The story of one person trying to live everyday for today.

The story of one person trying to live everyday for today.

:: 2007 13 February :: 7.11pm

sitting on the railing with my feet hanging over the edge,
i look at the ocean, and the reflection of the moon,
sparkling. like millions of little diamonds.
i can see the water move,
i can almost feel the current.

and in this moment,
i realize i am alone.

you are blind

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 11 February :: 9.38pm

how quickly i forget...

everything
you put me through.

you are blind

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 10 February :: 12.01pm

make up your mind.

i can't take this for much longer.

you are blind

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 5 February :: 6.48pm

i wish falling out of love
was as simple and fun as falling in.

i know in my head that i should just forget this all,
and move on with my life.
but there's a little feeling i can't shake...
and it's small. but it's making an impact.

everytime i start to feel like
i should give up and forget about it,

you'll do something. nice.
and you'll act sweet.
and act like you care.
like you used to.

and i'll wonder why i ever doubted myself in the first place;
(of course i should hold on.)

but then you'll be distant.
and you'll lie.
and i'll know.

and it starts all over again.