The story of one person trying to live everyday for today.

:: 2005 12 August :: 11.11am

Speechless.

:: 2005 12 August :: 12.34am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Adema - giving in

boooooom
yesterday i stayed with alaina, it was cool.. we just hung out and what not with mike and shit.. then me and lai went to panatis to get a stromboli MMMM so good.. so it was nice to chill with her, then later that nite me and her went up kempers to chill with him & tim.. so that was neat-o =). me and tim didnt really talk much, but its ok.. =\

tomorrow im going back to bentleyville to chill with everyone, my cousins supposed to come home from his VACATION SKATING OPPERATION, hahaha. so we may chill with him and his friends for a bit..then who knows.. i think mikes pickin me up also. WOOWEE.

||Do you wake up and wonder where you�re really going
Retry aging in life you wanted to achieve your goals
Now confusion it lingers
Making me feel sick to my stomach
Because who knows what will happen next
I shattered into pieces in this world
I shattered into pieces in this world

this world your world my world
Confusion it lingers a fear of loathing that I regret
Because who knows what will happen next
I shattered into pieces in this world

this world your world my world
I shattered into pieces in this world

this world your world my world
What do you want in life
Who you have planned for the future I wonder does anything matter
Gives luck on the same old day out and sorrow hold on
To your gold or you�ll have nothing ||

1 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 10 August :: 5.40pm

< rock/paper/scissors rant >

I understand that scissors can beat paper... And I get how rock can beat scissors.. But there's no fucking way paper can beat rock. Paper is supposed to magically wrap around rock, leaving it immoble? Why the Hell can't paper do this to scissors? Screw scissors, why can't paper do this to people? Why aren't sheets of college-ruled paper constantly suffocationg students as they attempt to take notes in class? I'll tell you why. Because paper can't beat anybody. A rock would tear that shit up in two seconds.. When I play rock paper scissors, I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper, I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "OH SHIT I'M SORRY, I THOUGHT PAPER WOULD PROTECT YOU, ASSHOLE!"

< /rant >

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Hair cut on Saturday...

Getting my bangs angled more, layers, black lowlights and auburn highlights.:]

Read more..

1 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 9 August :: 5.29pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Crossfade - The Deep End

Had fun like a --- muthafuckaaa
Well well what can i say about my interesting day or 2 that iv have had.. hmm:: well yesterday i slept til about 2:40 in the afternoon.. boy ol' boy was i tired! and i get a text message from Tim.. he starts out telling me hes sick and and what not so i respond saying 'aww' lmao.. ya me and him havent talked really.. and then outta the blue he texted me, it was weird.. but i liked it alot!. :):) so he tells me he will come and pick me up; so we chill for awhile and he took me to alainas. so yes i can most certainly say i enjoyed myself. woot woot.. then later on that nite we meet up with kelly to go smoke then chilled at richardson park, that was funnn. then later, later on we have a run in with mike andsmoked some more (geez talk about a pot head) wooweee.THE LATER, MUCH LATER--- me, mike, and alaina go down by my friend brights house and we see roland and all them outside, so I run up to roland and start gabbin (roland=cousin) and mike decided to leave cause hes a douche bag, hahaha JK MIKE! u no i love you.. no but forreal he dipped and rol told me and lai to stay and we got drunk and high as hell. we didnt go to bed til bout 5am i believe.. a pretty late i know. i was kinda passin out outside side by the half pipe and shit.. whoaaaaa. we had fun though, it was nice to drink and shit with lai, and actually spend more time with my cousin and some of my friends, catch up and shit u no, rols like my brother anyways haha. :). i saw MILTON FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE A FUCKING YEAR! woooooooo. this kid is so great!!! so that made it even better haha. also me and lai got shane to do his "beavis&butthead" dance. fucking kickass dude.. so yeah

i love my summer.
i just dont want it to
end..

