was supposed to hang out with jena&ben so basically if i wouldnt have like smart mouthed and threw a fit cause of there stupid policys 'n' shit i could be ok and chillin with them.. so i feel real bad. but tomorrows another day!!!! and we get out at like 12:18pm; and i really do not wanna go tomorrow especially cause some retard might do the call phone again ugh. ill shove the phone riiight up there ass whenever i find out who it was.. makin me stand outside for a fuckin hr. is this coldness. piish think again biiitches! hahahaha :):)

UPDATE!!! i did hang out with jena and ben after all thank goodness. :) it was nice seeing them & hopefully we hang out tomooooorrroooowwww!!!! :):):):):) luv yins

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 21 November :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: sappy

i'm bleeding and i'm heartless; but i'm yours
I can't help that I like to be kissed
And I wouldn't mind if my name changed to Mrs.
This is one side, my conventional side
An attraction to tradition
My vintage disposition
My sincere architecture
And I want to cook him dinner
But I'm more indecisive than ever
And who believes in forever?

today wasn't so bad.. i wasn't so tired as i usually am when i'm at school.. i wouldn't say i payed attention but i was there [haha]. called ben when i got home and then i 3 wayed jena so we had our plans straight for tomorrow and wednesday after school.. there coming over tomorrow and wed. were going to the movies or something; whatever we do, we do. [lol]. but i know we will have fun! i got asked to the christmas dance today from some mexican guy.. of course i turned him down because for one i don't go to those kind of things, two its like $35 dollars and i'm broke as it is.. three i don't like him or wanna go with him and four i just dunno, ahaha. i really can't see myself do anything like that i'm used to being in a relationship for 2 years and not doing anything with anyone else [meaning going out and shit] but it's just so complicated i'm starting to realize i'm either destined to be alone. i honestly don't know my mind is so jumbled -so confused- i just don't know what i want anymore. this is just the time for me to have fun and be a teenager with my friends.

& mabey one day my prince will come around?

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 20 November :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: guns 'n' roses - knocking on heavens door

to much to handle
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

all this shit is getting to me
i just can't take it...
so many things running through my head [i don't know what to do, i don't understand].. i just wish i knew the answers.

~~i wish you'd want me again~~

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2005 20 November :: 4.25pm

-sigh-

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 17 November :: 3.33pm

bitch what the fuck?
I HATE LITTLE GIRLS

anyways lastnite me and my mother got into it because im tryin to go to a alternative school called phase 4. theres one in washington and one in monesson im tryin to go to either one lol. i would be able to graduate this yr. and i get out at 11:30am. so yeah i mean come on plus the works easier. and i told her i wanted to go back to my old school if she doesnt sign me in or look into a alternative school lmao. it sucks not seeing everyone. hmm

this girl better watch out before i rip her eyelids off. ugh.

^ to a girl i want to rot n die cause i hate her so much with a burning passion

sometimes u gotta let people know whos in charge! :)

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 16 November :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: crabby
:: Music: 10 years - wasteland

doodle doodle doodle da da
whoa i need to get back on track and update daily.. sorry kiddos.

Wed- last day of school had a 4 day weekend woop woop.

Thurs- was with kelly

Fri- Went to rolands and played Monopoly from 7pm-12am. haha fun fun.

Sat- Went to wal*mart with my mom and just chilled with my mom,sis,step dad, aunt and cousin.

Sun- Went with jena to the movies to see Saw II. it was real good i liked it alot. but i liked me and jena spending time together; its been awhile since we hung out. i really missed her.

Mon-Went to gay ass school.. came home and slept.

Tues- My aunt and cousin went back home (even thought i got annoyed easily with them i miss them alot). i got to stay home but also i had 2 watch my sissy for a few hours [we had a blast!] hehe. then when my ma came home we went to washington to see my aunt missy and plus my step dad had to remodel her kitchen 'n' shit..so i decided to go to the mall..i got a shirt at dots [green and white with a pocket on the boobie lol] also 3 pairs of really cute underwear!.. (we all know im a undies fanatic. ugh).. then i went to Pac Sun cause there having sales i got a shirt [orange, pink and white]. then Spencers for new gauged earrings. i'm like the only one with my ears gauged in school lol but hey thats meeeeeee. :). also me and mark got into it. hmm what else is new. (i try to get over him but it doesnt work out)

