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kate

:: 2003 2 May :: 7.09pm

Neilee says:
['02O-9TH2=3 that's the secret code to get into...(now you add on to the story)

Kate says:
okayy.... ['02O-9TH2=3 that's the secret code to get into the chest of secret snailish powers. All you have to do is say the code 3 times, then...

Neilee says:
...A magic clover with a snail on it came out of the chest and says: You must find me a shrubery before i can...

Kate says:
open my shell and give you the mystical, magical, shiny, glittery safety pin of wonder. When you return with the shrubery and after I have given you the mystical, magical, shiny, glittery safety pin of wonder, you must...

Neilee says:
...stab it through the shirt of a giant to make it look cool then come back to me and i'll tell you to go to the puddle and spash in it a bit, when that task is complete you must...

Kate says:
take this. And the snail will then pull an iron out of his pocket. An iron much too large for a snail's pocket, but he manages. He says "you must take this iron and run around frantically yelling 'NOOOO IT WAS THE CAT!!!! If you refuse to do this I will..

Neilee says:
iron you to my beanie and you will be stuck there for ever!*evil laugh*, BUT if you do it i will reward you with one wish, but first you must do one good deed that is NOT selfish. What will your wish be?...

Kate says:
"My wish is to make him happy," You replied. Whoever You may be. "Who's him?" the snail asked. You shook their head and said nothing. "Well.. how will I grant your wish then?" You just walked away and returned later with the promised shrubery, then did everything else the snail wanted, including the iron dance. "Now your wish," he said. It began to rain. You slipped and fell, falling and falling

Kate says:
far away from the snail and...

Neilee says:
ran right into a man. He looked sad. You did everything the snail said so you thought making him happy even though it's selfish because it will make you happy to see him happy. You talk for a long time about everything and you loose track of time but you don't care because your happy and he's happy. As the next day begins to show you know that you should be going. He says no and you insist.

Neilee says:
He says you are what makes him happy and if you leave then your wish will have not come true so you stay there with him forvever with no time and no agenda. Your wish has come true even though it was a selfish act you made someone happy and continue to forever so the shell has decided to grant you your wish.

Neilee says:
THE END

I don't like the ending though. It ends too suddenly and toooo happily.

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kate

:: 2003 1 May :: 4.38pm

what the fuck
Is The Bean really closed forever?

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kate

:: 2003 30 April :: 8.06pm


French Guard
I'm French! Why do think I have this outrageous
accent, you silly king-a?!


What Monty Python Character are you?
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kate

:: 2003 28 April :: 6.32pm

I got my mouth numbed today. Damn dentist. Damn cavities.
Today Neilee and I went to that "circle of peace" thing. Wooo, was that fun. Hope you caught my sarcasm.
Oh yes, the numbess is finally almost gone. It's cool how you can bite down really hard on your lip and doesn't hurt. But it really sucks when you're hungry and you can't taste the food or when you start drooling all over yourself because you can't feel anything. Luckily that hasn't happened to me. People've told me about it. Shows how exciting my conversations are: sitting around talking about drool. Yeah, well oh well. After awhile all the interesting things to talk about have been talked about and you have to resort to these measures.
Leave a comment yo, just for me. Say anything.

See ya later kiddies.

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kate

:: 2003 26 April :: 12.01am
:: Music: radio - nothing good playing currently

Darkness Fell
It's night. Yes, yes it is. I'm not sleeping. Insomnia. *twiches*
Today was a very Pink Floyd day. I think I've had my fill.
Kid Rock sucks. Kid Rock sucks ass. I hate all of his music. All of it.
I get to be a target of discrimination. Explaination: Sam is in some group called "the cirlce of peace." He said he needed someone who dressed like me to be in some skit in front of the school and in the skit, I'm the target of discrimination. Neilee will be too. Hopefully, this'll be fun.

I'm thirsty.

I have white pants. They're...interesting. They're too long for me, so they're fun. I've never worn white pants before. Well it's just another experience.
Are you gonna miss me when I'm gone tomorrow? ...I'm sure you will since I'm such an exciting person and all... *cough* I'm still thirsty.
It took me one minute to write this entry. Just so you know.

