The story of one person trying to live everyday for today.

:: 2005 26 August :: 6.54pm

Re-doing it...

3 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 25 August :: 9.41pm

First day of school.

Pleasant surprise. I didn't totally hate it.

Homeroom, Nick McAndrew will forever be my home dogg. :) Yay.

First period, I have English... The teacher seemed pretty cool. Hakeem is in my class. Haven't seen him in ages. My nigga Rashon be in durr, too yo.

Second period, Visual Arts. Lamelamelame. The teacher is so dull. I think I'm going to die. I need ideas for a theme for my continuous drawing, though. We add something to it daily for the next semester. o_o;; Blerg.

Third period... My teacher. Has a lisp. And I am going to die.

B LUNCH IS AT 1:30 IN THE AFTERNOON. Oh well.

Vocal Music. <33333 times a million...

All in all, I'm pretty happy with it. W00T.

:: 2005 24 August :: 6.19pm

Summer '05
Sucked...

:: 2005 23 August :: 1.08am
:: Music: MSI - Tight

well nothing new has happened.. i mean same shit different day!! i start school monday and i have orientation today at 10am. YAY wtf.. gay gay gay.. oh i met someone newwwwww hes really cool <3.

:) yup

:: 2005 22 August :: 2.30am
:: Music: die die die die die

eww
i found out ringgold starts school NEXT MONDAY. wtf $#@%#@%@#$@ thats bullshit. =\. and i love it when fat muthafuckin ppl IM ME AND WANT TO 'CAM' WITH ME.. no fuck that EWW SICKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOS. ugh

i dont know what to write about im just pissed bout school & GROSSED OUT about some slimeball IMING ME.

perves; get the fuck outttttt

:: 2005 21 August :: 1.48pm
:: Music: Hawthorne Heights - silver bullet

lastnite we had a scary thunderstorm *shakes* i liked it though..

kinda peaceful except the fucking power went out. *GO FIGURE* ugh.
kelly came and picked me up so we went to the mall; she got an outfit for school.. its really cute. school starts on the 29th.. which is alo my ex-bfs birthday, OH YAY! grr.. a new school and all kinda sucks.. i wont be used to it.. this school im going to is big, im used to lookin out the windows and seeing cows and tractors and people smokeing.. now all ill see is a highway and a big ass FIELD for track and football.. ugh. i guess its kinda cool in a way cause i will meet new people. BUT YET ITS SCARY! hmmmm. my Ma' is picking me up today when shes done with work! =] i think kelly is comin over later as well. so hopefully our power is back on. *yikes*

so buh byes my loves.

:: 2005 20 August :: 2.30am
:: Mood: tired

shop til u drop,muthafuckaaa
i know its early, but i am going school shoppin today at like 10am lol. yeah so i gotta get my new gear for this yr. WOOWEE i love going shoppin.. and plus im going to a new school so i gotta look good lmfao.. yeah right! i dont need to impress anyone, fuck it. but its so funnnnnnn :) all the girls and some guys know what i am saying, dontcha?! hehe. so figured id right bout it and i will update this entry later sayin what i all got and what else has happened throughout my dayyyyyyy.. so ta*ta

Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxycontin
But it'so tiny, that it got you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages
I prefer the orange's with the black O-C
Take to and you cannot move up out ya seat
Some people melt 'em down in a needle and shoot 'em up
But I pop 'em with Seroquel like glue, I am stuck

uhh yelp.. basically. =\

^^ ok so ya i went shoppin and i got loads of cool things.. bout 8 pairs of jeans, 10 shirts, socks&shoes, and also undies! hehe.. of course im not done school shoppin.. but yeah its fucking sweet.. and now i must depart because im talkin to Isaiah hes so cool. i love em'. <3<3

