:: 2005 27 February :: 9.03 pm

Thank you nikkie!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you forever

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1 you need me like a bad habbit | just go on and say it

:: 2005 27 February :: 8.00 pm
:: Mood: nostalgic

I wish that we didn't have emotions, and that everything could just be okay all the time. So that people didn't hurt, and we couldn't feel. Oh please make me numb, and make everything okay. Make all of these people go away, make all lifes problems into a neat little package, and throw them into the ocean, so i can watch them sink away, feeling nothing but emptyness and numbness forever. Make the sun come out, and the snow melt away. Oh sun, make everything better, let the summer weather shine on you and me, as we blossum into something like no other. Yea, we'll make them so jealous, we'll make them hate us...yes..they will hate us. I wan't to be hated, hated so much by people who have never ment anything to me. I am an emotional vampire...yes..a vampire. Let me suck you and leave you laying cold hearted on the ground. Let me rip out your heart and stomp on it untill you belive you made me hurt, until you belive you made me cry a thousand tears, that were meaningless to you. I can't belive a human being could be so cold. Could hurt me so much, and come back time to time so we could fuck. Yes it was meaningless, Yes it was stupid..but you don't no how good it felt when we were together and our bodys had such a perfect fit, everything we did was so perfect..i would do anything for you, and anything to satify your needs. Just the meaningless-ness of it was so perfect...i didn't care, those nights were so perfect, you were so perfect, we were so perfect...oh what i would give to lay next to you again, i dont care who nos it, cuz i no it...but i dont need you anymore..i gave you up a long time ago. I DONT NEED YOU ANYMORE..I NEVER DID..so fuck you

2 you need me like a bad habbit | just go on and say it

:: 2005 27 February :: 6.38 pm
:: Mood: amused

So..goodbye vacation, hello more school. I can't wait to see jimmy, even though i dont get to see him untill tuesday probably :(. I miss him, i dont usually miss people..actually i take that back, i do miss people. I feel like im growing attached to jimmy, or maybe i just like having someone to care about for once, and i like the feeling of having someone care about me back. So i get to see everyone at school tomorrow. PLUS i have a fuckin 3 hour detention..which is my 1st detention of the whole year..WOW..haha not that i havent skipped..just dont get caught..cuz im that good :o)

AH one more day :o)..i can't belive i havent seen him in a week..its gunna be so weird.

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:: 2005 25 February :: 10.37 am
:: Mood: blah

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:: 2005 24 February :: 11.10 pm
:: Mood: tired

Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds

=LSD , haha i never knew that. Thats awesome.
So today i went into boston with kt and kelsey :o). We had fun haha. I bought a bead at the hempest, and it has a purple mushroom in it, so im gunna make a pretty neckless <3. So today turned out to be pretty fun.

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:: 2005 24 February :: 12.30 pm
:: Mood: excited

So last night i went out to dinner at Bertuchi's in Framingham. I went with my parents, and my sister and her friend Lindsey. Then we went to BJ's and i got my new digital camera :o) im so excited. Its so pretty. It was alot of money, and i had to buy it myself, so im going to make sure i take good care of it.

So vacation is half-way over, i haven't really done anything that exciting. Me Katie and Kelc went for a walk tuesday night in the snowyness. Which unfortunately, kelsey dropped baby and smashed it.

R.I.P Baby, you will never be forgotten.

Todays payday, hopefully we will find something fun and unusual to do with our money..i doubt it though.

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:: 2005 20 February :: 7.37 pm

for some strange reason i feel like my head is going to explode. all of this bull shit...stupid shit that builds up into one big fucking bullshit..AH. i dunno whats wrong with me but i need a way to channel my anger into ...something useful that doesn't make me an emotional bitch.

i like jimmy alot..i dunno why i make such a big deal out of things like this...something must be wrong with my head or something. i feel bad...yet i have nothing to say..i just cant have a realtionship with someone who actually treats me good..its just the way i am, and i cant change..so from now on..i will not let emotions over take me..im just gunna act like everything is perfectly fine..cuz im sure it will make everything just that much better for everyone else.

my room makes me mad..im in here alot..doing the same things..everyday..like this whole fucking life is one big movie..and it keeps fucking repeating itself..day after day after day..wow i dunno im just in such a bad mood AND my fucking cd keeps fucking skipping~!

..someone shoot me please?

1 you need me like a bad habbit | just go on and say it

:: 2005 20 February :: 10.37 am
:: Mood: like no other

well its vacation again..jimmys going to S.Carolina :( n hes leaving on monday. Im sure this vacation will suck..but life goes on, just like everything else.




...summer will be here before we know it.

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:: 2005 17 February :: 7.00 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: little sister - queens of the stone age

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:: 2005 16 February :: 4.14 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: stairway to heaven - led zeppelin

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