Wed Not having a good day really everything is getting to me. i hate school im not doing well on the second nine weeks. and i'm taking to many xanaxs.. my worlds coming to an end. little girls think they can try and take us cool folks men.. but WRONG-O SISTA!! lmao.. ILL STAB U IN THE FACE BITCH!!!! hahahaha oh yes indeed. :):)
i keep thinking of my ex boyfriend danny, i do miss him, he gets out in march i believe.. i would like to write to him and see how he is but my mom hates him... shes like 'if u get back with that lowlife i wont want to have anything to do with you!' im like 'but mom. i never said i was going to i just wanna see how he is!!!!! ugh she just said "w/e i'll get u a fucking stamp" i doubt she will stick to her word but oh well. i can talk to whoever i want to... also earlier today i talked to my mom on the phone bout another school since she wont let me go back to bentworth; called PHASE 4 not the one in washington but the one in Monessen. i will graduate early and get out of school at 11:30am instead of 2:18pm. and less kids to put up with... i mean ringgold is okay and i did make new kickass friends but i just cant take the 'other' peers and the teachers and the fucking work. i just cant im assuming school isnt cut out for me. never the less. hmm* wel im outtie.

you are blind

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2005 10 November :: 10.09am

My dad is back at the Duke hospital.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 8 November :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: hopeless

what you gon do? lol
well today is tuesday and i'm rochelle and i don't know nothing at all.

i miss all my old friends but these new ones are cool and all do not get me wrong just i miss everyone, i am tryin to stay intouch with everyone. but in this new school i've been in 3 fights (go figure) cause people are morons and do not know how to stfu, i mean what else is new right? hmmm.. also i am very in need of sexual intercourse lmfao.. jena KNOWS WHAT I AM TALKING BOUT! lmao

xxx jena says: guys are f-ing stupid, and if they didn't have dicks. there would be no use for them.
absent x dreams: LMAO
absent x dreams: true
absent x dreams: 'true dat' lol

xxx jena says: I NEED SOMEONE TO HAVE SEX WITH
xxx jena says: I AM SEX DEPRIVED.
xxx jena says: i'm going to die from no sex
xxx jena says: I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!
xxx jena says: DO YOU FEEL THE SAME, OR ARE YOU GETTING SOME?!?!
absent x dreams: IM NOT GETTIN ANY!
absent x dreams: I SWEAR ITS LIKE EVOLUTION!
xxx jena says: IT HURTS..
xxx jena says: AMEN SISTA
absent x dreams: it most certainly does
absent x dreams: LOL
absent x dreams: ammeeeenn
xxx jena says: ahhh.. whatca gonna doo
absent x dreams: go look for honry young boys
xxx jena says: LMFAO
xxx jena says: I WANT AN OLD ONE!!
xxx jena says: sweet.
absent x dreams: LOL
absent x dreams: ya me to i dont really like lil boys.. lol

lmao were retarded

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CallistoMoon

:: 2005 8 November :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Rise Against ~ Swing Life Away

w00t for Avalon
Wow. Havent used this journal in a while. But eh, whatever. So Ms. Ragazzo found this . . . needless to say, she hates me now, and it makes me sad. :(

Stupid football games. . . . Avalon this weekend is all depending on Colleen. I really hope her mommy lets her go. . .afterall, she IS my ride, and I know she would like to see some of her friends as well. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

My report card was good. Three 97s and one 98. Lots of English projects to do though. . . . I'm not worried. I cant wait for next semester. Yay for Precalc and Chemistry :) .:cough:.

I'm decently happy though. I bought cool costume pieces that look uber, and I'm higher rank in Alchemy . .jeez. Took long enough. Tais is becoming awesome ^.^ I just hope she doesnt perm any time soon.

Ok, thats all for this wonderful entry. I miss WIll alot. I hope he has fun in Texas.

~Ciao~

~Tais Ahlam Badra

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xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2005 30 October :: 10.57pm

i am dana's broken heart...

2 can now see | you are blind

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2005 29 October :: 11.08pm

i can't remember the last time you treated me like a human being.

you are blind

TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 25 October :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: sleepy

ummmMm
Riding on this satellite
Sun faded and sweaty, but that's alright
Cause I'm still alive
Always stranded in this memory
Your mouth is wide open
You can't scream
Oh you can't scream

And don't take my picture down
And don't erase everything that we had
Don't think I let you down
And I might be gone, we'll meet again
Can't find you, so I'll call your name

you are blind

TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 24 October :: 10.46pm

doo woop
nohing to new and exciting here, just got home from chillaxin with mark and his friend mike.. i had a nice time.. i just feel bad cause my mark got unexpected news bout a friend of his that died..:( i feel so bad.

and gosh do i wish it was friday.. im sick of going to school already lol.

you are blind

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2005 24 October :: 10.02pm