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kate

:: 2003 25 April :: 5.15pm

Children
doot do doo. Boredom. Kate -future wonder mom- got Christopher, (1 year old,) to stop crying and be happy again. Weee. Seriously though, Kate and Mom don't mix well. I may try motherhood one day. I don't know, but right now it really doesn't sound too great, having an annoying little kid around all the time. I like Christopher though. When he's happy and he can't talk yet, so that's a plus. Maybe I'll change my mind about kids when I get older. Who knows?

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kate

:: 2003 25 April :: 3.56pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd - Brain Damage

yum
Today = boring. It was alright. I'm glad it's finally Friday. Jake let me borrow his Pink Floyd CD. I like it. It's kinda mellow... relaxing. Good lyrics too. Neilee got internet and a journal, which is cool. Hello Neilee, welcome to woohu.
I guess I'm going to a party on Saturday. I can't spend the night, once again. Sucks... damn parents. grr. I hope this weekend doesn't suck. I'm not the mood for boredom.
"You lock the door And throw away the key There's someone in my head but it's not me." - Pink Floyd.

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kate

:: 2003 20 April :: 9.38pm
:: Music: Darkest Hour - Eclipse

Why, it's me.
-- Name : Kathleen (Kate) Jewell Shelton
-- Birthday : November 12, 1988
-- Birthplace : Grand Rapids, Michigan
-- Current Location : Cedar springs, Michigan
-- Eye Color : Blue
-- Hair Color : Brown, red/blondish tips
-- Righty or Lefty : Righty
-- Zodiac Sign : Scorpio
-- Font : um.. Verdana?

[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : Rock/punk/metal
-- Cartoon : Invader Zim, of course.
-- Color : black and for those of you who want to argue that black's not a color, red.
-- Slushy Flavor : Red or Blue
-- Magazine : Hit Parader I guess.
-- TV Show : The Simpsons
-- Song at the Moment: Audioslave - Like a Stone System of a Down - Chop Suey
-- Language : english
-- Spice Girl : I just liked their shoes
-- Food & Beverage : Peanut Butter and Chocolate Milk
-- Subject in School : Language Arts/ English
-- Weekend Activity : Going to parties my friends have
-- Ice Cream Flavor : chocolate or mint chocolate chip
-- Roller Coaster : I guess Shivering Timbers

[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : I don't know, I hate aol
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : "I wish I could fall asleep"
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : their clothes, sorry I can't help it
-- The Best Name for a Butler : I agree with Justin: You or Yu, so i could be like "hey you, get me a coke"
-- The wussiest sport : Chess. Is it a sport?
-- Your best feature : er, I don't know. I can read.
-- Your bedtime : weekdays: 10pm weekends: when I feel like it, usually between 2-4am
Your greatest fear : being alone
-- Your greatest accomplishment : um, um, making it to 9th grade
-- Your most missed memory : Being truely happy.

[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : Pepsi, but I don't like either
-- McDonald's or Burger King : Burger king
-- Single or group dates : Single
-- Adidas or Nike : Converse Chuck Taylor's
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : Fingers
-- Dogs or cats : DOGS
-- Rugrats or Doug : Doug I guess
-- Single or taken : taken
-- Monica or Brandy : Neither
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : Tupac
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : counrty...*puke*...
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : No tea
-- One pillow or two : one
-- Chocolate or vanilla : Chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : Hot Cocoa
-- Cappucino or coffee : Cappucino
-- Boxers or briefs : Boxers

[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : every other day
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : sure
-- do you think you've been in love? : yeah
-- Want to go to college? : Yes
-- Like high school? : probably will
-- Want to get married : Definetly
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : sometimes
-- Believe in yourself? : Most of the time.
-- Have any tattoos/where? : nope, want one though
-- Have any piercings/where? : yeah, just ears
-- Get motion sickness? : Sometimes
-- Think you're a health freak? : no
-- Get along with your parents? : no
-- Like thunderstorms? : yes

[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : I don't care, as long as it's not past 30. I guess between ages 20 and 30.
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : Married, in college. I think.
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : small, not alot of people. Only the people I really care about. My family wouldn't be there except for my brother and his wife.
-- How do you want to die? : doesn't matter if it's not really painfull.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : an Author/Novelist
-- What country would you most like to visit? : er, England?

