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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 28 November :: 4.46pm
:: Music: Window Display by Enon

I bought a window display and married her at once. I broke the remote control and she hasn't talked for months.
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die, it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive.

I love you all.

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Toki

:: 2004 27 November :: 2.13am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Gabbie's watchign Mean Girls

Oh Wow.
You know what I realized today? I don't even know what it was that I realized, but something clicked in my mind.

Off topic...but do you think I overdramatize things to make them seem worse then they are?


-Patrice

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angel_bob

:: 2004 27 November :: 12.44am

I love rain and all but rain kills snow.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 25 November :: 6.38pm

I wish I could always be with you.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 24 November :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Modest Mouse

I smurfing love snow!

I woke up today and stayed in bed for maybe half an hour because I was cold. Ben called and asked me to come over so I got out of bed.

We went to Blockbuster to get Goldeneye for xbox but they didn't have it so we hung out at his house and watched a movie.

Then it snowed! We went to grab Ben's paycheck at around 3 and it was fun.

Then we did something, I don't remember. Oh! We played with Legos! That was the most childish fun I've had in a while.

We called the other Blockbuster, the one down on Northland by Plainfield and they had the game so we once again ventured out into THE SNOW!!

It is so much fun.

We got Chinese food, finished up the movie and I cleaned up Ben's computer. Somehow it was 9 and my parents called to tell me to be home at 10, which I negotiated to 10:15.

The roads were plowed by that time so it wasn't as much fun but still.

Today was a lot of fun.

And I love snow!!

I love you all.

Winter is the king of showmen,
Turning tree stumps into snowmen
And houses into birthday cakes
And spreading sugar over lakes.
Smooth and clean and frosty white,
The world looks good enough to bite.
That's the season to be young,
Catching snowflakes on your tongue
Snow is snowy when it's snowing.
I'm sorry it's slushy when it's going.
- Ogden Nash

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angel_bob

:: 2004 23 November :: 9.25pm

I don't know anything.

At least not anything important.

I love you.

(No one really knows the ones they love
If you knew everything they thought
I bet that you'd wish that they'd just shut up)

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angel_bob

:: 2004 23 November :: 4.14pm

So in Amanda's car yesterday we were listening to this totally awesome indie music. The music was really cool to get into but the lyrics were awesome.

And I googled the one song that was stuck in my head.

Totally awesome indie music = Modest Mouse.

Song stuck in my head = Third Planet.

I love you all.

P.S. We are now on Thanksgiving break yo.

P.P.S. Kelly, the universe is shaped exactly like the earth. If you go straight long enough you'll end up where you were.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 23 November :: 6.13am

Last day of the week...

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 21 November :: 10.27pm

I have XBOX live
Yeah.

My gamertagthingy is AngelBob.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 21 November :: 11.53am
:: Mood: nostalgic

My journal is a whole lot of nothing.

A whole 1487 entries of nothing.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 20 November :: 11.01am

blah
Another thing I liked about Aquinas:

We walked by the radio station's room and over the very tinny, very small speaker they were playing a song by The Smiths.

+ 100 points.

It costs too much.

- 1 000 000 000 000 000 000 points.

I love you all.

martini?


angel_bob

:: 2004 19 November :: 11.52pm

I don't think I'll be going to Tom's tomorrow.

Sorry.

Halo 2 makes me ill if I play or watch people play. For a few days, I could play and feel okay. But I just got home from Ben's watching him and Nick play and I feel like I'm going to throw up so sorry but no.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 19 November :: 3.01pm

So. Aquinas.

Very beautiful campus.

The buildings are all old but not in a bad way, in a cute way. It very much reminds me of the Catholic school I went to in Illinois.

It's really small student-wise. 18 kids per class, about 300 something in the current freshman class. That's half of my senior class. We only saw maybe 30 kids and 18 of them were in a classroom we walked by.

The theatre is so cool. I had forgotten how much I loved acting. Their theatre is small and cute. The acoustics are fantastic. Our tour person was talking in her normal voice while my mom and I were across the theatre and we heard her perfectly. It reminds me a lot of the ancient Greek theatres. Kelly knows what I'm talking about.

