:: 2003 17 June :: 5.03 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: the donnas..who let you in

1 you must really like me | well if you insist

:: 2003 9 June :: 8.04 am
:: Mood: accomplished

Today is monday and tommorow will be the last day of school......now thats an accompishment!

So today I have two exams.....British Lititure and Music History....Yay sounds like fun....but I know I'll ace them....there my easiest classes. tommorow I have three....American History...Biology and Applied Two. But im exempt from my biology one but he's being gay told us that we have to take it anyway....he said it won't count as a grade but this way he knows that everyone has something to do.....God sometimes I wonder how teachers become teachers.

Im going over to my dads today at 11:00 and I am going to finally be with my Eddie....well I was with him yesterday but it was the first day that we had seen eachother since thursday so he has to make it up to me by seriously kissing my ass....and he is and I have to tell you it's working....

My mom says that I am becoming to dependent on him....I'm not quite sure why that would be but.....We do plan on getting married...So don't you in a way have to be dependent on eachother??? I don't know it's one of those wierd things that nobody knows what the real answer is or at least the right answer.

Steph is picking out cars....apparently she wants her mom to pay for it and then she will eventually pay her back...I don't know if it will work but I guess if it does....well then she is going to have a really cool car.....that her parents still won't let her drive to school in cause there just a bunch of dumbasses!

But so are mine.

well if you insist

:: 2003 8 June :: 4.30 pm
:: Mood: discontent

He's laying right next to me but yet I don't feel him at all....

What is it with him that I can't seem to get out of my head? he trys so hard to do the things he thinks I want him to do.....but yet recently he has never succeded in completely the task......I feel like im wating for the punch line......hoping for the fireworks but all I see is the burning wick flickering on the ground.
I can't win....I try to tell him what it is that makes me feel the way I want to but he never listens....he just does what he wants and then says he feels bad afterwards for not doing what I wanted.......It started out to be soo good at first too......what happened.

Sorry so Dirty....

well if you insist

:: 2003 6 June :: 8.38 am
:: Mood: anxious

It's the last friday of school and I can't wait to leave!!

nobody updated there journals....am I really the only weird one who writes in these things?? It's been feeling that way lately.

My cold still hasn't went away and I have cramps up the wazoo and I feel really weird cause Im not wearing a bra today.

I wish that sometims that school would just start going through hyper speed and it would just get over with....Cause God Damn I am getting sick of this damn place.

This library kind of looks like a jail cell....it's weird but t does.....

well if you insist

:: 2003 5 June :: 12.40 pm
:: Mood: nervous

my stomach is all tied up in knots and I feel as if Im being watched

Its kind of scary to know that you are doing something wrong and you know that you probably will get caught but you do it anyways just for the fun of it....Crazy but I still like the rush of the moment.

so whats up with the woohulyrics thing??? just wondering...maybe I'll check it out after Im done.

I am going over to Katie's house this weekend and I have to work this stupid yard sale over the weekend for my west virgina trip that I am taking with my youth group this summer.

The rules of summer
1. sex
2. parties
3. sleep
4. sun
5. swimming
6. food
******according to ash******
well see ya later aligator

well if you insist

:: 2003 4 June :: 8.18 am
:: Mood: aggravated

my super bad cold has officially turned into a tornado in my throat.

And I can't seem to stop coughing.....the librian must think that I am infested with some nasty diesese** I am going to spread it all over his presious keys and library.....Oh well it's not like I can help the fact that I am sick I can't just turn off a switch and say Okay cold it's time to go.....I wish.

I have to write a metaphore paper, for my compositon class.....I think I'm going to do it on God.....like say something about how even though you cant see his love.....you can still feel it.....You know kind of like the wind....I don't know its still a work in progress.

Alright well I am going to kick Charlies ass so I will let you know how it goes..

well if you insist

:: 2003 3 June :: 8.33 am
:: Mood: sick

I have to change some stuff around here,not quite sure what I will put in it but I know I have to.

I think it just about time anyways......four months with the same ol' Journal is just to long for a girl who like fast paced and always changing places......

I talked to a girl today who is someone who you would look at and go..."hmmm she looks like a girl who would never get in trouble." But yesterday I saw her in the ass. princible's office....I was like "wow whats going on?" then today I asked her and you know what she said......"I moved out of my house cause my step mom is a total BITCH, and now I am filing for immancapation on my dad cause who took my licence away cause he doesn't want me to work at my job! I was like "Holy Cow" it's wierd to think that people are so different from what the really seem........kind of like me...

