please let me know what you know I am lost in a world of confusion

please let me know what you know I am lost in a world of confusion

:: 2004 12 January :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Brand New

I dread the upcoming biology exam. It's over 3 chapters of evolution and shit that I don't know. It's so hard to pay attention in that class. Fournier is a bad teacher.
I'm not too worried about any other exam though. Except maybe the one in BMMT.. but Alyssa can help me a little and vice versa since we're next to eachother ; ) I'm so glad I'm done with that class after this week.
I got a part in the play.. I'm a wolf. I don't think I have very many lines, but at least it's a part, I suppose.
I'm really tired. A nap sounds heavenly, but I won't let myself fall asleep, or else tonight will suck insanely.
I'm trying to find things to write about, but I really have nothing interesting to update on. Sorry.

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Kate	:: 2004 8 January :: 5.59pm :: Music: Story of the Year Eh. Copied Joe. I'm bored. Read more.. 3 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate	:: 2004 7 January :: 8.45pm Labels Can Mean Everything In School 3 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate	:: 2004 6 January :: 9.05pm I feel so accomplissssshed. I finally finished my first complete story. :D eeee 3 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate

:: 2004 5 January :: 9.29pm

This.. is gay.
I now have Driver's Ed for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, AND Thursday. With guitar lessons also on Wednesday.

Meaning my internet use will be cut short, so I won't go behind on homework. And I probably won't even be able to do any homework on those unfortunate Wednesdays.

Little internet + lots of boring driving classes + extra time used only on homework = Low level of happiness for Kate.

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Kate

:: 2004 5 January :: 6.20am

I finally fell asleep about an hour and 40 minutes ago. Then got up at 6 for school. I have about an hour and 40 minutes of sleep to function on at school today.

I really could not fall asleep last night. Went to bed at 10pm, fell asleep around 4:40am.

I must have really fucked up my sleep schedule over break.

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Kate	:: 2004 3 January :: 8.59pm :: Music: Hot Hot Heat - Bandages 4 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate

:: 2004 1 January :: 10.57pm

I know these are annoying.. but there's not much else to do. And I just love to copy Stacy :)
d o y o u
HAVE A BAD HABIT? cracking my knuckles
LIKE TO DRIVE?: I'm kind of nervous as I drive.. I start driver's training on Monday, by the way.

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Invader Zim, but since it's cancelled, That 70's Show.
CONDITIONER: White Rain, I guess.
BOOK: The World According to Garp by John Irving
MAGAZINE: *shrugs*
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: See someone.

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yes
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yes
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no
USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: no
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: uh huh
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: nope
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: mmhmm.

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: yes, Joe
GIRLFRIEND: nope
CHILDREN: small possibility
CURRENT CRUSH: bleh..
BEEN IN LOVE?: yeah..
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: who hasn't.
BEEN HURT?: whoever made this is starting to sound like my mom.. why ask obvious questions?
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: uh.. not listening to my common sense.
GONE OUT WITH SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: I dunno, something like that.

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: I do in the summer
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Yellowcard is in my sterio cd player, Red Hot Chili Peppers is in my portable player.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: dark red, but not magenta. No purple about it.
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: music, some people
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: being with my friends.. cuddling with someone... while good music is playing, and it's night.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: The Vines
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: you, him, her, no one.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: blah blah blah.. I'm so fucking apathetic right now.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
THING YOU PURCHASED: gum
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: I don't remember, I rarely watch TV
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Paycheck

meh.

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Kate	:: 2004 1 January :: 3.39pm dammit I never came up with a New Year's Resolution. And I still can't think of one. 13 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate	:: 2003 31 December :: 6.19pm So my hair is cut. I decided to get Four. I showed the hairdresser the picture, but my hair doesn't quite look like it, hardly at all really. It's as short, but that's about it. It's still okay though.. 2 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate

:: 2003 29 December :: 3.49pm

I had this dream last night...

