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2004 11 December :: 6.02am
Here I am, awake (on a Saturday at the time I usually get up for school) to take a test I've already taken.
There's never a day so lovely as one that feels useless, like a waste of time and effort.
The only joys are that Kelly and Katie will be suffering with me (though they will not be at the same location as I), and it doesn't feel like it takes the four hours that it actually takes to finish the test.
I'm so tired of days that feel like the night.
I love you all.
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2004 10 December :: 7.50pm
Bet your bottom dollar on me.
I retake the ACT tomorrow morning. 8 am.
So far, everyone I've talked to who has retaken it has gotten a lower score the second time.
Joy.
Really, though, it won't hurt me any!
I'll be home around 1.
Tonight is movie night but my sister's gone so I'll just watch my favorite movie and go to bed early.
I love you all. Good luck to Katie and Kelly tomorrow.
P.S. I don't know if Andy is reading or already knows but the year on the date is messed up. I'm pretty sure it's not the year 104. I usually just change it.
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2004 10 December :: 8.08am
So here I am in French class "working on our project due on Monday".
I typed in Woohu to come here and be not bored. There was already someone sometime who had gone to Woohu on this computer. In fact, they'd gone to Ben's journal. Not kuso_dude, the other one.
It's cool how we all randomly run into each other or what we've done without even meaning to.
I'm going to go "work on my project".
I love you all.
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2004 9 December :: 9.54pm
Kelly...again.
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2004 9 December :: 9.02pm
This is for Kelly. A day late because I always miss the 8th.
It was the fearful night of December 8th
He was returning home from the studio late
He had perceptively known that it wouldn't be nice
Because in 1980 he paid the price
John Lennon died...
With a Smith & Wesson 38
John Lennon's life was no longer a debate
He should have stayed at home
He should have never cared
And the man who took his life declared
He said
"I just shot John Lennon"
He said
"I just shot John Lennon"
What a sad and sorry
And sickening sight
What a sad and sorry
And sickening night...
P.S. Journal layout changed.
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2004 9 December :: 6.04pm
Mono
Yesterday, after the attempted usurping of anime club, I went to Nick's.
It was really nice.
Today we were supposed to do our presentation in AP Lit but Mr. Watson rushed everyone and was wigging out. We still didn't have time to go so I guess we go tomorrow.
I finished my AP Lit King Lear study guide in two hours (minus a few questions I couldn't find the answers to). My brother has his choir concert tonight at 7:30 I think but we'll be leaving around 7. I still have Physics Concepts to do.
I went to bed early last night. 10:33.
I have a French project due Monday. A Physics Concepts test on Monday. A math test on Tuesday. Anime club on Wednesday. A scene read/act on Friday in AP Lit and 6 pages due.
And more stuff probably.
Nick's surgery is in less than a week and I must admit, I'm worried. He has his surgery on the 15th, Wednesday.
Please pray for him.
I love you all.
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2004 9 December :: 8.25am
:: Mood: Pooey
So yes. I'm here. At school. I should be home. And I could be at home. But my mom pulled the whole guilt thing when I asked to stay home today. So today better go by quickly. Just because I really don't feel like dealing with it.
You guys should all see In America. Good movie. I cried, but that's just me.
So yeah. Ryan called last night. And I wanted him to call. He calls everynight. But when he started to talk to me, I just died. I couldn't find anything to say to him. He was talking about being sick and his comic books and how much fun going to dinner was. I had a billion things I wanted to talk to him about. But he doesn't care. No one really does. Everytime I would try to tell him something, he would be distracted by something. So yeah. I gave up on talking to him. And eventually he left because he was tired and we weren't saying anything anyways. I'm fine listening to him go on about his day. I don't get bored with it. I don't know. It just feels like sometimes when I talk, he's not listening at all. Or he doesn't care. And it scares me right now that I'm freaking out about something like this. Because I know what's going to happen. He's going to get sick of my constant complaining about some event in my life. Whether it's family or friends or school. Then he'll get annoyed with my random bad moods. Then it'll be how I don't tell him when somethings bothering me. Then it'll be over. And this probably soudns so stupid to all of you reading this, but I don't care. I feel stupid right now. I don't know if I really am doing the right thing here. I really do like him. Alot. But am I doing the right thing by getting so close to him? I don't want to get uber close to someone only for them to realize how irrational I am and have them leave me. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I just walked away from this. But that's selfish of me. And I know that. I just don't want to get hurt, but by doing that I'd only hurt him. Which wouldn't be fair. I've realized that I have made myself so incredibly numb. To everything. Things that should affect me just make me shrug. It's not fair. I feel like I'm in a dream-state most of the time. That if I just close my eyes, that the world will go away. That I won't be there. That I wouldn't have to be a part of anyone's life. That I wouldn't run the risk of hurting more people. I just want to disappear. The thing is though, if I leave him, who will I have? Plus I'd miss him way too much. More then anyone knows. Even him. I don't want to be a burden on him or anyone else though. I don't know what to do.
