bathtub gin

:: 2004 11 November :: 10.04pm

I love you.

Always and forever and a day.

Love is perfect.

:: 2004 9 November :: 11.49pm

it sucks when 17 out of 85 of your buddies are on line and you honestly have no desire to talk to any of them...poop.

:: 2004 9 November :: 4.00pm

I want to quit my job, that would make my life a lot easier! but then where would the money come from? i have to pay for gas...and college! i just need to get a full scolarship and win the lottery...that will solve all my problems. (or so i'd like to believe)

:: 2004 9 November :: 3.52pm

Death is the first dancing turtle...

4 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 9 November :: 11.27am

Hey.

I stayed home from school today.

Sorry.

I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted.

I needed a break.

So here I am. I can't go anywhere, even once school gets out.

I like this break though.

I love you all and I'll see you on the morrow.

P.S. Plus I'm happier than anything because right now I'm missing Physics Concepts. w00t!

6 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 8 November :: 9.48pm

Happy birthday for the bajillionth time, lover. I hope it was nice and you and Nick have a fun Halo 2 time.

Kyle found this. I don't know where or how.

I love you all.

4 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 8 November :: 9.20pm

I'm sorry.

:: 2004 7 November :: 1.20am

My sexy desktop yo.

Loves.

:: 2004 6 November :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: it's debatable
:: Music: Everything Will Be Alright by The Killers

Dreaming 'bout those dreamy eyes
So got accepted to Aquinas.

Tomorrow looks like college application day for me. Yay.

73h 3nd.

I love you all.

2 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 6 November :: 5.55pm

I'll show you overdramatic.

sandatthebeach

:: 2004 6 November :: 4.34pm
:: Mood: cranky

I love Rock 'n' Roll
Hey look I'm finally here. Hoorah.

I've been preoccupied so apologies for the lack of update.

Saw Molly Sleeps and some weird band last night. They were....yeah. Molly Sleeps was, of course, rockin' awesome.

Alright, I'm gonna come off and say this. I'm PMS-ey so I don't give a fuck. The egos need to stop now. They're fucking pissing me off. Theatre's no longer fun because everyone's trying to out-do everyone else. Why do you think I cared so little about Dracula. Oh I know, because maybe everyone single in the cast was so egotistical. Every single person. I lost respect for nearly half the people in the cast. Everyone but Kenny, Reid, Zak, Steph and Vlada. I've come to respect them a lot more because they were so humble. Everyone else is just so urgh. Everyone is so goddamn egotistical. And it really sucks because everyone there is going to do the musical and it's gonna be hell trying to work with people who think they're the best thing out there. But what can I do? Not a whole lot other than to suck it up. By the way, people need to learn to do that too. Just suck it up and move on. I'm so sick and tired of this. Choir pisses me off too because it's so freakin segretated: the egotistical theatre freaks and everyone else. The theatre freaks consisting of about a whole 2 people and everyone who follows them. Just gr...ok?

I'm sorry for my venting, but I haven't' vented in long time and I really needed to. People just need to get off their high chairs and come back to reality. YOU'RE NOT THE FUCKING BEST OUT THERE SO STOP THINKING THAT YOU ARE!

Sorry. But I know more than half the school agrees with me here.

Always, Sandy

:: 2004 6 November :: 2.37pm
:: Music: Panda Panda Panda by Deerhoof

Tell me what you think
You know what's an awesome song? Panda Panda Panda by Deerhoof. Here it is live. That's pretty very good quality and not different from the actual song minus the live vibe to it and it's not quite as strong.

Download it. Download and tell me what you think.

I'm going to have this song stuck in my head forever.

I love you all.

8 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 6 November :: 12.27pm
:: Music: TSO

I'm taking the ACT on December 11th again. I'll do better than last time.

I'm going to visit Aquinas on the 19th. That's not this Friday but the next. You all should sign up to visit too. You get to miss school, sleep in for an hour or so and get a free lunch. Come with me pleases.

My parents are away at some football game all day.

They bought the new Trans-Siberian Orchestra CD last night.

TSO always makes me want snow tens times more than I already want it. That's like a bajillion times of wanting.

