you no its so weird to look at your screen name now?..just to think how mush i dont kno you anymore, and how different my life is now compared to when i was happy. It was like i had everything i needed..but it was only one person, and now its like i lost everything..when i lost him..people think im like insane cuz i think like everyone is against me..but they are..you will see when it happens to you..when someone breaks your heart..i no it happens to everyone and then you meet someone else and everything okay, they just make u forget about ur past...but you no..it comes back and then ur like.. why should i ever trust another guy again, so then u change ur mind...
and i just feel like..mindless everyday..like the days just go by..and im there and people notice...but to me im not here..and its just like the same thing every god damn day..and im just there..and if i wasnt..nobody would care. someday were all gunna die ...u no like whats after life..does everything just go black..like ur mindless..and blind to the world.

w.e...

shouldnt i be happy right now?...i've been waiting for this for a while..and now i have it, and its like..people just have to make me feel so low. God i wish people would just mind their own business...but you kno what..im not gunna listen to what they say cuz im happy so fuck then..odviously their pretty unhappy with themselves to make me feel like absolute shit..i just hope he doesnt listen to them either...ick



So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D


"You're so special, you're the one
Oh I can't help the way I'm feeling
Cause I know that baby you're the one."
* your the one - Guerilla-Black and mario

it was an honest mistake..

It happens
in an instant
I'll be sitting or standing
or walking
or talking.
I'll be thinking about something,
anything,
nothing at all.
But then,
there you will be,
racing through,
my mind,
making my heart race.
The very thought of you,
in an instant,
makes me glow.



..so today was a half day..wasnt that interusting..
<3 u ;)

SNOW DAY!!!

Well today was a snow day :) lol i was so excieted...and mike owes me $50 cuz we made a bet haha.

So today me katie and taylor walked ...get this...all the way from my house to walnut hill...you have no idea how tired i was lol. So we went there and met colleen and katie, and greg was there too. So we had mad fun sledding lol then me katie and taylor walked back to gregs house with him to de-frost. Then dave came over and we all sat in his room and were being random. Then i went us stairs..and i got a cup of cold water..and we put one of thoughs small pill looking things in..and it changed into a random object..lol but then i came down with the cold water and they were like um it needs hot water lol...so i went back up and got hot water and we watched it form its shape...i dont actually no if it changed cuz we eventully went up stairs and played video games lol. Then gregs mom spazzes...to make a long storie short haha..so we went out in the cold again to walk to pizza plus..where we got a large pizza and spicey fries <3333 yum lol then my mom picked me and katie up and took us home. So thats my story...and now im nice and warm :)


..for anyone who feels like wasting their time reading it..

-meg

getting ready =D
x all the things that apply..

Have you ever...
[x] been drunk.
[x]smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
[x] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] made out with a stranger.
[ ] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[x] cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had a quinceanera.
[ ] had a car.
[x] drove

Do you...
[ ] have a boyfriend.
[ ] have a girlfriend.
[x] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[ ] think your attractive
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to jazz
[ ] listen to classical and/or opera
[ ] listen to showtunes
[ ] listen to soul.
[x] listen to techno
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than one best friend.
[x] get good grades
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers.
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color yellow.
[x] like the color purple.
[ ] like the color pink.
[ ] cyber.
[ ] claim.
[x ] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

Are you...
[ ] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[x] ok.
[ ] bored.
[x] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[ ] short.
[ ] tall.
[x] medium height.
[ ] grounded.
[x] sick.
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.
[ ] not looking.
[ ] don't care.
[x] talking to someone.
[X] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic
[ ] depressed

happy 2005 everyone <3



there's a game life plays
makes you think you're everything
they ever said you were
like to take some time
clear away everything I've planned
was it life I've betrayed
for the shape that I'm in
it's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much
could I dissapear
and there's nothing that's left
but wasted tears

Im so excited lol..party time :) say goodbye to 2004 fuckerzz <3