He's not a jerk. This has nothing to do with him being a bad guy. It has to do with me.
My rant ends here. Or I'll piss people off. And that's bad
-Patrice
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2004 8 December :: 10.08pm
I love you.
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2004 8 December :: 7.55pm
Did you know that there are more plastic flamingos than real ones in the united states?
from the book of totally usless information
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2004 7 December :: 2.41pm
No homewok again, althogh i really should do my columbia essay im not exactly in the right mind set to do that now...so im writing.
So woohu changed a bit since i was last here! i like it. new users have to get a code from a current user now to join. which is what ujournal and livejournal and all them have.
So, im bored. I need to take my pictures today, sorry moore but they need to get dont today.
Once again i have nothing to do today. I wish chris would call me back about the concert, hes really pissing me off, im guessing we're not going anymore... :(
I need to buy photo paper
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2004 7 December :: 12.12pm
Wrote my paper. It was pretty easy. I need to stop procrastinating.
I'm doing alright. Once I get past today, I'll be less stressed.
I love you all.
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2004 6 December :: 10.10pm
Got yelled at by Watson today. Cried.
Wasn't feeling well. Cried.
Have a paper to write, will do it in the morning and cry.
Life is blah but I can change it if I want to.
Psych test tomorrow. ACT retake on Saturday. French project due Monday. Japanese presentation tomorrow.
I'm just blah.
I love you all.
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2004 7 December :: 8.52pm
:: Mood: Headachish
:: Music: kiss fm (jayz w/linkin park thats what i call good music)
TODAY
Today was shit, i was in such a bad mood cuz of my biology test. Let me be honest man i hate that class right now. But i mean how do you. expect me to act when i get four tests back in three classes, it wasnt pretty. So i sorta told susie that shes a horrible person adn she cant complain if she causes her own personal problems. She smokes, like half of our school, and she was complaining about her bf over smoking adn what not andi just got really mad and was like you know what susie you cant complain about him you smoke too, adn you cant complain about anything to do with him because you chose to go out with him. I feel really bad for saying it but i mean its true.
I think im too honest with some people and i guess thats a really bad thing. I mean people appreciate honesty but they hate you when you are honest wtih them. I mean its little things that peopel get mad about and im sorry but u get mad if i lie adn you get mad if im too honest people just really suck monkey butt.
Question du jour:
Should i go to college here in illinois (stay at home) or go to Purdu?
If i go here i have to stay at home, continue to live with my parents adn what not. I save a lot of money like about ten thousand dollars per year. But the girl at work told me i need to go to purdue because i need to find out who i am and i cant do that if i continue to live with my parents. Plus if i get to leave i get freedom. I need that, imagine my curfew will still be about ten o'clock when im in college. I dont want to be a townie. I dont want to be here next year but...i dont know. Its so confusing. GRRRR. Money vs. freedom. maybe. Family Vs. Freedom.
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2004 5 December :: 3.03pm
The two most common elements in the universe are hydrogen...and stupidity.
-Harlan Ellison
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2004 5 December :: 12.50pm
Last night, I went shopping with my parents.
The best part of the night was when we stopped at a restaurant to grab something small to eat.
My parents and I got deep into the college discussion. My mom said that since I have, with scholarships, paid about half of the tuition for Aquinas, I can go.
I am so happy about that.
I mentioned that I want to drive. I don't know what happened this past week (I hit my head or something) but I really want to drive.
So the plan is thus:
I turn 18 at the end of January. Until then, I'll practice driving. Once I get my license, my mom will teach me how to drive the bug. My father is going to leave Meijer sometime and work with his friend Pat. Pat will give him a company car and I'll get the bug.
I'll go to Aquinas next fall.
My mom said that she does not want me to work my way through college like she did. She worked two jobs, one until 4 and the other a half an hour later until 10 or 11.
Life is looking good.
And for the first time in my life, I cannot wait until I can drive.
However, today I have to write 6 pages and a paper that I really don't want to do.
Hannah and I are going to make a radio.
I love you all.
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2004 3 December :: 10.58pm
I want the thong and these.
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2004 3 December :: 4.35pm
GVSU was okay.
I like Aquinas a lot more.
I want to check out University of Dayton, the college my mom went to.
Apparently, the students had a choice of what to put in their little commons thing and they all wanted DDR.
I don't want to check UD out because I want to go there though. I just want to see where my mom went to school. It costs too much to even think about going there.
Anyway, GVSU was the school I wanted to go to for a while but now...
Meh. I don't really like it actually.
I love you all.
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2004 3 December :: 9.55am
Today I'm going with my mom to GVSU. Our thing is at 11 so I don't know what time we'll be leaving.
It is only supposed to last 2 hours so, realistically, I could have gone to school and then left when we had to go. I could also return to school afterwards.
Nope.