They have a lot of piano on this CD compared to their other ones.

I cannot wait until the concert. We're going this year again like we have since we discovered TSO. December 19th. I cannot wait.

I think that's it.

Oh yeah. Mogwai, Explosions in the Sky, Broken Social Scene and Namelessnumberheadman all rock hard. I love indie rock bands. Mogwai is especially awesome.

Right.

I love you all.

6 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 5 November :: 11.23pm
:: Music: Explosions in the Sky

Things you might not know
I'm really bored.

I can't understand why anyone would want to come back to high school or have these four years be the best of their entire life.

I have a hard time talking to Brett Bretterson on the phone.

I dislike the fact that some people thought I broke up with Ben.

I hate people.

Sometimes I can't help but get involved.

Even though you say it's none of my business, I always feel better when I tell the person what's up.

I can't remember when I remembered my last dream.

I hate the dreams in which I can't talk. I feel so helpless.

I can get out of dreams and wake up if I try.

There was a period of time not too long ago when I was getting maybe two hours of sleep a night because I thought that there was someone in the house or just couldn't sleep.

I survive best on three hours of sleep. Four makes me feel exhausted and I usually get five.

I almost cried at school today.

I can read people.

I don't mention things that I feel shouldn't be mentioned.

I'm lonely even when I'm not alone.

I love to be by myself but sometimes I need a hug or a shoulder to cry on or just someone to cuddle with.

My throat hurts.

:: 2004 5 November :: 9.22pm
:: Music: Midnight Show by The Killers

Drive faster, boy
Just got back from the play.

It was good and funny. Wish I could've sat by Ben and Kelly but that was a brain slip-up on my part.

Saw Mr. Hess. Had a convo with Kelly beforehand that left me feeling old.

I've been tired since forever.

I need to stop.

I love you all.

P.S.
So take your suitcase, cuz I don't mind
And baby doll, I meant it every time
You don't need to compromise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew
I never knew
But it's alright...

Everything will be alright...

:: 2004 5 November :: 5.00pm

(I like The Killers)
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss...
I just can't look, its killing me and taking control. Jealousy: turning saints into the sea, swimming through sick lullabies, choking on your alibis but it's just the price I pay. Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes, I'm Mr. Brightside.

:: 2004 5 November :: 4.03pm
:: Music: Completely Miserable by Lit

I love the things that we should fear
All castles made of sand fall into the sea eventually.

5 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 5 November :: 3.28pm

PA on Killzone (that "Halo Killer")
I was there when they announced it as well, and it seemed at the time like a good vessel for the hopes of that system. But Halo Killer? Be serious. There's only one Halo killer, and I'll tell you this much: it's not on the PS2.

The nicest thing you can say about Killzone is that it flies real good when you throw it.

:: 2004 5 November :: 6.14am

So today I have 6 pages for AP Lit due.

And I'd turn them in if I had more than 2 done.

But last night as I finished my second page and thought about what I had written, I fell asleep.

And I woke up with my alarm as usual.

Tons of points down the drain.

I am not going to slack off again. I've said that a thousand times and I never don't procrastinate.

I'd stay home and finish it if I wasn't going to the play tonight.

Ug. I feel so bad about not finishing it. I can't believe I fell asleep.

I love you all.

10 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 4 November :: 6.13am

All we are: our own connections.

:: 2004 3 November :: 11.52pm

Cheryl is a butt! I REALLY dont want to work on friday!!!!!!!!!! and i have to work on thursday when we have no school which also sucks, but im working with patrice that will be cool and interseting

Kathryn is awesome i love kathryn i tell her all my problems and she makes everything seem so simple, and i like it i stop freaking out its crazy i need to talk to kathryn a lot more.! thanks kathryn...even though your not reading this...humpty dumpty

sweetyas

:: 2004 3 November :: 11.30pm
:: Music: Eminem

Nada
I havent updated in a while, sorry. There really hasnt been much in my life. Such a boring life i lead. I'm screwed for school. thats always a plus. So i still hate my dad. Oh i have a story to tell, i know excitment.

