Caffine ...fuck it...i need it....
Okay, this is getting fucking ridiculous. I got at least like....6.5 hours of sleep last night...I should be awake. Im normally more awake than this on about 3 or 4. >< Oh well.

Whatever.

I started crying this morning.....
I heard an ambulance siren.....
It made me cry...
I couldnt help it....
God this sucks....

Im kinda sitting here in gov't now...trying to think of something to write about....
This room if fucking distracting....
Angie's dressed as Mr. Miller. the damn Jew...~_~; Its kinda wierd.

Anyways....

God....my mind is so not working today.
I had to escort Michelle to class today. Micheal isnt talking to her...asshole....and justin was all...yeah...upsetting her. my poor little pet...Its okay.

Mrr...
Im gonna pass out now....

bye bye

Oh...
and
Tucker....
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!


^^; Pass out time


**Edited**

dont you see me...trying to ride out this hurricane?
I will never tell you
I'd rather sew up my mouth
I'd choke sooner than ever say it out loud
Figure it out
I still wish you were here

I am breaking down from breaking in
Give me the wings to fly
Don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane?

It's impossible for what's left of this to be saved
And it's sinking in that my being here's a mistake
Erase
Forget I was here

I am breaking down from breaking in
Give me the wings to fly
Don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane?

Don't you see me trying?
I'm slit now I'm sliding
Floating, flying
I'm ready for my fade
I will wait for you here
because you are all I know
in this hurricane

Don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane?
Don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane?

I hate this...
I want to hurt someone. This is so unfair. Miss. Marsha is walking around claiming that my baby ran a stop sign...we stopped at the fucking sign...they were doing over 55...they were fucking speeding. Theres no way in hell they could have totaled his car if they weren't. This isnt fair.
The bitch says they arent pressing charges though...lets see if she holds that. her and her little neckbrace....taking up all the sympathy and pity she can get. Stupid bitch.


My beloved is fucking innocent. That god damned trooper...its all his fucking fault.

What a weekend...
God Im tired. Had a very exciting weekend. The homecoming dance was fun. I looked really cool. (will post pics sometime later...) Got to be with my beloved. It was happy indeed. Only one major bad part, but I really dont want to talk about that...
In any case, Im back at school...tired as hell....and really really missing my Tucker...

I love you darling...god I miss you so much...

So much paint! So many Spiders!
You know, living in a farmhouse sucks so bad. Its getting cooler now around here and as per always the wolf spiders are returning to roam the house. There's nothing we can do about them either. Why does this suck so you ask? Well let me tell you. Their favorite place to live...the one room that stays warm 24/7/365 ...the bathroom. In the winter time, my fucking bathtub is no longer a bathtub. Its magically transformed into....the spider tub. Every morning when I wake up to take a shower there is like...5 gynormous wolf spiders sitting there to greet me. It fucking sucks.

In any case...on a lighter note, my day went fairly well.

Got to sleep in a bit. Mom took me to school this morning. We talked to Mr. Ryder about my referral(Its not even going on file! Oh yeah!!) paid for my yearbook and the congratulatory ad, and gave me a check for Jostens people(I ordered my senior stuff at lunch...yay). Actually held a decent conversation with Sherry...yeah...the one Ive had so many clashes with. She's actually pretty cool, save for a few bad habits.
Yeah...other than that school was basically uneventful...O_o;
Um, tuck picked me up and we went to McDonalds for lunch...I got 2 happy meals!! ^^ I love Hello Kitty! After that we headed back to my house and after about 45 minutes of chillin on my sofa playing and stuff we started to paint the room. Got primer in the corners that have to be redone...joyus...>> After dinner he had to head home cause he wasnt feeling good. I went back to painting and got the corners painted red again, as well as some of the edges and stuff. Then decided to take a shower and now...here I am.

Wow....
Did that make sense?
Do I ever make sense anyway?

Oh yeah! HOMECOMING TOMORROW!!! Weee!

Mrrnes...Imma gonna go talk to Jess and Star now...