I got this really horrible cold over the weekend and I can't seem to shake it.....it seems to actually be getting worse and not better so whats with that? cause all it did was start out as a sore throat....and now I cough and sneeze and have a runny nose any doctor out there wanna give me some good advice to getting rid of this cold???? pLLLEEESSEEE it's nasty.

I love my eddie bear!!!

well if you insist

:: 2003 30 May :: 8.39 am
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: the typing keys of Stephy Degraaf

1 you must really like me | well if you insist

:: 2003 23 May :: 8.37 am
:: Music: bob-n-tom in the morning

1 you must really like me | well if you insist

:: 2003 15 May :: 8.18 am
:: Mood: calm

I have some ?'s for a person who I will name later but why is it that you guys are never on MSN anymore??

Im talking to you Jessa and Erin. the other day I was told by a certain someone to try and get ahold of you so that I could heip handle a problem but you weren't on. DO you guys have the internet anymore or is it that you just never get on MSN anymore?? oh well.

I have a choir concert tonight at 7:00 if anyone is interested its at the school and all of you who know me know what school that is. It's for the senior banquet, it's kind of cool were signing "I turn to you" by christina aguliera, which is the downfall but hey at least we sound okay.

Im going to go see the matrix reloaded tommorow maybe even eairlier than most people cause I don't know if I am going to school tommorow. I don't want to at least. I woke up really late this morning like I woke up at 7:14 so I had exacally three min. to get up do my hair put on my makeup and brush my teeth. did it happen? actually it suprized me but I did. I look like crap but I did get out the door in time.

well my portfolio awaits me...........

well if you insist

:: 2003 6 May :: 1.08 pm

did you ever have those days where you just got nothing to talk about?

Well I do.

Time lately has been going so fast I can't believe that this year is almost done with and within less than 5 months I will be a senior then it's off to college to start my life and I don't even have a clue what I want to do with it.

SO I am doing saterday school on saterday-----go figure---- with eddie cause we skipped school to many times now we have to searve them or fail this semester hmmmmmmm what would you choose???

well if you insist

:: 2003 30 April :: 10.26 am

Im installing AOL instant messeging. SO I can talk to my aunt for my history project pretty bad huh. well and plus a lot of my other friends have AOL so know i can talk to my brother on line. I just have to tell him that I am downloading it.

2 you must really like mestalkers | well if you insist

:: 2003 24 April :: 2.13 pm

FAIRY TALE

nce upon a time there has a young DOG CATCHER named EDDIE. He was MERRILY BALDING in the GOOEY forest when he met STICKY PETER, a run-away SEX THERIPIST from the SLIMY Queen STEPH.

EDDIE could see that STICKY PETER was hungry so he reached into his BOX and give him his COARSLY LASANGA. STICKY PETER was thankful for EDDIE's LASANGA, so he told EDDIE a very SMOOTHLY story about Queen STEPH's daughter KATIE. How her mother, the SLIMY Queen STEPH, kept her locked away in a SCHOOL protected by a gigantic LION, because KATIE was so SUDDENLY.

EDDIE HAD. He vowed to STICKY PETER the SEX THERIPIST that he would save the SUDDENLY KATIE. He would GIVE the LION, and take KATIE far away from her eveil mother, the SLIMY Queen STEPH, and HAVE her.

Then, all of the sudden, there was a ABRUPTLY STORM and STICKY PETER the SEX THERIPIST began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic LION from his story. SLIMY Queen STEPH RAN out from behind a GLASS BALL and struck EDDIE dead. In the far off SCHOOL you could hear a BLING.

THE END.

Make your own fairy tale at fuali.com

well if you insist

:: 2003 16 April :: 8.07 am

Well I tried to do something really cool with my journal but it didn't work.....Imagine that.

Oh well I try again later.

well if you insist

:: 2003 14 April :: 8.15 am
:: Mood: blank

An Emial was recieved from an annonamous** person stateing that I never write in here anymore. My Answer: I didn't know that anyone paid attention.
So todays the first day back to school after Spring Break. And I have to tell you that it was not what I had expected it to be. I didn't get to relax I mean I don't think that one day did I sleep in or get at least eight hours of sleep.

Tuesday I worked my ass off in the yard racking the whole thing so I can get some extra $$ for my prom dress which still seases to be seen my me or anyone else. But she swears I will get it wheater it's the day before prom or not.

Wednesday I studied for my ACT's all day cause I had to take those on Saterday and woooohuuu that was a doosier.