=\

...unfortunately jordan hasnt called me yet..

i knew this would happen. :(:(

:: 2005 8 August :: 1.04am
:: Mood: sad

its hard to let go
Well yesterday nite me and alaina were attending her mothers party..
so we got drunk, haha thats attending isnt it? lol. we had fun! i mean
who drinks at 3:00pm and doesnt stop til 5:00am? usssss hehehe. so around 4:30 we chilled
out for a bit, then smoked a bowl. :D; so around 4:30pm today her mom brought us
back to bentleyville.. and i chilled with everyone for a bit..
but then jordan comes up, (i havent seen him in 4ever) and i missed him so much
..jordan used to be my bestfriend.. :(; and he stopped coming around
when he got that crazy girlfriend of his.. there broke up now.. but i garauntee
they will get back together :\ nothing i can do.. even though we parted
he will always be my bestfriend and i promised him i would be there
for him when i could. (i miss him so much). but today i saw him for a bit, then took a "ride"
and everyone got outta the car i stayed and talked to him til my mom came and until he
ate his sandwich. heh... he said we will hang tomorrow, ill call you and my remark was
"i doubt it jordan. because i really do doubt he will and if he does
that would will prove me wrong and make me HAPPY! i really hope he does..
but it was nice to be with alaina this weekend and great to see Jordan.
but now i am once again back home, sitting in my room.. thinking about everything

xox
I WISH.. i wish. :(:(

:: 2005 6 August :: 2.03pm
:: Mood: happy happy, joy joy
:: Music: Blink 182 - damnit

Booya
Yesterday Lai came and picked me up and we went to her moms.. thats where i am now!!! and were having a good time, it was nice to spend more time with her, its like we used to. we got high light nite in her moms bathroom cause it didnt look safe outside, her mom lives in the country and the neighbor has pet wolfes hahaha.. so kinda scary... so yea were dumb and took the risk! and we grubbed all nite and didnt go to sleep til like 4am which is cool; bruce called me & her lastnite on my cell.. i guess he actually shot a rag head over there and hes like scared for life. today is going good.. her moms having a party and that means us = getting plastered WOOOWEE i havent gotten smashed in forever!! so this shall be fun me and alaina drunken monkeys together hehe. so yeah thats itttttt

:: 2005 4 August :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: tired

..
Today i left Audreys and mike picked me up we had fun we went on "ride" hahahah.. then we met up with alaina and had a funfest hehe.=] i think audrey was mad especially since she hates mike and joe and they talk to me, more jealousy, hmmm. so i my picked me up fron alainas and im at my aunt missys house now. ill update later.

i just want to give up on everything, its like im not goin to be happy.. and if i am its for like 4.3 secs. ugh im sick of the lies, all the bullshit! everything.. none of it would have been this way if i didnt fuck up!!!!!

:: 2005 4 August :: 1.13pm
:: Music: My Chemical Romance- Cemetery Drive

Oh well. So much for "best friends."

*sigh*

Bad News: I'm assuming if it came down to it, and he had to choose one of us to die and one of us to live... He'd choose some girl who he's never even met before to live.

Good News: Bethany is coming to Hoggard next year.

:: 2005 4 August :: 12.40am
:: Mood: amused... ?
:: Music: The Used - let it bleed

let me tell you sbout my day, hmmm
Well today my mom woke me up at like 8:30am. because she had to go up town plus we picked kelly up from *sarahs house* -ahem- so she could go home and get ready for work.. then i called audrey (cause we were chillin today) and i asked if it was ok for me to come over at like 11am.. my mom was in the area and i live in the boonies so ya it was easier! im so happy we hang out like we caught up on alot of shit to, and even no we had fun we still had alittle dilema going on about 12am. im not going to say names but people need to grow up honestly.. forget things that happened in the past. and i will chill with who i wanna chill with. -errr- me and audrey are pretty close u no. we get along, better than we ever had and i cherished today. i had a good time! but tomorrow my mom is picking me up after work which is like 4pm cause i havent really hung out with her im always running haha. so it will be nice to catch up with my mom as well.

also my ex calls me today sayin hes movin to washington and to forget about him, ya we always have are disputes but i wanna still be friends. i guess he met someone named WonNita.. ya so i dunno good luck i guess. i wish him the best even THOUGH i got treated like shit when we were together.. but i wish NO bad on anyone. so i doubt ill ever hear from him again. and someone -coughs- gave his new fellow gf my number cause she called me saying "dont ever talk to my man again, blah blah i'll cut cha" wtf? some crazy ass shit fuck that nonsense i dont play that shit!<-- i hate people and i mean i litterly loathe them so much its unbareable.