I never knew how small dorms were! We stopped in a dorm room and it was tiny.

I should organize my thoughts. First we came in, got this huge folder full of stuff, socialized and the dean said some things. That was in the Wege Center.

Then we walked over to the Lacks and Jarecki Centers and sat in on three little information things. You could choose from athletics, campus life, school something, travel abroad, something, financial aid and their scholarship program. Some ran at different times but there were three blocks of time. We (my mom, my dad and I) went to the travel abroad thing, the financial aid thing and the campus life thing.

The travel abroad program sounds so awesome. I've always wanted out of here but it sounds even better now. You could go to Germany, France, Spain, Costa Rica, Ireland, Japan or some sister colleges somewhere in the US. And maybe some other places that I'm forgetting. I'd love to go to France and Japan. In Japan, you go to the Seikei University in Tokyo while in France you do something something.

The financial aid thing was boring and more for my parents' interest/need than mine. The guy who presented it was interesting though.

The campus life thing was nifty. I didn't know that they had so many things you could do, so many clubs. They have a café in the Carriage House called The Mouse. It's very quaint and very college-like.

After the information things, we could choose to go with certain groups on a tour: theatre, science, sports and something else. I was thinking of going on the science one but I absolutely love theatre so that won.

First we went to the dorms and that was cool.

Next we backtracked to the Carriage House and that was cool.

Then we went to the theatre and THAT WAS AWESOME.

After that, we went to the Academic Building and saw a classroom and walked my a class. The class we walked by was the Calculus class and the teacher was really cool.

We went to the library and then through a tunnel to the Wege Center to eat and see the little Corner Cafe thing they have.

Then there was food!

We went back upstairs to where we started to talk to the head of each department at the "round table discussion".

All in all, I think that I really want to go to Aquinas. Though I don't have much to compare it to so yeah.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 19 November :: 7.05am

So no school for me today. I'm going to Aquinas with me mum to check it out.

Free lunch. I got to sleep for an hour more and it ends at 2ish so I'll be home right around the normal time. It doesn't actually start until 9.

I'm missing a quiz in French and a test in Psychology.

w00ts

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 18 November :: 3.28pm

So I'm going to the TSO concert.

We're in Section 102. Row C.

Love you.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 17 November :: 10.05pm

I've been so tired lately.

Every day for about a week, I've been waking up at 4:20 exactly. Then I roll over and fall asleep.

I'm so tired though.

Today was our first anime club meeting without the president, Taco-san. He's in wrestling and won't be back until mid-February or March. It was kind of scary doing it all on my own but the kid who ran anime club last year showed up so it was all okay.

Minus the fact that Michelle/Punkin pie can get so annoying that I want to stab her.

Nothing else. Watched an interesting movie in Psychology. Went downtown for Rockford's open house Christmas thing with my mom and my sister.

Tired.

It's supposed to snow next week. I can't wait.

I love you all.

martini?


goose

:: 2004 16 November :: 11.45pm

Yo Yo YO!



psh! boo-ya!

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goose

:: 2004 16 November :: 11.27pm

I downloaded Enigma Variations...all 15 movements! hells yeah! and i got solitary shell! :D Im very happy, and i got my sound ques figured out, AND im going to finish them during lunch tomorrow! YESSSSSSSSSSSS!

martini?


Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 16 November :: 8.23pm

Jackie,
Your life patterns have reached a new stability and you feel good about what you've done with your situation. This isn't the time to cry over what has been lost. What is done is in the past tense and cannot be changed. Instead of looking back, it's now time to use your current strength to allow yourself to live fully in the present without looking too far ahead.


Wow my horoscopes have been pretty good lately! :)

Adios

martini?


angel_bob

:: 2004 16 November :: 6.28pm

Nothing happened today in school so I'll talk about yesterday.

Yesterday, Nick wanted to take me out on a "date". He said we would do anything I wanted to do and it was all up to me. He suggested a movie.

There weren't any movies I wanted to see but I wanted to go to the bookstore.

So we did.

It was nice. Really really nice.