So my dad comes home right and he and my mom are just being asses right, and i say something like yea whatever. And my dad turns around and says a religious quote "if you even say hmmm (the evil one) to your parents then you'll go to hell" and hten he continued to say "even an evil look can get you to hell" So i stood there and i was like really just wanna ask him why should i try, why is it thta everything in religion has to be so negative, why is it if you do this you'll go to hell, why can't it be like live a good life and go to heaven. I think i lost my faith. I truely do. Im so confused. I love my religion in its purest form, i believe it. But people like my father make it poop. Islam is such a beautiful religion, you can tell by the name (it means peace) but shit heads like my dad find ways to make this religion so difficult. You do this you go to hell. You don't do this you go to hell. You never go to heaven, just hell. Arg. I don't want to go to hell, i dont want to go to limbo, i want to go to heaven. I really do try. i ended the whole patrick thing cuz you know what i htought it was morally wrong. i dont know i hate this stupid religion what not, i do prefer if the world was filled with clones, i like to know all the facts. ARG. I dont like this.

Au revoir, je sais ce n'est pas tr�s interassante mais il est important a moi. La vie est tr�s difficle mais VIVE.

Yasamin

:: 2004 3 November :: 11.19pm

big fat ugly dilemma...shit

Toki

:: 2004 3 November :: 10.04pm

Funny times
SneakySeaMonkey (8:25:05 PM): why are some guys so...urgh?
personofthasun00 (8:25:11 PM): well ya see
personofthasun00 (8:25:26 PM): it all started when we 'guys' decided to be complete jerks
personofthasun00 (8:25:31 PM): it was at this convention that we had
personofthasun00 (8:25:34 PM): in jersey
personofthasun00 (8:25:49 PM): and their were delagates from all over the world
SneakySeaMonkey (8:25:55 PM): were u there?
personofthasun00 (8:26:51 PM): and they decided from then on all guys would be ugh
SneakySeaMonkey (8:27:10 PM): well you should have another meeting
personofthasun00 (8:27:12 PM): no it was way before my time
SneakySeaMonkey (8:27:15 PM): tell them theyre wrong
SneakySeaMonkey (8:27:17 PM): oo ok
personofthasun00 (8:28:42 PM): its not up to me
SneakySeaMonkey (8:29:29 PM): :-P
____________
Haha. Thanks to Hul..the world makes sense

:: 2004 3 November :: 9.58pm

Penny Arcade/Gabe says:
Also check out our Halo 2 ads. It's funny because we talked to Bungie about it months ago and originally they wanted the ads to say "Remember that shitty game Halo? Well this is the Sequel." We thought that was fucking awesome but unfortunately the Microsoft PR machine didn't agree and so we ended up with pretty standard Halo 2 ads. I'm still proud to be advertising it anyway. Tycho's played a lot more of it than I have but we both agree it's going to be a Halo killer.

9 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2004 3 November :: 6.20am

Canada or bust.

Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 2 November :: 11.50pm

Holy shit...
My stomach is twisting in all sorts of knots.
::Bangs head on the desk::

:: 2004 2 November :: 11.32am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Hold On by Jet

Nothing in the real world ever lives up to what you feel inside. You just find happiness where you can.

No school today. I've been lying in bed since 7. Wonderful.

My mom's at work/voting. I be home alone.

I love you all.

P.S. Somebody told me you had a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend that I had in February of last year.

P.P.S. I'm just a crosshair.

:: 2004 2 November :: 8.55am

i only haave 1 application left to send in...well that i know of at this point, if im forgetting any thats really bad but whatever, i tore a bunch up yesterday because i decided not to apply there anymore and save $70.

The second part of this entry is going to be blocked, sorry...

:: 2004 1 November :: 6.46pm

Death is the first Dancing Turtle
woo i got in more applications today, im good now. So i should do my genetics projct...i will, will dont worry blahhhhhhh. so new internet...i have to re-set all my favorites bleh. but hey one acts is going great today we decided on the shirts, and the order and tech stuff and its kinda cool im excited, so i think im going to work now, maybe ill update later. SO MUCH has happened since i last updated but thats cuz my internet was messed up but ill make it up and write stuff laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr bye bye now