& i went to the school to get my report card cause i didnt get it in the mail (cause i moved haha) and i passed woooooo.. BUT MY MOM told me in the car she was thinkin bout sending me to Job Corps in Pittsburgh, hmmmm i dunno bout that!.

-chelle

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:: 2005 3 August :: 1.24am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Greenday- nice guys finish last

ITS FREAKIN COLD IN MY ROOM.. burr

anyways..

yesterday i slept til about 7pm. haha im such a loser.. then kelly called and wanted to come pick me up so i figured hell yes! haha and i asked her if she would run me to audreys house today.. grr but plans changed i had to help babysit like 5 kids.. it was rough a 11month old, 3, 9, 12, 13 year olds.. ahhh so stressed out dude u have no idea, err i mean i love kids.. but geez so many hehe. i had fun though we chilled and went swimming. so i came home tonite instead of stayin with kelly at her mans house and shit!.. but im DEFFgoing to audreys tomorrow. im waking up early in the morning with my mom cause she has to go into town and ill have her drop me off at her house -yay-. also i got payed 15 bones today just for cleaning out kellys aunts tub and the toilet.. WOOWEE thats alot for a little ol' job, dont u think? so i bought my smokes haha and i have 10 left. YEEHAW sorry i had to let my inner rowdyness out hehe. so until then ta*ta

-rochelle

:: 2005 2 August :: 11.46pm

I'm addicted to this little pointless RPG.

Someone save me!!!1one

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CallistoMoon

:: 2005 2 August :: 3.26pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: DJ Tiesto ~ Just Be

Meep.
Yea . .so no one reads this anymore. Oh well . . . wont stop me from posting in it.

Marching Band = death x2 and what?! We have to run?!?!?!?!?!?! Wtf. This is messed up. At least the instructors are funny. . . .and the music is the shit. I love it. Cant wait til we get the rest.

Anyway. . . . .I was lying. Will and Wade suck. Alot. Hate them oodles.

Ciao.

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My muse is...
Calliope
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Who is your muse?

Insomniac
You dont sleep. It's not because you love life too
much to lay your head down, it's because you
can't or just dont want to. Sleep? Who cares,
right? In fact, who really cares about
anything? You dont. Maybe you're mad at
someone for something they did, but its
probably more than just one person who has
pissed you off. People have probably told you
to get over your issues lots of times, but
thats just because most of them dont understand
how deep some scars can go.

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are exactly as their title says, loners and
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many people find you odd. This only bothers you
when you're in a public place like a dance club
or a crowded lunchroom so you tend to steer
clear of those places. You might have a friend
or two but they're either Loner Artists like
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3 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 31 July :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: whoa
:: Music: Tool - Stinkfist

.....
hmm lastnite i went to my aunt penes house.. then today i came from i didnt feel like staying, i usaully stay for like days at a time but i decided i wanted to come home. Mike keeps hounding me to stay at alainas and shit, i guess to smoke pot but i dont really do that shit no more, i guess cause of drug tests and shit from the court. he gets all pissy when i tell him i have other plans! omg oh well screw it. Tuesday im supposed to hang out with Audrey.. yay! i cant wait! we will have so much fun... hehe so until then goodbyeeeeeee

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

OMFG I ALMOST WALKED IN ON MY COUSIN HAVING SEXXXX *gasps* so gross hahahah not the fact "sex" is gross but my cousin and his gf? ewww.

1 can now see | you are blind

:: 2005 31 July :: 6.57pm

hmm lastnite i went to my aunt penes house.. then today i came from i didnt feel like staying, i usaully stay for like days at a time but i decided i wanted to come home. Mike keeps hounding me to stay at alainas and shit, i guess to smoke pot but i dont really do that shit no more, i guess cause of drug tests and shit from the court. he gets all pissy when i tell him i have other plans! omg oh well screw it. Tuesday im supposed to hang out with Audrey.. yay! i cant wait! we will have so much fun... hehe so until then goodbyeeeeeee

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

OMFG I ALMOST WALKED IN ON MY COUSIN HAVING SEXXXX *gasps* so gross hahahah not the fact "sex" is gross but my cousin and his gf? ewww.