[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : Green - Definetly
-- Best hair color? : I don't care.
-- Short or long hair? : no preference as long as it's not to the shoulders
-- Best height? : taller/same size as me
-- Best weight? : more than me
-- Best articles of clothing? : Gothish/ punk but I don't really care, it's just nice if they dress that way.
-- Best first date location? : alone
-- Best first kiss location? : alone
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? Eyes, stomach, mouth

[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : last night. Heh, I don't really sleep with it, it sits at the foot of my bed.
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : 2, have to wait for caller id to pick up
-- What's on your mouse pad? : It's red and says Office Max Order Toll Free 1-800-788-8080 in white letters
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 1
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 1
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : blue
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : mmm... probably
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : a feild trip in 6th grade
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? Yes
-- Would you marry for money? : no, unless the person wouldn't care if we got a divorce after I got the money.
-- Have you had braces? : No
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : yeah
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : not anymore
-- When was the last time you had a hickey? : last November or December I think
-- Would you live without a computer? : Yes, however very shitty
-- Do you drink enough water? : Yes
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: usually take them off, but doesn't matter
-- What is your favorite fruit? : Apples, if they're juicy
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : White
-- What is the last movie you saw? : Serving Sara
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : I have before
-- Are you photogenic? : sometimes
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : I think color, but I'm not sure
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : no
-- Do you have any dimples? : No
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : Sunsets
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: nope, old people are annoying and I don't want to be that way.
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : yeah I guess
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : Both
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : no
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : no
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : Yes
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : Off, I like it pitch black. NO LIGHT
-- Do you believe in magic? : err.. not really
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? no
-- Do you like your nose?: It's alright
-- Do you think you can draw well? : No, my drawings are really cartoony
-- Do you listen to music daily? : Yes, all the time.
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : Now and then.
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : 3
-- Do you like your friends? : Yes

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kate

:: 2002 5 July :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: not really sure
:: Music: Rocks Tonic Juice Magic by Saves The Day