Everyone at school was running through the halls. And in the panic, I was about to go into the guys' bathroom, but some guy I didn't know stopped me. I was embarrassed, thanked him, and moved onto the girls' bathroom. Inside there were a lot of girls and one boy, (some of you may know him as Joel Kessel,) and he was crying. I went up to him and asked, "why are you in here? What's wrong?" He replies with, "I just hit puberty!" and as he says this, his voice cracked. "See!" he exclaimed. So I try to comfort him and these two other boys come into the bathroom and they're making fun of him; I walk up to one and say, "you fucker!" and punch him in the head. He goes, "I was just joking!" and they leave.
Then, I leave the bathroom, and I'm standing in the hallway where everything is still crazy, but I'm only wearing my underwear and bra. But I'm not uncomfortable. I start running all crazy with everyone else. It's not really panic or anything, everyone is laughing like the kids took over the school.
Anyway, I come across this table where these two people are selling candy, mainly licorice. All the kids are crowded around it getting the candy. I get some licorice, and walk away. As I'm walking, someone runs past me, yells "here!" and shoves a sandwich in my hand. I look down at it and it's a folded piece of bread filled with frosting and covered in sprinkles. I walk up to some desk that came out of nowhere and I guess it was the principal's. The principal and some teachers were standing around it. I hand them the sandwich and tell them how I got it. Then they ask me why all these girls are running around not wearing clothes. I look around, and almost all of the girls are in their bra and underwear, like me. I told them how there was a boy in the girls' bathroom who had hit puberty and that's why I wasn't wearing anything. (I know it doesn't make sense.)
I turn around and see my parents. They're standing there with one of those really old cameras that are big and you have to hold up a light. All these girls run past, (who are my friends,) and they have handfuls of licorice and one of them is the girl who gave me the frosting sandwich. They all stop in front of my dad and smile and he takes a picture. They run off and I go up to my parents.
Suddenly, all of the chaos is gone. There are some people walking around, but it's just the aftermath of everything. My parents are already holding the developed picture of the girls who stole all the licorice. My mom keeps telling me that we need to turn it into the school, but I resist. Eventually, for some reason, my mom just leaves. So I say to my dad, "we can't turn in the picture, dad, please, they're my friends."
He says, "I don't care what you do with it, that was just your mother," and he hands me the picture.
Then I walk over to someone, I don't remember who it was, and we talk a little bit about what happened. Then Laura Ringler walks up and says, "Kate's dad has a picture of the culprits. It's unpreferated and uncensored." I thought, "dammit. Laura has a huge mouth. I'm never going to be able to keep this picture a secret if she knows."
Just then, someone takes the picture and rips it up. I smile and look at who it is. It's the same boy who stopped me from going into the boys' bathroom. I laugh and pat his stomach.

And.. that was the end, I woke up.

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Kate	:: 2003 27 December :: 1.21am Tis that time of night, once again I wish I had somebody who would ramble to me, as I ramble to whoever happens to be the poor soul tonight. 3 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate

:: 2003 26 December :: 10.26pm
:: Music: (hed) pe - Other Side

I need your opinions, my friends. I'm sorry that these pictures are.. low quality and blurry, but they're the best I could do. I know a lot are kind of how I have my hair now, but whatever, I guess I got kind of attached to this style. So try to imagine these on me, with my hair color, and tell me which one you like best.

Here is Kate now
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Imagine me with these!

Or do you like the Brody one best?

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Kate

:: 2003 26 December :: 6.43pm
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: Sugarcult - Pretty Girl