Nick came over at some time and we hung out at my house until 6:30/7 then we went to the bookstore.

We were there forever. I got home at 9:45ish.

It was nice hanging out with him. It was really awesome. I really loved it.

It felt natural. Like I really belonged there. With Nick. Just hanging out and talking like it happened everyday.

I think my parents are warming up to him too. Before, they'd sort of be distant and standoffish. Apprehensive. But last night it seemed like they really liked him.

It's about time.

I love you all.

martini?


goose

:: 2004 15 November :: 11.07pm

guys really need to know the secrets to all girls...it would make life so much eaiser...if only someone would tell them...

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Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 15 November :: 10.45pm

Jackie,
Although you may not feel like a rock of stability, there is a powerful peace in knowing that you can be free enough from tradition to embrace your future. It may seem as if you are walking a tightrope between the new and the old, but you make it look so easy that others will respect the path you've taken. Take a deep breath, don't look down and keep moving forward.

martini?


goose

:: 2004 14 November :: 7.13pm

I dyed my hair neon purple today! It was so sweet, i wish my mom would let me do it permanantly, (it was temporary) damn! SOoooooooooo yeah the rest of the day was pretty much nothing then...i watched a few movies...took a nap...nothing yeah thats my storrrrrrrry!

martini?


angel_bob

:: 2004 14 November :: 2.42pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Mrs. Robinson/Needle in the Hay/These Days

Jesus loves you more than you will know
Not much going on in my life right now.

Friday was five months for Nick and me.

I need to do laundry.

I crave ramen.

That's it really.

It's really hot in my house right now. It's turning into winter outside. I can't wait until it snows.

I gave this kid in my Japanese class/Psychology class (Mike Hayataka) my cool scarf because I mentioned I had one like this girl was letting him wear. And because I felt like it. He asked me to burn him a techno CD with the panda song (Panda Panda Panda) on it but I don't have any techno songs so he's going to get indie music and like it.

I've realized via Ben that I listen to emo music. And I don't really care that much because all music could be "emo".

I can't remember what homework I have.

I don't care about math anymore. Ever since Mr. Hess left, I don't really try as much as I used to on my homework.

I'm going to try my hardest not to slack off.

Friday I'm going to Aquinas with my mommy. Day off of school, free lunch, get home early. On a Friday too.

I got something like a $7,500 scholarship to Aquinas. And my MEAP money.

Aquinas still costs too much.

I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow after school. I'm going to grow it out a little through winter and then cut it shorter come spring.

Can you believe that six months from now we graduate?

I love you all.

P.S.
You say you know what he did
But you idiot kid
You don't have a clue
Sometimes they just get caught in the eye
You're pulling him through

Needle in the hay

P.P.S.
I've been out walking
I don't do too much talking
These days, these days
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had the chance to

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goose

:: 2004 14 November :: 1.41am

GOOD DAY :)!
and i am now wrapped in a stolen blanket...mmm

martini?


sandatthebeach

:: 2004 13 November :: 4.39am

Global Personality Test Results
Stability (37%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness (60%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion (58%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
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goose

:: 2004 12 November :: 10.24pm

I feel like a 50's housewife today, its just the way im dressed, plus im wearing make up, but i had fun...kept me entertained for a few minutes.

So rehersal was fun today...we actully accomplished something and we had ice cream! :) YUM!

I wrote 2 new songs today...humpty dumpty

byeness! LOVE YA! Jillian <3

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angel_bob

:: 2004 12 November :: 4.20pm

My kind of game. Halo, yo.
Read more..

I have the Halo font. I made these with it.
Read more..


I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2004 12 November :: 3.23pm

Five months.

And I feel horrible.

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Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 12 November :: 2.22am

Jackie,
Events are happening in your life that signal the changes you've been anticipating. This is a time of spiritual and emotional renewal. You know that the ending is as important as the new beginning, and now you must be prepared to let go of that which is holding you back. Don't worry. You're not going to lose in the long run. You simply have to make room for what the currents are now carrying toward you.

Oh man... I was so just thinking about that today! Wooo for horoscopes!

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