I'd have to leave third hour and today I had 6 pages and a paper due in second hour. I also had a French quiz first hour. Then if I returned to school, I'd only catch sixth (maybe the last bit of fifth) hour. The last hour of the day.
Plus I needed to catch up on some sleep and stop stressing out.
Life - school:
I went to see the play at Cedar last night. Nick was in two scenes, one right after the other, and he operated the trapdoor. w00t. It was a pretty okay production. I mean, I'm used to Rockford's plays and ours...
Nick doesn't go back to work until after New Year's Day. He has his surgery on the 15th, still.
It snowed last night. Not for very long but it came down pretty fast for a little bit.
Kelly and I have a mad French story in the works about an airplane and a mirror/ice cream.
I miss my Kittie Katie.
Um.
Yeah.
Katie and I need to get started on our prom dresses.
There's more but I can't think today. Or ever.
I love you all.
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2004 2 December :: 11.04pm
Nick said some kid who is in the play knows me as Angel Bob.
So.
Hi, kid, great play.
I love you all.
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2004 2 December :: 4.15pm
Kelly, here's a French slang dictionary. It has the definition for zapper there, my huge dictionary doesn't.
Zapper: ne pas s'attarder sur quelque chose, passer rapidement d'une chose à une autre.
To not linger on something, to pass/go/move quickly from one thing to another.
Yeah. So the song's name was "Laisse-moi zapper".
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2004 2 December :: 3.42pm
The sad/funny thing is, this was a very good show and Hannah and I still remember the chorus.
Blue streak, speeds by
Sonic the Hedgehog
Too fast for the naked eye
Sonic the Hedgehog
Sonic, he can really move
Sonic, he's got an attitude
Sonic, he's the fastest thing alive
Look out when he storms through
Sonic the Hedgehog
Don't doubt what he can do
Sonic the Hedgehog
Sonic, he can really move
Sonic, he's got an attitude
Sonic, he's the fastest thing alive
He's the fastest thing alive
He's the fastest thing alive
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2004 2 December :: 6.10am
Love is a choice.
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2004 1 December :: 6.43pm
All you need is love.
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2004 1 December :: 6.17am
My mom is thinking of getting another dog.
A not crazy stupid one though.
A papillon.
Heh, a butterfly.
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2004 29 November :: 9.13pm
:: Music: Love Will Keep Us Alive- The Eagles
So Mr. Mann talked about the difference between guys and girls today.
He said that girls have so many connections in their brains...they think of every possibility and every consequence to things...guys can only concentrate on one thing at a time. His impression of a guy's mind at work was "me watch tv. She talk to me, me look away from tv and listen. Tv still on. Me watch tv. Me get up and get chips now." it was so funny!
Then he gave the guys advice saying, if you take on thing away from this class, let this be it.
He said when a girl is talking and complaining about stuff like her mom or friends or something, all a guy should do is listen. He says every guys first response is to solve things for the girl like "well why dont you try talking to her?" but he said all a girl wants is someone to listen to them,they can solve things on their own. He said guys always look for an immediate solution to things but in this case, all they should say is "Hmm, I'm really sorry thats a tough situation." Or something along those lines. It was so funny... and amazingly pretty true.
Any guys out there....listen to that.
~Jackie
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2004 29 November :: 8.41pm
This is the kind of week that you revel in, with the potential for plenty of drama, mystery, magic and a big dollop of romance. Jupiter trines Neptune on Monday, and gives you a lot of ideas to play with. Now you can tap into the awesome power of imagination and use this to enhance your chances of reaching your goals. Mercury, the planet of commerce and communication turns retrograde on Tuesday in Sagittarius, which may well create delays regarding career issues. The weekend will be a barrel of laughs!
Bah!
So I was showing off my goregous bracelet all day today. People were like ohhh and ahhh and i was like hehe yup :D Thats MY Spency. giggle giggle.
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2004 29 November :: 9.29am
My computer isnt working so im not going to do anything. (Im in Architectual Drawing...blah) yeah so the program i need to use doesnt work right on this computer and the computer that it does work on won't let me log on, so im going to try and come early tomorrow because now im going to be behind. so anyway, Gilmore Girls is on tomorrow woo! Im going to jories house 2 night woo it wont be a super boring monday night. haha, last night we went to the mall to get a gumball it was so funny, yeah thats my story, i dont really feel like actually explaining anything right now just know that it was funny. hahaha. i should work on my comtemporary fiction project its due monday and i have a lot of work to do so i shall go now. bye bye <3 Jillian!
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2004 28 November :: 9.58pm
Blah blah blah
angst angst
blah blah blah blah
mention of current relationship
blah blah
This week is going to last forever.
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2004 28 November :: 7.33pm
Im knitting, nothing really to update about my life...bye
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2004 28 November :: 7.24pm
Me and Jesus (a few years back) used to hang and he said, "It's your choice, babe, just remember, I don't think you'll be back in 3 days time. So you choose well."
(I think I'm in denial. I think The Cranberries have broken up. Sigh.)
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