Thursday I Worked for my Youth Director at Church all day and then I had church so I ended up staying pretty much all night there. We headed home around 8:00 and went to go drop my brother off at My dads because he was supposed to spend the night and go to work with him on Firday but what a suprize he lied to him and Devin was crying the rest of the night. yeah that one ruled.

Friday can you guess what I did?.........Yup if you guess worked again your right!!!! I ended up rakeing again the rest of the lawn and got burned to a F-in crisp and looked literally like a Lobster. Although you wouldn't be able to tell that today cause by now my skin has healed and once again I have seased to get a tan. Everyone came over to spend the night at my house so that we could be up and ready for the ACT's the next day which probably wasn't a good Idea cause we didn't go to bed till around three o clock.

Saterday was the ACT's so I woke up somewhere in between 5:45 and six and through on the nearest clothes and walked out to Ashley's car. After the test which has to be the longest thing I have ever indured in my life we rush out to the car thankful that we are going home and the car doesn't start, the battery went dead in were stranded in the middle of Ferris Parking Lot and nobody offered to help us except for a freind the ultimitly wasn't any help at all. So we finally get home and guess what I end up doing?....... Rake!!!! but this time it's over by the burn barrel so you know that took me forever since there's TRASH EVERYWHERE!!! God... Then finally something nice happens and I end up going to the Movies with my certain someone and watch Anger Management. It was a good releif.

Sunday was a day of luxery** not much but it's all I had. I went to church and ended up haveing two meetings afterwards which meant I wasn't home till 2:30 but all in all it wasn't bad I went home and sat down on the couch and read my book A WANTED MAN it was really good and I finished it. I made no bake cookies and went to sleep.

well I know my life is boring but you guys are the ones who keep me sane.

well if you insist

:: 2003 3 April :: 9.18 am

I have allergys which are kicking my butt I took some benidryll*** but I don't know if it helped or it's just makeing even more tired.

I feel like I'm high but all I took this morning was sinus meds. I cant stand this last night I threw up at like one o clock my mom said that it was because I took to much med. before I ate. Oh well but still I don't want to be high if I didn't intend to make myself that way!!

Steph didn't write today maybe she is starting to feel like she is getting her privicy invaded. we checked someone elses journal out yesterday, and I have one question am I as superfishual** as everyone else?? I need to know so I can change cause those people were really bad.

well my hands are moving to slow today to make me want to keep typeing so this is it.

1 you must really like me | well if you insist

:: 2003 2 April :: 7.59 am
:: Mood: bored

Have you noticed that it seems to be getting warmer out? Kind of a stupid question but.....I only notice cause my allergys are kicking my butt. stupid trees.

Well I was thinking maybe I'll have a party this weekend anyone wanna come???? Maybe not I don't have enough friends for a party. So when the whole thought of not having enough friends I wanted Sunshineblues* to come over and she can meet a certain someones friend and that certain someone is going to take us to the movies and hopefully they like eachother.

alright I've already said to much for my little tired hands.

1 you must really like me | well if you insist

:: 2003 1 April :: 1.06 pm
:: Mood: complacent

Okay so apperently I lie a lot well according to a certain somebody who will remain anonomous** for not to hurt their pride. I don't quite understand it yeah I know that when things are said a week before and you are trying to re-tell the story a week later it's hard to remember everything so yeah take that.

Our house got teepeed** I found out who it was and told them that they had to go and say sorry to my mom and clean the rest of it up so I don't have to. He was a little reluctant to hear that cause I was like if you don't I am going to call your mother and tell her the whole story.

The moral of this story is your actions have concinquences** so deal with them

well if you insist

:: 2003 28 March :: 7.43 am

Im wearing a dirty shirt today that belongs to someone else All I can think of is "what if people think I stink"

Why do I always have to think of what other people think of me?? That really is my one pet peeve of myself. I mean this shirt is a sweater so it's not like other people don't wear the same sweater two days in a row right?? right. I am just being stupid, but hey whats new.

well if you insist

:: 2003 27 March :: 9.33 am
:: Mood: calm

I wonder how life can do complete 360's and still feel as good as me

I have decided that today and every day before today has been good. well except for the exception of last week which was the week that my Grandfather died. yup he died. It sucks but thats life and you have to deal with it.

lately I have noticed that me and Eddie have been getting along unusually well which is actually starting to scare me a little MY GOD I"VE GROWN UP.

His sister had her baby she had a little boy he is 7 pds. 11oz. he is a little cutie too I went to see him yesterday at the hospital he has black hair and tan skin with these little dark eyes and long fingers and toes. and he's sooo Tiny.

Little kids make me cry That is untill they turn in Devin.

well if you insist