:: 2005 20 August :: 12.25am
:: Music: Lil Wyte - Drinkin song

ugh
well my past few days have been sweet and then again kinda hectic.. the alcohol has been in my system like hardcore, ive been chillin with my cuzs and shit.. much fun, also i went to alainas for 2 days or some shit after i left my cousins, i had fun.. we got drunk on aug. 19 2005.. and i came home tipsy my mom was laughing at me.. ya i no being drunk isnt much to brag about but its all i basically do anymore.. the other day i went to the WASHINGTON COUNTY fair.. YYEEEHAWWW! it was funnnnn, it was dom, jen, curt, gump, durbin, puckey, and yasek.. i dunno i kinda feel like im missing someone but oh well *SORRY* buttttt i saw SMOKEY the first time in forever really.. he looks ruff. no doubt on crack and shit <-- well it looks like it anyways.. HE JUST STARED AT ME.. i was like WTF? lol.. i guess one of my bestfriends (lai) is datin my ex (bruce) hmm i feel all weird.. but its cool she asked if i was mad.. and imnot mad really.. really im not.. i want everyone to be happy.. i wish NO bad on ANYONE. but i have been having a few bad days.. i dont really wanna talk about it cause its like wtf?.. ya im sure u no what i mean.. UGH FUCK IT.

I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting
Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God it's good to be alive
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Still in love with all your sins
Where you stop and I begin
And I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel
Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this petty world
Oh who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful

:: 2005 18 August :: 10.39am

Don't you hate when you have a really good dream...

Then wake up and realize it was just a dream?

3 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 17 August :: 11.06am

My, "If you ain't ghetto, you ain't shizzle," shirt comes in today.

Which also means school starts in 8 days.

{Whimper}

1 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 16 August :: 2.35am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Nothing but me singing

ba de dum ba ba deee dummm
can you remember chestnut street
and algae ripping at our feet?
i was just a little girl
and you were my whole world.

what i'd give to be lying in your arms,
what i'd give to be your girl again:

did you know that you were my first love?
did you know it's you i still dream of?
i've grown up a lot since then
my nostalgic heart will never mend.

what i'd give to be lying in your arms,
what i'd give to be your girl again:
(what i'd give to be your girl again)

Today, i am going to my aunts house, so yeah ill EDIT this later and fill everyone in on whats up, hahaha. this shall be funnnnnnn

oh yeah and that song is dedicated to someone.. someone who used to be my bestfriend.. ihateyou god do i.

:: 2005 15 August :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: MM - beautiful people

OoOoolalala
Friday i stayed at alainas with her, aud, and mike. Pl came along cause
we were all drinking and shit.. (fun).. hmmm so yeah basically we got
shitfaced at like 5pm. haha nice right? fucking alkie :p. and then
later on mike and lai took off to do God who knows what, so me and audrey
went and looked for my cousin roland, and our friend russ. :) so we all 4 just
basically chilled *cough* yeah i had a great time.=D

Saturday i stayed at rolands house and russ came over, hehe. we
all 3 went to a party like get together type thing in Ellsworth mad people
were there.. like people we always or used to chilled with.. so it was nice
so yeah beer and other alcohol was there.. :P.. and me and rol werent supposed to drink
baaaaaah hahahahaaha, ;). but we did anyways, it isnt like any1 would care anyways
you know? hmmm no u dont, lol. so me, roland, russ, Dom and Jen came home tipsy. =D
basically passed out sortly hehe. *muah*

Sunday stayed at my cousin roland and dominick's again.. when i woke up russ went home
=\... and me and roland just fucked around on the 50 again, fucking kickass. i got so broke
but i jumped mad jumps, lol. we didnt do much.. so theres nothing to say

Monday just fucked around on the 50 again, and i decided to come home for a
day or 2.. then im back to either b-ville or scenery hill.. i fucking
hate staying home, and russ will be gone til friday.. so yeah nothing really
to do. so i guess we will just wade the days out, blah. school starts for me in 14 days..
its kinda CRAZY, see if i were to still g 2 bentworth which is what i WISH I COULD FUCKING DO
it would be so much easier and id have more summer time.. but no my life sucks
so nothing goes the way i want it too. hmmm <-- i wish my mom would let me stay
at my aunts house, but i no she wont, cause everything just has to be so goddamn complicated
.. fuck it dude.. i just hate stayin homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. but yeah i HAD A GREAT weekend.
WHOOP WHOOP

... you never know *wink*

you are blind

:: 2005 13 August :: 10.41pm

So every little thing errupts into an argument around here.

Always.

:: 2005 13 August :: 9.03pm

spring keeps you ever close. you are second hand smoke.
you are so fragile and thin, standing trial for your sins.
holding onto yourself the best you can.
you are the smell before rain. you are the blood in my veins.

:: 2005 12 August :: 7.39pm
:: Mood: :/

With time...