Hey. I feel so much fucking better. As I was writing that entry yesterday, my best friend was here, but she wasn't reading what I was writing. While I was writing, she was sitting there and she just kind of had a mental breakdown and was crying and saying fuck so many times, it was like worse than the Osbournes. She was saying everything I just had written. Like, that I must hate her. She kept saying how much she hated herself becuz she like stole my boyfriend away and she was just totally bashing herself. She was crying the whole time and then she left the room. I sat there. I was just thinking. and I just felt so fucking better. It was like, I wasn't the only one in pain. Everything that had been killing me had been killing her too. I suddenly started crying, because I was so damn happy. I thought about how much I love her and Brent just wasn't worth it. I love Kamal so much more than him. So I walked out into the living room. She was sitting in a chair stareing at the TV screen. It was on mute, she was just watching it. (It was like 5 in the morning by the way) So I went over to the couch and sat. I wnted to hug her so bad and say how much she was my best friend. We sat there pretty much until the entire show was over, just watching it in silence. Then she sat up and said "I can't sit here anymore" then she kind of went on about some more stuff. then she said "well, are you just gonna sit there and not say anything?" I said "I don't know what to say" She said "well what are you thinking?" I said "I love you" she said "yeah.. " silence "no you don't, you hate me, I mean, I'm a fucking bitch. I come here and steal your boyfriend away whose supposed to love you. You guys are supposed to be together. god, I hate myself" crying. I'm not really sure how we did it but we just kind of made up. I explained to her how I was not mad at her at all or blamed her. After all, it's not her fault, Brent is the one who said everything he said to me to her too, Kamal didn't say it back. She was surprised that I was so happy. It is suc a weird feeling. Yesterday I was so vulnerable, anything could have made me cry. and I loved Brent so much, I would have done like anything to be with him. but now.. It's almost like..fuck it. I mean., think about it, he kind of qualifys fr an ass hole. He says to me how much he likes me and wants to be with me forever and then he says it to my best friend and he said to another girl too, do you know who that was? My sister. I mean c'mon, my FUCKING SISTER. My sister is bitchy prep. I don't know what the hells up with him. I mean, yes, I do still like him but if he wanted me back, I dunno, I don't know if I'd say okay. It really bothers me he did that. I don't really feel special or loved at all anymore. I want to just bitch him out so bad, but he is very suicidal, I don't know what he'd do and I still care for him. He is really a great guy.. AS A FRIEND.. but as a lover, he needs to straighten some things out. Ya know that song, Rocks Tonic Juice Magic by Saves The Day? Fucking go look up the lyrics, I've been listening to this song all day. I want to give it to Brent. It's just perfect for him. but alas.. I wont. My gosh.. I'm not really sure what to feel right now ya know? I've just kind of lost hope in people. You can't trust anyone. I mean man.. Brent.. the only person I thought really was.. just.. everything good and that I needed.. I don't even understand it.. is there anyone good out there? I really wish I knew if I should keep trying or not. The only reasons I'm really living is because of Kamal and honestly, I think my other friends would fuck up their lives without me. I'm only in it to help other people. Why can't I get anything out of it? I'm not gonna kill myself. There, I said it. I said it straight and it's typed so it will be one here if anyone ever needs proof. I want y'all to believe me, I am going to live my life out okay?!!! Just fucking believe me and stop telling me to live, if you keep telling me than maybe I just wont listen one day. Kamal said if I killed myself she would get so fucked up. She said she would come to my house and bitch my mom out for hours and when she was kicked out of my house, she'd bang on the door and keep yelling. I love her to death. I am jealous of Kamal alot, but whenever I'm jealous I just make myself resist it or whatever. I'll look at her and think "I wish I was her..man.." then I'll just make myself shut up and be grateful that I have such a good friend as her. I do get jealous but I do try to ignore it,
I think I do fairly well most of the time. Anyway, maybe I'll write more later but I'm in a very nice conversation with my friend's father at the moment so farewell... I feel happy..I think..this is so weird..

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kate

:: 2002 5 July :: 2.55am
:: Mood: im so much fucking pain

anger
I just don't get it. I am in so much damn pain. I hate this, I can't even handle it. I hate it so much. He said he loved me. He fucking said I love you Kate. and when I finally realzed I love him back and I tell him, he leaves me. He said I was everything to him. Then he said we should be friends and get close then try again. Now he acts like nothing happened. I don't think he likes me anymore, I don't think he likes me anymore.. like that. I know he likes her. I know he does. I don't use it against him and I wont but I can't handle this. Picture this, The man I love who used to love me but no longer does, and stopped in a matter of like, a day, now likes my best friend MORE than me. Do you know how much that is fucking killing me? I know it's not her fault, I don't blame her, I love her, it's just so annoying that she is so much better than me at like..everything. Yes, I'm just sulking..err.. complaining..err.. whatever. I hate this. I hate alot of things. I don't even get it sometimes. I don't like asking why so I don't alot. You say I shouldn't question myself so I try not to, but even the effort isn't really working. ARrrrr... sometimes I just wanna say I hate you to her, but I don't hate her, I just ... I want to scream. I want to explode. I need to do something. just, SOMETHING. god, please help me. I need help or something. I can't just sit here and cry anymore but I don't know what to do. What the HELL do I FUCKING do? He said " it's just, we never talk. Sometimes I'll try to start a conversation and you just say like 2 words, it really hurts me." he also has said "sometimes I feel like you hate me" I hate myself so much. I want to fucking die or something. Without him I don't know what I'm gonna fucking do. I just want him back. I want him to love me so much. Just like he used to. He used to say he was gonna spend the rest of his life with me. Why does it have to be over. I just want him to love me or I want to die. bye.. but not good.

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kate

:: 2002 30 March :: 2.39am
:: Mood: ...
:: Music: silence...no music...

"laugh and the world laughs with you. Cry and the world laughs harder."

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