Yes, it's long, I know. But read it, dammit.
// your 411
* name: Kate
* lokayshun: Cedar, blah blah..
* statsz: ...
* heaven sent: November 12
* sibling(s): 2 brothers, 1 sister
* AiM sn: thiscuthurts
* eMaiL: ka_te_@hotmail.com, reign_with_me@hotmail.com.. others..
* school: Shitty Cedar
* school's rival: Rockford I guess, because they have a lot of money and preps, apparently.
* your rival: My mother
// tha look
* hair: brown
* eyes: blue
* height: around 5'4"
* bra size: 36c.. heh.
* curly or straight: straight
* people you look like: Stacy Cain
// fav0rites
* day: Friday
* colors: red, black, dark/midnight blue
* ice cream: chocolate
* food: Peanut Butter
* nintendo system: *shrugs*
* movies: Igby Goes Down, The Crow, White Oleander, Interview with the Vampire, Chicago, Monty Python and the Holy Grail
* band: System of a Down
* song: Chop Suey!
* names for girls: Molly, Marissa
* names for boys: Marty, Jake, maybe Scott
// least fav0rites
* day: Monday-Wednesday
* colors: yellow, brown
* ice cream: Butterscotch
* food: Tuna
* nintendo system: *shrugs*
* movies: Tommy Boy
* band: Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Avril Lavigne (I don't care if she's not actually a full band), pop/boy bands
* song: Anything by Britney Spears, or other pop singers. Or country singers.
* names for girls: Bonny, Betty, Katie, Ethel
* names for boys: Bob, Bill, Will, Dick, Richard
// currents
* clothes: Green shirt with an owl holding a tootsie pop on it and says, "29 licks!"
* hair: down
* jewelry: Hemp necklace with a guitar pick on it that I made yesterday, Joe's necklace.
* socks: White ones..
* make up: Some black nail polish. I have a parrot on my thumb nail.
* belt: None
* music: Sugarcult, I haven't listened to them in a while.
* smell: I don't know.
// have you ever...
* bungee jumped: nope
* lost someone you loved: yes
* kissed someone: mmhmm
* had sex: no
* broken a bone: no
* traveled far away from home: yes, to Canada once, but I guess that's not too horribly far away.
* done something you regret severely: yeah
* cut yourself: Yeah, but that was a couple years ago. I've gotten a lot smarter.
* not eaten for a long period of time: Yeah
* smoked: Not cigarettes. Cigarettes are so dumb to smoke.
// finish these lyrics to see how much you know
* unbreak my: heart? I don't know it, but it seems like some song would probably say that.
* bring me to: ..your house.
* somewhere i: ..will... be.. happy.. er.. yeah
* sometimes i feel ive got to: run.. away
* you were my strength when i was: down?
* and you kissed me like you: never did before..?
* my milkshake brings all the boys to the: park
* im sorry i cant be: ..perfect
* hold on if you feel like: letting go?
* ive become so: lonely..
* baby boy you stay on my: chest
* nuttin chillin at the holiday: Inn
// say what first comes to mind
* apple: Apple Sauce
* blood: Wrists
* love: Joe
* computer: Restarting
* nintendo: Mario
* nintendo game: Mario Brothers
* actor: Johnny Depp
* hot dude: Kelso from That 70's Show, I don't know why.
// tell me your opinion about...
* your school: I do not like it.
* your home: I hate it. I hate being home.
* your computer: Heh, it's pretty crappy too.
* your lover: He's lovely.
* your christmas: It was all right. I love my sword.
* your hair: I don't like it so much anymore. I need something new.
* your parents: My dad can be okay, but I deeply abhor my mother.
* your sibling(s): Josh is cool at most times, but the other 2 just suck.
* your neighbors: I've never even met most of them. I hate the Jones's though. No, I just hate their son, Josh. Maybe it's time I moved on from that grudge..
* your relatives: I dislike all of them except Justine and sometimes Andy.
* your name: It's pretty.. dull, but I'm okay with it.

I didn't know any of those lyrics, I just made stuff up. Sad little me. Oh well.

Johnny Depp's life story is on tonight at 8, on channel 67. *drools*

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Kate	:: 2003 25 December :: 4.31pm :: Music: Our Lady Peace - Hello Oskar :D I got a vintage sword. 8 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate	:: 2003 22 December :: 11.15pm What Famous Leader Are You? heh, Mother Teresa 14 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate

:: 2003 22 December :: 2.49pm
:: Music: Smashing Pumpkins

Woohu is being really gay and I am getting extremely frustrated.

I can't edit any of my entries. I go to edit, change the entry how I want, but when I look at it, it's not changed. So I push edit again and the changes are still made there, but won't show up. grrr.

And I can't ask Andy about it because he'll get angry that I took away some of his time for a "stupid question."

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Kate	:: 2003 20 December :: 1.46am What's your New Year's Resolution? I can't think of one. 2 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate	:: 2003 20 December :: 1.46am 9 you must really like mestalkers \| well if you insist

Kate

:: 2003 17 December :: 7.31pm

It's better if you hear it. It's really a good song.

Radiohead - Creep [Lyrics: Click + to display]

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